nataliejo's diary: Moving, flowing, grooving forward... change is coming...

Hey, I'm so glad your date went well! Isn't that first-date feeling just lovely? I almost miss dating when I remember how a good one can really set you up. I hope the next one is just as wonderful!

Sophie
 
jw372 said:
Hey, I'm so glad your date went well! Isn't that first-date feeling just lovely? I almost miss dating when I remember how a good one can really set you up. I hope the next one is just as wonderful!

Sophie
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Thanks Sophie!!
I had so much fun .. It was actually my first date ever in my whole life. I have never been on a real date. Guys have been so disrespectful toward me and for once I had a real man take me out. It feels good hun ..

thanks
love yas
your friend
natalie jo :driving:
 
I am not in love, but I am lovely! :)

This is girls and guys, it was Magical!! BUT
I am NOT in "love" ..and thats never happened before. Its usually pretty instant for me. AND I thought I was falling for him, but I don't feel like that anymore. I just feel, I dont feel in love. I like him, but it was a real date and we are going to take our time and "go with the flow" as he says to me, or was before we met in person. He is so right. AND I feel good taking my time for once. I am not in a rush and that feels good. For once I am not in love, just like. And he won't tear me apart. I won't let anyone do that to me. U know. And he showed me so respect, that I don't think I have to worry for once about that, but I am not emotionally attached as I thought before... is that wierd gals and guys? is it wierd?

I dont know ..
I really felt like a princess and am going to enjoy my time with him and if he continues to treat me so wonderfully, than I hope we do well together and we end up ..together .. u know ...I am thirty ... and I almost feel like its time the right one came along.. ITs been a long 30 years.. from birth I was hurt by men. My father even tried to kill me, but I resolved everything with my dad.. he loves me and I love him ...

so ... my life is going well ..and I am losing weight ..and I am taking my break, but go back to school in September .. and 2008 will continue to rock and I will be rocking these pounds off and it feels like I am actually going somewhere in this life ... I feel like I am actually making my way ..the right way ..because I have been so lost until I started meeting all of you on this weight loss forum .. just like Janice said ..in turning my life toward my weight, I have started organizing my life ..and its odd ..but its working .. I am working .. I am his princess as well! lmao .. jk .. I am not a princess, but man I hope he comes back, because that was such a wonderful feeling lol

ttylater all
love yas always
natalie jo :party:
 
Hey girl! I love your journal. :) I'm so incredibly happy for you that the date went so amazingly!!!!!!!!! :hug2: That's just awesome. It's so wonderful to hear the positivity when you talk about your weight loss and your lifestyle changes and how you're moving in your journey - fantastic!!!

My boy looks like a hot shrek too. ;) Hehe I love that description!!! He self-describes his hands as "big shrek hands". But there's something endearing about a shrek!!! I'm super happy for you and I hope you have a million more magical dates with Peter :)
 
Im glad all went well chicky and you enjoyedmeeting him and he made you feel like a princess - that is awesome:):):)!!!It is always nice when our expectations are meet and we see it and get to experience it:):):)!!!
 
Ok girls,
like my lack of motivation is back.. I dont know what to say ..its awful!!
I want to walk and than Im like ..no I wont .. I dont .. I dont feel like it ..

what is going on?
Maybe I am bored of walking..hmm
but I think I need to start new routes ... tomorrow I am definitely going walking but probably at eleven am ... I need to ..want to .. I need my butt kicking into high gear .. I need to do this .. I am still losing weight ..havent been eating much .. kind of down ..probably part of the lack of motivation .. I have gone down in weight ..not good .. I was unhealthily not happy and not mobile today much .. I got weak ..because I was hungry ..finally ate a small bowl of cereal .. I flet better after a half hour ..of digesting it ...

but still felt a little icky

I am just worried ..stressed ..tired ..lonely ... ugh

I need a vacation from myself! lmao
well Peter called he said I was being silly and freaking out over nothing .. I dont even want to go into it girls ..but lets just say I thus an ass

so he and I are fine ..
I need to walk desperately ...

I will tomorrow

well love yas
gals
ttylater
natalie jo :driving:
 
Oh, if you'll permit a tiny bit of advice from someone who's ruined every relationship she's ever been in, don't, don't, don't stress about this. Seriously, there's no way to wreck things faster. Keep busy, go for a walk, bake a loaf of bread, do whatever you need to do to keep your insecurities from taking over and making problems for you.

Sophie
 
I think that maybe you are bored of walking and once you start your new route, you will be motivated again. Maybe when you start your new route you should update or change the music on your mp3.

