My quiet journey to a glorious body

My love....:grouphug:! ...You are making it through this As we speak!!

....You are such a ray of Sunshine, that no matter what you say or what you think...you could not EVER be in anyone's way or bother them with your company!

....I truly see a beautiful soul within you & you have the most Amazing Aura...and You are such a deep individual...and you have more than a lot of people do when it comes to ...Awareness!...Life is our perception...and our perception has the power to control our feelings of ourselves and of others and our current situations.

....It isn't what you have, or who you are, or where you are, or what you are doing that makes you happy, ...it's what you Think About! :D!...I truly beleive that...and I know that you can and will make it out of any darkness that may hover over you because through Awareness you can Halter any negative emotion that is "passing".

....Remeber that everything we feel is elusive...our happiness, our sadness, our fears....everything is....Stay in the "present" moment my dear!!!

...Remember that you are "On Purpose with a Purpose shot from the Mind of God!"

....God won't ever tire of his children. Health, wealth, and wholeness are your divine birthright fully delivered through God!...You are special & you are Amazing!...Know this!

...Have a Happy Holidays my dear! Be Safe...enjoy yourself and realize that the whole world would love to sit near you and be in your heart!...You have the gift of observation and awareness and beauty and love! You are a little golden egg! :grouphug:! I love you!!! :beating:!
 
Oh my Alta :beating: :hug2: I'm going to cry....

Seriously, nobody's ever said such nice things to me before. I've been a selfish individual for most of my life... just ask my mother... I really don't deserve this love!!! THANK YOU!!! :grouphug:

It can be pretty lonely being at rock bottom. Nobody wants to be around a wet rag and I don't really want to be around myself either... But I can't deny I'm in a situation that I have little control over, everything I do ends up a failure, whether it be going overseas, getting new jobs or trying to lose weight, and I feel like I'm going around in endless, fruitless circles! I feel like a pilot who's stuck in a holding pattern, waiting for a signal to land that just won't come. I feel like I've been backed into a corner, stuck in a chair and told, 'Sit still and don't move until I say so!' Don't ask me why, it's just a feeling.

Whatever, I'm glad I visited my diary today... Your words really cheered me up! I hope you're having a very Merry Christmas and may 2010 bring peace, prosperity, fulfilment and joy for you. I know I sound like a Hallmark card but I really wish you all those things. If anyone can attain happiness, I believe you can.. Your faith can move mountains! :conehead:

I love you too my friend. Stay beautiful. :seeya:
 
Happy New Year!

2010 has begun!

So, all aboard for the New Years resolution. (Or as Christopher Atkins would put it, "New Years revolution." :reddevil: ).

And I've dropped 3 pounds. A good thing. Three days of detox and rabbit-style eating followed by a great night of eating at a Greek tavern. The good thing about the place was that all the food was delicious but they never brought out enough of it to fill you up, so we got to taste a little of everything... and in this little black duck's case, still get up the next morning and drop half a kilo on the scales. Yay! My hope is rekindled.

No better way to start the first day of a new year than with a victory on the scales!
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HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!
 
There's an old Assyrian tradition going back thousands of years that says whatever you do on the first day of the year you'll be doing for the rest of it. If that comes true, my goals are as good as bagged:

Lunch (no breakie, for obvious reasons): a ham and cheese toasted sandwich.

Dinner (so far): a green apple.

Exercise: long walk of about 100 minutes.

I'm so happy I managed to get out for a walk today. I can't remember any other year where I lived healthily on January 1st. Nor can I remember any other year when I stayed healthy for the whole of it. Maybe this will be the year!

Some other things I've never done also happened today. As I was walking back along the bike track, the air started to grow heavy and all sorts of smells assaulted my nostrils. I have no idea what they were but they were coming from the different trees planted alongside the track. Gum, tea tree, birch, ash??? Who knows. Suddenly, thunder rumbled. I realised I had never gone walking through nature just before a storm. I had no idea the air gets so sweet and fragrant. The spiders too, went into overdrive. Webs were catching me across the face and yet the last riders/walkers had only just passed that way 15 minutes earlier. Even though there was a rainbow in the sky (that old saying, 'Rainbow at night is the sailor's delight' and so on), I quickened my pace in case I and my new mobile phone got rained on. Mum had told me to take along an umbrella and I thought, 'Why? It's bright and almost sunny outside. That would look so gay.' I made a mental note to scrawl Embrace gay! over my 'to do' board as soon as I got home. Just as I got to my car, a huge jagged streak of lightning flashed across the sky. I wrenched open the car door with numb hands. This was some serious bloating I thought as I inspected my engorged fingers; one drumstick for each finger. I drove home merrily and just before I passed under the cover of the driveway, thick drops of water began to fall in earnest on the windscreen. Just then, Mum barges out the back door, sees me pulling down the roller door and goes, "Awww! I was praying you'd get home before the rain came!"

