My Finish Line

abitofbliss

abitofbliss

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I am Megan, I am new to this forum and so far I have enjoy seeing how everyone is committed to their own finish line.

I feel like I am been on my weight-loss journey since I was 16 (now 23). I was athletic in high-school (voted most athletic) and I was also a dancer. I still enjoy playing volleyball, and dancing. I was never considered over-weight, and I doubt anyone would look at me now-a-days (at least to my face) and call me over-weight. One reason is that I "wear my weight" very well. i don't wear clothes that are too small that would show off my chub, and I am also tall (5'9). With that said, although not deemed overweight, I still feel like it.

My changing point was in May 2011ish while I was on vacation I wanted to go skydiving only to realize there was a 220lb weight-limit that I exceeded by 15lbs @ 235. I was not only embarrassed but devastated that I had gotten so bad.. I started to work-out regularly and eat "the best I could". Between then and October I managed to reduce my weight to 223. The slow progress left me discouraged and wanting to give-up.

Then there was HCG. The best and worst decision I made for my weight-loss. On this diet I was able to get down to 173. I felt great, and I looked great. Once I stopped the diet I quickly gained back about 10lbs and I stayed between 175-185 over the last year or so. Although it's comfortable, I am still not happy.

I have been yo-yoing diet/exercise the past few months and I found myself getting as high as 197, afraid to lose my stay in one-derland I tried to make a change. I realize that the HCG diet made me really lose a lot of muscle, and unfortunately I have to work that much harder to earn them back.

Today I am 190lbs. My goal is somewhere between 150-160 depending on how I look/feel. I haven't met my BMI Healthy Range as an adult so I am not sure what will feel the best.. YET.

I have been working out at the gym and eating great the past few weeks but I've turned on the Turbo/No Excuses/Beast Mode on and I am ready to reach my finish line.

My weeks are as follows: Started March 4th
Monday-Saturday
  • Wake-Up 5:45 - INSANITY
  • Work- 8:30 - 5:30 1 hour lunch break I usually take a "brisk" 20-30min walk.
  • After Work -Gym from 6:15-7:45ish (give or take)
  • Home and to sleep by 10:30p.m.
  • REPEAT

Sundays
My day 'off' either ride bicycle, stretch, hot yoga, or chillax. Usually on the weekends I try to ride my new bike :)

My Diet is generally between 1200 - 1600 calories and I use myFitnessPal to track it everyday. Please PM me fore my email address to add me, or my username is missblissj

I am hoping that by the end of April I will have put a serious dent in my weight-loss or re-shaping my body. I have a feeling that the inches will show more than the scale due to the muscle loss. I plan to journal here often about how I am doing, my struggles, accomplishments, etc. I hope to find like-minded people to share my journey with!

Today I woke up and did my best for the 45 minute insanity work-out. Some of the moves are quite hard for me, and being a smoker I am often out of breath! Anytime I "couldn't" do the exercise I jogged in place. The hardest past is waking up and doing it. I am not a morning person! This will have been my third day doing it and I know I can do it for 57 more if I keep my head in it! I skipped the gym last night due to circumstance, and I took some time to stretch because my lower back and calves are very sore. I am looking forward to going to the gym tonight!!! I am super duper broke and on my last food items for the week. I am worried about getting enough calories tomorrow cause I don't have much of anything left.


P.S - I have progress pictures that show my journey so far, I have made them private so friend me if you would like to check them out. I also have added a "current" photo.
 
Really great introductory post! I appreciate reading when someone is "coming clean" and not hiding things in the corners, and this post seems very open and honest.

Something that stuck out to me:

- Your story of not being able to skydive reminded me of the humiliation I felt when visiting Disneyland with my kids a few years ago and being refused access to a ride because my "girth" prevented the over-the-shoulder safety bracket from lowering completely and latching. Both me and my youngest daughter had to exit the ride.

Being honest and confronting things like this that bother us about our health is a key to successfully accepting and tackling the challenges we face.

Welcome to the forums and I hope you have great success in meeting your goals.
 
I thought I wouldn't be walking at lunch today because I am wearing a dress. I did the walk anyways we only did 1.24m at a slow pace!! Just finished a delicious Subway sub (9grain honey oat, turkey, provolone, lettuce, onion, green pepper, LOTTA spinach, light lite mayo and parm chz.), It was SO good! Looking forward to my snack in about 1.5 hours (apples/crunchy pb) AND the gym! :) I am having a great day! I am already dreading tomorrow morning waking up to do Insanity. I don't know why I love the gym so much!! I guess because I don't feel like a complete failure.
 
Don Keykong said:
Really great introductory post! I appreciate reading when someone is "coming clean" and not hiding things in the corners, and this post seems very open and honest.

