nataliejo's diary: Moving, flowing, grooving forward... change is coming...
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nataliejo
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Ok everyone,
I am actually happy Peter can only come up every two weeks and wont be back here until May. You will not believe what dating can do to your waist line, especially someone, who wants you as big as a balloon, because he likes your ass big and your belly big lol He wants me to eat and keep eating. lol and that aint happening, but it did this time oy vey ..I didnt even eat alot ... ugh ..its what I ate. I thought I made pretty good food choices, still, ugh I binged last night and guess what happened .. I weighed myself on my April 2 pounds challenge and am up to 275.7 UGH UGH UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I was down to 272.2
My ticker still reflects 275, I figured it would happen, well no I didnt, but I was hoping it wouldnt happen, so I left it at 275.. I ended up being right!
So he isnt up until May, that means I have five pounds to lose ladies and gents. AND I AM going to do it!! Go Me! Go Me! Go Me!!
I can do this and will. I am not letting one man who likes bigger women get my up to another size. I am going down to a 22 next and that is my next size. I am going down, not up!! lol I don't care what he likes. I asked him if he would still like me at 200 ..oh my the look I got. He says yes lol, but now he is dieting, nut job lol he is so cute. He is afraid I am going to find someone closer, or someone more attractive.. I dont know, but he is. He was checking my profile on the dating site we met on to see if I was on much!! lol talk about little lurker! He admitted he would look at it...and I was like ..hmm Why? and I weazled it out of him that he was afraid I would meet someone closer, because he think I would. He actually says he thinks I would. and I said... Peter I happen to like you very much
well anyway, he still is nervous, but I ended my account, so he cant even check on it, because it doesnt exist anymore, but I dont know if he trusts me not to "cheat" u know. He says past gfs have cheated on him. I told him I am trying to leave my baggage behind and I think he is too, but we are both having a hard time doing so. But I think we will be fine, as long as we don't let our baggage ruin what could be a wonderful thing. and so far.. its pretty damn wonderful. I am loving him up.. he is really wonderful ..tells me I am hot all the time. I show him pics from when I was bigger and he thinks I was hotter when I was bigger ..lol I dont care he thinks I am hot now, I personally think he thinks I am a hot babe, and he is afraid I will meet someone else. It is true all the exs have been skinny or muscly men ...Peter is heavier and more rolly polly than the other ones ..but I love it! I love having a bigger man guys! and he has such a beautiful skin tone.. I think I am falling everyone, and it isnt infatuation...because I was trying to push him away one night and he caught on and confronted me and We are falling for each other and I think its a good think for once... it isnt my always moddo sense saying "This is almost too good to be true" and than I find out I was right .. I havent said it yet and havent felt that way.. I dont get a bad sense about him. I am getting a good sense ..my intituion is right on mark. Ive got a true gentlman ... I am so stoked! BUT he is not going to get me to gain weight! lol I have control, he is just trying so hard, by mentioning the food it triggers my binges lol... but I ignored him the other day... but he isnt up until May, he is starting a new job and doesnt want me paying for our dates, so he says he is going to save some money for May and we will be going hiking and stuff, fun fun! We are going to incorporate heavy exercise with these dates. I have to walk everyday now, to get ready for this hike! I am so stoked
well ttylater girls and guys
love yas
natalie jo
I am actually happy Peter can only come up every two weeks and wont be back here until May. You will not believe what dating can do to your waist line, especially someone, who wants you as big as a balloon, because he likes your ass big and your belly big lol He wants me to eat and keep eating. lol and that aint happening, but it did this time oy vey ..I didnt even eat alot ... ugh ..its what I ate. I thought I made pretty good food choices, still, ugh I binged last night and guess what happened .. I weighed myself on my April 2 pounds challenge and am up to 275.7 UGH UGH UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I was down to 272.2
My ticker still reflects 275, I figured it would happen, well no I didnt, but I was hoping it wouldnt happen, so I left it at 275.. I ended up being right!
