Mrs Bear's Diary

OK.....when it is your birthday....isn't someone else supposed to bring the cake to work? What the heck? Just stopped by to see how you are doing and I see it is very well. Give Buster a kiss for me.
 
I dare not ... he'd probably have my nose!!:D

It is different in Britain than in the US .... if its your birthday, you bring in the cakes. It is normally donuts or cream cakes but as I work with 30 odd people and love to bake, I normally make a big cake and take it in. Of course, 30 times a year you get to eat cakes that others have brought in :D but luckily as I don't eat wheat I am not tempted to indulge ;) . However I make mine with wheat free flour, so I could be tempted to lick out the bowl. What I am going to do is use some of the mix to make a smaller one to take to my sister's tomorrow when she throws me my little party (only close family), and I shall try and wait until then to have some. :rolleyes:
 
I ... am ... knackered!!!!!! But pleased :D . I have just got back from my second 14 mile bike ride of the weekend. Basically, I do my 10 mile bike ride, but half way back I take a left turn that takes me up to another village, then turn around, come back, and continue on my route home. So, once I get to this second village I have done 10 miles and have got to do the last 4 miles in order to get home. Today, I turn around and start heading back and it was all into the wind!!! :eek: . And as usual I didn't notice that wind behind me on the way up :p . That is the good thing about the route I do, if I had the choice I would have stopped, but I had to come home!! I feel great that I did it though. Now I have Betterware catalogues to deliver, but hubby is helping so I should only be out 40 mins, then it is out to lunch with a friend. I am going to try to be fairly good, but as it is a birthday celebration, I am going to have a dessert and know that I earned it this morning!!!!;)

Hopefully, later on this evening, I will be adding a post to say how pleased I am that the sugar from the dessert did not lead to a full on binge. Knowing that I will have to write it here will hopefully help me stay in control.

Toodles peeps!! :cool:
 
Yay!!! Another 14 miles! Well done missus!! It's so exciting watching the tickers change.

I know you won't go on a binge. You've written here first, so it's not going to happen. You're strong enough to not let it happen :)

All the best!

Bronsk
 
What a big weekend Mrs B! Great Job on all that riding!

Binging would just make it all seem for naught!
You really don't want to do that, right? ;)
 
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You're such a great exercise inspiration!! :D Glad you are getting all that wonderful riding in. Hope you have a good bday celebration, make sure to indulge but only a tiny bit. You can do it. :) Keep us updated.
 
Okay, so I'm doing an update to keep me focussed.

Breakfast was porridge, then after my bike ride I had a slice of cheese.

At the harvester I had a small bowl of salad with some thousand island dressing, followed by salmon and new potatoes (it did have butter on it, but not too much). Then I had a dessert, Lemon blizzard, but it was not as huge as some of them. So all in all, not too bad.

My friend gave me a 450g (!!!) box of Milk Tray chocs as a present, which was not so good. I accepted gratefully, but I am determined to take them into work, because otherwise they will go in one sitting ... honestly :eek: . I just have to resist temptation.

I have done my baking, but I still have the filling and icing to do. I did lick the bowl out and I have snarfled a few squares of chocolate, but I am trying to keep it under control, as much as I can. I usually end up eating spoonfuls of sugar out of the bag to satisfy that immense craving for sugar that gets started.

I have had a slice of cheese and a chunk of choritzo to try and take that sweet taste away, but I am still tempted.

For me, I think I will be happy aslong as the little tastes that I take only add up to maybe a slice of cake, and they will probably be less. Then it wouldn't be a binge, it would just be having a slice of cake. Not perfect, but not losing control. I won't be stuffing myself or losing control, and that is the behaviour that I want to quit. I guess it was just too difficult for me to be baking and smelling all those smells (why did I do chocolate cake!!:rolleyes: ). Luckily, after my husband's birthday party next week :)eek: ) I will have no cause to bake for a long, long time!!!!

And thanks all you guys for your supportive comments, you really have stopped me losing control and thinking, oh what the hell. :)
 
You are doing so well with the exercise! You've completely inspired me to do as much as I can as soon as my back is a bit better. Don't beat yourself up about a bit of sweet. You are fighting off the binge and that is fantastic! We're here for you!
 
You are doing a great job Mrs. B and YOU are In Control!

Worse case scenario, go in, brush your teeth and then grab some gum while you finish the baking process ;)
 
I don't know what my calorie intake will be for today, but what I do know is that I have a headache, I feel thirsty and a bit queasy!!! :p I have got heart flutters aswell from the sugar rush. I had forgotten how horrible sweet stuff made me feel. The funny thing is that if I hadn't been baking, I wouldn't even have fancied anything sweet. But I smell the smells and the first taste is so delicious, but it just isn't worth it.

Tomorrow is another difficult day. I'm going to my sister's for a small birthday celebration tomorrow. She has planned that we will get fish and chips (luckily I can only have the chips as the fish is battered (wheat!), have a few nibbles and then have some cake and ice cream after (I made a mini one to take over with me). We planned this before I joined this forum, and now I wish I could cancel, but I feel too guilty. My sister has similar problems to me, and like me she looks forward to having treats like this. But at the moment, I just want to throw that cake in the bin!!! I feel a bit hopeless at the moment, and my brain is whurring. I swear sugar is evil!!!

