Don Keykong
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Mandy, How are you doing? Hanging in there, I hope? 
My Journey: Positive Outlook For 2013
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Don Keykong
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Hey Mandy, Just wanted to tell you I was thinking about you. Hope you're well.
MandyH
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Thanks Don. I'm still around and doing what I can to stay afloat. I know you've always complimented me on how much of a positive person I am, but right now I'm a funk... big time. My mind has just gone off into this dark place and no matter what I do I just can't seem to get it back in the right frame of mind. I am trying. Desperately trying. I've just got so many thoughts floating around in my head and I'm finding it very hard to keep things straight and figure out where I want to be and need to go with everything. Right now I'm feeling kind of trapped in more ways than one. Ugh... just color me incredibly confused right now.
I've been trying to stick to eating healthy and exercise has been going pretty good (have only done taebo a couple of times lately, but have been doing a LOT of walking outside). My weight has gone up. Saturday's weigh in was 203.8lb, this morning I was at 206.6lb. Not sure how that's happening, but it is what it is.
I've been trying to stick to eating healthy and exercise has been going pretty good (have only done taebo a couple of times lately, but have been doing a LOT of walking outside). My weight has gone up. Saturday's weigh in was 203.8lb, this morning I was at 206.6lb. Not sure how that's happening, but it is what it is.
Don Keykong
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Hey Mandy!
Sorry I didn't reply sooner, but I've been on here a little inconsistently lately.
You know, one of the things I've figured out is that we can't always be monsters about losing weight. Sometimes, the victory may come in the form of just doing a little better than last week... or yesterday... or maybe even just this morning. I may have misspoken when I called you an overly positive person... rather, you're like me in many ways. We can be unbelievably focused and intense, and we can be our own worst enemies.
What I do believe you are is a warrior. I've seen it in many posts you've left. You are a warrior. You have a big heart and you have a strong will. You can fight when you focus.
Take care of you first. Weight loss may not be the best way to measure your successes for awhile. Rather than using the scale to assign some value to whether you're doing a good job or not, maybe instead you can choose ONE thing that you want to do a better job with tomorrow... maybe it's just drinking water, or not eating junk, or ceasing eating after 7. You choose it. Pick something you know that you can do with a little effort, but hold yourself accountable and do it. Once you've done it once, do it twice... then three times. After that, add a new challenge for yourself and make that happen.
Mandy, you have some good reasons to be in a funk, but you're compounding the funk by letting your efforts to get healthier drop a notch. You were LOVING Taebo and doing it damn near daily. Even if your heart isn't in it 100% maybe you can busy your mind by stepping deeper into that pool? Immerse yourself. Keep your body busy while your heart heals.
Sorry I didn't reply sooner, but I've been on here a little inconsistently lately.
You know, one of the things I've figured out is that we can't always be monsters about losing weight. Sometimes, the victory may come in the form of just doing a little better than last week... or yesterday... or maybe even just this morning. I may have misspoken when I called you an overly positive person... rather, you're like me in many ways. We can be unbelievably focused and intense, and we can be our own worst enemies.
What I do believe you are is a warrior. I've seen it in many posts you've left. You are a warrior. You have a big heart and you have a strong will. You can fight when you focus.
Take care of you first. Weight loss may not be the best way to measure your successes for awhile. Rather than using the scale to assign some value to whether you're doing a good job or not, maybe instead you can choose ONE thing that you want to do a better job with tomorrow... maybe it's just drinking water, or not eating junk, or ceasing eating after 7. You choose it. Pick something you know that you can do with a little effort, but hold yourself accountable and do it. Once you've done it once, do it twice... then three times. After that, add a new challenge for yourself and make that happen.
Mandy, you have some good reasons to be in a funk, but you're compounding the funk by letting your efforts to get healthier drop a notch. You were LOVING Taebo and doing it damn near daily. Even if your heart isn't in it 100% maybe you can busy your mind by stepping deeper into that pool? Immerse yourself. Keep your body busy while your heart heals.
