Pacoltmaki's Weight Loss Diary
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Pacoltmaki
(Pac)
Thanks, LaMaria!Here´s another hug. If it only happens once every 4 months it´s not going to mess you up.
I'll try to keep the frequency low.
DGraves
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I read your story, very cool that you decided to share it. I had a complicated relationship with the scales, and I was literally depressed when I looked at these numbers. Someone here wrote that it's better to pay attention to body volume because our weight is both fats, water, and muscles. It's interesting to read about your experience.
Pacoltmaki
(Pac)
Hi, thanks for taking the time and reading my story! Scales can be like a drug for me, luckily this time I only measure my weight once a day and not 120 times a day like I used to.. The daily ups and downs are quite upsetting, but one should focus on the weekly/monthly achievements I suppose.
Pacoltmaki
(Pac)
74.3kg. Stuck. In weight and mentally. I'm back at the phase when I know what I want to achieve, I know how to do it but don't do it anyway. I decide to count calories but then I don't do it. Decide to go running, do the strength workouts, but then don't do it. Decide to declutter the drawers (for about a week now, every single day) but don't do it. I can't even say why. I just don't these things. I then try to find the motivation I had earlier but don't even know where to look for it. So, it's another morning, another day of hope, it's my decision to turn things around. I would put here the flex emoji if I could.
So what do I want? Go down to 71-72 kg by Christmas. I calculated that by losing 0.5kg a week (which seems a good pace) I still could reach my ultimate goal by the summer holiday. My decision. Find the switch! It's in my head.
So what do I want? Go down to 71-72 kg by Christmas. I calculated that by losing 0.5kg a week (which seems a good pace) I still could reach my ultimate goal by the summer holiday. My decision. Find the switch! It's in my head.
Pacoltmaki
(Pac)
I'll definitely let you know!When you find it, Pac please let me know. I know what to do too, it’s the doing it that is hard!
doing IS hard, and it's really frustrating that it is.
Pacoltmaki
(Pac)
That's a good approach, I'll try to implement it.
wanting to get everything done at one go, it's really hard to break down things to smaller tasks/time periods, but I'm working on that.
Pacoltmaki
(Pac)
In our city, things are quite normal, kids go to school, people go around and about, masks in shops but otherwise quite normal. School life for primary has been pre-Covid like, apart from parents not being allowed in the school building, at least the kids had a normal-like life. Now yesterday evening we got an extensive letter about changes: the same as in June when after March-lockdown schools reopened, meaning a class is an immune-group, miving about freely among each other but not having any contact with other classes. No masks, different arrival and leaving, different break times, designated areas on the playground. Since we already know this, it's less scary. So that was yesterday evening, today being the 1st day of implementation. Then, today at around 3pm a decision has been made about a full lockdown. No school from next Monday till 10th January (and then who knows). Upon the news I quickly started to declutter the house and although have not yet finished, I did quite a bit.
Pacoltmaki
(Pac)
So so true! An example in household chores: I have let's say 30 minutes, I would be able to clean the kitchen. But I never clean the kitchen alone, I always have to clean the whole apartment. So I am frustrated, want the kitchen to be clean but just can't do it, because I would have to deep clean everything. So I end up being frustrated about the kitchen and not doing anything at all. I'm getting better though, sometimes I manage to just do one small thing at a time.
Wow, that must've been a shock! I hope you can keep going outside with the kids and keep stress levels manageable.
Pacoltmaki
(Pac)
Luckily our apartment building is literally next to the woods, we don't have to meet anyone on the way. It's also good for the kids to get along with each other (no choice)
Pacoltmaki
(Pac)
74.0kg. Getting back. I must hit the 73s now, being in the 74s is a bit too long.
Foodwise I'm not doing too well, I did buy broccoli and cauliflower and fish but was too lazy(?) to spend about 10mins on steaming/stir-frying/cooking anything for myself. So I ended up munching on the crisp ryebread and tuna and tomato the whole day. Managed to drink a lot a water.
Anpther thing: I always, without exception, wake up in the middle of the night and can't go back to sleep sometimes as long as for 2 hours. Then I fall back asleep and have these crazy, detailed, colorful, noisy dreams where you wake up dizzy with all the images and happenings in your head. That needs to be improved.
Today I'll need to go to the city center to get some Christmas presents before all shops close down, and that first thing in the morning to avoid crowds. I'll go on with the decluttering, I managed to get rid of quite a lot of things already.
Foodwise I'm not doing too well, I did buy broccoli and cauliflower and fish but was too lazy(?) to spend about 10mins on steaming/stir-frying/cooking anything for myself. So I ended up munching on the crisp ryebread and tuna and tomato the whole day. Managed to drink a lot a water.
Anpther thing: I always, without exception, wake up in the middle of the night and can't go back to sleep sometimes as long as for 2 hours. Then I fall back asleep and have these crazy, detailed, colorful, noisy dreams where you wake up dizzy with all the images and happenings in your head. That needs to be improved.
Today I'll need to go to the city center to get some Christmas presents before all shops close down, and that first thing in the morning to avoid crowds. I'll go on with the decluttering, I managed to get rid of quite a lot of things already.
Pacoltmaki
(Pac)
They are healthy but also not too varied if I keep eating that only
. I used to have the exact same nightmare towards the end of my teens into my twenties, the type when you can't move and you keep falling into nothing, but after a while I managed to keep my brain somehow conscious about this being only a dream and developed a technique to wake myself up: I had to focus on one finger and try to move it. That woke me up. After awhile I discovered that the nightmare always occured at my afternoon nap right after a coffee. Love dreams otherwise, such an interesting place to be (when it's not a nightmare of course)!
Pacoltmaki
(Pac)
73.9kg. Crawling down! Now the target is to stay in the 73s and not go back to 74kg. I went to buy some things in the city center, only the ones that I already wanted to and knew where to find them. With no Christmas market and grey sky and rain... Didn't feel like happily shopping. The mask makes it very uncomfortable, so I rather returned home. Went to a friend's place for brunch: she made a meal made of potato, bread, sugar, wheat flour, breadcrumbs... Everything I don't eat.. I ate a little of the food and then had the food coma I've not felt for months. Even with just a small amount of this kind of food my eyelids were closing and then my stomach remained bloated the whole day.
Didn't manage to continue with the decluttering, will do it today.
I'll eat eggs, broccoli, cauliflower and chicken breast today. For dinner I'll have a salad with vinaigrette.
Apart from 1 very short wake up (a few seconds registering the time) I slept through the night, no crazy dreams.
Didn't manage to continue with the decluttering, will do it today.
I'll eat eggs, broccoli, cauliflower and chicken breast today. For dinner I'll have a salad with vinaigrette.
Apart from 1 very short wake up (a few seconds registering the time) I slept through the night, no crazy dreams.
I reliably get bad nightmares when I'm dehydrated and sleep on my back. And very intense dreams when I overeat on sweets. So weird what can trigger our bodies!
Crawling or not: the scale is moving in the right direction. And the post-carb food coma was probably a good reminder of why you no longer want to eat like that regardless of weight.
Crawling or not: the scale is moving in the right direction. And the post-carb food coma was probably a good reminder of why you no longer want to eat like that regardless of weight.