As for me I am really going through a LOT of stress, I am really trying to not be stressed out. I just don't know about my marriage anymore, even though he is the "one", I don't think it matters. Anyway, I can say that I am not handling my stress in my old self distructive ways, which is great. No saying f it I don't care, and eating two portions of something dilishiouse, or saying f it I don't care and not eating anything at all, and no saying f it I don't care and going and getting a pack of cigarettes. So I think MENTALLY, there is progress. I see progress physically too.
I am trying to understand why I am not seeing the weight melt off a bit faster. I have totaly changed the way I eat and I am monitering everything I put in my mouth. I am allso drinking I think 10-12 cups of water a day. And I am exercising every day. And uped my activity level too. The body is such a mistery, lol...
I'm also wondering what I'm going to look like when I'm thin(it will happen! *chanted over and over*) My calfs are super strong, I mean super, and my legs too, I have to say my arms under all the flab are about as big as I want to be with muscle. I never lost my streangth. I'm afraid that since I have been a active heavy person, and my muscles have had the great workout of carrying all my flab for all of these years, that I got stronger under there. UGG. I am wondering now, if I need to up my calories a bit more. Because I do have a lot of muscle to "feed" under that fat, and because of that, I might be haveing a greater calorie defiset then is good, and it might be counter productive... I don't know. I'll have to do some research. What I do know is I do not want to be super musculer, when I get all this weight off. I am haveing the problem of knowing I can do sertain exersises better, but my stomach roll is literaly getting in the way which is so anoying. I am on a mission, a mission I tell you. I got a tast of what I used to be, and I want more, I got to get this weight off! What ever is under there I hope I like though, lol!!! I'm a little scared of playing around with the calories, since what is said everywhere, is take about 500 off of what it takes to maintain your current weight. So it probably doesn't matter that I have a lot of muscle under the fat?
I'm outy for now, catch you all later
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I'm pritty sure they are going to show a new story each day, so I'll let you all know if any more catch my eye, just in case you can't see it...
THAT made me feel fat. 
Congratulations on your weight loss Emi!!!!
but at least I'm doing something about it. I plan to start off easy with walking on the treadmill for 30-45 mins...do that for about a month increasing by 5 or so minutes every week and then start with the elliptical. That is what I am thinking now, but maybe my fitness will improve faster than I think and i will be able to push myself harder. Will update tomorrow 
Hahaaaaaaaa! Thanks Kevi!!! Yeah, maybe now I will get out of the 270's 
its good to make them longer gradually. I am so happy that you are feeling better even if its just a little better. We all have those down times, but you are doing so great and are a real trooper. Just keep sticking things through darlin and you will come out on top. I really have faith that you will meet and exceed your goals...just keep persevering as you are!! You've come a long way and you're a real trooper. Look at that fish swimming on your ticker! Shoot my flower is getting so soaked under the same cloud 