My Story

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I am still here! Yay! I am cleaning my closet and listening to music, so I decided to browse around the site when my computer is already on! I will definately check those songs out. I do not know what kind of music do you like, but here's a great song to listen -- Kylie Minoque -- In my arms. I apsolutely love it!

I also love the change in your attitude. You seem so much happier! And happy is exactly what you should be. You have came so far, and you are an inspiration to so many around you. I am sure there are people around you who look up to you much more than you are aware of, because of your strengh of will and power to overcome what many cannot! So kudos dear, and amen! Haha.

Keep me updated! I will be here again really soon!

Lots of love Rach

Awws, thank you Skimmy!! (I love that nickname) LOL. I'll def. check that song out. Kylie is good, I've always appreciated her music.

I am happier, chica!! I love feeling good about myself. It's taken me so long to realize that I just *need* to be happy with *myself* because if I am, not only with others find me approachable, I believe I'm more attractive because of it. I think if one is proud of themself and happy with themself, they become *that much more* enjoyable to hang out with.

I was just over at your journal hon, and I remembered a moment I'd like to share. It always makes me *this close* to crying. I remember it was last spring and my dad was away in Texas. He was attending an extremely important meeting, and I knew this, but I didn't care. I was in the dressing room and for the first time in nine years, I slipped on a pair of 14s. I was freaking out with elation. I called my dad then and left him a message. I don't recall right now what I said exactly but it was along the lines of..."Daddy, I can't believe it, but I just put on a pair of fourteens. I haven't been this size in nine years! Can you believe it?! I'm really sorry I interrupted your meeting, but I HAD to tell you. I love you SO MUCH and I'll talk to you later and man, I'm just so excited!!"

Two minutes later, my phone rings and it's my dad. I say..."Daddy, I thought you were in a meeting, that's why I left you a message." And he tells me. "I was honey, but I excused myself to tell you how proud I am of you." This made me so emo and I was testing the water and said "So your meeting's not over?" He answers "Nope, but I wanted to tell you right away how proud I am of you and how great I think you're doing." And I ask him..."You walked out of your very important meeting JUST to tell me that?" (at this point I was on the verge of tears) and he tells me "Yep. Of course. I love you honey. I think it's wonderful that you're doing this."

That will always and forever be one of my fav memories. That was prolly one of THE MOST important conventions of his life, and he stepped out to talk to me for three minutes. I will love him forever, my dad. He's made of nothing but awesome.

Alright, now I'm going to tear up again...lol... have to go grab some more coffee before I start crying a river. Haha.

 

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Two minutes later, my phone rings and it's my dad. I say..."Daddy, I thought you were in a meeting, that's why I left you a message." And he tells me. "I was honey, but I excused myself to tell you how proud I am of you." This made me so emo and I was testing the water and said "So your meeting's not over?" He answers "Nope, but I wanted to tell you right away how proud I am of you and how great I think you're doing." And I ask him..."You walked out of your very important meeting JUST to tell me that?" (at this point I was on the verge of tears) and he tells me "Yep. Of course. I love you honey. I think it's wonderful that you're doing this."

That will always and forever be one of my fav memories. That was prolly one of THE MOST important conventions of his life, and he stepped out to talk to me for three minutes. I will love him forever, my dad. He's made of nothing but awesome.

That's so awesome. I'm a total Daddy's girl too, so I can relate. Have you ever seen Armageddon? Makes me cry every time.

 

[skimmilk]

Omygoodness. That's such a touching story! It made me tear up too! Obviously I am still here, haha, I guess I am addicted now . I loved reading this post. Your dad must have been so proud in that moment. It's just wonderful... It inspired me to make my mom once as proud of me as your dad was with you. Once again, this really touched me!

I love your posts.

 

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Omygoodness. That's such a touching story! It made me tear up too! Obviously I am still here, haha, I guess I am addicted now . I loved reading this post. Your dad must have been so proud in that moment. It's just wonderful... It inspired me to make my mom once as proud of me as your dad was with you. Once again, this really touched me!

I love your posts.

Thank you so much, hon! I love your posts too. They make my day, no joke.

My dad is made of hardcore awesomeness. He's my support and my emotional comfort. I can talk to him about anything, and he'll never see me differently. I'll always be his baby. I don't know what I'd do without him. He's like my best friend and my father in the same wonderful person. I'm SUCH a daddy's girl, it isn't even funny.

