"It takes so much character to keep yourself together when going through tough times, and its extremely courageous to improve yourself in the midst of tough times!! Believe me you have earned my respect (for what it's worth), and one good thing about all drama is that eventually does end"
Gees Pink, this means a lot, I really apriciate this! The last year has been the hardest year of my whole life... I'm at a crossroads, and I'm doing the best I can (hopefully, although you can allways do more I supose), my "best" is being tested and redefined dailey. Which is better then stagnation.... The only constant in life, is change, and I embrace that. I just want things to calm down a bit...
"and he asked me how I could be getting fatter when my clothes are getting bigger LOL . I'm still avoiding the scale like the plague though."
Well it sounds like you are the incredible shrinking woman!



You could start measuring yourself, it's really motivating. 1 or 2lbs lost, equats to a lot of inches! I think you can pick up a small flexible measuring tape, at even walmart in their sewing section, if you don't have one already. You are doing great, cloths don't lie!
Amber,
"Sorry to hear you're in the dumps! I wish I had your problem, though. I only sleep well if I've worked out, but when I work out I eat like a horse. So when I'm stressed I'm like that diabetic horse on Half-Baked, trying to eat until I die."
Wow.. That sounds really tuff... Have you tried apitite supresures for night? Maybe oatmeal before bed? Low cal, and really good for you, and it has that fiber that makes you feel really full, through in a banana, and you get MORE fiber, and nutirients, and it's sweet...(just a sugestion) It takes just one minute to cook, (if you get the quick cook kind) from regular nothing added oats.. You know, I had the problem of not eating during the day (stress), and eating only at night, good bad or ugly didn't matter with the food... Stress can do alot to you! I've lost tones of weight because of stress, and I've gained tones of weight becouse of stress. But now I do not want to define my self, my life, my future, because of my stressful sercomstances! My life is going to be stressful, I did not choose an easy life, and life chose to not be easy on me. So I just have to deal with what I have, and get over what I don't! At night when I cry and I think, I want a sweet comforting snack. I drink my water and tell myself that I'm better than that! That I'm not going to let my sercomstances define my life anymore! I'm going to define my life, change my life, and strive for what I want my life to be! I am changeing my reactions that I've had for ever, we are very much in control of our reactions to things, even when we feel like we aren't! You can do it!
Little changes = big results... Steve's qoute is right, in many many ways, internaly and externaly, motion is motion, you will see results! Changes brings about more change! And in the case of us, being very overweight, a lot needs to change inside aswell, there are reasons for things, pregnancy is not even an excuse (which is one that I've used over and over), because there are plenty of women that did not give up on themselves in one way or another because they were pregnant, or had a small child... We might have a harder strugle ahead of ourselves compared to some people on this board, because of the amount of weight we have to loose... But I belive, very strongly, that these acomplishments in inches, and pounds, will effect the person underneth that in more ways then just increasing muscle to fat ratio... I feel a change within me, I am changeing as a person, I think we all are, we just need to embrace it! And love this new person, even though it is unknown and a bit scary...
"So hold me up and I'll hold you up!"
You are great! We can do this! I got your back!!!!! And thanks for haveing mine!!!! Your words really made me smile this morning, thank you very much!
I swear without this board, I don't think at this point in my life, I would have kept going. I'm very thankful...
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Down one more lb, broke into the 40's