So he isnt up until May, that means I have five pounds to lose ladies and gents. AND I AM going to do it!! Go Me! Go Me! Go Me!!
I can do this and will. I am not letting one man who likes bigger women get my up to another size. I am going down to a 22 next and that is my next size. I am going down, not up!! lol I don't care what he likes. I asked him if he would still like me at 200 ..oh my the look I got. He says yes lol, but now he is dieting, nut job lol he is so cute. He is afraid I am going to find someone closer, or someone more attractive.. I dont know, but he is. He was checking my profile on the dating site we met on to see if I was on much!! lol talk about little lurker! He admitted he would look at it...and I was like ..hmm Why? and I weazled it out of him that he was afraid I would meet someone closer, because he think I would. He actually says he thinks I would. and I said... Peter I happen to like you very much
well anyway, he still is nervous, but I ended my account, so he cant even check on it, because it doesnt exist anymore, but I dont know if he trusts me not to "cheat" u know. He says past gfs have cheated on him. I told him I am trying to leave my baggage behind and I think he is too, but we are both having a hard time doing so. But I think we will be fine, as long as we don't let our baggage ruin what could be a wonderful thing. and so far.. its pretty damn wonderful. I am loving him up.. he is really wonderful ..tells me I am hot all the time. I show him pics from when I was bigger and he thinks I was hotter when I was bigger ..lol I dont care he thinks I am hot now, I personally think he thinks I am a hot babe, and he is afraid I will meet someone else. It is true all the exs have been skinny or muscly men ...Peter is heavier and more rolly polly than the other ones ..but I love it! I love having a bigger man guys! and he has such a beautiful skin tone.. I think I am falling everyone, and it isnt infatuation...because I was trying to push him away one night and he caught on and confronted me and We are falling for each other and I think its a good think for once... it isnt my always moddo sense saying "This is almost too good to be true" and than I find out I was right .. I havent said it yet and havent felt that way.. I dont get a bad sense about him. I am getting a good sense ..my intituion is right on mark. Ive got a true gentlman ... I am so stoked! BUT he is not going to get me to gain weight! lol I have control, he is just trying so hard, by mentioning the food it triggers my binges lol... but I ignored him the other day... but he isnt up until May, he is starting a new job and doesnt want me paying for our dates, so he says he is going to save some money for May and we will be going hiking and stuff, fun fun! We are going to incorporate heavy exercise with these dates. I have to walk everyday now, to get ready for this hike! I am so stoked
well ttylater girls and guys
love yas
natalie jo
nataliejo
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Going to be honest..
The food hasnt been very good, but not bad, just finished some blackraspberries for a snack ...to take with me suger pill, which is very important I take it with food, otherwise my suger will drop too low, dont need that.
but I havent walked in a couple days, been a bummed out bummer, but tomorrow is supposed to be 59 degrees at twelve pm, holy mama I am going for my 1 hour to 1 hour and a half walk!! Gonna walk kind of mid slow, mid fast, midway ..lol semi slow, semi quicker than before, but because I have skipped a few days, and I have this mammoth blister I kind of took apart, I know I am horrid, well anyway so I am going to walk on it, but I will becareful and I need to put a bandaid on it, but I need to walk. If I want to go back down! I plan to weigh myself in the morning and get psyched again. The scale might be mean, but I have control over this and its time I start getting seriuos again.. So watch out world, here I come!! lol
love yas
always
natalie jo
The food hasnt been very good, but not bad, just finished some blackraspberries for a snack ...to take with me suger pill, which is very important I take it with food, otherwise my suger will drop too low, dont need that.
but I havent walked in a couple days, been a bummed out bummer, but tomorrow is supposed to be 59 degrees at twelve pm, holy mama I am going for my 1 hour to 1 hour and a half walk!! Gonna walk kind of mid slow, mid fast, midway ..lol semi slow, semi quicker than before, but because I have skipped a few days, and I have this mammoth blister I kind of took apart, I know I am horrid, well anyway so I am going to walk on it, but I will becareful and I need to put a bandaid on it, but I need to walk. If I want to go back down! I plan to weigh myself in the morning and get psyched again. The scale might be mean, but I have control over this and its time I start getting seriuos again.. So watch out world, here I come!! lol
love yas
always
natalie jo
Lost_Wings
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I just get to see my guy at weekends too, and boy is it hard to stay on track! You can do it! Thats cute about the dating sites lol. Good luck with the walking!
nataliejo
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Thanks Lost!!
