On my way to 63kgs

I am the primary carer of my elderly father who has parkinsons as well
as many other illnesses and can't be left for more than an hour or two at a time
but today my auntie and uncle who are staying with me looked after him all day
while I went to the water park with my cousin and her children. It made it even
nicer as I rarely get the opportunity to have a day out.

So nice to hear that you had a great time at the water park, and especially
that you took the healthy food with you, that shows that you are really
becoming conscious of proper nutrition.

And that you take care of your father almost makes you a saint! That is truly
something special, because no matter what condition a person is in physically,
his true self, the eternal inner spirit is always the same. In fact in elderly
people it almost shines and can be felt, well at least by me.

Anyway, bye for now, nice to see that you are having such a wonderful
time in your life now, and can enjoy things that in the past you might not
have as enjoyed so much due to those frustrating experiences you mentioned.
 
Haha, definitely not a saint. My dad is so sweet and no problem at all to look after at the moment. I expect that things will get worse in the future but now it's just time consuming rather than hard.
So nice to hear that you had a great time at the water park, and especially
that you took the healthy food with you, that shows that you are really
becoming conscious of proper nutrition.

And that you take care of your father almost makes you a saint! That is truly
something special, because no matter what condition a person is in physically,
his true self, the eternal inner spirit is always the same. In fact in elderly
people it almost shines and can be felt, well at least by me.

Anyway, bye for now, nice to see that you are having such a wonderful
time in your life now, and can enjoy things that in the past you might not
have as enjoyed so much due to those frustrating experiences you mentioned.
 
Well, I had a nice surprise today. Went to weight watchers to get weighed in this morning expecting to have at least a kilo weight gain and had actually lost 200g.
I think that I am now automatically making better choices and making up for 'pig out' times by going careful at other times. I really felt as if I had seriously overeaten but thinking back on it it really wasn't so bad.
Feel tired today after all the excitement of last week so probably won't exercise but will get back into it tomorrow. At least my eating is back to normal. The first thing that I did after my guests left this morning was throw out all the cakes, biscuits etc that were in the house so that we can't be tempted.
 
Feel tired today after all the excitement of last week so probably won't exercise
but will get back into it tomorrow. At least my eating is back to normal. The
first thing that I did after my guests left this morning was throw out all the
cakes, biscuits etc that were in the house so that we can't be tempted.

...good move, with the rest, and with throwing out the cakes, biscuits etc!

...at least until you reach your ideal weight, it is definitely much more effective
to have only healthy food in the house, and to allow yourself a couple of
small cheatmeals per week, but to make sure they are bought and eaten
right away. It's okay to have up to 3 small cheat meals per week, as long
as they are not a part of the last meal, and as long as you do some kind
of exercise that day. Obviously cardio is the best on the cheat meal days!!!

...and congratulations with the 200 gram loss, that is quite spectacular,
especially taking into account for how long you had guests!
 
I'm glad I could be of some help. You know the truth is that I came to
this forum because my wife went on vacation with her sister on the
22nd of May to Beldibi, Turkey. We have an agreement that she allows
me to go to Amsterdam twice per year, for 2 weeks at a time, and I allow
her to go whever she wants twice per year, for 2-3 weeks at a time.

The funny thing is that when I signed up on here a few days ago, the mods
thought that I was going to try to sell something. The funny thing is that
this made me understand something about myself. First, that I have a salesman
personality, and second that I am not that really good at being part of the
community. While the first is my strength, and I knew about it to some extent,
the second, i.e. my weakness, I didn't know about, and was not aware of it.

This combination of my personality made people think that I was going to try
to sell them something...lol, and I was really shocked by it, because all my
posts in the other threads were focused on trying to help people.

And, ther is another profound understanding that came to me during the last
few days that I have been posting here, and you know what it is?

That most folks don't really want to know the brutal truth about weight loss.

In reality, I know exactly the culprit behind the desire to avoid the current
reality in their lives, but if I wrote this in here, some people might have a
heart attack, so I won't.