Oh and I’d suggest that if you don’t want to walk tomorrow, maybe just put on some dance music and shake your booty for a bit. Dancing is always fun and way better than sitting and doing nothing. I know that before I joined this site, I would pop in my Hairspray soundtrack or movie, dance, and sing to it. Haha… I’m lame. I even do that with my other Musical / Dance movies like Grease or Step Up. But hey, making a fool out of yourself sometimes is hella fun and dance movies make me happy. So, if you don’t wanna walk just shake it like a salt shaker!
:party:

Hope tomorrow is better.

Later Hun,
Veronica
 
jw372 said:
Oh, if you'll permit a tiny bit of advice from someone who's ruined every relationship she's ever been in, don't, don't, don't stress about this. Seriously, there's no way to wreck things faster. Keep busy, go for a walk, bake a loaf of bread, do whatever you need to do to keep your insecurities from taking over and making problems for you.

Sophie
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I know your right Sophie!
and Thanks for your advice ..
that was what my therapist actually told me, what you just said ...

thanks for reminding me :)

love yas
always
natalie jo :Angel_anim:
 
veronandez86 said:
I think that maybe you are bored of walking and once you start your new route, you will be motivated again. Maybe when you start your new route you should update or change the music on your mp3.

Oh and I’d suggest that if you don’t want to walk tomorrow, maybe just put on some dance music and shake your booty for a bit. Dancing is always fun and way better than sitting and doing nothing. I know that before I joined this site, I would pop in my Hairspray soundtrack or movie, dance, and sing to it. Haha… I’m lame. I even do that with my other Musical / Dance movies like Grease or Step Up. But hey, making a fool out of yourself sometimes is hella fun and dance movies make me happy. So, if you don’t wanna walk just shake it like a salt shaker!
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Hope tomorrow is better.

Later Hun,
Veronica
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Thanks Veronica..
I think I am going to do my dance dvds ..or my pilates for dummies dvd which is EXTREMELY hard
you have to lift your legs over your mid section and go down again ...all in fluid motions .. I have all my exercise dvds here
and I have a hip hop dance one ..with the tango too lol belly dance ..everything lol very good dvds..

ttylater hun
love yas
always
natalie jo :party:
 
cinderelly said:
Im glad all went well chicky and you enjoyedmeeting him and he made you feel like a princess - that is awesome:):):)!!!It is always nice when our expectations are meet and we see it and get to experience it:):):)!!!
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Thanks Cinderelly ...
Thank you for your well wishes hun!!
Things are going good now ..we are talking right now
I really like this guy
I think I am falling for him ..we are going on our fourth week of talking

thanks hun and I weigh less too lol
ttylater hun
love yas
always
natalie jo :party:
 
heathercb04 said:
Hey girl! I love your journal. :) I'm so incredibly happy for you that the date went so amazingly!!!!!!!!! :hug2: That's just awesome. It's so wonderful to hear the positivity when you talk about your weight loss and your lifestyle changes and how you're moving in your journey - fantastic!!!

My boy looks like a hot shrek too. ;) Hehe I love that description!!! He self-describes his hands as "big shrek hands". But there's something endearing about a shrek!!! I'm super happy for you and I hope you have a million more magical dates with Peter :)
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He definitely has ths shrek personality ..and I think its cute..lol and he is shrek like ..lol I love it totally!

Thanks for stopping in Heather..

Thanks to everyone!
You guys have put me in a good mood ... :)

love yas
always
natalie joooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo:party:
 
My= "Food Addiction" slip up!

Hello everyone,

I am going to be utterly honest. I have been binging for the past couple weeks. Its getting worse, but I started reading my "Conquering Your Food Addiction" again and have stopped binging once again. So thats good. I had lost the book and can't seem to move on to step two, because I keep slipping up. I really have slipped up now. I don't even want to jump on the scale. I am so afraid to see. I can still do something about this. I am going to start tomorrow with a half a sandwhich in the morning. And in the afternoon going to have a healthy choice, low sodium, soup...
and finish with dinner, but I am not sure yet what that will be.

But I am done .. I will always be a food addict, because these are behaviors from back when I was a kid .. I would eat for celebration .. I would eat if I was sad, angry, upset... especially sad although ...

I am going for a nice walk tomorrow. Don't know how long. But I havent walked for a week or two. Been in here online. I am done chilling online lmao .. I am so bored .. thats why I can keep up with the diaries, because I spend too much time online. I am going to make myself so busy that I will have a hard time catching up on diaries lol

like it was before lol
I have been skipping out on reporting today, because I feel so bad, so ashamed of how much I have let go.

Thing is I noticed my stomach is going inward, so this is the time to do it ...to shake up my diet and take this thing on ..because Im at a point where I could gain the weight back slowly, or continue to lose weight and lose what I have probably gained, which I have no clue what that is, because I haven't weighed myself like I should be ...

