You know how they say when your not looking, love will find you. Well I was not looking, just playing around on this site, and this guy named Mark looked at my profile. So I dont normally look at the profiles who viewed me and dont write, but I viewed his profile and decided not to write him, because he never wrote me lmao
suddenly I get this message from him
"Do you like my profile?" lmao
so I decided I would take the chance and just write him, so I wrote a message and I guess he liked what I said and liked my profile..
and btw Mal you were so right, I am going to lose weight, and guy has to love me for more than my appearance. I should not be a fetish. and I know you are right and thanks for being so brutally honest
anyway so he all of a sudden did an IM with me and I acceptted .. I was shocked. So we started talking and talking and talking and we talked for a while. And than we started talking on the phone and he has the same morals about me, like you shouldnt do the deed until you are in love. This topic came up because he had to answer questions to talk with me and one was how long do you wait until you have sex, so I had answered badly, but he asked me why I answered and would sleep with someone so soon...and I just told him bluntly that usually thats what guys expect and I didnt know what to answer and I told him what I really wanted and he said he feels the same... and we just talked more and found we both felt one should take their time in a relationship, not jump into bed. He said he would like to meet me, because he said I sounded like a good match. So I decided, why not go for a date, I might miss out on a fantastic guy. So we have a date coming up Saturday, which is really nice.
WE are going to Prescott Park Saturday in down town Portsmouth. Which is a nice place to just go to the pier, watch the water lap against the piers stilts...they have benches and a huge botanical garden ..its a really nice place to take a date. He lives closer to me than Peter did (which who was using me for sex, so I dumped his butt), and I Mark and I are going to meet at the Mall around twelve pm and walk around and eat lunch...
its should be nice, relaxxing and fun. He I think is a nice guy. If he does turn out to be the way he sounds like and he says ...than its all good... I am not desperate anymore. And I am feeling very independent. I talked on my Depression Bipolar support forum, DBSA...and I asked them what it meant to be a real woman, and I asked them to write their opinions... and we did two threads, which was good and it really woke me up... I am a strong woman .. I am independent... I am all good.. I will be starting to volunteer at the public library next week ...it should be fun.. I get to read and organize the stacks, which I love doing
I am going for my forty minute walk... the new route ...
its rained the past two days, been pouring .. I have been so upset ..lol
I was depressed yesterday from the rain, because I so wanted to walk lol
I have gained back three pounds, which I am totally hating, but I am going for walks the rest of the week, and I will get a walk out on Saturday with Mark... its all good
well ttylater lovies
love yas
natalie jo
I kinda quit checking out other peoples diaries and kept to my own, but I'm back to checkin on everyone. Hope things are well, and I'll talk to you later
I think it's crap that Alex's new girlfriend is going to make him choose between being with her or being your friend. That's total bs! 
It totally sucks especially since you two are great friends. It's happened to me as you know, but even though he is wrapped around her finger maybe he will draw the line when it comes to haveing to cut off his friendship with you. 
