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moonbeamish

moonbeamish

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hi, my name is moonbeamish. apparently i posted my intro into the wrong area. so here i am again, hey deja vu is a good thing. deja vu means we are on the correct path. :cheers2: so here is what i previously posted.


hmm..goals. now this a tough one for me. i have always had a difficult time with setting my own goals. when i was much younger there were structured situations which required goal setting, but goals were supplied for me. as i have become older my way of life has been to start something and see what happens. you could look at this as what is my purpose at this moment in my life. while going through an era in life, i tend to attempt in the figuring out what should i be learning during these situations. even now where work is concerned my goals are supplied to me. i totally freeze up, have stage fright if you will when any time comes to setting my own goals. maybe this is in my mind an attempt to not fail?? could this possibly be verbage and a different word be used rather than goals??

i have as most women and i'm guessing men do as well will always have body distortion problems. if anyone has had the ability to overcome this, kudos and admiration to you!! i can not imagine being able to see self in the mirror as others do.

now i have overcome bulimia which i'm very proud of. for years this was a battle. i had many friends who were anorexic and as friends we would joke to the other about wishing we could trade places. i used to say i'm not lucky enough to be anorexic. now this is not to offend anyone by no means, this was discussed with anorexic friends. lucky? yes lucky. as an adult i had alot of dental work performed due to my luck from the erosion pattern of being a former bulimic. as an adult i have two less friends alive because of their battles with anorexia. i used to think, once a bulimic always a bulimic. in my case with years of training of my mind, i can say former bulimic and this is true.


fast forward a bit and after years of being on a roller coaster i decided i wanted off. (now don't get me wrong, i LOVE amusement parks) the last battle was after i allowed myself to gain weight due to a job and at the same time attemping to remove someone from my life. with the job i worked from 7-8 am until 10-11 pm at my desk afraid to even leave for lunch as i may get behind on my overloaded work responsibilities. as for the latter, he was a powerlifter, shotput thrower and a personal trainer. hey if i gain weight he will go away, right? silly me a stalker does not go away. finally he did.

four years ago one of my grandmothers turned 95 years, this was the final turning point to get on track for me. i came to the conclusion the women in my family live a very long time, i do not want to be big.

i started nutri-system and re started (3 years prior i discovered pilates and yoga and then power yoga) the exercises i had fallen in love with as well as allowed me to remove many medications for fibromyalgia management.

ok, so i have gotten off my schedule this past summer and need to get back to a healthier way of life. this will include the right foods and on a regular basis of eating. i tend to forget to eat. back to exercise and maintenance of the weight loss of 72 lbs. i need to develop discipline and not allow any circumstances to alter this discipline. so i guess that is my ultimate goal which will be comprised of mini goals as to not feel overwhelmed.

funny thing here, once i posted the above i went to work. as soon as i walked in one of my managers called me over and said, "let's do your goals today". how crazy!! so my intention was not to manifest any other goals!! :rolleyes:

first i will list these actions to achieve my goal of becoming a healthy disciplined woman. a woman who is a tight little sugar cookie for someone extremely special...





exercise schedule
meal plans
remember to eat​
[CENTER rememberi to take medication[/CENTER]

well i believe this will keep me occupied for a little bit of time....

now if anyone has some tips, im always appreciative as to where someone already has been.

thanks and i wish you a wonderful night or day whichever may be the case of your time zone. :willy_nilly:
 
Hi moonbeamish, welcome to the forum!

Congratulations on beating your bulimia...if you can conquer that I'm sure you can achieve anything you set your mind to! I have suffered with an eating disorder for 4 or so years now, a mix of binge eating disorder and bulimia, so I understand how difficult it is. I have some trouble with the binge eating disorder still, but I'm so much better than I used to be...though I know the road to recovery is long!

It sounds like you've got a very good sense of what you want to achieve and how you can achieve it.

Best of luck in becoming that "tight little sugar cookie"!!!!!! haha
 
thank you!

seliwyma said:
Hi moonbeamish, welcome to the forum!

Congratulations on beating your bulimia...if you can conquer that I'm sure you can achieve anything you set your mind to! I have suffered with an eating disorder for 4 or so years now, a mix of binge eating disorder and bulimia, so I understand how difficult it is. I have some trouble with the binge eating disorder still, but I'm so much better than I used to be...though I know the road to recovery is long!

It sounds like you've got a very good sense of what you want to achieve and how you can achieve it.

Best of luck in becoming that "tight little sugar cookie"!!!!!! haha
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isn't it funny how you don't even realise when you have a good sense of achieving something??? thank you so much for the words of encouragement. i do understand your difficulties and i praise you for your work in becoming better able to control your own issues of food!!
 
My only tips are:

Don't do too much too quickly (diet or exercise). Small changes are good.

Don't beat yourself up if you don't see instant results.

Don't undereat as this is just as dangerous as overeating.
 
Hi Sweetie! Glad to see you in your own space here! I'll be by to visit often (my little sugar cookie :D ). Looking forward to seeing the plans...
 
Cantona said:
My only tips are:

Don't do too much too quickly (diet or exercise). Small changes are good.

Don't beat yourself up if you don't see instant results.

