Natasha's Diary: In it to win it...

Hey Natasha!!!! Thank you for keeping my journal warm while I've been MIA! I'll be seeing you around now that I'm back! :coolgleamA:
 
Sorry I haven't been here...

I've been here in Walsenburg taking care of my mama. She had an accident on an ATV and had to have surgery, so I've been taking care of her, and haven't really had time to log in and check in with everyone. I miss you all so much. Thank you Lilly for stopping in and yes, I did feel starving on the 1200 cal diet, so I actually spoke to a nutritionist and I now am eating a 1700 cal diet now, which is much better and I do eat mostly fruits and veggies and grains, and it seems to be doing my body good. I haven't been able to weight myself because I've been so busy with mama, but I feel like I've lost a few inches :)
And Kristi... Hi girlie, I'm so glad you dropped back in... glad to see you're doing good and I miss you very very much.. I miss all of you so much... Just when I thought I'd be in here more constant... poof another bad incident. I'm just grateful my mamas alive. It could have been so much worse, so please keep her in your prayers and I will drop in again when I get a chance. We have to go back to the dr.s 2moro, so we'll see.. Lots of hugs to you all and keep a going, I'll be gone for a while, but my heart's still here with you guys and I'll be back soon. :seeya:
Natasha
 
OK... I'm back AGAIN!!!

Hello to all of you, it's me again... well, lets see, last time I was in here... I was taking care of my mama. She is still trying to heal, the metal plate and pins in her arm just aren't really wanting to stick to the bone and heal!!! She is frustrated, but is still staying in pretty good spirits about the whole thing. I just came back home... there's no place like home :) I've missed being in here... and my body has too. I weighed myself this morning and :ack2: I'm at 260 lbs!!! Still.. but I hadn't been really trying honestly... I was really busy with my mama and my son... I know, not a good excuse, but it was pretty stressful being away from my home, out of my own environment.. even though my mamas home is cozy. ya know what I mean Jelly bean ;) So, I'm here yet again with no progress made, but I still have faith in myself and my body. I'm trying a few new things to see how they work out. I'm taking green tea, cayenne, and glucomannan to try to supress my appetite... that little booger has gotten pretty bad... I have also been trying some hypnotherapy on my own... It feels really good at least :) So I started a food log to see how much I was actually eating throughout the day on an average day and :ack2: about 2,700 to 2,900 cals a day!!! Needless to say, I looked deeper at my feelings at the times I was eating and looked at what was actually necessary to eat and what I just ummm ya know... wanted ;) So, I think maybe, just maybe I might have found out a lil about myself.. yet again... lol
So here's to another start... AGAIN!!! I counted my cal.s yesterday with trying my new approach and whoohoo! I only did about 1716 cal.s, so already its working and I didn't starve myself or deprive myself.
My goal is to weigh 252 or less :) by June 13th. I'm sure it could be done...
my weekly goals are... May 23- 258; may 30- 256; june 6- 254
Well until next time :seeya:
 
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Okay beautiful, we're getting serious this time right? You and me? We can do this and I know we can use each other's support right?

And I I'll try not to perv up your diary too much, but... well, you know me!

Hugs to you :hug2:
 
May 18, 2009

Thank you for stopping by Karl... N Definitely!!! I'm in this thing for good!!! I have to, for myself and for my son!!! You can stop by and perv up my diary as often as you wish ;) lol...

