just a thought as i sit hear sipping water at work, first i dont know if anyone reads this or not but if you do, thanks for staying with me, now to the point, when i started this whole thing i looked to the people in the forums, diaries and before and after for inspiration, motivation, and it really helped, however in the last few weeks ive noticed a change in my thinking, ive started to look more towards myself for motivation, then towards outside influences. Dont get me wrong, everybodys posts and pics are still helpfull especially when i have an off day, but im to the point now where i can see the improvement (i felt the improvement very early on, but now im really seeing it) and looking in the mirror is alot less painfull than it used to be, almost fun! I have figured out my limits as far as what i feel comfortable eating and what i need to stay away from, as well as how i excersize and when and for how long. I have to say this is a pretty awesome state of mind to be in, and something i can honestly say i have never experienced. I truly believe i can do it now, whereas before there was always that self doubt, the what if i fail, or regress. I am still human and i still have not had the level of success that many of you enjoy here, but i feel like for the first time EVER i am on the right path, not some fad diet or quick fix, but a truly life changing path that i am capable of maintaining. Its a good day to be alive!