I am doing pretty good. "Window shopping" isnt that bad. I do it on the beach all the time. The surfers drive me bats.. I mean those toned and hot bodies.. oh man Ive gotten started lol! I just love a good looking man, or who I percieve as good looking, Peter is a little bigger than who I normally date. U know, I usually date really thin and hot men, but it seems I have found someone pretty darn cute at a bigger size. Funny how that works, and he seems to be sweeter than the other men I have dated hmm ..good stuff
thanks for visiting!!
always
natalie jo
nataliejo
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Well today I weighed myself today, 272.2 pounds!! Back down darlings. Very happy about this. Wonderful, muy perfecto... lol
Very happy about this. I just hope it isnt because of the metformin. But it says you can gain weight on metformin, but I am losing weight. I think its the way I eat. The metformin can make you very hungry, but I am fighting the hunger pains and acid in my throat and on my pallette, so I am not eating a lot and what I do snack on is fruit. Perfect for the craving, it has suger in it, and not fat, still has calories, but better than any candy bar!
Now I just need to get out walking again. Which I plan to tomorrow. Going to take my one hour walk tomorrow around ten thirty am. Will be back at the house between eleven thirty to twelve pm. Will be a good walk. OK I am turning a brilliant red, very confused by this and my face is feeling sweat. I wonder why that is, how odd. I am sweating. I think they did say the metformin will cause you to sweat. Oh well, I dont care, as long as it gets the metabolic syndrome under some control.
anyway ttylater all
love yas lovies
natalie jo
always
your friennnnd
btw: edit: I can fit into a size 22 bathing suit. Havent done this for five years, no exaggeration here! I was always a 24 for the past four years, but now its a little tight on the top, but nothing is coming out and its a modest bathing suit. I have two of them and the bottoms fit perfectly, by the time bathing suit season comes it won't be tight. YEA!!!
Very happy about this. I just hope it isnt because of the metformin. But it says you can gain weight on metformin, but I am losing weight. I think its the way I eat. The metformin can make you very hungry, but I am fighting the hunger pains and acid in my throat and on my pallette, so I am not eating a lot and what I do snack on is fruit. Perfect for the craving, it has suger in it, and not fat, still has calories, but better than any candy bar!
Now I just need to get out walking again. Which I plan to tomorrow. Going to take my one hour walk tomorrow around ten thirty am. Will be back at the house between eleven thirty to twelve pm. Will be a good walk. OK I am turning a brilliant red, very confused by this and my face is feeling sweat. I wonder why that is, how odd. I am sweating. I think they did say the metformin will cause you to sweat. Oh well, I dont care, as long as it gets the metabolic syndrome under some control.
anyway ttylater all
love yas lovies
natalie jo
always
your friennnnd
btw: edit: I can fit into a size 22 bathing suit. Havent done this for five years, no exaggeration here! I was always a 24 for the past four years, but now its a little tight on the top, but nothing is coming out and its a modest bathing suit. I have two of them and the bottoms fit perfectly, by the time bathing suit season comes it won't be tight. YEA!!!