Lilly... you're a doll and I'm so glad to see that you're still here. Well, I am not doing too bad, but as I said, just started. Just trying a few different things.. so we'll see how it goes, but I'm here!!! N I'm staying until this bulge is gone!!! dammit! LOL

Okay, so to catch up on the past few days... I've been SOOOO busy!! :)
I have been doing really good on my calorie intake, and the supplements have really been seeming to work. I don't get cravings or feel hungry as often and I fill up alot faster.. so YAY!!! We had Thorntonfest on Saturday and we walked around there for 4 hours... I didn't wear sunblock :banghead: So now I have the most painful sunburn and I look completely ridiculous!!! LOL well oh well, it'll get better. I've been walking alot still and although I haven't really seen anything drop on the scale yet, I still believe that I'm on the right track. I've been keeping my calories around 1700-1900 calories depending on the day and have been not eating after 7pm... so here's my entry for Saturday n Sunday!!!
5/16/09 I had 1824 calories and walked casually for 4 hours... not too bad.
5/17/09 I had 1782 calories and I didn't really do too much except for cleaned the heck out of my house... was in too much pain from the sunburn:blush5: But that's alright because that's supposed to be my day off anyways :)
 
That sounds like a good calorie range, not too restrictive so it will be easier to stay on plan, but light enough to consistently lose with it. Sounds like you are doing good!

Sunburn, ouch! I'm very fair skinned so I burn pretty easily, even when I tan it's kind of a ruddy tan, but at least it isn't painful then. Been there done that..

Okay stupidity story from when I was a 19 y/o punk... Short sleeves, sneakers (no socks), shorts on a motorcycle to a beach an hour and a half away. In NH so no helmet law. Drove around crusing the beach all day long, finally realize I was burning to a crisp and got out of the sun, waited until night fall to drive home.

Shorts, sneakers, short sleeves, at night with a sunburn - I had goose bumps and chills all the way home. The worst ride EVER! I had to keep pulling over to stop shivering for a few minutes before I kept going. It sucked!

I learned a lesson though.
 
Thanks for sharing that story Karl.. now I don't feel like the only stupid one! LOL! Ya, I think I mighta got a lil heatstroke cuz I felt a lil funny for about the first 24 hrs... not good :(
Anyways, I think that the calorie range is pretty good to start with at least.. I'll adjust it as this fat starts dropping off :) Can't wait for that !!! So GAME ON!!! :flame: off to go walking :seeya:
 
Eeeew...

Ok.. so I decided to buy one of those body detoxifying kits to ya know.... clean everything out so to speak so that I'll be able to kickstart my weight loss a little. I've been sweating alot... gross! N the "sludge" is disgusting!!! :puke: Has anyone else done one of these before? How did you feel? I mean, I feel really good energy wise n stuff, just the sweating is not too cool. I don't mind sweating if I'm working out or something, but sweating for just no reason isn't really cool... I guess that's one of the body's many ways of detoxifying though huh... NE ways, I haven't really been that hungry since taking the glucomannan, but I've still been making myself eat to keep the metabolism going. I think I ate maybe 1500 cal.s yesterday at the most. That's majorly overestimating... So.. so far, so good ;) I really notice the difference in my body and how good I feel this time though with the natural supplements. It's fantastic!!! I couldn't recommend it more... The detox stuff is kinda gross right now, but it'll be worth it when I'm done with the kit, so it's all GOOD!!! I danced yesterday for about an hour just in my house, it was a blast!!!:hurray: I'm sore today :) So I"m gonna keep going n doing what I'm doing... Until next time... :seeya:
PS.. I'm gonna be out of town until friday night, so I'll try to log on, but if I don't... see ya when I get back...
 
Umm... that doesn't sound like fun to me. I'm kind of fond of the old fashioned drink lots of water and exercise a bunch method of detox... At least the sweat is natural...
 
ick. that sounds majorly gross... but you say it works? huh.
:) Stay strong love, you can do it!!
 
