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You crack me up, girl! :biggrinjester: You and your lover, the treadmill. I think he deserves a name. How about Treadmillio. He might be related to my scale--Scalentino, cousins, I think. ;)

Funny thing is, you don't lik scales, and I don't like treadmills...hehe. I lose my balance on them. I'd rather walk/run on solid ground. :D

I will not even comment on the romantic life thing you mentioned. :biggrinjester:

I'm sure you will do just fine at the buffet. That coffee will stunt your growth ya know. Oh, you're already 5' 10"? :biggrinjester: I cannot chastize you, for I drank about 10 cups of the wondrous stuff yesterday. :eek:
 
hey Rach!

good to hear you have discovered yourself some love ;) - not to mention the hundreds of guys after you!

congrats on the skinnies!!! :hurray:

hope you had a good time at the meeting.

x
 
In other news, my personal life is all over the radar. I really don't feel like getting into it right now. I'll simply say this...I'm a smart cookie, I can sense when a guy is interested, and if it's more than one, I start hyperventilating and having panic attacks. Yeah, that's pretty much where I am right now. It's not the thought of them being attracted to me that freaks me out, it's something else. As soon as I figure it out, I'll be sure to let you guys know...

IMO, Its the fear and excitement of the not knowing what is going to happen next. Its a delicious and horrible feeling all at once. Have fun with it. Hopefully your treadmill won't be too jealous ;)
 
Thursday's update will be short because the day seemed to be.

Turns out I slept in later than usual today. At fifteen till ten I climbed out of bed and stretched. I realize, the morning's after I run, that when I wake, my muscles are alot more cooperative with my movements. If I didn't run, I would have felt fatigued.

Anyway, at noon I had a lunch meeting with my mother. Yes, twas a buffet and I was a good girl. Naturally of course, I think to myself, "You know what, I paid for it, I'm going to eat it." And I do. The great part is, I simply don't eat ALOT of it. Merely about a spoonfull of everything that looks tasty and a salad and some fruits for dessert. It really was a tasty lunch. I honestly have no idea how many cals are in a scoop of potatoes, a square of meatload and a spoon of pasta, so I didn't even TRY and guesstimate my caloric intake. I can say this...the calories I ate at home added up to about 900, so if lunch wasn't over a thousand cals, I did good today. LOL.

Starting at two thirty, I'd played the most exciting scrimmage of my life. It was our last practice today and in honor of impending nostalgia, we played a co-ed game between both varsities. I had SO MUCH fun. One of my boys purposely dribbled the ball on my side so I'd have to defend him. I'm not dumb. I figured this out the fourth time he drove the ball my way and smirked when I pounced on him. I stole it twice as payback...

After I downed my dinner of chicken and veggies (which has become my fav) my bro and I went to keep score at the city league ball games. My boys were there with their sister and we had a blast hanging out. All we have to do is just sit in the bleachers and talk, and it's as if we'd just gone to a party. We just have FUN together anywhere. That kind of chemistry is priceless, in my opinion.

It's snowing for the first time in five days today. Our last game is scheduled for Friday night and the opposing team has to travel two and half hours in whatever's leftover from this snowfall. If tonight, the game is cancelled, Treadmillio will have to scoot over in bed and make room for Punching Bagio.

I hope all of you had a wonderful Thursday and will have an even better Friday.

(((Big Hugs)))
 
Hi Rae

I too hope that the treadmill doesnt get too jealous of these interesting young men.

Congratulations on the skinny jeans. Things like that makes all the hard work worthwhile. Definitely - get another pair. I remember from my youth - a girl needs two pairs of jeans that are an absolute perfect fit. You want to be able to wear jeans when the others are in the wash - and you want to look great when you wear those jeans - not just ok.

Well done with the buffet. You are so good at facing temptation head-on and dealing with it. I tend more towards avoidance.

As far as temptation goes - it is good that the "giving up chocolate for Lent" thing has quite a few loopholes. It is good that your chocolate ice-cream sundae falls into the "acceptable once a week" because it is high calorie and isnt really chocolate category. I decided against joining the Lenten challenge because I couldnt think of anything that I still eat, drink or do that I would be willing to give up for that length of time. I considered all my sins carefully and decided to keep on sinning!