Something that stuck out to me:

- Your story of not being able to skydive reminded me of the humiliation I felt when visiting Disneyland with my kids a few years ago and being refused access to a ride because my "girth" prevented the over-the-shoulder safety bracket from lowering completely and latching. Both me and my youngest daughter had to exit the ride.

Being honest and confronting things like this that bother us about our health is a key to successfully accepting and tackling the challenges we face.

Welcome to the forums and I hope you have great success in meeting your goals.
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Hey Don! Thank you for the warm welcome! I have already dove into many different threads and I know it is going to be a hard yet positive journey with everyone in the forum working towards the same goal with good attitudes!

I can only imagine how you and your daughter felt having to exit the ride. It really hurt me to have to tell my boyfriend at the time that we couldn't go, luckily he understood without many details.

Everyday I/We are faced with the challenges of being overweight, lying or pretending there is not a problem would hurt me more than coming out and telling the truth. That is one of the many reason's I got "so bad" is because I was hiding from the scale and didn't want to confront myself with the truth of being obese.

I also uploaded my progress pics from my biggest, my smallest, and my current it was tough to post a picture of me 'skinny' only to show another of when I gained back almost 20lbs.

Again, thank you! And I also look forward to sharing our journey. Do you have a diary?
 
Hey there!

That is so great that you've already come such a far way! I think actually *starting* is the most difficult part. I have always wanted to do Insanity and have heard such awesome things about it. You will have to keep us updated on how it is working for you! It is awesome to see someone my age here :)

Have a great day :)

~Camila~
 
@Camila ~ You are right.. The beginning is the worst! And not only the beginning back in my "obese" days, but over the last year having to begin about 100x gets more and more challenging each time both mentally and physically!

Insanity is cah-razy! I know that everyone says it gets better as you continue to do it, but I am on my third day and feel like a failure and that I'll never be able to get through an entire workout without pausing or be able to do every exercise fully! I know that is not a good mindset, but I always feel good leaving the gym at least. haha.
 
#chubbygirlproblems :piggy:

I've been working SO hard and my body is not changing, YET. I really hope March 30th tells a different story.

Off to the gym! Gonna bust out a great workout and get to bed early for Morning Insanity :svengo:
 
Whew! What a day.

Came in at 1169 calories today.. Kind of upsetting because I should have just a tad bit more than that for the amount of exercising I'm doing. I'm broke til Friday so I gotta do with what I have and luckily I don't have any junk food to turn to.

My exercise was awesome today:
Insanity (40ish mins) in the morning
20 min 1.25 slow walk at lunch
50 mins (5.0miles) on Elliptical level 11 (started ok 7 a few weeks back)
Arms day so weight-lifting for about 20mins
10 mins on treadmill (4 mins jogging @ 5.5mph, 6 mins walking 3.5mph and 2.0 incline)

Not sure how many calories I burned altogether but I'm sure it was lots :)

Off to bed soon and repeat tomorrow! Already dreading insanity in the morning! Gahhhh!
 
You are doing so great! It is all a learning process. I think days like that are good so you can learn what adjustments work for you. Love the dedication with working out though! It is very motivating!
 
Hey, welcome to the forum! You have done a lot of dieting! (Just like me - I am the queen of yo-yo - hope this time is for the last time though)

You get up the same time as me in the morning....that means soon it's bed time for me too...

You are doing really well! Good calories & great exercise mix! Way to go! :D
 
Thank you! Camila :) Not that I made it up, but I 'Swoosh' is like my keyword for 'Just Do It', like the Nike 'swoosh'. So, I'm gonna swoosh!! Haha

Hi Justina! Thank you for the welcome. I'm so excited to be in a forum again, I always do the best with supportive like-minded people! I do a lotta dieting and not a lotta shedding lbs! I'm so ready to be more comfortable with myself! I see you have your journey in your sig, I'll check it out tomorrow. I'm already up too late :/

Off to ZZzzzZzZ or battle insomnia! -_-
 
Yup same as me - too much dieting but getting nowhere - i m the worst yo-yo-er (like 70-80 lbs yoyo-er) I hope this time I can keep it down. I am done with all excuses! hehe

oh, I meant to say I love your signature!!! UMPH is good!! :D
 
Thanks Justina! I stole it from a co-worker last year, I love the saying :)

It is so hard to pick back up and get to the finish line! But we can do it!! Swoosh!

Insanity was so much better than I thought. I still struggled quite a bit but it was "Cardio Recovery" so it was basically all stretching. I still did have a hard time but it was nice to have a break. Especially since Monday I started it was TOM! :( I am so surprised I've pushed this hard on a TOM week. Seriously, that's my biggest excuse to eat junk and skip work outs. Hopefully next week will be that much better without bloating and cramps (Sorry if any guys have to read that). Anyways, off to work, still planning to walk at lunch and probably pick up our pace since I'm not wearing a dress. And Gym afterwards.!
 