Thank you Karl & Annie for stopping by... yeah, it does sound gross, but the first few days of it were the worst.. I'm feeling really good now. It is all natural stuff that is in the supplements, trust me, I met with an herbalist... I want to do the all natural approach, and she said that with women especially, we tend to build up alot more of this unhealthy sludge like lining in our stomache/colon, and that tends to spread a lil more throughout our body because after building up so much, it really has no other place to go.. which is why our body doesn't work the way it should as far as burning foods we bring in and giving us adequate nutrition from our food... causing us to hang on to the food in our system for longer and store more fat... It's only a temporary thing. You take up to 3 capsules a day for no more than 30 days, and you're done. I've really noticed a difference though.. I've lost about 1.5 inches off of my waist, but what I notice the most is that my energy is alot better, I feel alot fuller/satisfied when I do eat, and I use the bathroom more regularly. So, the bad part is pretty much over with and I think I will be okay now. :) I was kinda skeptical about trying it at first, but a friend of mine did it first and it really worked for her. She had weight she hadn't been able to move since her first son.. 9 years ago.. n she tried everything!!! Including pretty much starving herself. She did the colon/whole body cleanse and she finally got rid of it. It took her like 3 months.. from the time she started the colon cleanse, but she looks great. And it wasn't expensive at all like $15, so I said what the heck. I guess I'll know more how it will do for me when I actually finish it, but so far, so good.

OKAY... So now that that is out of the way.... I went to see my cousin for her birthday.. she's been feeling kinda down..(getting older, single mom, sad because she's still single), And she's beautiful... I'm not kidding, could be a model type beautiful!!! Anyway, we decided to "celebrate her birthday". Well, lets just way we way way way... OVERCELEBRATED! :banghead: We drank n drank n drank alot... We were basically shit-faced by the end of the night and I got so sick.. :puke: Keep in mind, I haven't had a drink since New Years! N we really thought we were pro's LOL!:smilielol5: Well, I won't be doing that again, I don't think I had gotten that drunk since my 22nd birthday!!! Wow! It was fun though up until the end there... Oh well. We all have a little :reddevil: in us.. And I'm alive and well. Weighed myself this morning and I lost 3 lbs.. So Yay!!! I met my goal for the weak!!! :hurray: Now now... I know you all are going to say but it probably would have been more if you wouldn't have drank... N yeah, I absolutely agree with you, but I won't be doing that again anytime soon so it's okay ;) Calorie wise, I have been doing well, staying below 1800 now(except for my drunk day), and I have been working out.. dancing and walking, so I think I'm doing pretty good!!! WEll until next time :seeya:
Natasha
 
Calorie wise, I have been doing well, staying below 1800 now(except for my drunk day), and I have been working out.. dancing and walking, so I think I'm doing pretty good!!! WEll until next time :seeya:
Natasha
Way to go, girl!! That is awesome!!
You're doing FABULOUS!
Also, don't sweat it about losing "only" 3 lbs. I would love to lose 3 lbs. haha
<3 Annie
 
Thank you Annie!!! I needed that... Yea it was only 3 lbs.. but I also lost 1.5 inches off my waist!!! So thats freakin awesome!

Okay, so today I did about 1785 calories, I danced agian (man I love doing that... it feels so damn good!) I'm feeling great! I've been really wanting to walk, but the weather here has been horrible.. hailing and raining and windy... tornado warnings, so I've just been doing what I could in the house, but it's all good... Weather can't last forever. :) I could really feel the difference already, I feel much healthier.. not so out of breath, no more indigestion, no more headaches:Angel_anim: It is wonderful!!! Everytime I think of munching even though I'm not hungry (not very often with the supplements) I just hop on the net and look at baby stuff or cute clothes I'd like to fit into one day... but the baby stuff works better, especially seeing siblings together... My son is my inspiration to do this everyday because I don't want him to be sad like he's been about not having a brother or sister... he deserves it and I would love to have more children... More than that though, I want to be here.. alive and well enough to enjoy and take care of my children, so I've got to do this!!! As long as I keep it up and do what I"m doing, I'll be there soon... I believe in me... Finally got completely over the hang over today :coolgleamA: That is a very very very very good thing!!! Why the hell do we do these things to ourselves? For one night of fun, we pay for like 3 days of feeling like complete shit!!! Ughhhh... I'm gonna try not to do that again...EVER! But we'll see, I never say never cause ya never know.. ya know? Well, I'm rambling.. so :seeya:
Natasha
 