Don't undereat as this is just as dangerous as overeating.
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ahh..these are great tips, thank you. yes, sometimes we do tend to want to conquer the world don't we?!
 
thecabbie said:
Hi Sweetie! Glad to see you in your own space here! I'll be by to visit often (my little sugar cookie :D ). Looking forward to seeing the plans...
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wow, i just realised i have lost half the weight as you. i do not own a scale, don't want to. i weigh at the doc's and they tell me the weight loss.

thanks for checking on me mister!
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thecabbie said:
Hi pretty lady, just checking in on ya! Hope your day is going well!
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thank you so much. i hope your day was. yes my day went well, my night was even better :) how about yours?


i have not quite posted here like i have wanted, but my schedule has been a bit tiring with work this last week. i have however been on several 30 to 60 minute brisk walks with my dog. i think he even got tired on one of them. we used to walk anywhere between 2 and 4 hours a day in the winter and spring. as the weather gets cooler, we will be building back up to that time frame.

i have been eating lots of grapes and celery throughout the day as well as tuna with a few crackers. of course before lunch i have my dessert first, this is how i roll.. this would usually be a candy bar or icecream or pudding. now i'm having one chocolate chip cookie. i have kept my daily medicine wheel right next to the laptop and have not missed a single days dosage. yay! with this being my friday, i feel ok with how my schedule of taking care of myself has improved from the previous week.

you were absolutely right, this is the spot where all the cool kids hangout!

here is wishing you and everyone a great day! ciao
 
Hey lovely, just stopping by to welcome you to the forum! Hope it's helping! Good luck with your goals and well done for setting them ;)

(Also, totally know what you mean about crazy stalker type men. I tried to ditch mine for the best part of 6 months!)
 
Sunflower said:
Hey lovely, just stopping by to welcome you to the forum! Hope it's helping! Good luck with your goals and well done for setting them ;)

(Also, totally know what you mean about crazy stalker type men. I tried to ditch mine for the best part of 6 months!)
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well thank very much. nice to meet you. yes men can drive you absolutely batty, can't they??? i'm sure men feel the same about us women at times?? nah, we are angels!:Angel_anim:
 
Hi babygirl, whats good? I had a good night too last night. You mentioned getting on track with exercise, I'd like to help if you want. I like your idea of bicycling (of course;) I'm a cyclist, I'm biased), lets chat and maybe come up with something? We want to make you into that tight little sugar cookie right?:drool5:

Hey, good for you on being religious about the meds and changing the dessert content.

I'll see you later, K? :hug2:
 
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thecabbie said:
Hi babygirl, whats good? I had a good night too last night. You mentioned getting on track with exercise, I'd like to help if you want. I like your idea of bicycling (of course;) I'm a cyclist, I'm biased), lets chat and maybe come up with something? We want to make you into that tight little sugar cookie right?:drool5:

Hey, good for you on being religious about the meds and changing the dessert content.

I'll see you later, K? :hug2:
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yes, i would love your help. ill give you a shout and let you know the equipment i have. yes, i very much want to get into cycling!! i loved this as a kid, and was never any good at running or jogging. i could do short distance and would win 1st, 2nd or 3rd place in elementary school for 50-150 yard dashes..that's about it though. funny, the past several years i have gone into stores specifically to look at bikes and always walked away with no purchase. besides the want i have had, there have been changes in my life as of late, and i wish to pursue this avenue further. :beating::beating:

besides someone i know kinda has a thing for cycling as well, isn't this crazy??!!
 
i'm having my coffee and getting ready to start my day. lots of errands to run today. ahhh as well as 'me day' at the nail salon. fingers and toes with the full pedicure.

so in the last 4 years or so, i have pulled inside myself and discovered the 'girlier' side of myself. i have allowed the sexy side to come out, the sensual side to flow into everyday life. i allowed myself to feel sexy about myself, even if i did not believe i was. as the weight was coming off this sexier and sensual side was blossoming. i'm a person who looks at my life at the moment and wonders what should i be learning and/or what am i being prepared for? this was the encouragement i needed to continue. yes i have friends who would make the comments about how much better i looked. there was no one to share this with at home. ultimately i was being prepared for something great. i could just close my eyes and see that person for whom i was being prepared for.

ok so off that ramble, i want everyone to have a spinach salad for me today!! for the past 14 months i have been on coumadin (blood thinner) aka arsenic, rat poisoning. i bumped into a glitch with weight loss and maintenance last year. i was on the birth control pill Yaz. i have DVT and guess what kids??? no more leafy greens!! what, seriously??? some people have the ability to add bits into there diet, nope not me. of course no. silly me, why should something be so easy??? lol, that is not always the way of life is it???easy. ok so my coagulation levels are so erratic i dont get the luxury of spinach, or any green salad. funny isn't it when we realise what we consider luxury, isn't it? i have been so craving salad...so please enjoy yours. better yet, savour yours enjoy each and every bite. really taste the essence of a beautiful rasberry balsamic vinaigrette mixed with the lovely greens....

so i must go now, mozart and i must go for a long walk once the errands have been completed.

:cheers2:
 
Yum and hi!

I will definately have a fresh spinach salad today. I have a friend on those blood thinners and it really impacts his life. I feel for you!

Your talk about getting more 'girlie' really struck a chord with me. I've been focusing a bit more on wearing brighter colours, and nice perfume etc. I used to just wear bland bland blah outifts not wanting to show myself off. Its such a change eh.

Anna
 
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