As far as new clothes go - there is a charity shop near here that will probably be the ultimate likely recipient of my big clothes when I finally get the confidence to part with them. I occasionally browse through their stock - but havent bought anything yet. I am a funny shape at the minute and the yoga pants (£6 from Tescos) plus tshirts and sweatshirts remaining from my clothes when I was in my twentys probably fit me and suit me as much as anything. You can certainly get some good bargains at charity shops.

Take care
Love
Margaret
 
Happy TGIF Rae! :party:

*blows kisses to Treadmillio* I'm trying to steal your lover away. :reddevil:

Well done at the buffet yesterday! Are you still in high school? I can't remember. :angelsad2:
 
dang, i wish i was a treadmill :)


all the girls seem to be chasing them around in here

Nah, the thing about treadmills is women walk all over them. You don't want that. :biggrinjester: *blows kisses to Trevor*

Where are you Rae? I know you're around, so stop neglecting your diary. :biggrinjester:
 
Wow. I think this has been the longest I've gone without updating.

The past two days have been crazily chaotic. In short, I've been exhausted.

Friday was the last game of the basketball season. I'm feeling a bit nostalgic right now, as I think of what it is I'm going to do from two-thirty to five every weekday. I suppose I'll have to occupy my time with advancing in my studies and catching up on housework.

Yesterday, I had five hours of sleep only. We'd gotten home late on Friday night and Saturday, I woke at six in the morning to travel an hour to watch my boys play in a recreational tournament.

We had a blast though. Two girls from my team and I kept the scoreboard. I loved it. The timer was designed as a clicker and everytime I pressed it, it was like turning on and off a remote. I would point it at my coach (who was reffing the game) and pretend I was switching on and off his hand movements. Don't ask, really. I get the craziest amount of fun out of the smallest things.

Afterwards, we ate at the Ground Round which is, as I found out, an exceptionally delicious bar and grill. For ten dollars, I ordered a HUGE platter with baked lemon-herb chicken, broccoli and a baked potato. Calorie wise, it couldn't have been any more than 500, maybe even 450 easily enough. I was proud of myself for foregoing the Chicken Alfredo and instead, ordering something not only healthier, but more nutritious.

The best part about the whole weekend, was the time I got to spend with my boys. I just love them to pieces. They fasinate, excite and thrill me all at the same time. Though my relationship with them is completely platonic, there's a chemistry between all of us that roots the deepest of friendships into the soil of forever and always. I treasure them with all my heart.

Even today, I still feel the height of my exhaustion. I'm contemplating taking a nap, which I seldom ever indulge in. I feel extremely satiated now. My dad cooked a roast and though I didn't eat the meat or gravy, I swear I ate close to the whole bag of cooked carrots. I was craving them for some reason today and couldn't help but over indulge myself. Pretty sure my antioxidant quota for the day has been met and then some.

Friday was the last day of exercise I'd gotten in. I wanted to run last night, but instead I spent two hours helping my boys install electronics. In the end, it was worth it. 1080 p picture on a VIZIO t.v is worth paying money to see. It's as if you're living the action. I was blown away. I went to bed happy. lol.

For now, this is all the updating I can think of. I'm sure I'll be more active around here now that the weekend is over. It would seem Fridays and Saturdays throw me for a loop and I never know my schedule.

I hope all of you are having an awesome weekend.

(((Big Hugs)))
 
It's twelve thirty-one right now and though I feel absolutely amazing, I'm tired as ever.

Today's cardio consisted of five miles and six-hundred and fifty calories. I suppose that's impressive to some, but I was actually disappointed in myself. Not because I didn't think I ran enough, but because I was physically unable to push myself as much as I wanted to.

