Pacoltmaki's Weight Loss Diary

Running & enjoying it is a win/win. You'll see that 73.something soon I'm sure.
For the past 3 days I wake up with happiness and determination and it stays with me! Throughout the day! I have not cried for 3 days. I have not had dark thoughts. I even laughed. Now if that is not motivating, what is? I can't ever go back to where I was for so long.
An even bigger bonus :grouphug:
 
74.1kg. Although I wanted to see my weight go under 74, I'm happy. It's definitely going downwards. Strange thing is, I only lost 3kg since the beginning of November, but looks like I lost twice as much. Also my husband's opinion. Maybe because when I used to lose that many kgs it was only water weight whereas now it's really losing fat? Or because what I saw in the mirror was not a real picture of me but one distorted by depression and selfhate? I was planning on losing another 15kg but I don't now think that I need to lose that many.
Anyway, today I'm going for a walk although I'm very very tempted to go running. I keep saying that I'm going to start strength training but still haven't. I managed to do all the other plans, I eat well, run 3-4 times a week now, I only have to get myself to do 30mins of strength workout . I don't know what is holding me back.
 
Maybe because when I used to lose that many kgs it was only water weight whereas now it's really losing fat? Or because what I saw in the mirror was not a real picture of me but one distorted by depression and selfhate? I was planning on losing another 15kg but I don't now think that I need to lose that many.
How wonderful that you´re feeling more positive about yourself and might be able to change your goal weight! Water weight can be just as visible as fat; what I think could be happening is that you lost a little more than those 3 kg but are simultaneously retaining water in your muscles because of the increase in exercise, which would mask the fat loss on the scale. Whatever the real reason is: you sound great and I´m so happy for you!
 
How wonderful that you´re feeling more positive about yourself and might be able to change your goal weight! Water weight can be just as visible as fat; what I think could be happening is that you lost a little more than those 3 kg but are simultaneously retaining water in your muscles because of the increase in exercise, which would mask the fat loss on the scale. Whatever the real reason is: you sound great and I´m so happy for you!
Thank you! I do hope it's water retention, because it really does look more than 3 kgs. Especially around my waist, my back and shoulders, I can tell by some of my clothes. Anyway, the visual results are very uplifting! :)
 
74.7kg for some reason. No idea why. Maybe stress. I wanted to go under 74 by today so a bit disappointed but will get over it quickly and just do what I've been doing. Going to go Christmas shopping in the morning, there's not many people in the city center at around 10 and will buy dumbells. Water and strength workout - these are things I have to get better at. These should be my focus this week.
 
Bodies do what bodies do. My scale will probably be up tomorrow as well because TOM is coming soon. Careful with those dumbbells: half the forum seems to have sore shoulders right now.
 
Bodies do what bodies do. My scale will probably be up tomorrow as well because TOM is coming soon.
Careful with those dumbbells: half the forum seems to have sore shoulders right now.


This fluctuation is quite frustrating, isn't it? Maybe a biweekly or monthly weigh-in would be kinder on the soul. But who can resist the call of the scales? :)
I did notice that about half the forum! I ended up not buying the dumbells so I'm still pain-free :)
 
Good luck with the Christmas shopping, Pac :)
Thanks! I ended up staying in our neighborhood visiting local shops instead of going to the center so I was the only customer at most places. Good thing Corona-wise. So I'll just do all Christmas shopping this way to avoid crowds. (Even if masks are mandatory even in the streets in the city center)
 
Sadly mask wearing alone isn't enough when the place is too crowded. How's compliance where you're at: do people wear masks when they're supposed to and wear them properly?
 
74.6kg. I suspect the reason is that I got over-confident about how many calories I eat and stopped counting. I probably eat too many even if it seems just a few. So today back to calorie counting and I can't believe how undisciplined I am about consuming enough water. I must start drinking enough water. We have about 3 weeks until Christmas and if not under 70, I still wanted to reach 71. At this rate even that seems unrealistic.
On Monday I went out running after my long run on Sunday (again, sometimes I feel like a 5 year old child who doesn't yet understand consequences of certain actions..) and obviously halfway through I had so much pain in the legs and knees that I had to stop and walk, but even that was painful. So yesterday no exercice. Today no more pain but I'll wait another day to make sure.
 