BTW, I'm doing laundry today and watching a The West Wing marathon. I LOVE this show. It's so extremely well written and it's NEVER,ever boring. Truth be told, I knew nothing of politics before I became obsessed with this entertianment, now I actually *know* what a press secretary does. LOL.

 

[Trevor10]

Hey rach!


I'm having a bad day..but i hope yours is going great! I will fill ya in tonight

have a good day,
Trevor

 

[skimmilk]

Thank you so much, hon! I love your posts too. They make my day, no joke.

My dad is made of hardcore awesomeness. He's my support and my emotional comfort. I can talk to him about anything, and he'll never see me differently. I'll always be his baby. I don't know what I'd do without him. He's like my best friend and my father in the same wonderful person. I'm SUCH a daddy's girl, it isn't even funny.

BTW, I'm doing laundry today and watching a The West Wing marathon. I LOVE this show. It's so extremely well written and it's NEVER,ever boring. Truth be told, I knew nothing of politics before I became obsessed with this entertianment, now I actually *know* what a press secretary does. LOL.

Haha you're lovely. I think that the relationship between you and your dad is wonderful. It is so rare to hear something like that nowadays, when it's cool to bash on your parents and everything. He must be so proud of you and how far you came in your weight loss. Well, actually he already showed how proud he is when leaving his meeting just to talk to you and congratulate you.

I've been so into politics lately that it's not even funny! The political situation in Europe and in my country is so complex right now, that just thinking about it gives me a headache. I wish I am not as politically concious as I am right now, my life would be so much more careless. One thing I also realized -- politics is the easiest subject to get into a conflict for. Music, movies, beliefs, religion -- politics beats them all! Uh.

How was your day today dear?

 

[bikinibound]

Aww....Rae, your dad is so terrific! My dad is also a gem. I wouldn't trade him for anyone. He has ALWAYS been there when I needed him. Now I'm crying...lol. If I ever had an Armageddon moment of my own, I would probably sacrifice my dad over my H! If we had kids, that'd be different, but as we currently don't...

We girls who grow up with wonderful fathers are very lucky. I never knew how fortunate I was until I saw that some women got really ripped off in the daddy dept, and it tends to mess them up bigtime. Here's to our wonderful dads.

Your newfound bag o'veggies sounds yummy! I buy something similar to that, too.

 

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Ok, I'm officially confused. Some members call you Rae and some call you Rach.. just thought I'd ask if you answer to both or one is for certain people etc. Or, am I just losing my mind?? That's entirely possible ya know.

I have yet to finish this paper for tomorrow, hell I haven't even started it, so I better get to it.

I hope you have a wonderful evening and don't forget about the Lunar Eclipse!

 

[Invariant]

Hello loves!! I'm here to update!!

It is 1 o' clock in the morning and it's my most impressively late journal entry yet.

I've been IMing with guys all night. No, I'm not a player, it's simply because my spectrum of friends has a higher male ratio. As I've aforementioned in some post before. I just gone done talking to Trev and thought I'd make you all aware of my day.

Overall, it was very good. I was in an exceptionally light mood this morning which I surprisingly kept throughout the whole day. At b-ball practice, Mr. Confusion borrowed my MP3 player (again) and I suffered from momentary seperation anxiety from my constant companion. Thankfully I have a one gig stash of music that he doesn't know about it and I listened to it while running tonight.

4.8 miles in an hour, burning 615 cal total. That was the sum of tonight's exercise. I felt SO GOOD afterwards. It's been...five hours since I've ate last and I haven't had so much as a hunger pain. I never do after a good workout. Of course, I shove about three hundred cal of cereal down my starving throat before then.

Caloric intake for the day was around 1900, and after my workout, I consummed 1300 total. (I hate a 15 cal cough drop after my shower So, I'm doing pretty well staying within my daily range.

The family went to Dairy Queen and got blizzards this evening after Lenten service, and I was resolved to eat a fudgesicle. Twas very, very good with only fifty calories. It didn't set me off at all, becuase at this time, I'd only downed 1500 for the day. The rest of the four-hundred came from the GINORMOUS bowl of Cheerios I ate before my run. It really helps though. I can run at six miles and hour for twenty minutes and still have stammina if I eat enough carbs beforehand.

I really like this new routine of saving most of my cals for the nighttime. I really get a good workout because of it.

