It's been a very busy/stressful week at work. Weigh in is tomorrow and I'm not too excited. We went on a staff retreat this week and I had little control over what I could eat. I brought food with me which was very helpful. It was kind of nice to not have to think as much about what to eat as the choices were limited. I had two Vietnamese sandwiches from this amazing place in San Francisco that I have always heard about called Saigon Sandwich. Why did I have two in a day? Cause that is what was ordered for me. As I was eating the first one I thought about how that was the first sandwich I had eaten in a while. I noticed that I have really avoided bread. I still eat crackers and the occasional english muffin. Next week we are having sandwiches for lunch 3 out of the 5 days so I'll need to make some salad plans. It's all about thinking ahead for me. I work long hours and so if I haven't planned by Sunday night, forget it.
My staff just returned to work after 2 months off (they work seasonally) and 2 complimented me on my appearance. That is a first and it was awkward for me. I struggle with compliments about personal appearance. The fact that people may notice a difference does create a bit of drive.
Time to create some goals and rewards. A part of me is concerned about creating multiple goals because what if I fall behind? Will I get frustrated and give up? So I have thought about it and decided that I will create goals that are not too ambitious and if I reach them earlier that's OK. If I hit a plateau, which is likely to happen, hopefully I can still reach my goals. So here is what I have so far but some of the rewards may change as I am known to change my mind
(revised 3/24/12)
Goal #1
April 1 ~ 213 (BMI 30.6, obese category)
Reward: new tatoo
Goal #2
April 15 ~ 207 (BMI 29.7, enter overweight category)
Reward: new clothes ($100 gap / $100 H&M)
Goal #3
May 13 ~ 197 (onederland, BMI 28.3)
Reward: ice cream maker to make homemade sorbet!
Goal #4
June 17 ~ 190 (BMI 27.3)
Reward: 2 pairs of new shoes
Goal #5
July 22 ~ 183 (BMI 26.3)
Reward: new clothes ($200 j.crew / $200 H&M)
Goal #6
August 19 ~ 177 (BMI 25.4)
Reward: new dress for friends wedding
Goal #7
September 16 ~ 172 (BMI 24.7, enter normal weight category)
Reward: new clothes ($200 gap / $200 j.crew)
Goal #8
October 14 ~ 168 (BMI 24.1)
Reward: weekend trip to Seattle to visit friends
Goal #9
November 18 ~ 164 (BMI 23.5)
Reward: new clothes ($500)
Goal #10
December 16 ~ 160 (BMI 23.0)
Reward: Tropical Holiday Vacation
Whew! It took me about 2 hrs to think this through but I feel really good about seeing the year ahead in print. As much as I do want a family someday I feel lucky that don't have kids yet and I can afford to treat myself along the way. I have a good job where I am valued and will have paid off most of my debt by the end of this calendar year. I try to imagine being 80lbs lighter with no credit card debt by the end of the year and my shoulders go down, I take a deep breath, and I look forward to the challenge ahead. I am grateful to this forum and the support I have felt from you all in the past month.