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nataliejo
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Im also throwing my size 26 pants in the Salvation Army so I dont think this way "Well just in case I get bigger again, I will keep these pants"
Cant think that way, need to think that I am going to continue going down.. I plan to keep going down.. moving toward a size 22... my pants are a little bigger than I am ...so I will be a size 22 by the end of the summer to fall! goody!!
ttylater
love yas
natalie jo
Cant think that way, need to think that I am going to continue going down.. I plan to keep going down.. moving toward a size 22... my pants are a little bigger than I am ...so I will be a size 22 by the end of the summer to fall! goody!!
ttylater
love yas
natalie jo
misty22
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Nattttaaallliiiieeeee Jooo!
I'm happy to hear you are almost down to a size 22! Sorry I have been out of the picture lately. Been working too hard. Plus confused about going back to school for a bit or sticking with the current job. Anyhoo, I am back to support you. Another summer on the horizon, another opportunity for the both of us to lose, lose, lose!!
*hugs and kisses*
Misty
I'm happy to hear you are almost down to a size 22! Sorry I have been out of the picture lately. Been working too hard. Plus confused about going back to school for a bit or sticking with the current job. Anyhoo, I am back to support you. Another summer on the horizon, another opportunity for the both of us to lose, lose, lose!!
*hugs and kisses*
Misty
nataliejo
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Hey Misty!! How are you doing? I will check your diary!
I hope everything is going well....
You will lose lose lose!
Yea I am almost down to a size 22 and feeling pretty good about it. and I can wear a size 22 bathing suit. I just need to work on the bench more, because the top tank is a little tight. But the bottoms are perfect. I tried them on last year and the bottoms were busting out lol ..a lot different this year! Which I am very happy about!
ttylater
love yas
your friend
natalie jo
**hugs, kisses**
nataliejo
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Hello everyone,
I am thinking a good swift kick in the arse might make me move..hmm.. I havent been walking much. I want to... kind ... of ...maybe I am bored of walking. I can't be, that new route was so wonderful...
Any suggestions on how I can exercise with out walking?
ttylater
love yas
always
natalie jo
I am thinking a good swift kick in the arse might make me move..hmm.. I havent been walking much. I want to... kind ... of ...maybe I am bored of walking. I can't be, that new route was so wonderful...
Any suggestions on how I can exercise with out walking?
ttylater
love yas
always
natalie jo
nataliejo
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Im not liking my scale everyone, because it says 271.4 pounds, and I just dont believe that! lol No way! This can't be happening to me. I don't believe it at all. I am taking metformin and it says you gain weight and if you exercise with it you can lose weight. But I have to take it to make my metabolism work correctly. I haven't eaten a lot today, but my fair share... lol
but I did do aerobics for ten minutes and I am going to try to do more...
well another ten minutes here I come! lol
ttylater lovies
love yas
natalie jo
btw .. I just don't trust the scale at all
man am I sweating from dancing, I also did jumping jacks.. holy meow ..that was rather difficult with my fat body lol
but I did it! lol
love yas
natalie jo
but I did do aerobics for ten minutes and I am going to try to do more...
well another ten minutes here I come! lol
ttylater lovies
love yas
natalie jo
btw .. I just don't trust the scale at all
man am I sweating from dancing, I also did jumping jacks.. holy meow ..that was rather difficult with my fat body lol
but I did it! lol
love yas
natalie jo
<3phobic<3
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hello!
im new here... i was reading some of your diary and i think you are soo awesome... good job on the weightloss!!!
im new here... i was reading some of your diary and i think you are soo awesome... good job on the weightloss!!!
nataliejo
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thanks Phobic,
I appreciate your kind words. I hope you reach your goals. I checked out your thread on the newcomers section and it sounds like a good amount of time to lost weight consistantly ...
thanks for dropping in
always
natalie jo
nataliejo
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Ok Everyone,
I am going to stop taking my metformin. I know it makes my metabolism work correctly, but I dont want to lose it fast and than be taken off the pill and wham everything comes back on.. I would rather do it the extremely hard way with lots of exercise and diet or apart of the journey and just beat my metabolism up a little and say "come on buddy! Work right!" lol
So I am only taking one like I have been and will start by walking once again my new route, which will be fun, because after that I get to extend it to my longer route, until I am doing two hours in August! So walking here I come. I am recharged and ready to go. I know my weight will be higher tomorrow, because I didn't take the second metformin, but I am not going to let the metabolism beat me .. I am going to beat it ...
so I shall be working on my techniques, btw did you know going up and down the stairs about twenty times, makes your legs feel like jello lol wowswer ..and we have steep steps ...plus I did ten minutes of aerobics and jumping jacks, but next time.. I am going to go walking...