Okay... today was a really good day! I weighed myself this morning just to check and I lost another 2 lbs!!! So now I weigh 265:hurray:... I'm not going to change my ticker to do my official weigh in until Saturday... but it's still good and I lost 1 and a half inches, so... I"m happy for today!!! I start college on June 8th... I don't think I had wrote in here about that yet because I wasn't sure if I had gotten in or not... but I am starting my pre-requisites for nursing school :) Next June (if I do well) I"ll be starting the nursing core curriculum :hurray: So I know I'm gonna be :willy_nilly: for a while, but in 2 and a half years... it will be so worth it!!! Which is why I need to stay focused on my lifestyle change. This will make my life so much easier, energy wise, and I can think alot clearer when I'm not eating horrible, so It will be great!!! Wish me luck and keep me in your prayers everyone!!! So I ate 1848 Calories today :( Not as good as I had wished, but I still feel good and I ran around all day... did lots of stufff, so it's okay. Well until next time... :seeya:
Natasha
 
Yay for School!
Yay for lost lbs!
Yay for lost inches!

Sounds awesome! Hey, BTW, how is your son doing with his asthma?

Thanks for coming by my place honey! I'll be back by.
 
Wow! Way to go on the loss!! College will be great!! :D
Yay!! I'm so happy for you!!
 
Today was a looooooong day... I was so grouchy by the time my husband came home from work!!! Poor him :( I watched my cousins kids and them along with my son was well.... ya know, some peoples kids are just different than yours!!! I'm not saying they were horrible, but they weren't really good... made for a really long day! I did do good on my calories today though, I only had 1450 for the whole day!!! whoo hooo!!! That did make me happy, I even did some crunches and stuff on my balancing ball, so I guess that's good... and I have to watch the kids again tomorros... *sigh* :rolleyes: Well :seeya:
Natasha
 
Okay... Slightly frustrated again... I just don't get ppl that don't stick to what they say!!! Maybe it's just me :rolleyes: Anyways, the kids were very ornery today.. didn't want to listen, do exact opposite of what I asked.. well, they're kids, but ya know, if i'm gonna be watching them, they do need to obey a few house rules such as... no jumping on the furniture, keep food off the furniture and eat in the kitchen, and pick up your wrappers from your snacks... but my biggest one for the day was DO NOT tease and kick my dogs!!! I mean, come on, I don't allow that!!! That is a big NONO in my house, my dogs are very little, a chihuahua and a pom-chi, there's no need for that and they could seriously hurt them. I don't know what I'm going to do with these kids. I feel bad because I don't feel like I"m asking too much, but if that's not how they were raised, I don't really know what to do... If it doesn't get better, he's going to have to find someone else to watch them because I can't and won't deal with it, and I hate repeating myself 100 times a day about the same few things!!!:banghead:

Okay, so now that i got that off my chest, I did pretty good on my calories today 1712, I only walked about 15 minutes. I know that was hardly worth anything, but it was something at least, and I cleaned my house over and over and over again today... well picked up over and over at least... same difference. So I think I'm doing pretty good. I'm proud of myself and I"m gonna keep focused and keep a going!!! :hurray:
:seeya:
Natasha
 
but my biggest one for the day was DO NOT tease and kick my dogs!!!

I find it amazing that people allow their kids to grow up with no respect of life. I mean, it's actually a sign of a sociopath to hurt and torture animals. Sociopaths sometimes become serial killers... so... watch out!:svengo:

I only walked about 15 minutes. I know that was hardly worth anything, but it was something at least
Don't knock it! It's sometimes a struggle to do anything at all. I'm proud of you for at least trying to get some activity in! Its important to keep yourself going, and not have an all-or-nothing mentality. WAY TO GO GIRL!!

So I think I'm doing pretty good. I'm proud of myself and I"m gonna keep focused and keep a going!!! :hurray:
:seeya:
Natasha
:) YAYYYYY!!! :D I'm so proud!!

:)
<3 Annie
 
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