I confess I feel sheepish for my thoughts of the previous few entries. Life is not so bad. If I have someone out there who cares for me, that's what matters. I just have to remember and recite to myself every day that SUGAR does not care for me.

If anyone's reading this, I wish you a fabulous 2010. That's another thing I realised today, well - two things: 1. It's a new decade! And 2. I've never lived in a year '10 before..! Not many people alive today have. I don't know why, but the thought makes me happy. :)
 
January 2nd

Weight: 181 lbs

Food

-roast beef or lamb, spuds, pumpkin and lettuce salad;
-green apple

Exercise

-61 minute trail walk with hills;
-shoulder exercises (10Xwall push-ups; 10Xabove head lifts; 10Xside lifts; 10Xfront lifts)

I got up after 1pm so breakfast was again missed. I don't have hand weights so I used 2 big bottles of mineral water of about 1kg each for the shoulder exercises. My friend told me I can find weights at Target so I'm planning to hit it tomorrow. And only $5 each!

Right, time to get back to Sex and the City...
 
January 3rd

Weight: 179.5 lbs

Food

-some full-cream milk;
-2 dark rye ham and cheese sandwiches;
-green apple

Exercise

-walking to the shops and back, 10 mins total.

I'm really happy with how the weight is coming off. Every day I see half a kilo drop off the scales. I know it's just the water/carb weight and will taper off eventually but right now I'm just stoked to see the end of the 80s flashing up at me first thing. Legs and butt were feeling so tired today; yesterday I went for a one hour hike on a hilly walking trail even though I felt tired. Not sure what it is, whether it's muscles needing to rest or insulin impeding fat burning or something else...
 
Shinsplint said:
I'm so happy I managed to get out for a walk today. I can't remember any other year where I lived healthily on January 1st. Nor can I remember any other year when I stayed healthy for the whole of it. Maybe this will be the year!

I confess I feel sheepish for my thoughts of the previous few entries. Life is not so bad.
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I read through some of your journal. You often seemed so frustrated with and down on yourself. We all have those moments. Just wanted to encourage you to keep your head up! Your most recent posts sound like you've turned a corner and are on track. Kudos!
 
@bellyoff: Thanks :)

January 11th

Weight (for it - haaha): 178.5 lbs (I know, it's only a pound lost but I'm happy anyway).

Food of past 3-4 sizzling days

-green apple for breakfast;
-2 ham, cheese and tomato brevilles on dark rye bread;
-either a couple of peaches or nectarines, or a cup of cocoa for sup-sup.

Everything is rolling along smoothly (except for the fact I'm out of work again; I absolutely hate my job), and I thought I might put down some of my goals for the next few months to help keep myself focused.

-My goal for the end of January is to get down to 175 lbs.

-By the end of February I want to be at 165 lbs.

-By April 1st, I want to weigh 156.5 lbs or less.

-By the start of May I want to hit 147.5 lbs.

-And by the start of the Australian winter I want to reach my goal weight of about 132 lbs (60 kg).

I don't think this is an unrealistic goal or time frame; I'm only worried that on most days I won't be motivated enough to hit the gym. I'm looking at getting a Fernwood membership. I thought I'd start with a 3 month thing, as I think there are special offers now, and go from there. I just heard on the news tonight that 90% of Australians who have year long gym memberships don't use them. I don't want to be one of those, I'm broke enough already.

So here's to a productive month ahead! :cheers2:
 
I just love your quote" Chocolate is not my God" I suspect you are also a chocoholic like me! I'm gonna remember this quote!

Good luck on your weight goals for 2010 and believe in yourself and just stay positive.

Im receiving my Dr Cohen eating plan tomorrow - so hold thumbs that I will do well.