WOW, be proud of yourself! You certainly have a lot of motivation and determination going on! Want to share some of that with me? :)

I tried my body at taebo last night and I thought it was pretty fun. Different, but fun. I see you do the insanity workout. How brutal is that workout? I'm 5' and weighed in at 215.2 this morning so I do not wear my weight well and moving around like some moves in taebo made me feel like I was just flailing my limbs around. LOL I Youtube'd an insanity workout and it looked easier in terms of body movements, but it looked more difficult endurance wise. How hard is it on the knees?
 
Mandy ~ Thank you for your support! I am really ready to be done with this and just live to maintain a weight I feel happy and healthy weight. Not even sure what that # is! I look at my "biggest weight" photos and just think WOW, how did I ever live like that. My mom and friends say "Now doesn't that show you how far you've come", but honestly, it doesn't.. Just helps to avoid getting back there! I wish I had better self-esteem :( What really keeps me going (this time) is the fact that I have worked so hard only to have to start over, I am ready to reach my finish line.


Anyways, I used to LOVE tae-bo as a kid, of course those were the days I was a skinny little girl not really worried about exercising. Like you, doing insanity I feel like I am watching these super humans do this program, and I am just jumping around like a wanna-be.

I am still in the beginning (Day 4 today) so pretty much everything they do is really a struggle for me, even the stretching. I've read other journals/reviews that say it gets easier.. I am doubtful but optimistic. The moves are generally easy but it is tough to 1. keep up, and 2. actually do them properly and all the way through. And I am a smoker so basically I am an idiot even trying. haha.

To be completely honest I moderate some of the moves that I just cannot do yet, so it hasn't been SO bad on my knees, but a lot of what I read online related to giving up or injury was knee related.

The next 2 months are definitely going to test my mental and physical ability but I can do it.. WE can do it.

I want to try hip-hop abs, I LOVE dancing... I may look into it.
 
I just finished up my 20min walk. It was good. An older lady, also doing the Biggest Loser, goes with me. She is a little slower but it is a nice brisk walk to add to the rest of my daily exercising. I used to ride the bus and walked up to 3miles a day between work/home and the bus stops, once I was getting a ride I literally gained about 10lbs in two weeks so I am glad that I can get that little bit in during the day.

Lunch was bittersweet. I was STARVING after the walk, and I have at work ingredients to make these great wraps but I was craving Jimmy Johns Tuna Sub. The calories would be about 950 for the sub, not really good at all but I know I bust butt @ the gym so I justify it. My mom was gonna buy it but when I went to place my order her card didn't work. So, as much as I wanted that sub I went and made my wrap which really fills me up until my afternoon snack and it only has 211 calories.I am actually going to post a picture and ingredients in an album on my profile if anyone is interested.

I felt really sluggish this morning, but luckily I feel better now, and I, again, am looking forward to the gym tonight.

Tomorrow is PAY DAY! Whoop! Cannot wait to go grocery shopping. Tomorrow is going to be a weird day. We have a lunch meeting that I guess they are planning pizza, I requested thin crust so it's a little better. I'll do insanity (Pure Cardio :svengo: ) in the morning but skipping the gym to take my best friend out to dinner. We are both watching what we eat, even though Friday is my "treat" day, I am still going to try to have a low(er) calorie meal and maybe a few glasses of wine. As much as I want to go out and down a 6 pack and dance the night away and possibly make bad decisions, I think a quiet night will be good for me.

I hope everyone is doing well!
 
I might try Insanity just to see how far I can go with it. My guess is not very far, but I'll definitely give it my all. I really did enjoy taebo so one of them will be sticking for sure! :)

As for your sub incident this afternoon, isn't it funny how things work out sometimes? Last week I wanted a strawberry cheesecake Ben and Jerry's ice cream in the worst way. I talked myself out of it, then I justified it, then I talkd myself out of it and justified it again and went to the store. Guess what the store was out of. Yup! My ice cream so I didn't get it! I wasn't upset though. I took it as a sign that I just didn't need it afterall!
 
Mandy ~ I used to have a thread for a different diet forum called Beating the Cheating for everyone to share similar stories about exactly that..Beating the Cheats, I might have to start that here! I'm thinking about trying again for dinner but I may as well just have my damn eggs and LIKE EM! haha.

Let me just say, it is tough... The first day the "fit test" I couldn't even do the last 2 exercises but I also got TOM like during and it really kicked my butt. I don't feel like I am doing that great with the program but I am just going to keep doing 'my best' and see what comes of it.

On the second day (Plyometric Cardio Circuit) I DID sweat A LOT, and there was some times I just was out of breath or energy (I wake up and do it, no meal before) so I just jogged in place to keep moving. If you find yourself like me, feeling like a total out of shape failure, I encourage you to just keep going and just go day-by-day. I already feel like ditching it and continuing my gym workouts but I know if I stick to it I can do it. I am already thinking I'll have to do a second round to feel "better".

Let me know how it goes :)
 
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