I usually weigh myself to keep my motivation up and it does, but I am afraid to get on the scale, because I know will have gained probably two to three pounds, so I have work to do ... so walking tomorrow, probably thirty to forty minutes and build it up again ..
I am so dedicated to this. I am going to work on reading my food addict book and really get the info down and the behaviors take care of ..and start better behaviors where I dont eat all these things at once, when I only eat when I am hungry.. u know ..instead of grazing ... or grazing on things that can do "harm" to my body ..waistline and my diabeties.. well I dont need that anymore...and if I lose weight like I should I would be rid of the metabolic syndrome because I have lower belly fat ..but the belly is coming in .. I no longer have the belly hanging over my stomach at all ..no apron anymore ..I need to keep it off now and pull my stomach in even further ...

so .. there we go ..thats whats been going on with my weight loss

and now I promise I will continue to lose and this is a promise to myself. Sure I slip up, but the one thing that helps me is to read that book and to do my journaling ..

so ..heres to the next ten pounds to lose ... :party::party::party:

love yas all
always
your friend
natalie jo :grouphug:
 
I think maybe most of us are going to have periods of falling off the wagon. I hope making you say it here will help you get back on track with the changes that you want to make. And look the scale in the face! It may be a scary number, but it'll be less scary than whatever you're imagining.

Sophie
 
I second Sophie's comment! Many times after I've indulged, I've expected horrifying things from the scale and what it was actually wasn't that bad. You aren't a failure if you gain back 3lbs. The most important thing is the stuff you are learning to make a healthy lifestyle. It's not about the numbers!! It's about helping to maximize the performance of the already PERFECT body that you have!! :) And if that leads to weight loss, then great! All about being good to yourself and loving your body. :)

None of us are perfect 100% of the time. No worries. You're still doing the right thing by reading your book and learning more about healthy eating as well as getting your exercise in there. :) Yay for you! :hurray:
 
cinderelly said:
It was brave of you to admitt that - good on you for it :)Now just one step at a time and continue on as you were...
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Thanks Cinderelly!!I appreciate your very kind words. :iagree: ITs nice. I actually went out for a walk today and almost passed out from being tired lmao
Talk about getting back on the bandwagon at nine thirty this morning, while just getting up at eight fifty am! lol I was falling over almost ... :hurray:

well ttylater hun
love yas
natalie jo :)
 
jw372 said:
I think maybe most of us are going to have periods of falling off the wagon. I hope making you say it here will help you get back on track with the changes that you want to make. And look the scale in the face! It may be a scary number, but it'll be less scary than whatever you're imagining.

Sophie
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The Scale said 177.4! lol ok so I have gained about two pounds, I can take it off Sophie... :) Thanks you kindly for your words!!
Your right, band wagon I have returned, move over everyone!!lol :iagree:

love yas
always :cheers2:
natalie jo
 
heathercb04 said:
I second Sophie's comment! Many times after I've indulged, I've expected horrifying things from the scale and what it was actually wasn't that bad. You aren't a failure if you gain back 3lbs. The most important thing is the stuff you are learning to make a healthy lifestyle. It's not about the numbers!! It's about helping to maximize the performance of the already PERFECT body that you have!! :) And if that leads to weight loss, then great! All about being good to yourself and loving your body. :)

None of us are perfect 100% of the time. No worries. You're still doing the right thing by reading your book and learning more about healthy eating as well as getting your exercise in there. :) Yay for you! :hurray:
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Thanks Heather!! I am back and better than ever. The WALK was still too easy, the only problem I had was I was really exhausted lmao

well ttylater hun
and thank you much for your words
the scale didnt read that back ..about two pounds back! You were right!:iagree:

Now I must lose them! lol :hurray:
ttylater hun
love yas
natalie jo
always :cheers2:
 
Ok gals! and guys if there are any lurking! lol

I have officially jumped back on the bandwagon. Went for a twenty two minute walk whiile almost flying flat on my face, while laughing about it...lol
I woke up at 8:50 am and was out the door by 9:30 am .. I was so exhausted when I woke up, I didnt even want to wake up, but I totally shocked myself when I walked lol but I could barely move.. I couldnt go instep with my legs.. couldnt find my rythm much ..and as I was walking home on my hill I felt like a drunk and cracked up lol because I couldnt walk straight ..yet I had a bottle of water in my hand lol ...

so it was hillarious .. I am sure peeps got a kick out of me! lol I would have fun in the other direction from myself. :willy_nilly: lol I felt like a ghost ...trying to walk ..... but it didnt work lol but I did get hot and sweat it up ..because THE SUN was incredible .. it was beautiful out everyone...well worth the wake up call ...

I am back.... :hurray::hurray::hurray:

and I bought suger free jello...for those times I want to eat ..I love the suger free jello ...

ttylater lovies
love yas
always
natalie jo :hurray::hurray::hurray:
 
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