You know what my main problem I fear is that once I lose the weight and get secure. Regardless of how I did it what not!!! I stop being so conscious about what I'm eating and I gain it back..
And I know she asked me that question out of love for me "Is it a lifestyle or a diet?"
I'm contemplating on what that truly meant. Does it mean that I have to be in diet mode for the rest of my life. Some of these diets are very very strict. Like no diet coke, no rum, no caffiene, no double shot expresso!!! I mean no's to a lot of things that I do drink. I love caffiene I can probably drop it for 30 days..

and that will be a challenge in itself.
I know she ate one piece of cake, thank god I don't like cake.. She said this is my problem Ivette, sweets!!! but I'm going to the club and I'm gonna dance for hours and hours to burn it off.

cool she's always on that mindset. She's like I don't feel guilty tonight..
So if I'm saying lifestyle I mean I'm always going to have to be on a diet. I know my body is use to getting big. Why do so many people who lose weight gain it so quick???
I guess once I get there I will really have to stay focused and be on top of myself to not let it gain back. But does it mean no caffiene till the day I die????? Am I going to feel guilty everytime I have something I'm not suppose too??

I mean I'm ride or die right now for my losses but damnnnnn!!!
Enough word of the day for me... Regardless I have a huge baby shower that I decided to host today for a dear friend of mine.. It's a surprise and I have so much to do... Omg...I'm having a double shot expresso with an extra shot of energy right now and I don't feel guilty...

oh well.. it is what it is.. some things never change.. Before getting on here I did 10mins on the elliptical.. something is something.. it must be working cuz I'm sore all over.

I hope it doesn't rain anymore cuz I have like 40 women invited and I want to put the tables and stuff outside..

I'm in fast mode today.... Woot!! Woot!! hope the party turns out amazing and I hope she's surprised.. God bless her little soul and that precious beautiful baby that will be here in no time.. I love babies... well I'm out and I will be
