Feuer
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I decided to try a diary even though I am not the diary-type. I wanted to give it a shot for two reasons: 1) personal accountability, and 2) so maybe passerbyers can point out my problems (and I have lots!).
I decided to call this diary "my struggle" because my weight has been a struggle my entire life. This is porbably the zillionth time I am trying to make a go at it again.
To begin with, I am 5'1" and currently weigh 238....down 15 lbs. from starting at 253. I have no concrete goal, as I do nto know what I will settle out to be in the long run. Currently I am just working on small things and lifestyle changes. I am 30 and have 3 children.
A brief history. I was extremely athletic growing up. I was a gymnast for 6 years, played soccer for 5, basketball, tennis, scuba diving, swimming, etc. In highschool my weight held around 155, even though I was involved in sports, did aerobics every other day, and worked out at the gym on between days on nautilus and bike. Tried slim fast-- didn't lose. Tried weight watchers, didn't lose. When I was almost 17, I stopped working out alltogether and stopped eating. I dropped down to 123 and didn't look very healthy. (I have large bones.) I began doing aerobics again and gained up to 135, eating 1 normal meal a day and a cup of oatmeal in the evenings.
At 19 I got pregnant with my first child and gained over 70 lbs. with the pregnancy. Post pregnancy I was 185 lbs. This is significant because I have never gotten below 185 since then and that was 10 years ago. During the past 10 years I have fluctuated between 185-250 thereabouts. I go down, I go up. Both times that I was high (around 250) was when I got pregnant with my second and third children. I have tried just about every pill and program out there, but everytime I get down to 185 I hold steady and nothing budges.
I would like to get down to around 160-some ideally. Maybe it sounds odd, but I just want to be in a lose size 14. It would be heaven to be my pre-baby weight down to 155 or less, but I have given up that dream years ago. On the plus, I have a good shape even though I am large. I still have an hourglass figure and no rolls around the midsection. I consider that my only compensation for being large.
Several months ago I began using a certain workout video that I bought. I won't mention the name just because the rules of the forum said something about not advertising things and so I don't want to be guilty of that. I am not here to push nor promote the product, although I do absolutely love it for a workout video. It is right there with my style. Using the video and a low carb diet, I began losing weight. Recently I developed a severe dairy allergy. This has changed my entire way of eating. I cannot have dairy even in trace amounts, and not soy either because many soy products contain the part of the dairy that I am allergic to. I was sick for the past several months while testing the extent of the allergy and learning to read labels, so I haven't worked out at all. I am just getting back into working out.
My plan this week: work out 30 minutes a day (and next week 30 min.-1 hr.), at least 4 days a week.
food: goal to drink 1 bottle of water a day. (I'll eventually work up to two.) A second food goal is to continue to monitor my diet for dairy. I am still working on building my diet around no dairy, so I do not get sick. I guess I cna just post what things I eat every day.
I know that part of my biggest problem with eating is two fold:1) I do not eat enough throughout the day. It is difficult for me to eat several small meals/snacks, and most days I am still a one meal a day person. 2) I some times have binge days (which I refer to as my "bullemic tendencies" because I have never been a true bullemic.)
I am not a sweets person, nor a snack person, so I don't have problems in that department. Also, I home cook all of our meals and do not use salt nor butter (occasionally small amounts of olive oil or coconut oil). I boil and bake mostly. I do not even own a microwave, nor do I fry anything.
I think that if I could re-condition myself to eat small snacks/meals during the day then I would lose more. I think it would keep my metabolism active. So, that is my goal also I suppose.
That makes 4 goals: water, workout, no dairy, and several small snacks/meals.
I decided to call this diary "my struggle" because my weight has been a struggle my entire life. This is porbably the zillionth time I am trying to make a go at it again.
To begin with, I am 5'1" and currently weigh 238....down 15 lbs. from starting at 253. I have no concrete goal, as I do nto know what I will settle out to be in the long run. Currently I am just working on small things and lifestyle changes. I am 30 and have 3 children.
A brief history. I was extremely athletic growing up. I was a gymnast for 6 years, played soccer for 5, basketball, tennis, scuba diving, swimming, etc. In highschool my weight held around 155, even though I was involved in sports, did aerobics every other day, and worked out at the gym on between days on nautilus and bike. Tried slim fast-- didn't lose. Tried weight watchers, didn't lose. When I was almost 17, I stopped working out alltogether and stopped eating. I dropped down to 123 and didn't look very healthy. (I have large bones.) I began doing aerobics again and gained up to 135, eating 1 normal meal a day and a cup of oatmeal in the evenings.
At 19 I got pregnant with my first child and gained over 70 lbs. with the pregnancy. Post pregnancy I was 185 lbs. This is significant because I have never gotten below 185 since then and that was 10 years ago. During the past 10 years I have fluctuated between 185-250 thereabouts. I go down, I go up. Both times that I was high (around 250) was when I got pregnant with my second and third children. I have tried just about every pill and program out there, but everytime I get down to 185 I hold steady and nothing budges.
I would like to get down to around 160-some ideally. Maybe it sounds odd, but I just want to be in a lose size 14. It would be heaven to be my pre-baby weight down to 155 or less, but I have given up that dream years ago. On the plus, I have a good shape even though I am large. I still have an hourglass figure and no rolls around the midsection. I consider that my only compensation for being large.
Several months ago I began using a certain workout video that I bought. I won't mention the name just because the rules of the forum said something about not advertising things and so I don't want to be guilty of that. I am not here to push nor promote the product, although I do absolutely love it for a workout video. It is right there with my style. Using the video and a low carb diet, I began losing weight. Recently I developed a severe dairy allergy. This has changed my entire way of eating. I cannot have dairy even in trace amounts, and not soy either because many soy products contain the part of the dairy that I am allergic to. I was sick for the past several months while testing the extent of the allergy and learning to read labels, so I haven't worked out at all. I am just getting back into working out.
My plan this week: work out 30 minutes a day (and next week 30 min.-1 hr.), at least 4 days a week.
food: goal to drink 1 bottle of water a day. (I'll eventually work up to two.) A second food goal is to continue to monitor my diet for dairy. I am still working on building my diet around no dairy, so I do not get sick. I guess I cna just post what things I eat every day.
I know that part of my biggest problem with eating is two fold:1) I do not eat enough throughout the day. It is difficult for me to eat several small meals/snacks, and most days I am still a one meal a day person. 2) I some times have binge days (which I refer to as my "bullemic tendencies" because I have never been a true bullemic.)
I am not a sweets person, nor a snack person, so I don't have problems in that department. Also, I home cook all of our meals and do not use salt nor butter (occasionally small amounts of olive oil or coconut oil). I boil and bake mostly. I do not even own a microwave, nor do I fry anything.
I think that if I could re-condition myself to eat small snacks/meals during the day then I would lose more. I think it would keep my metabolism active. So, that is my goal also I suppose.
That makes 4 goals: water, workout, no dairy, and several small snacks/meals.
Everytime I get to a 16 I just get stuck and my body doesn't want to budge. This time I WILL get to that 14. 
Soy seems to be a popular ingrediant these days.