The amazing thing, is that I grew up in South Florida, from the time I was 10
to the time I was 23, when I left and came back to Latvia, where I was born
in 1970, when it was the U.S.S.R. In 1992 they got their independence back,
and the next year I moved back here, and stayed after meeting my wife.

Anyway, what I wanted to say, is that I went to high school in Ft. Lauderdale
and obviously went to many football games to watch our team play, plus
I was on the wrestling team myself for four years...and what I see in here
it reminds me of a game, where the majority of people are cheering each
other on, without really going deep into the cause of their weight loss
problem, and without really doing what has to be done to permanently
lose the unwanted body fat that they have.

...now why do you think that is, and have you also noticed this???
 
Great insight and understanding of the way people's minds work. I see it all the time at the Weight Watchers meetings. I was dissapointed in my weight loss for the first few weeks and made excuses about how I couldn't exercise because I have to look after my dad. I went home that day and sat and thought about what a load of rubbish I was talking and that of course I could exercise. My dad can easily be left for a couple of hours at a time at least twice a day which is plenty of time to get fit. I also then bought a Wii as I could exercise at home easily and have fun at the same time. At the next meeting I apologized for making excuses and had a weight loss of 1 and a half kilos that week instead of the usual 3 or 4 hundred grams.

For years I blamed my weight on all sorts of things but have finally realized that nobody can do it for me and that only me can get me fit and well and only me will be able to keep me fit and well.
Since my family and friends have seen my daughter and myself losing weight lots of them are going on diets but it seems that not one of them wants to know about the way that we are doing it but want to crash diet to lose weight quicker.
My neice's husband ls dieting at the moment and is eating about 5 - 7 hundred calories a day maximum with lots of exercise. I keep telling him that it is the wrong way to do it but he won't listen as he has lost 8 kgs in 10 days. It's crazy and he will be lucky if he doesn't end up very ill.
Your'e right about people not facing up to what the problem really is because I was like that and I think it is a bit like being an alcoholic that you take a while to really understand that you have a problem that only you can solve.
About you not being good about being a member of a community, well, you seem like you are doing a damn good job to me :)
 
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yes, but that is mostly because we started posting here at about the same
time, and you already had a change in your worldview about proper nutrition
and exercise, and somehow were aware of what you needed to do, more
or less. I guess, it is this thing about my personality that when I see people
struggling, and I know that I can help them with this problem because I have
personal experience and have been studying about self-awareness, nutrition,
and exercise for over 15 years.

I love writing so much, that I even wrote a 210 page book about weight loss
a few years ago. But, I never published it, it was simply in PDF format in my
computer. And everything I wrote simply came from my own experience and
many years studying how the human body works, and especially how it works
when it comes to gaining, maintaining and losing weight.

...and when I started posting in this forum, I posted in many threads where
people have been posting in this forum, and I guess they already had their
sort of circle of friends on here, etc., and I started writing these long posts
which obvioulsy stood out big time, because almost no one writes such long
posts, and especially "preaching" proper nutrition.

...that was definitely a mistake, but it wasn't long thanks God, because one
of the Mods pointed it out to me and made it very clear that I was sort of
overdoing it. So, after that I pretty much started to observe the pace at
which everything happens on here, and try to post in the threads where
it seems that I can truly help someone that will actually use the information
that I want to share with them.

Actually my number one passion is the area of self-awareness, and human
psychology. Why we do what we do. I have been studying this since I was
14 years old, and at the end of this month I will be 40, so that's quite
a while. And maybe in the future I can tell you a few things if that is
something that is interesting to you also.

Because in the end, it is the structures that are in our life that control
everything, and since most people don't know anything about these
structures (and most don't care to know actually) they keep going back
and forth between success and failure in all areas of their lives.

In some ways it is very, very simple to understand, but that's where the
easy part ends, and frustration begins, because these structures are invisible
to the mind, they can only be viewed through the actions we take and the
actual consequences of those actions.

