I have spent years agonizing over my weight and trying to get my emotions under control. I had to reach far back to my childhood to understand why I didn't care about myself and my body. I had to do a review of my family to understand the silent pecking order that exhists in many families and a few months ago. I kept stating to my husband that my life was going to change in approximately 6 month and I didn't know how but something whether good or bad was going to happen and a major change would ensue. Well my Father who I haven't seen in numerous years passed away just at that 6 month mark and life has divinely changed. All the work i was doing emotionally over the last 20 years culminated in the release of his death. I feel he is there helping me to move toward really knowing myself and my body for the first time in my life. It's time to let go, let God, and let myself back in as i release the pain.