Hi Tammy,
I have just got up to date in your diary - and unfortunately there has been a lot going on in a very short time since I was last in.
I fully understand your concerns - and like the others am pleased that you have spoken and moved things to a calmer place where you should be able to get some pleasure from the holidays. Especially with it being a family event - and you having your children to consider.
Fortunately I have never been in your position.
I would certainly at the very least consider it a warning and be looking out for anything else on the subject.
Like you I would certainly decide to focus my weight loss efforts even more strongly. Exercise can be a good way of dealing with the aggressive thoughts that you must be feeling. Any further improvements to your figure can only increase your confidence - which can only do good from your perspective.
It is possible that nothing has happened this time round - but the fact is that his track record is less than ideal. Having said that - with four children together you have a lot tied up in this marriage. In life - people can and do make mistakes - and people may choose to forgive when someone makes a mistake. You made that decision last time round.
Personally, I would say that I was uncomfortable with that friendship continuing - and I would ask that it should cease. If assured that it had ceased - I think that I would decide to change the home phone number. If she phoned again - it would not be an accident or why would she have the new number. I would then know where I stood.....
I think that a refusal to end a simple friendship would give me food for thought too.......
I am pleased that your sinus infection seems to be improving at last. I very much doubt that you will have put on much weight at all (although with all this going all a little increase would be quite understandable). If any has gone on it will come off as soon as you get back to the project. Remember how far you have come.
I am concerned at the following:
I promise after THURSDAY I will be totally back on track more than before because besides my KIDS that makes me so happy to see the weight DROP and I feel good about myself again and sexy,instead of FAT,OLD,DEPRESSED stay @ home MOM with NO future job wise.I am depressed sorry guys.
You deserve the confidence boost of seeing more weight come off. You are a million miles removed from the old you that you describe somewhat harshly. You are very successful in several areas. You are raising four children - and exerting every effort in that direction. You are also producing very successful results in a weight loss project that many would envy. Your job limitations are only there because you have the job of raising your kids. This is your chosen career. When they are older you may decide to tackle another career.
Have confidence in yourself, your successes and abilities.
Take care
Love
Margaret
tho even tho I am MAD.
HMMMM I dunno since I don't have insurance to get my ass to a doctor I couldn't say how long I PLAN to be sick,geeeeesh the nerver of that question.
bootcamp here I come