I want to do this, need to do this. I need to struggle and just get through it ..
well ttylater everyone
I think I am starting to get a better perspective. ..
Edit: doing another thirty up and than thirty down the stairs. That will really get my heart going, plus the cleaning I am doing now, which takes me up and down the stairs too, its all good folks!!
love yas
always
natalie jo
I am going to stop taking my metformin. I know it makes my metabolism work correctly, but I dont want to lose it fast and than be taken off the pill and wham everything comes back on.. I would rather do it the extremely hard way with lots of exercise and diet or apart of the journey and just beat my metabolism up a little and say "come on buddy! Work right!" lol
So I am only taking one like I have been and will start by walking once again my new route, which will be fun, because after that I get to extend it to my longer route, until I am doing two hours in August! So walking here I come. I am recharged and ready to go. I know my weight will be higher tomorrow, because I didn't take the second metformin, but I am not going to let the metabolism beat me .. I am going to beat it ...
so I shall be working on my techniques, btw did you know going up and down the stairs about twenty times, makes your legs feel like jello lol wowswer ..and we have steep steps ...plus I did ten minutes of aerobics and jumping jacks, but next time.. I am going to go walking...
I want to do this, need to do this. I need to struggle and just get through it ..
well ttylater everyone
I think I am starting to get a better perspective. ..
Edit: doing another thirty up and than thirty down the stairs. That will really get my heart going, plus the cleaning I am doing now, which takes me up and down the stairs too, its all good folks!!
love yas
always
natalie jo
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nataliejo
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Hello everyone,
Now I am back to 274.4 pounds, which is really good. I figured I would be above 275 once I came off the second Metformin! Not bad, so no moving my ticker up, but a little down, by .6 oz. But I am not going to move it until I get down one or two more pounds. My ticker is always higher in pounds than what I actually am. I like to leave my ticker up, until I actually reach a lower pounds. When I hit the 273 I will move it down one more pound to 2274 ..
anyway ttylater everyone..
I am actually happy with my weight!
ttylater
love yas
always
natalie jo
Now I am back to 274.4 pounds, which is really good. I figured I would be above 275 once I came off the second Metformin! Not bad, so no moving my ticker up, but a little down, by .6 oz. But I am not going to move it until I get down one or two more pounds. My ticker is always higher in pounds than what I actually am. I like to leave my ticker up, until I actually reach a lower pounds. When I hit the 273 I will move it down one more pound to 2274 ..
anyway ttylater everyone..
I am actually happy with my weight!
ttylater
love yas
always
natalie jo
Hi, chickee! Glad you are moving towards that size 22 for summer - you can TOTALLY do it! Regarding Metformin, I wonder if you should have a chat with your doc about going off of it. They usually have a pretty specific reason for starting you on it, and sometimes it can really mess you up to stop taking meds cold turkey (rather than cutting down the dosage slowly). If I read your posts right, it seems like you actually lost weight while on it??? That's great!
Anyway, you know I am cheering for you in
and love to know how you are progressing!Cheers
ABBA
heathercb04
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Hey there doll!! Congrats on the new suit size! That has to be totally exciting.
I only know metformin as something to treat diabetes - that's not what you're using it for, is it? I know you said you have metabolic syndrome which I am also unfamiliar with so maybe I should just keep my nose out of it!!
Whatever you decide, make sure it's a safe thing to do for your body.
Have a FABULOUS weekend!