MandyH
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Don, the thing about taebo is that I do still love it. It's just that I LOVE springtime weather too especially after being cooped up inside during the winter. I love being outside in the fresh air, especially on those warm and breezy days. I just love feeling the wind on my face and through my hair. Probably sounds weird, but that's how I feel. I also want to give my dogs some much needed exercise. I have 2 that are around a year old and they're very high energy. Walking them satisfies all of our needs. In total, I walk at least 3-4 miles a day when I walk so I am still getting a decent workout in. Once it gets too hot I prefer to be indoors so taebo will pick up again then.
I think once whale watching starts up, it'll help settle me down quite a bit. The ocean is my escape. I have the ability to just block everything and everyone out when I'm on the ocean. It's really my true stress reliever and thinking place. I often times get very lost in my own little world out there. It'll be very different this year though without my aunt though. She was a big part of our group (my mom is the 3rd person). I know the first few trips will be hard so I have the stress/anxiety of that floating around in my head, but I know she would not want me to stop going just like I'd want her to keep going without me. We've also set the date to have her burial at sea in June so I have that hanging over my head too. Along with other things.
I don't know. I've lost family members before, but losing her was the hardest one for me personally. We were close. Very close since I was in my early teens. There have already been a few times where I've thought to myself that I should call her about something and then I remember I can't. She's gone. It's been hard. I'm trying not to dwell on it, but grieving definitely takes time I'm learning. Next Tues will be four weeks since she passed, but it feels like it's been much longer than that. It's been a LONG four weeks.
I think once whale watching starts up, it'll help settle me down quite a bit. The ocean is my escape. I have the ability to just block everything and everyone out when I'm on the ocean. It's really my true stress reliever and thinking place. I often times get very lost in my own little world out there. It'll be very different this year though without my aunt though. She was a big part of our group (my mom is the 3rd person). I know the first few trips will be hard so I have the stress/anxiety of that floating around in my head, but I know she would not want me to stop going just like I'd want her to keep going without me. We've also set the date to have her burial at sea in June so I have that hanging over my head too. Along with other things.
I don't know. I've lost family members before, but losing her was the hardest one for me personally. We were close. Very close since I was in my early teens. There have already been a few times where I've thought to myself that I should call her about something and then I remember I can't. She's gone. It's been hard. I'm trying not to dwell on it, but grieving definitely takes time I'm learning. Next Tues will be four weeks since she passed, but it feels like it's been much longer than that. It's been a LONG four weeks.
Don Keykong
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Grieving can be a tough and slow process. Take your time and deal with it as you can. Dad passed in September and my mother is still having days where she's very, very sad. I wish you were closer to Oregon, I'd take you out on the ocean (I'm a die-hard fisherman and crabber). We get our fair share of whales out here. Last year I was encircled by a pod of killer whales for about ten minutes.
MandyH
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Thanks Don. If I lived closer to Oregon I'd totally take you up on that offer! Oregon is actually one of my "to go" spots. I've heard that you guys have some beautiful beaches out your way.
I am definitely trying to take care of myself. I have slipped a few times, but for the most part I'm doing pretty well. It's just my head that I need to sort out. I'll get there in time.
I am definitely trying to take care of myself. I have slipped a few times, but for the most part I'm doing pretty well. It's just my head that I need to sort out. I'll get there in time.
Don Keykong
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Your comment about the beaches made me laugh as I remembered this commercial for beer from a few years back. The odd thing about Oregon beaches is that the weather is often better in the winter. Hot temperatures in the Summer pull the cold marine layer in from the ocean, often obscuring the coastline in fog. Enjoy.
[video=youtube;JU-_Sn2cDwI]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JU-_Sn2cDwI[/video]
Don Keykong
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By the way, this is the type of ocean fishing I do the most... it's called dory fishing. Flat bottomed boats launched and landed through the surf line. It's a LOT of fun.