Sadly mask wearing alone isn't enough when the place is too crowded. How's compliance where you're at: do people wear masks when they're supposed to and wear them properly?
I'm in Germany, so people do wear the masks and sanitize as much as they can, however the last time I went to the center about a week ago, I turned around and left because of the lack of keeping enough distance.
Sanitizing and washing hands and being careful is all very good but it's also taking its toll on children I realized. My 7year old son poor thing is so obsessed with all this that he doesn't eat his lunch in school if he touches anything after washing his hands and sitting down. Or if somebody else touches his food. Or if he just thinks about it. He washes his hands at home 100times a day. His skin is red and cracked and so dry it hurts just to look at it. :(
 
Poor kid. I remember being that age and "understanding" what I heard on the news or what adults talked about but not being able to put it into perspective the way adults would. It makes the world a very scary place.
 
Poor kid. I remember being that age and "understanding" what I heard on the news or what adults talked about but not being able to put it into perspective the way adults would. It makes the world a very scary place.
I hope that he will find a balance because when he doesn't eat his food in school, it means that he doesn't eat anything at all from 7am to about 5pm.. And he is already so small and fragile. I keep showing him a balance, hope he'll be able to implement :)
 
I ended up not buying the dumbells so I'm still pain-free

you can still get a good strength workout without buying anything, if you have questions just tag me in a post here so I notice, as I don't have time to read all the diaries every day.
 
you can still get a good strength workout without buying anything, if you have questions just tag me in a post here so I notice, as I don't have time to read all the diaries every day.
Thank you! I actually do need some help. I have always done random youtube videos but without any concept. I'd like to work on upper body and core. Is it ok to do only that for a while without working on the lower body? If so, could you please suggest some videos you would recommend or a workout routine I could follow? Thank you!
 
74.3kg. Going downwards, yay! Had a banana for breakfast after standing in front of 2 eggs and finding myself undermotivated to make an omlette. Lunch was döner with salad. Was on the bike practically the whole day, last minute Christmas shopping (to send abroad), food shopping, getting this and that, dog walking, kids pick up, I was literally on my feet/on bike for 10 hours. Couldn't wait to get to bed.
Still not good at drinking enough water. Back to calorie counting, it works again. Need to start strength training. Target for Monday is 73kg. I feel light, months of low sugar low carb resulted in no bloating. Around my stomach it's always flat, so now when I spot myself in the shop windows I don't have to turn away with shame. Another thing: my face. It has always been thin(ish) even when gaining weight so people usually did not realize that I gained. But this summer the scary thing was that I did not recognize my face at all. It looked like someone else and I could not into the mirror without feeling disgusted. I have my face back. I recognize myself again. It feels awesome.
 
For your core a great exercise is the Dead Bug, this video shows a progression for the exercise, without equipment a wall dead bug can be used as the easiest version. It is important to keep your back flat, alternate sides and stop when you begin to shake and loose form.


This exercise is far more back friendly than crunches and planks which are usually done poorly, people that do very long planks without exception have terrible form.

Learn and practice diaphragmatic breathing, can be done anywhere and can leave you quite sore for what is simply practicing correct breathing. Being able to do this is important for being able to brace correctly when it is time to move on to weighted exercises and prevent injury.

upper body

wall pushups are a good option, gradually placing your hands in a lower position as your strength improves and you will eventually be able to do full pushups, chair dips will hit your triceps and can be done using any solid piece of furniture like the edge of your couch.

Dirty Dogs are good for the hips and bird dogs will activate your glutes without venturing into the bulk of the lower body exercises

with a lot of things there are variation and work arounds depending on ability and injuries, but the exercises above should be a good starting point for bodyweight exercises that a person without any underlying problems should be able to do as a starting point.
 
For your core a great exercise is the Dead Bug, this video shows a progression for the exercise, without equipment a wall dead bug can be used as the easiest version. It is important to keep your back flat, alternate sides and stop when you begin to shake and loose form.


This exercise is far more back friendly than crunches and planks which are usually done poorly, people that do very long planks without exception have terrible form.

Learn and practice diaphragmatic breathing, can be done anywhere and can leave you quite sore for what is simply practicing correct breathing. Being able to do this is important for being able to brace correctly when it is time to move on to weighted exercises and prevent injury.

upper body

wall pushups are a good option, gradually placing your hands in a lower position as your strength improves and you will eventually be able to do full pushups, chair dips will hit your triceps and can be done using any solid piece of furniture like the edge of your couch.

Dirty Dogs are good for the hips and bird dogs will activate your glutes without venturing into the bulk of the lower body exercises

with a lot of things there are variation and work arounds depending on ability and injuries, but the exercises above should be a good starting point for bodyweight exercises that a person without any underlying problems should be able to do as a starting point.
Thank you for the detailed description! I will try some of them today. Would 3x10 or 3x12 be an ok amount of repetition to start with?
 
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