Hi Natsky; My sons used to joke about how I'd talk to strangers at the bus stop or people in the grocery stores. I'd joke back and say you know I'm getting lonely and not doing enough to get out and be with friends when I start talking to everyone's cat, dog and pet rock.
For myself, overeating has meant sitting in front of the telly, but definitely staying home and isolating, instead of going out or being with friends or pursuing interests. I've gone in and out of this habit. Sometimes isolating myself, sometimes out and about. I know for a fact how much happier I am when I'm taking care of myself in a holistic way, not just eating healthy and exercising, but also becoming fulfilled by getting out there. I take a dance class, volunteer at the nursing home, or join a writing group, anything to get out and be around people.
I hope this diary and your new focus on the glass half full will lead you to believe what a gift you are to the world and to all of us. Stay strong!
I talk with everyone Lili, I talk with other shoppers in line. I talk to dogs ..cats. I used to talk to myself outside in the open, my mouth flapping. Its a way to clear the mind. I love being on a speed walk and just let the thoughts and moods run of me, crying .. whatever may happen, sometimes I cry because I am so happy that I am out walking in a beautiful day. I love when I cry for happiness, it feels so refreshing .. I love crying! lol I love feeling emotions .. even the negative ones. I think a lot of peeps take advantage of feeling....
On the klonopin it dulls your mind, sedates you, and I didnt feel anymore, two days after cutting it down to four mg .. I cried over something that my fiance did, he always does it, but I didnt know how to approach him. Lost in agony over it, I realized .. well I cried. ... it felt so good and I went to him and he realized just what was going on.. it feels good to have emotion back and memories back ...
What meds do... even I dont know ... even doctors dont know ..they subscribe something to you ... and they dont know what it will do for you even. Sometimes I wonder how much should I trust the doctors lol but you are right, going outside, being social, no isolation is the way to go. And I really am trying to do more socialization than isolation. As a matter of fact I have someone who is trying to fix that part of my life, they feel I isolate too much.
So she and I are going to a little place where they change every season and sells things for decorations ...
so I am going to bring a few bucks with me and maybe I will find something floral for the beginning of spring.
Thanks for mentioning this, because the isolation is big, but its getting better .. I am going to call Heather after I get off here, I think she lives close by. I think the problem is she doesnt want to walk to my place, she wants to drive .. I dont have a car, nore see the need for one; however, it is nice when you need to get groceries lol
but ... I am going to see about .. walking to her house ..and just saying hi. Having a visit. Her daughter, this is funny, reads the same things I do...lol we both went to the library with Heather and Heather's mom. And Her daughter and I were walking out with ten books each. I really get along with them. I live in the same building with her mother ... I guess Heather is isolated, stays at the computer all day and needs a reason to go out. And I always felt that way too, not so much anymore ... but I have isolated myself entirely too much and its funny you bring up isolation, because the functional support person who is helping me with that, called just yesterday ..just about pushing me out the door already for Thursday ...lol I was like ..ok umm sure ..
I didnt know what to say.
but its all good ..this journal is about Transformation. And one of the things I have to do, is forget the taunts from the little people who love to tease big people, I need to forget all these people and not let them scare me inside, but I go outside now. I dont care what they think ... but I did for two years ..and now I am so proud... I walk ... with my head held up high and I love it!! Its such a rush!!
well ttylater hun
Thanks for stopping in. I really appreciate what you say, it all speaks so true!
ttylater Lili
always
natsky