Anyway, if this is something you want to know about I can write in your
diary here, and you will always have it for reference. Because, after almost
26 years of passionately pursuing this passion of mine, I pretty much have
discovered the root that is causing all the pain, frustration, and unhapinness
in our lives. And for me it's really fascinating, and sad at the same time
because I see many people suffering because of it, but I can't help them
because they don't want to know anything about it...lol
 
I'm sorry to hear that you came up against a wall when you tried to help people. Maybe some people just don't want to hear the truth.
It all sounds very interesting what you are saying. My sister and myself have very empathic natures and when somebody we know does something that they shouldn't or if we don't like somebody or if they are unhappy we spend a lot of time trying to analize why they act like they do rather than just disregard them as bad or miserable people and where we can we help them to get over there problems.
My other sister is a recovering alcoholic and I can see a lot of similarities in alcoholism and overeating. My sister finally decided that enough is enough and stopped cold turkey and was really ill and ended up in hospital. She has never touched alcohol since or even wanted to. So many people told her that she wouldn't be able to do it without AA meetings. Believe it or not she works in a bar. She made a decision and stuck with it and that is the way I feel about my eating now. If she can give up an alcohol addiction then I should be able to easily do it with food.
I would be very interested to hear more about the subjects that you have touched on.
Val
 
Well Val, I am glad that you find what I write interesting. Obviously, this is
only the tip of the iceberg, and the iceberg is huge...lol

But, since you are intersted in it, in the nearest future I will go into some
depth on the subject of self-awareness and consciousness, since this is the
foundation of our lives. Without being self-aware and conscious, we are caught
in an endless loop of circumstances that are not under our control.

When we start to become aware of our true self, this is when consciousness
starts to awake in us, and we start to notice there are are a few things we
can control and 99.9% that we can't.

Well, I have found that to be "effective" all you have to do is focus on the
0.01% of the things that we can control, and "not worry" about the rest !!!

Will share more with you later, but you probably saw that I have a diary, and
if you didn't see it yet, you can check it out, if you want.

...interesting about your sister and alcohol, and the similarities with
overeating. There is no doubt that the root is in the addiction, but I have
gone deeper and noticed that the root of the addiction itself, in other words
the reason we develop these addictions, and all the other bad habits,
including non-stop thinking in our minds (which happens on its own without
our help, just like all other bodily processes) is this:

...the majority of people are trying, and are very successful at ESCAPING
from reality, i.e. the present moment, the now, by constantly thinking about
the past or the future, and "completely" ignoring the current situation that
they are in at the only moment that there ever was, is, and will be...which is
obviously the "here and now!"

Since the past and the future, are in reality only illusions, or at their best
reflections of the present moment (this I can explain later, if you don't
understand it) the majority are always feelings an assortment of emotions
that are a consequence of the thoughts about the past or the future.

For example, if someone wants to lose weight really bad, and she is currently
seriously overweight, she will feel a very high level of "anxiety" if she lives in
her thoughts about how she wants to be in the future!

Why? well, it's simple, because she is not happy with how she is NOW,
and simultaneoulsy she wants to be there in the future, where she has her
dream body already...

...but the reality is that she is here, and this tears a person a part,
and the anxiety is a consequence.

...the more interesting thing about this, is that she will always be here, simply
because that's all there ever is, the present moment...

...and the more a person tries to escape from her reality, and try to live in
the future thoughts or visions of herself, the more she will suffer!

...the key is to live here and now, and be happy with how you are right now,
and simply once in a while remind yourself the path that you have chosen,
and the rest of the time spend making the best possible choices as far as
food and exercise in the present moment!

...do you see how this one example, can make a profound difference in
someone's life if they can grasp it?

...the sad thing about it is that the majority of people will nod their head
and say YES Alex, this is such a great idea,
and I will do this, and then as
soon as they go back to their life they will start living in their thoughts about
the future and the past, and will completely forget about this!

So Val, what do you think about this thought and idea?
 