[video=youtube;MypitRPpEhE]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MypitRPpEhE[/video]
[video=youtube;MypitRPpEhE]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MypitRPpEhE[/video]
MandyH
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Cute commercial Don and I liked that other video too. Do you always get good sized waves like that out your way? Usually our waves are pretty small, like barely existant, unless there's a hurricane passing through or something.
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Yesterday was a good day. My mother and I went to a place called Magic Wings in Massachusettes where we met up with a couple of friends. We spent the day together and shared some laughs and memories. We also ate... a lot... unfortunately, but at the time I was living life and enjoyed myself. I didn't go crazy, but definitely had more than I should have. It wasa good time and it felt great to get out of the house for a while.
Yesterday's weigh in was a big disappointment. I'm up 5lb from where I was last Saturday. I'm hoping it's mostly water weight since my TOM is in the next week or so. We'll see how it goes. I've already started mentally preparing myself to get strict with myself again. That means eating better AND more exercising. I need to get myself back on track.
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Yesterday was a good day. My mother and I went to a place called Magic Wings in Massachusettes where we met up with a couple of friends. We spent the day together and shared some laughs and memories. We also ate... a lot... unfortunately, but at the time I was living life and enjoyed myself. I didn't go crazy, but definitely had more than I should have. It wasa good time and it felt great to get out of the house for a while.
Yesterday's weigh in was a big disappointment. I'm up 5lb from where I was last Saturday. I'm hoping it's mostly water weight since my TOM is in the next week or so. We'll see how it goes. I've already started mentally preparing myself to get strict with myself again. That means eating better AND more exercising. I need to get myself back on track.
MandyH
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So yesterday was an ok day. I intended on walking, but got lazy and it got too dark before I knew it. My laziness was to the point where I turned on my MP3 player and just layed down listening to some music. I got so comfy I was on the verge of dozing off. Then something clicked and I got the urge to get up and do some taebo. So, that's what I did. I burned 1120 calories in 1hr 1min of taebo. I really pushed myself and got my heart rate way the heck up there. I don't know what made me get up the way I did, but I felt pretty darn good afterwards.
I have no clue what's going on with my weight. It's on the increase again. Saturday morning I was at 208.8lb, this morning I was at 209.4lb. I can only hope it's water weight. I took measurements last night after taebo and I am losing inches so I'm not too freaked out about the spike in my weight, although being so very close to breaking 200lb last week it is disappointing to be back up again.
I'm going to give it my all every day this week to get back on track. No junk food and plenty of water and exercise. I'm tired of moping around and need to get back into the right mind set again. Getting back into my routine is the only way I can make that happen.
I have no clue what's going on with my weight. It's on the increase again. Saturday morning I was at 208.8lb, this morning I was at 209.4lb. I can only hope it's water weight. I took measurements last night after taebo and I am losing inches so I'm not too freaked out about the spike in my weight, although being so very close to breaking 200lb last week it is disappointing to be back up again.
I'm going to give it my all every day this week to get back on track. No junk food and plenty of water and exercise. I'm tired of moping around and need to get back into the right mind set again. Getting back into my routine is the only way I can make that happen.
MandyH
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You're right, it is VERY frustrating. I have two options at this point. Throw in the towel and give up or keep on fighting through. I'm choosing to fight through it. Even though I still a ways to go before I get to my goal, I am proud of how far I've come. I have no intentions of going back there!
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I've done my exercises for tonight already. I walked for an hour and burned 570 calories. When I got home I popped in the new Taebo Express DVD I picked up last week. It's the one with 8 different 10 minute workouts. I got through the abs one, but less tha half way through the kick workout before my legs said that's enough. I burned 149 calories in 13 minutes. So, overall I burned 719 calories. I'm pleased with it.
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I've done my exercises for tonight already. I walked for an hour and burned 570 calories. When I got home I popped in the new Taebo Express DVD I picked up last week. It's the one with 8 different 10 minute workouts. I got through the abs one, but less tha half way through the kick workout before my legs said that's enough. I burned 149 calories in 13 minutes. So, overall I burned 719 calories. I'm pleased with it.