Well, I'm terribly tired now so I'm treading off to bed for my beauty sleep. I hope all of you have had wonderful Wednsdays and will have even better Thursdays.

And Photo, I go by ALL those names. Naturally, Rachael is my birth name and the rest are derivatives of it. Rae, Rach, Rae-Rae they're all tagged to me, even on some occasions I've been called "Your Highness" And "Dude, that was my fry." but I'm not addressed by those too often. I do hope explaining this helps you retain your sanity. Haha.

Love to you all...Rae

 

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And Photo, I go by ALL those names. Naturally, Rachael is my birth name and the rest are derivatives of it. Rae, Rach, Rae-Rae they're all tagged to me, even on some occasions I've been called "Your Highness" And "Dude, that was my fry." but I'm not addressed by those too often. I do hope explaining this helps you retain your sanity. Haha.

Love to you all...Rae

hmmm.. I'm kinda diggin' "Your hiney" for short of your highness. LMAO.

Ok, I'm so jealous that you can jog for 20 full minutes at 6.0 w/out stopping. Sigh. I wish I could do that. I'm really thinking about starting up that Couch to 5K program so that I can jog for longer periods of time and at a higher mph. Then perhaps enter myself into some 5K's and possibly 10Ks in the future. I bet you'd be great at doing some of those and it's too darn bad you are up in the land of cheese.

Well, I'm glad you ate well and hope you have a wonderful day. I'm currently waiting for my next class to begin at 11am my time, but will be hanging around a little online here and doing some research for a presentation.

Ciao!

 

[Omega]

Hi Rae

I loved the story about your father. He sounds absolutely brilliant - a man with his priorities absolutely right.

My Dad is great - but he doesnt know the difference between one clothes size and another to save his life.

What kind of BMI did you have when you started jogging or running? I love the way that you do such a lot of running. I havent ran in years (I havent dared to try) - but I am thinking that maybe I could because I can do aerobics.

The bags of veg sound good. I am sure that I would feel half starved if I didnt eat tons of veg.

I hope that you are having a good Thursday.

Take care
Love
Margaret

 

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hmmm.. I'm kinda diggin' "Your hiney" for short of your highness.

I love this!! "Your hiney." Oh, no, no, how about..."Your fine hiney." LMAO. That's brilliant!! Thank you so much for this laugh. I'll have to recommend it to my boys. LOL.

Ok, I'm so jealous that you can jog for 20 full minutes at 6.0 w/out stopping. Sigh. I wish I could do that. I'm really thinking about starting up that Couch to 5K program so that I can jog for longer periods of time and at a higher mph. Then perhaps enter myself into some 5K's and possibly 10Ks in the future. I bet you'd be great at doing some of those and it's too darn bad you are up in the land of cheese.

You know what? Don't be jealous, really. It took me a year to build up enough leg muscle and stammina to pull off two miles at 6 miles an hour. And it took me even longer to find something I could eat that would give me enough energy. Cereal is really what does it for me. I honestly think if I didn't eat carbs, I wouldn't physically be capable of running so much.

A 5k plan sounds awesome and a 10k even better!! You know what? I think Trev mentioned something like this to me before, about running in a marathon. I really didn't consider it before all of ya lovelies mentioned something. I know they have a cancer walk/jog here in the summer. I have friends who do it and I wasn't able last year because I was out of town. I'm honestly considering it this year. Not only would it be good exercise, it would be towards an AWESOME cause. Tell you what, how about you come up here and we do it together? LOL.

Up here in this land of cheese, it's really, really easy to resist the wonder of a cow. I'm not kidding. When I first moved here, I'd never seen so much cheese in my life, half of the names I didn't know existed, now after living here for three years, I hardly ever eat cheese. Maybe three times a week at most. It really becomes easy to ignore, truth be told. Thankfully actually, because although cheese contains vitamins, it's caloric intake is rather weighty...

Well, I'm glad you ate well and hope you have a wonderful day. I'm currently waiting for my next class to begin at 11am my time, but will be hanging around a little online here and doing some research for a presentation.

Ciao!

I am and thank you deary!! Good luck on that research. I love Power Points. LOL. I hope you're having a good Thursday, Photo!!

 

[Invariant]

Hi Rae.

I loved the story about your father. He sounds absolutely brilliant - a man with his priorities absolutely right.

