Well Everyone,
I just read the first page of my diary in January. And I was 294 pounds, and in June when I joined I was 300.... so I have come far, but have so much farther to go, but its funny, I am right on target goal weight lmao
in the first entry I said
that I wanted to be 270.0 pounds by May, wow. I am 276.6 as of two days ago. I didn't get to weigh myself this morning. I automatically took a shower and dressed. I didnt go downstairs like usual and with my pjs weigh myself at nine am.. which is actually good. lol so I am not a slave to the scale, but I do like weighing every other day. I think I have gained... I kind of had four tsp of peanut butter and am paying for it now, suger high can we say!! My eyes are killing me. I can barely see, now I remember why I am taking metformin! I didnt take it earlier, not to mention peanut butter does this to me everytime! Yes I forget and I keep craving it, and I don't touch, but never think why not, until I eat some peanut butter and end up having a glare in my pupils from the suger... so I need to stay away from the sweet stuff as much as I can. I did eat three suger cookies last night, which than my stomach felt better. I think the suger coats my stomach and it makes me feel better, which is AWFUL!! I am hooked, but I am not sticking with the hook lol My mom is picking my suger free jellos up tonight ..its a pack of twenty four with aspartame. Thats what I am the slave too, if I want anything sweet I have to take in aspartame ..forget the scale ..try some substitue lmao
but anyway .. my pcp seems happy anything .. I have lost fifteen pounds since she last saw me which is really good ... I see her in a few months .. hopefully I will be down to 270.0 like I want to be, or even less, but probably wont be less, but as the weather gets warmer.. I will be out there more and I have to start walking on rainy days .. I mean why else did I get a rain coat ..that is wayyyyyyyyy too big .. I wish I had gotten the smaller one .. I look so fat in the jacket ..bahhh ... I will wear it anyway and by the end of the summer it will be huge on me ..but most of the time I walk with out anything except my clothes on in the rain and than the suns comes out and dries me off by the time I get home lmao .. but there were a few weeks where all we got was rain and it stunk .. I didnt have any way of walking in it lol ... no umbrella ..well I have an umbrella ..stole mine back from mom ... finally ..and I have an umbrella and rain gear ...so no more slacking ..tomorrow its supposed to clear by the afternoon ...and I am going walking ..no sun ..yuck ..but I dont mind clouds ..as long as I dont get wet ..so once it stops tomorrow afternoon after Peter leaves I am going for a walk ..while I am pouting because he has left lol till our hopeful second date ..
girls I really like this guy!!!!!!!!!!!! lol wish me the best ..
love yas
I will tell you everything tomorrow lol
ttylater
love yas
natalie jo
