My Recovery from Obesity

That's awesome Don! Don't wreck yourself getting there. Thinking about going back to Hawaii would make me want to go on an exlax diet. My boss will be in Oahu this week. My wife and I came very close to moving there after our first visit. Now that we don't live in the PNW I might not make it back.

I think we are both primed for some serious progress. Lets do it!
 
Oh Don... if I were small enough I'd ask to stow away in your suitcase to go with you to HI. I've always wanted to go there and your relaxation activities are right up my alley! Sounds like quite the incentive to lose more weight. I'm envious! I hope you're able to get there soon. :)
 
Another two weeks of the struggle has just elapsed. Funny, when things are going right, time goes slowly... I can hardly wait for the next day's weigh-in... when I'm off track, the days fly by and I dread the next day's weigh-in. :)

I'm still in a holding pattern. To be honest, right now I'm ONLY concerned with trying my best and NOT gaining much. I am not losing, but that's because I'm only "good" for 75% of the day. The other 25% of the day, I reverse all my efforts by eating salt or eating too late, or not drinking enough water, or not exercising.

I did ride my bike last night... sneaked in 10 miles in 34 minutes. Today my goal is to exercise again tonight and drink lots of water... and NOT reverse all the good by eating peanut butter and ritz crackers as a snack. :D
 
DON!!! Nice to hear from you again! :)

It's kind of funny because it seems we keep teeter tottering on opposite sides of this thing. When I was in a rut, you were charging ahead full force. Now I'm being really strict with myself and you're letting loose a bit. You've worked very hard to get to where you are right now so I say you've definitely earned it! You are still doing great for yourself by making good food choices and still exercising which is great. I wasn't so good when I was in my rut.

I'm looking forward to having you back here full time. I hope things settle down for you soon. :)
 
Thanks Nostalgic! Hawaii is my 2nd home... I thrive there.

Mandy!! :D

I think Summertime must be a tough time for many of us... there are a LOT of people I know who were doing well, then July hit and all hell broke loose.
As of today I am 8 lbs above my lowest (which may seem a lot to many people, but I'm actually surprise that's all it is.) I started from square one this week, by JUST focusing on water consumption to start. Then I added exercise, and today I'm focusing on food. we'll see how it goes. :)
 
Don totally agree with you! I ripped it up in June and you'd think with all this hot weather and uncovered bodies I'd be MORE motivated to shred but I'm lagging! 100 pounds lost? That's amazing!!! I'm so excited for you. You've got this :coolgleamA:
 
Yeah, I think a lot of people have struggled with this when summer hit. I wonder if it's just the heat that's to blame? I'm glad you're making steps to get back on track. I have complete faith in you that you'll be back in full force soon. :)
 
Well, the key then is to just stay with it, right? :)

Success, at times, is measured in pounds or kilos lost, and at others it is measured in our resilience.

A moment of honesty here: Despite all my success so far, I have caught myself thinking about just saying "screw it" and walking away from my efforts. Why? I don't know. I hate being fat. I love feeling healthier. I love looking better. I hate feeling gross after eating too much. So why WANT to go back to it? I really don't know, other than to say that for me overeating and eating unhealthily is a disease. I really believe that. It's like alcoholism or a drug addiction. Except with either of those issues, one can simply go cold turkey and put distance between yourself and the source of your problem... however, I MUST eat food everyday. It would be like becoming roommates with your drug dealer or your bartender.

I really want to succeed. I want to push forward. But there is something sinister at work here... some part of me that I'm fighting off everyday.

I doubt I'm alone like this. I wish everyone else success in defeating your inner demons and conquering your food addictions.
 
Don, since you're being so honest I'll give you an honest response. I've felt this way the majority of my life and for all the wrong reasons. My health was never a top priority. I was very hard on myself. Most of my life I've always felt very unworthy of things, including love. I've been single the majority of my life even though I would like to be in a relationship. It's a hard thing to shake from your head that you're really worthy of being loved. I mean which guy in his right mind would want a girl so overweight? I guess as a result of those feelings for me, I turned to food. It's pretty sad how we can get ourselves to believe we're not significant enough to take care of ourselves and how we allow something so insignificant like food offer us such comfort and support while at the same we're slowing killing ourselves in the process.

I've never liked being fat either. I've never liked being unhealthy, but who did I really have to change for? There was nobody but myself and sadly I just never felt that that was enough of a reason to give up my "most treasured foods". So , I did say screw it for most of my life and kept on going down that road.

I'm not really sure what made me wake up other than the fear of death I guess. Seeing the older members of my family suffering from various illnesses (heart disease and diabetes run in both sides of my family) spooked me enough to say I need to change for me. Then I was diagnosed with RA and I KNEW I had to something NOW! No more delaying it.

After losing nearly 50lb I feel a lot better! I feel much more better about myself and much more confident. I'm being honest in saying at times I still wonder if I'm worthy of being in a stable relationship. After about 2 decades of bashing myself with these thoughts, it'll take a while to get over them I guess.
 
Don, I hope you're doing well. I have been battling the same thing since July and have only recently gotten it back under control. I literally just spent two months making shitty decisions and the whole time I was doing it, I sat there asking myself, "Why am I doing this? I hate the way I am right now. Just stop." And yet there were days when I'd find myself taking seconds or thirds on what I had cooked that night and hating it while I did it. It's maddening to feel that way and to dislike your own choices, but to still keep making them.

You've come so far and you have been such an inspiration to me. I hope you can get through this 'screw it' phase relatively unscathed.
 
Everything that Cory said was spot on. Couldn't agree more. Hope you are well. Keep going! You have definitely been an inspiration to all of us.
 
Hi Don, just dropping by to say I've been thinking about you. It's been a while I've seen you posting. I hope you're well. Come back soon would you!?
 
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