My Big Fat Journal

Love your canoeing story. Sounds like you know how to have fun!

Hope you have a great day.

Here's my wisdom (joke) for the day (sounds like something mom would say):

Always remember that you're unique. Just like everyone else.
 
lol. next time, I'll look before I park my canoe. hehe. ;)

don't worry about the burrito thing. it was jsut one day right? burritos can be pretty high in calories depending on what's in it. I mean a tortilla is about 200-300 calories usually. and then if u had beef and cheese it can shoot it right up. and if u had refried beans that's more calories too. it shouldn't be that bad though so cheer up. :)
 
Yes, I have been neglecting my own journal as I have been trying to catch up with everyone elses. I did have a great day yesterday. It is getting easier and easier to control my binging. I think mostly because of all the support I have here.

Jen, I'm my playing tennis is a sight to see, but I'm gonna do it anyway.

I have been doing really well on my eating yesterday and today, but I got kind of depressed today. I have been struggling with this person at work. She is new in the past year, and I knew she really wasn't my cup of tea right off the bat, but I figured I am not here to make friends and I can get along with anybody really, so I gave her the benefit of the doubt. Well the tension I have over her kind of came to a head. I told her I was going to call her boss and then she called her on her cell at lunch before I got a chance and told her some things that were not true. I can't respect anyone who lies. It is a pet peeve of mine, big time! The only time you are allowed to lie is about Christmas and Birthday gifts and to telemarketers. :)

Anyway, I have been struggling with how to deal with her. I don't want to be the trouble maker and cause a big scene, but I really don't know how I can get along with her. On top of that she has this really sickening sweet high pitched voice and when I hear it, it is like finger nails on a chalk board.

I feel like I need a therapist just to deal with her and not kick her.

Anyway....I took some pictures of myself today so I would have some before and afters. That sort of depressed me as well. I have a very different picture in my head of what I look like than I really do. Although I know I weight 269lbs, I don't feel that fat mentally. When I see myself in photos I just think I look really, really awful.

Other than that things are good. Paul just told me a second ago while I was typing that we won 100.00 on a lottery ticket he purchased. That's good, cause baby needs new shoes!! (Baby likes shoes!)

Thanks to everyone for stopping by. I really appreciate all your support and one more thing.........GO SISTERS!!!!
 
Oh Pineola - that canoe trip sounds hilarious, well the pee'ing definitely does. I couldn't begin to be able to list all the places I've left DNA traces before....

Those Y&D days of mine!

Sorry to hear about how difficult it is with your co-worker. Nothing like unwanted stress to liven the work environment :( I hope this passes quickly!

And WTG with winning $100.00!!
 
Hey Pineola,

Sounds like you had a great day canoeing!

Don't fret over one bad day, I just remember not to let that snowball!

Thanks for posting in my diary. I hope you have a great day tomorrow!
 
Pineola said:
I have a very different picture in my head of what I look like than I really do. Although I know I weight 269lbs, I don't feel that fat mentally. When I see myself in photos I just think I look really, really awful.
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I feel the exact same way! I'll look in the mirror, and think wow I;m a pretty hot chubby girl... and then I'll see a pic and think, what the Heck?! who stretched my image out?! sooo unfair..lol... but I'm looking to change that very soon.. :)

Have a great day tomorrow, and congrats on the $100...I wanna win something...
 
Pineola if she has joined in the past year and you've only started having a problem since then I'd say your boss should really be able to see that it's this woman that's giving you grief. As in you've worked there for longer, never had a problem, then all of a sudden you do. Surely your boss would be able to see that (God I hope your boss isn't as much of a half-wit as mine).