That was a lot to digest but I think that I am half way there already.:)
I think that to a certain extent I do live in the moment.
One of my sisters is the eternal optimist. She is always talking about what she is going to do and have in the future but does absolutely nothing to achieve it so therefore never gets it. When I point this out to her she calls me a pessimist but I think that I am a realist. I believe in fighting now for what you want in the future instead of yearning for something that you won't ever get. Because of this I'm always thought of as the party-pooper of the family just because I believe that for something to happen you need to make it happen. I'm not sure if I've made my self clear or even if that is what you are talking about.
As far as weight loss goes I think this is working because I'm not just looking at what might happen in the future but changing my life now and enjoying the moment. I don't even mind if the weight loss is slow as I know I will get there. If I don't do things right one day then the next day is a new day to start again making healthy choices. Is this what you are talking about? I just know that this time the whole weight loss things seems different, maybe because my primary reason for changing my life was to get healthy and fit and looking better is a bonus. At the moment I would rather be fit and fat than skinny and unfit but obviously the ideal solution is slim and fit which is what I am aiming for.
Wow this is like having a diary that answers me :)
 
On with the diary.
I am still feeling a bit lethargic after my guests left. It was a very emotional week as my mum's sister was one of the guests and she is so like my mum. At one point my daughter said 'Gran will you pass the water please' and then burst into tears when she realized that it wasn't her gran. It was almost like having my mum back for a week and feel a deflated now that she has left. Rather than exercise we went shopping and zig zagged around from shop to shop and took stairs instead of lifts and managed to clock up 6500 steps.
Eating has been fine. Had cereals for breakfast and at lunch time I had ham salad, brown bread , fruit and yoghurt. Just had a 80 cal bag of crisps and tonight I'll have grilled chicken breast with veg and a baked potato and then water melon.
 
Yes Val, that is what I am talking about! There are people that actually have
this orientation as a default, and it does sound like you might be one of them.

The majority, and sadly I was one of them for so many years of my life, is
like your sister that talks about the future, but does nothing in the present
moment. When this approach is used, it seems that you can always start
tomorrow, because your goal is so far away, what difference could a day make?

...but, it makes a huge difference, because the goal is never reached, the
person stays in exactly the same place, she just keeps moving her goal
further into the future as the goal "deadline" gets closer and closer.

And, I'm with you on that fit and fat rather than skinny and unfit
but luckily for almost 100% of the people (with the exception of the extreme
endomorphs) it is very real to be both fit and skinny, or at least thin/lean!



check out this video, don't laugh too hard at this guy, but it is much
more entertaining than all the others that cover body types!

Wow this is like having a diary that answers me

...that is quite funny, that this is possible, isn't it?
 
Keep going eyckmans! I think the most inspiring thing is the way that you didn't let the emotional week affect your eating. You KNOW you can do it when you learn to manage your eating apart from how you're feeling -- good for you!
 
Thanks younggirlie, Like Alex it isn't something that I always had but has come with age and I'm done with making excuses as to why I can't do it.
Keep going eyckmans! I think the most inspiring thing is the way that you didn't let the emotional week affect your eating. You KNOW you can do it when you learn to manage your eating apart from how you're feeling -- good for you!
 
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Alex, I'll have a look at the video later. My dad is watching the TV at the moment so can't have the sound on my computer.
 
On Sunday I will be doing the 'Walk for Life' in aid of cancer research with my weight watchers group. It's 5km which a couple of years ago I wouldn't have attempted but should be really easy now. Will be a lot of fun and will be followed by a typically English summer fayre (looking forward to it as I have been living here in Spain for 28 years and it will be nice to do something typically English here.
 
I look after 2 little girls every week day for a couple of hours in the afternoon so I use the time to exercise. I used to just sit and read them stories but now I dance like a crazy person with them which they think is hilarious and we set obstacle courses up around the house and then run round the house jumping over things and we have things that we have to bend down and pick up as we run past and then put down at the next spot. The girls think that it is all great fun and I get fitter at the same time. :)
 
I look after 2 little girls every week day for a couple of hours in the afternoon so I use the time to exercise. I used to just sit and read them stories but now I dance like a crazy person with them which they think is hilarious and we set obstacle courses up around the house and then run round the house jumping over things and we have things that we have to bend down and pick up as we run past and then put down at the next spot. The girls think that it is all great fun and I get fitter at the same time. :)

That is so cute. It's just the kind of tip that women's fitness articles are always recommending. LOL!
I'm glad it works for you and you're having some good fun with the moppets as you get fit.
 
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