lost myself
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I have been on this weight loss journey of mine for a long time now, and haven't been able to reach my destination. I know all the things I should be doing (eating healthier, exercising more, etc...), but I always seem to start out really good for awhile and then slip back into old habits.
As a teenager I was an athlete and was a competitive alpine skier, when I graduated from HS and stopped skiing is when my weight gain first started. I went from being very active to pretty much not doing any sort of physical activity, add in turning 18 and partying and by the time I graduated from college 5 years later (took 2 years off after HS) I was what we'll call "chunky". I hovered in the mid 170's for a few years and decided enough was enough, I started eating healthy and going to the gym 3-4 times a week and I really enjoyed it. Over about 9 months I dropped 30 lbs and was at a healthy 145ish that was about 4 years ago. I managed to maintain that lifestyle for around a year.
So what happened? I started dating my BF and instead of going to the gym I was hanging out with him watching movies, I started eating more "junk" and before I knew it I had gained around 30lbs in a short period of time. Well we just celebrated our 3 year anniversary not long ago and that 30lbs has turned to 50lbs and I am unhappy with the way I look.
I hope that by starting this diary I will get the support and motivation I need from others to fianlly stay on track. Knowing that there are other people out there reading about my journey will hold me accountable for my actions and hopefully i can 'find myself' once again.
As a teenager I was an athlete and was a competitive alpine skier, when I graduated from HS and stopped skiing is when my weight gain first started. I went from being very active to pretty much not doing any sort of physical activity, add in turning 18 and partying and by the time I graduated from college 5 years later (took 2 years off after HS) I was what we'll call "chunky". I hovered in the mid 170's for a few years and decided enough was enough, I started eating healthy and going to the gym 3-4 times a week and I really enjoyed it. Over about 9 months I dropped 30 lbs and was at a healthy 145ish that was about 4 years ago. I managed to maintain that lifestyle for around a year.
So what happened? I started dating my BF and instead of going to the gym I was hanging out with him watching movies, I started eating more "junk" and before I knew it I had gained around 30lbs in a short period of time. Well we just celebrated our 3 year anniversary not long ago and that 30lbs has turned to 50lbs and I am unhappy with the way I look.
I hope that by starting this diary I will get the support and motivation I need from others to fianlly stay on track. Knowing that there are other people out there reading about my journey will hold me accountable for my actions and hopefully i can 'find myself' once again.