We recently took on a wee Saturday worker lassie and sometimes she does overtime during the week but even after 3 months she doesn't know how to do basic stuff.:rolleyes:

Hope you're having a good week otherwise, it's nearly the weekend!:D
 
I just took some pictures of myself recently too and had a hard time dealing with them. I've allegedly made progress (or so the scale tells me), but when I look at the pictures all I see is a fat girl. I can't wait until I get to a point when I can look at a picture of myself and be like, Hmmm... who is that cutie? lol

I think you need to slip a laxative into your co-workers coffee :)
 
Val--coworkers are tricky. I'm so excited about next year because my biggest problem coworker is going to another grade and being replaced by somebody who I have worked with before and like very much. I think the laxative in the coffee would at least keep her out of your hair for a day :). As for pictures, they have that effect on everybody. They're scary scary things.
 
Hey pinster!

I'm sorry about that woman at work. I assume you've been at work longer than her, so you can still put in your own words. Hope it doesn't balloon into anything major.

I know exactly how you feel with the pictures and self image. Mentally, I'm a bikini-sized, dark haired beauty. And with my hair dye fading fast, I am currently none of these! Soon you'll match the you you know you are. You're making great progress, keep it up missus :)

Have a wonderful day, and TGIF!

Bronsk
 
valapalooza said:
I think you need to slip a laxative into your co-workers coffee :)
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Ooooh!! That is so sneaky!!!! .... But I love it!! :D

Keep positive Pineola, and don't let that woman at work get you down. If you have been working there for longer than her, then people know you and will know that she is making things up. ;)
 
Hey P,

Oooo I hate people like your co-worker. That was low to lie like that....next time do not tell her that you're going to phone her boss and like someone else mentioned, hopefully your boss will realize where the real problems are coming from.

and I'm just checking in to see how you're day is going. I hope it's goin great.
 
I like valapalooza's style!!!

Sorry to hear about the trouble at work Pinnie. I remember there was this one very difficult co-worker I had to deal with for about a year. And on the days it really stressed me out all I wanted was to go out for a cheeseburger and french fries. Looking for some kind of comfort or release from a really bad situation. And I gained about twenty pounds!!!

Keep your chin up, honey. The Sisters are here for you. We can also come kick her ass for you if you want.....collectively as the Sisterhood that is.
 
Ooooh, Val you're so devilish! I love it. You know, I actually entertained that thought when I read it, but then I thought to myself....she does have diabetes and what if something bad happened to her? Then I thought about all the bad Karma it would bring me and I decided I am just going to have my Sisters "kick her ass"

You are so lucky, Cannon that your pain in the butt co-worker is leaving.

My boss knows that I would not just start trouble (I have been there for 5yrs), but she does think I am a hard ass at times, so I hope she doesn't think I am just being too hard on her.

I feel a little bit better about the situation because I confided with a couple of the guys at work and they felt the same way about her. So I'm not totally crazy. I don't usually like to gossip at work (just at home), but I really needed to get some feedback.

I had kind of a small milestone today. I got a sandwich and made two meals out of it! Good thing too, cause it was pretty high in cals 640!

I decided I am not going to take any more pics until I hit the 20lb mark and then I'm going to ask Paul if I look any different and if he says "no"--I won't look at them. I'll just save them for later when I am thin and I can say "Oh, thank goodness I'm not that fat anymore" It just dawned on me that Paul might not want to tell me if I don't look any different....ha ha ha. Poor guy!

Thanks everybody! Have a great Friday---I'm sooooo glad it is Friday tomorrow.
 
Ok, I'm not trying to be sexist, but don't ask the man if you look any different. In his mind nothing he says can come out right (believe me, I'm dumb enough to ask mine all the time and then I'm depressed if he doesn't have the right reaction). The before pictures are depressing, and maybe not the best idea. They always just make me feel bad about myself. On the other hand, if you try to take the most flattering picture you can of yourself once a month, then they're not nearly so depressing. When you're standin' around in your skivvies looking depressed taking what you know is going to be an uglier picture of you than what the future holds, what good are you doing yourself? Look your best, be your best, whatever that is, and then as you compare them down the road you'll feel good about your improvements without feeling too bad about your past. At least that's what I do. I'm extra sensitive though.

Take care.
 
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