Happy losing!:hurray:
 
looking good shinsplints :) you will be fighting fit by the time I make it down to melbourne for the the nationals :)
 
Mands: Thanks! Yeah, I consider myself a chocotarian as it's one of my major food groups... Good luck with the Cohen eating plan... I think you're very strong! :)

Tru: Melbourne can't wait to see ya! All the best with your training! :coolgleamA:

Weight today (Jan 13th? Losing track... that's what being unemployed does to you): 177.5 lbs.

Food: green apple, banana, casserole chicken breast and white rice, orange, cup of cocoa with .5 tsp honey, small dry biscuit made from eggs/flour/minimal sugar.

Exercise: Zilcho, same as the last 5 days thanks to this bleeding heatwave. But the excuses stop tomorrow because I finally contacted my nearest gym and I'm going over tomorrow. I figure if I can hide myself in a big air-conditioned room with music and other people working out, I might get somewhere, as opposed to praying the weather will be mild so I can go for a morning walk without fainting from the extreme heat. Lack of exercise is really bugging me lately; I think it's doing something weird to my sugar levels and I'm getting all light-headed and dizzy and thirsty like I've got diabetes or something. My saliva is starting to taste really sweet and I crave water all day. I know I should go in for a blood test but but but.... I'm not a friend of needles... and neither is my doctor, I'm afraid to say...

My goal is to come back and read this entry in a few months time and be a new, fitter woman smiling fondly at my progress. Oh how I wish! :)
 
I wish that for you too!!!! You should definitely increase your protein intake to every couple hours to regulate that sugar level some. :) (especially if you aren't getting it checked out!)

Personally though, you can HEAL YOURSELF from within!! ;)!!! I beleive that!! :D!

Get to working out woman!!! You can do it!!! :D!!
 
Trusylver said:
What has your blood presure been like ?
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Have it taken regularly and it's all good. But I have heard high blood pressure can make you dizzy. Maybe I should go in and check it again. Personally though, I think my body is still getting rid of toxins from all the processed junk I've been eating up until a few weeks ago and it probably takes a lot of water to flush that crap out. I have been a disgrace, really. :nopity:

Alta818 said:
I wish that for you too!!!! You should definitely increase your protein intake to every couple hours to regulate that sugar level some. :) (especially if you aren't getting it checked out!)

Personally though, you can HEAL YOURSELF from within!! ;)!!! I beleive that!! :D!

Get to working out woman!!! You can do it!!! :D!!
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You said it Alta. :) Thing is, I see my doctor so often I'm beginning to feel he's starting to think I'm a bit of a hypochondriac. Every time I suspect high blood pressure or diabetes or brain tumours from migraines (no joke), I run in to him and have tests done and they all come out fine. I end up feeling so dumb and old ladyish as he gives me these little talks about just trying to relax and enjoy life and get out there, instead of focusing on every tiny little thing that's happening in my body. He doesn't exactly say it like that, but that's his drift. So I thought I'd go away and change my life, get healthy and go back in 6 months to have tests done when I'm healthier and fitter, just to see how, if anything, has changed with my blood work etc. I'd love to see a drop in sugars by a point or so, down to 4, and some other hormonal changes, which they reckon are connected to leptin and obesity. I reckon it's all bloody connected and the key to it ALL is what we eat and how much we move!!! :auto: So new stylish gym, here I come! :party:

Thank you both for your wonderful support. Here's a treat for you: :lurk5: Now, don't eat it all at once. (It's nice cold too!)
 
January 13th

Weight: 176.4 lbs

Food:
-ham, cheese and lettuce sando on dark grainy rye bread;
-1/4-1/3 cup whole milk, banana, 1/2 plum;
-large steak (short loin), large serve fried spuds, tomato/cucumber/onion salad with olive oil dressing.

Exercise:
-2 X 10min walk to and from car.

I joined the gym today! :hurray:
 
Shinsplint said:
Well, this is my new diary. So Dorky Sayings can rest in peace in the tranquil land of long unread posts until some unsuspecting victim stumbles across its path and foolishly disturbs its slumber... :eek:
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I'm a big fan of dorky sayings!! LOL!!

Thanks for stopping by my diary! I look forward to reading yours as well! Hope you have a fabulous week of loss!!
 
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