I only know metformin as something to treat diabetes - that's not what you're using it for, is it? I know you said you have metabolic syndrome which I am also unfamiliar with so maybe I should just keep my nose out of it!!
Whatever you decide, make sure it's a safe thing to do for your body. Have a FABULOUS weekend!
nataliejo
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Hey there doll!! Congrats on the new suit size! That has to be totally exciting.
I only know metformin as something to treat diabetes - that's not what you're using it for, is it? I know you said you have metabolic syndrome which I am also unfamiliar with so maybe I should just keep my nose out of it!!
Have a FABULOUS weekend!
Yea Heather thats why they are treating me, its for diabeties. To make sure I dont get it. When my suger is low with one metformin it will drop to 103 maybe, otherwise its between 100-200 MG/dL
If I take two it drops down to normal range, which is 85 MG/dL
but when I drop into normal range I get extra hungry, and my headaches start and I lose weight (which is nice), but I could lose ten to fifteen pounds in one month, and I dont want that. With Metabolic Syndrome, the suger that would be fat can't get into the cells, because the insulin isnt working, so I am only taking 500, because I dont want to lose weight fast... so my metabolic syndrome is getting slightly better. I would lose all this weight in one year if I took the other metaformin, but I can't. I get severe stomach pains and have started eating at night to combat the acid that comes into my throat. I am going to lose, but learn bad eating habits to try to make the acid stop and it hurts soooooooooooo damn bad. I just cant take the other 500.. I think I need more like 800, but she is demanding I take all 1000 mg. I just cant do that, it is too strong a dose. I see her in three months. I will discuss to her a lower dosage than 1000 mg and tell her what happens when I take the second pill. The first weight to go when I take the second pill is the stomach area, which is why metabolic syndrome it my problem, it starts when you have tummy fat on your lower abdomen..which I have a lot, but have steadfastly worked some off just by walking. Its very difficult for me to lose weight, but I can do it with only 500 mg of Metformin. I just started this a week ago, so I think I will be ok cutting it out. I dont want to lose it this way. I realize all the fat goes to my tummy, but I am going to do tummy exercises ..with my aerobics, which I have been and I am going to try and find "Fit TV" and maybe they will have some good work outs. But I need to start walking again. And thats really big for me...
ttylater
love yas
your friend
natalie jo
nataliejo
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Regarding Metformin, I wonder if you should have a chat with your doc about going off of it. They usually have a pretty specific reason for starting you on it, and sometimes it can really mess you up to stop taking meds cold turkey (rather than cutting down the dosage slowly). If I read your posts right, it seems like you actually lost weight while on it??? That's great!
Anyway, you know I am cheering for you in
Cheers
ABBA
Well now that I have taken myself of 500 mg of Metformin. I dont think I will be a size 22 until Next September, which is fine with me lol I would rather lose it the slow way than the harsh fast way. I am learning descent ways to eat and I need to kick more exercise in, like walking. and eventually biking. I am going hiking next weekend, on Saturday just to the boulders and fields, its half way up the mountain and has a beautiful site. There is a pond on top of that part and its absolutely beautiful and than when I get better at hiking we will go up the tower way ... It will be nice to spend quality time together. Peter and I have a lot of fun together, I just hope we aren't too different. Going to read the book he is reading, maybe he and I can chat about it .. I have already started .. "Moonlight and Vines" by Charles de Lint... its wonderful!
ttylater
love yas
always
your friend
natalie jo
btw ..still in a size 22 bathing suit, but I might try the 24 on, to see if it still fits, because its such a sexy bathing suit. I am actually between a 24 and 22, so I am not going to buy a new bathing suit .. I have two suits that are size 22 and a couple that are 24s .. I know the other 24s will be way too big.. but this one always hugged me ..so its really hot ..shows off the girls ..always good ..especially will be great in front of Peter lol
he wants to see me in a bathing suit &blushing&
he is so awesome
just a man too
love yas
natalie jo