Three quarters through my run, I had to slow down my pace because my abdominal muscles cramped up. It's terribly painful, cramping up while running. I always feel like an idiot when it happens because I remember, at that moment, that I'd forgotten to stretch adequately beforehand. It's my fault and I'll refrain from my idiosyncrasy and actually stretch tomorrow. Hopefully I'll be able to run again at a pace I enjoy more WITHOUT the debilitating pain of my abdomen being pulled. LOL.

I feel utterly proud of myself today. In the mirror, I can see my body changing into something more esthetically pleasing then before. It's almost a bittersweet joy that I feel. Never before in my life have I actually considered myself 'thin' but I'm beginning to accept that I am now.

For service today, I wore my skinny jeans and felt amazing. They're divinely comfortable and I'm considering investing in another pair, as Marg suggested. It just makes me smile to wear denim I once couldn't fit into. In three point five seconds, my mind reels everything that I've been through to get to this point in my life, all of the tears and pain through the hardships and all of the joy and laughter in the moments of blissful congratulations, and I feel almost like an old soul, regardless of my young age. I've been through so much in my search to find a comfort-ability with myself, and I'm finally finding it.

It's just so liberating to think 'Here I am. I've made it. I'm going for the gold and no one is going to stop me. I'm worth it.'. That's where I am right now, in my own mind, and it's a happy place for me to be. Life may be chaotic and I may be stressed and frustrated out of my mind, but my euphoric mood won't change. I'm just so utterly proud of myself and it feels good to say "Go me!".

Hugs to you all. I hope the beginning of your week carries with it a great end. Much love!!
 
Wow. That was very inspirational. I can't wait until I'm at that point. Soon enough, I hope. Congratulations on finding a wonderful way to live your life.
 
It's wonderful to hear you're proud of yourself. It's not easy for those of us who have been fat once and it makes me happy to know that we can.

You're an inspiration, as always.

Have a great week!

India
 
Hey, sorry about last night....my internet just went plop right in the middle of our conversation! :(

That's okay hon. I'm pretty sure all I got out was a "Hey you." anyway. Haha. No worries Trev, we can always chat again.

India and iluvgymnastics, thanks for visiting gals! It's always nice seeing you come around here. I'm glad I can be inpirational to you guys. I was hoping, by starting this journal, that I could be. I hope you're having a good Monday!!
 
Just something I forgot to say that I was thinking of now...

On Friday, before my last bball game, we got pictures taken, and I'll probably post one up.

I have a number of myself and my siblings and also a few of simply me. It was SO MUCH fun though because the photographer convinced my sister, our friend and I to do a Charlie's Angel pose and we did. Not to mention, my boys' sister convinced me to do a model-esque pose. I was so embarassed when the picture was ACTUALLY taken because I was under the mistaken impression the film was being changed. I was blushing so much. I honestly didn't want that snapped. Now I have no choice but to post it up. LOL.

As soon as I get copies of the pics, I'll try and pop one up in here.

But hey, you have to find fun and enjoyment in everything or life is ultimately mundane, routine and quite boring.
 
Wow, Skinny Jeans! AMAZING. I say go for it and get another pair unless you think you'll shrink out of them too soon. =)

I can't wait for SKINNY jeans.
 
Looking forward to seeing some pictures, Hotstuff!!! Congrats on the euphoria. Its an awesome feeling. Smile 'til your cheeks hurt! :D
 
Hi Rae

It's great that you are now accepting the fact that you are slim and feeling amazing about yourself. It's so easy for the brain and the body to be in different places with things like that.

I hope that you remember to do your stretches so that you dont cramp up next time you run. I know what pleasure you get from running and it must have been extra disappointing to go from anticipating that pleasure to pain.

I am looking forward to seeing the photos that you mention. It sounds like you had great fun acting on while they were taken.

Now - remember to stop making too much fuss of that treadmill. We know that you are only using it to make Trevor jealous!

Take care
Love
Margaret
 
Ha! If I had to choose between Treadmillio and Trevor, I'd pick Trevor every time. I'm sure he could figure out a better way to make me sweat. ;)

I can't wait to see those pics! :party:

I'm glad you're feeling so good about yourself--and so you should. :)
 
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