My Dad is great - but he doesnt know the difference between one clothes size and another to save his life.

Oh he is. He's brilliance personified. Not only is he EXTREMELY morally grounded, he's got an intellect that boggles my mind. I don't know any other father who can read the Greek bible from cover to cover. I'm bragging here just a little, but not only does he have a masters degree, he's studying for his doctorate. He's gonna have a Phd in Theology. He's so wonderful. He's pounded in me the belief that I can become a great person and I can achieve the stars and be happy. I just love him to pieces.

LOL, don't fret Marg, my dad's like that too. He can translate Hebrew text to English, but he can't decipher that a size 38 chest means a size Large. It's okay though, we love them anyway don't we? Haha.

What kind of BMI did you have when you started jogging or running? I love the way that you do such a lot of running. I havent ran in years (I havent dared to try) - but I am thinking that maybe I could because I can do aerobics.

Hmm, let's see..Well, when I first decided I was going to run, my BMR was about 1750, and my BMI was 28, so I really was slightly overweight. That calculates to about 195 pounds when I first began. Keep in mind that when I first started out, I could hardly run a mile without getting out of breath. If I recall correctly, I could only run/jog about a quarter of 1 mile for the first two months.

I'm 35 pounds lighter now, and as the weight gradually dropped off, I was able to run for longer periods of time. It's really only been in the past couple of months that I've had enough energy/stammina to run for 4-5 miles a night. I had to train my body just like everyone else. Just as I can promise you, if I keep running these 4-5 miles a night, in a couple more weeks/months I'll be able to prolly run 6-7. It really is a passion of mine. I love it. Of course, I'm a smart cookie and take 1 or 2 days off so my body can recover, but if I take anymore than that, you don't want to come near me. I'm terribly cranky. LOL.

The bags of veg sound good. I am sure that I would feel half starved if I didnt eat tons of veg.

I hope that you are having a good Thursday.

Take care
Love
Margaret

They are!! I just love them to death. If I could, I'd eat them every night. Truth be told, I think because I eat so many carbs throughout the day, my body is CRAVING veggies, so I eat the whole darn bag. Eating so many, I'd like to think of it as equal opportunity for both the whole grain and vegtable food groups to take up residence.

I am having a wonderful Thursday, thank you Marg!! ((big hugs)) The coffee I prepared at one-thirty in the morning is exceptionally delicious today and not only do I have b-ball practice, I get my MP3 player back today. So overall, I've got nothing to complain about...you know, besides the sink full of dishes and bathroom hamper full of laundry I have to go tackle right now...Haha..

Much love to you guys!! I'd be lost without all of you!!

 

[a-n-g-e-l]

hey sweety sorri aynt been around in a while. sounds like you have been doing well! your dad i would like to say sounds awesome!!!!!

anyway hope you have a great rest of the day

;-)

x

 

[felici]

At that *special* time of the month, this happens to me to Marg. Not only do I seem to retain water and feel somewhat bloated, I'm ten times hungrier and my hunger pangs are five times worse. It takes me about a week to get over it. So for two weeks out of the month, the scale will play tricks on me.

Just quoting you form Omega's diary as I didn't want to start a separate convo there. I found this really interesting. When you feel like this, what do you do about it?

 

[bikinibound]

Up here in this land of cheese, it's really, really easy to resist the wonder of a cow. I'm not kidding. When I first moved here, I'd never seen so much cheese in my life, half of the names I didn't know existed, now after living here for three years, I hardly ever eat cheese. Maybe three times a week at most. It really becomes easy to ignore, truth be told. Thankfully actually, because although cheese contains vitamins, it's caloric intake is rather weighty...

You must be in Wisconsin then? We're neighbors. What part of it? I have a college buddy in Milwaukee. Ooh...I love cheese in all its forms...lol. I need to stop talking about it, or I'll go eat some.

Is your dad a minister? It sounds like it from his background. My H got his B.A. in comparative religion, and always has his nose in a book about religion/philosophy. I'm sure he'd love to talk about that subject with your dad.

I'm watching HGTV while typing this, and once again, the home improvement guys are hunky as all get out.

 

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You must be in Wisconsin then? We're neighbors. What part of it? I have a college buddy in Milwaukee. Ooh...I love cheese in all its forms...lol. I need to stop talking about it, or I'll go eat some.