MandyH
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Thanks, I'm planning on more walking today. I'm feeling very sore after doing the Taebo workouts so I'm going to skip that today to give my body a chance to heal up a bit. My abs are especially sore which I guess is a good thing. I'm back down to 208.8lb this morning which made me happy.
Mands
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Hey Mandy
Catching up on some diaries today. You have really been doing great hun. You will have you up days and you will have your down days. Just take it in and go through the emotion, whether happy or sad. I'm very proud of you how you've managed to stay focused and continuing your exercise. Kudos to you!
I hear you on the ocean....I love the sea. Not to swim in it just to sit and stare at it and walk on the beach. It's like it brings this calmness over me and just takes all my worries and troubles away for that timeframe that I'm there. I always say to hubby it brings me a little closer to God. This is when I chat to God about everything and always feel a ton lighter afterwards with renewed energy for what lies ahead.
You are an amazing woman and you will get through all this. Sending you a big hug x
Catching up on some diaries today. You have really been doing great hun. You will have you up days and you will have your down days. Just take it in and go through the emotion, whether happy or sad. I'm very proud of you how you've managed to stay focused and continuing your exercise. Kudos to you!
I hear you on the ocean....I love the sea. Not to swim in it just to sit and stare at it and walk on the beach. It's like it brings this calmness over me and just takes all my worries and troubles away for that timeframe that I'm there. I always say to hubby it brings me a little closer to God. This is when I chat to God about everything and always feel a ton lighter afterwards with renewed energy for what lies ahead.
You are an amazing woman and you will get through all this. Sending you a big hug x
MandyH
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Thanks Mands. There's just something about the ocean that is very soothing. I feel bad for people who never get to experience it or even worse never bother to try to appreciate it's beauty. I'd be beyond lost without it now that I've discovered it. It's weird, but thunderstorms give me the same feeling. I love sitting outside with the sounds of thunder. There have actually been a few whale watches where there has been thunder and lightning in the distance too. Now that is AWESOME!
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I'm really beginning to feel like a yo-yo. I weighed in at 209.4lb this morning. I'm kind of at the point where I'm not "putting to much weight" into what the scale shows, at least right now. I know that the scale shows you your weight for everything so it may not be a true reflection of what's really happening with your body. I just know that since Sunday I've been doing very well with food intake. I've been drinking tons of water, eating fresh fruits and veggies, and best of all no junk food (except for one small handful of caramel covered popcorn yesterday). Aside from that, all healthy.
Yesterday I walked for 47 minutes and burned a total of 530 calories and then I did some strengthening exercises (didn't pay attention to calorie burn there). I could definitely burn more calories if I wasn't walking my dogs. They need exercise too so I'm not complaining, but man they want to stop and sniff everything! Between that and when they just stop on a dime right in front of me and almost trip me, it can be frustrating at times. On the weekends they're outside all day long so I'm able to go walking by myself. I love that alone time.
Today will be a taebo day. I'm still a little sore, but not bad at all. I'll be able to get through the hour long workout no problem.
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I'm really beginning to feel like a yo-yo. I weighed in at 209.4lb this morning. I'm kind of at the point where I'm not "putting to much weight" into what the scale shows, at least right now. I know that the scale shows you your weight for everything so it may not be a true reflection of what's really happening with your body. I just know that since Sunday I've been doing very well with food intake. I've been drinking tons of water, eating fresh fruits and veggies, and best of all no junk food (except for one small handful of caramel covered popcorn yesterday). Aside from that, all healthy.
Yesterday I walked for 47 minutes and burned a total of 530 calories and then I did some strengthening exercises (didn't pay attention to calorie burn there). I could definitely burn more calories if I wasn't walking my dogs. They need exercise too so I'm not complaining, but man they want to stop and sniff everything! Between that and when they just stop on a dime right in front of me and almost trip me, it can be frustrating at times. On the weekends they're outside all day long so I'm able to go walking by myself. I love that alone time.
Today will be a taebo day. I'm still a little sore, but not bad at all. I'll be able to get through the hour long workout no problem.