We live an hour north of Madison. It's freezing here. LOL. Oh, and don't get me wrong, I LOVE cheese, but there's truth to the phrase "too much of a good thing."

Is your dad a minister? It sounds like it from his background. My H got his B.A. in comparative religion, and always has his nose in a book about religion/philosophy. I'm sure he'd love to talk about that subject with your dad.

Yep he is. Has been since I was five. And he's brilliant at it! He's so extremely well educated. I LOVE his bible studies, they fascinate me to no end.

I'm watching HGTV while typing this, and once again, the home improvement guys are hunky as all get out.

That's part of the networks appeal, darling. If they didn't have hunky bachelors, they'd lose half their audience!! (Me included...haha)

 

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Just quoting you form Omega's diary as I didn't want to start a separate convo there. I found this really interesting. When you feel like this, what do you do about it?

Truth be told, not much. I really just accept that it's how it is, and wait it out. When it comes to the hunger pangs, this is where I'll go through a whole jar of Peanut Butter in a week. It really seems to be the only thing that fills me up and helps me tame my cravings.

As far as the bloating, if I drink enough water and deplete, it gradually gets better. Usually within two days.

 

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'ello to my lovelies!!

Today's update is a short one. Overall, it was an awesome day once again.

Why was it so awesome, you ask? Because I went out with my mom and treated myself to a double scoop chocolate custard with hot fudge and cookie dough pieces. "But Rae," you say, "Didn't you give up chocolate for Lent?" And I will answer..."I'm human. You can only expect me to resist for so long." So yes, in answer, I *did* at one time, give up chocolate, but I cannot help myself. In my defense, I REALLY only need to give up chocolate *candies* like truffles and kisses. Those were the worst. Because I don't eat ice cream often, having it twice a week is better than having it twice a week WITH the chocolate candy.

This was tonight's confession. LOL...I didn't get to run it off either because of the late hour at which I got home, but this really doesn't bother me. My caloric intake beforehand was only about 1000, and this was realistically prolly an eight to nine hundred cal treat, so my caloric intake for the day was still above 2000. So you know what? Treating myself today sits well with me. I hardly ever do it. The last time I ate this particular treat was on Christmas Eve. And I won't eat it again until mid-spring most likely. I am very strict on my food plan, so I really try and only have this treat once every two months. I'm happy my mind and belly were happy. I really, really wanted the sugar badly and now I'm satiated and won't crave it for a while. This is why I do it, so I can taste it and enjoy it and discard the thought of it for weeks/months. This is how it works with me and peanut butter as well.

In completely seperate news, I went to my bro's city league ball game and was pleasently complimented. At first I was insulted, but then flattered. My friend brought her guy friend and were talking of parents. I tell them both mine are made of awesome and he tells me his are made of arse, which he follows up with the comment "Like your face." Of course, this is an extremely and utterly juvenille comment and lacked impressionment on my part, and I followed up with a mundane, "Thank you." This guy then laughs, waves me off and tells me he's joking and it was a bad joke. I agree with him wholeheartedly and tell him I didn't find it funny in the slightest. After which he then tells me, "No really, you are very gorgeous. You look like that girl who plays in that movie 'Fear' with Reese Witherspoon." And my friend says..."Yeah, you really do, you know that girl from Charmed."

This has peaked my curiousity and interest and I ask them, "Which one? Hollie Marie Combs, Alyssa Milano or Rose McGowan?" And the guy tells me, "Whichever one played Reese's best friend in that movie. That's who you look like." And I'm recalling vaguely in my mind which one played opposite her, then my friend tells me. "I'm pretty sure it was Alyssa."

Needless to say this flattered me and I blushed to high heaven and ask them "Really?" And the guy says "Yeah, absolutely." And I say "I've never been compared to Milano before, Meg Ryan and Gillian Anderson, yes...not Alyssa." And my friend says..."Well now you have."

It just made my night you know? Something little like that. It just made me feel good about myself. It's always fun to be compared to someone famous. Haha.

Well, it's way past my bedtime. I'm beat from all of this running around today. Big hugs to you all! I hope you have a wonderful Friday!!

-Me

 

[India1]

You're making me crave ice cream! And I absolutely have to avoid any kind of cheating this week!

Alyssa Milano? Wow! I'd be super happy if someone compared me to her! I bet it made you feel great

Have a great day!
Hugs
India