I am determined to do my third bike ride tomorrow, but I am worried that my body will not work aswell now that I have had sugar today. This was really the worst time for me to start afresh because at the end of this week, I am cooking and baking all the food for my husband's party aswell as doing numerous different cocktails!!! I am going to try and be as 'in control' as I can, and try and remember this horrible feeling.

It is so strange how I don't want sweet stuff, or to over eat, but it is almost as though I feel I have to do it, because the food will be available. It is almost like you have to go to the dentist. You dread it, but you have to do it. Does anyone else feel like this?
 
Wow! Those long bike rides are awesome! I wish we had good places to ride bikes like that here. :( Don't worry about all the cakes and sugar. Even if you are just not eating as much as you would have before, then you are still doing better than you were then. ;)
 
Thanks HH! I have just drank lots of water and done all the cleaning up after baking, and I actually feel a lot better now. I wanted to come back and post again, because my last post was sooooooooo negative, and over all I do feel really positive.

I'm really lucky cycle route-wise. We have moors (he-he, sounds like Wuthering Heights) near us, and the moor roads are nice and quiet. I hate cycling on busy roads, and I love the peace and quiet of the countryside. Mind you, it was such a warm day today, it smelt like manure :p !!

So my last comment on today .... it was no worse than I expected, it was a lot better than it could have been, and tomorrow is another day!!

Thanks to everyone who swung by to give me support and encouragement. I WILL do you proud tomorrow ;)
 
It's midnight...

Aaaaaaaaaaaaa very merry um-birthday, to you (to you)
A very merry um-birthday to you (to you)
la la la
la la la
la la la la laaaaaaaa
A very merry um-birthday to youuuuuuuuuuuu!

Have a brilliant day! And well done again for today! Hope tomorrow goes well for you, but just remember; birthday calories don't count ;)

*hugs*

Bronsk
 
Mrs B happy bday!!
I think for having cakes and frostings in front of you all day and being able to not binge is wonderful.

And I do know what you mean atleast in my own way but its similar. You know you shouldn't eat so much of something, you know how bad it makes your body feel and yet your still standing there stuffing your face like your life will end if you don't finish it all at that instant. When my husband is sitting around eating a bag of chips (and yes he eats the whole bag sometimes) I will find myself sitting next to him chowing down like I'll never get to eat another chip in my life. ok well thats alittle different but I do know how you feel its like you just can't stop from doing it. The only way I can get through that is not having it around. But you can't be in control of every food you ever come in contact with. I know none of that ended up being very motivational but I just wanted to tell you I have similar issues and your not alone in it.

Ok
Now listen up little missy. :p
No binging tomorrow!! It is your bday celebration but one serving is plenty.

Keep up that biking. We are all rooting for you, you can do it. :)
 
Thank you for all the birthday wishes!! (((Hugs))) to all on my birthday! I am feeling a lot more positive today, especially after reading back through everyone's posts. I have still got an unopened box of chocs which will be going to work with me tomorrow. You should have seen the guys descend on the cake I took in today :rolleyes: !! I know those chocs will go to a good home :D . I have got up early today, and once my breakfast has gone down I am going for a bike ride.

I am determined to stay in control today, and while at my sister's I will have all of your voices in my head (as well as a few of my own :D ) reminding me that one serving is enough, and that I will thank myself later on if I am good. Anyway, with having to work tomorrow, I don't want to overdo it and feel yucky!!

Thanks again, and I will keep you posted.
 
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Just got back from my bike ride - what a hard slog. I'm not sure if it is because it is my 3rd bike ride in 3 days, or the sugar from yesterday, but my legs felt like lead. I feel a lot more human now I have done it, though ;) . Only managed 10 miles, but I am still proud of myself for getting out there, and I new three lots of 14 miles in a row was a tall order :p .

It was spitting a bit when I went out today, which was quite nice and refreshing, but when I reached Nailsea it started to rain properly. And I was 5 miles from home :eek: !! Wish I had me a pair of red shoes to click together!! (We're not in Clevedon anymore, Toto :D )

On the way back, I was thinking about a titbit of information I have gained from this forum, about how when fat is burned out of fat cells, those cells fill with water, then the water drains out over time ... to stop the skin sagging. Maybe this is why I feel so thirsty when I am dieting, I need the water for that purpose!?

Also, I have changed my signature, as I want to give up sugar, and binging, and feel like I need a record of it to inspire me, like with the cycling. Just aswell the signature is limited to 100 characters, or I'd have 4 tickers and everyone would have RSI from scrolling down all the extra pages!

Off to do some weights now, then in the bath and off to my sister's ... wish me luck!
 
Hey birthday girl!

Well done on the cycle! Like I said, it's always exciting seeing the ticker move closer to the goal.

All the best at your sisters! Hope it goes well, but remember that it is your birthday, so try not to be too strict with yourself :) Just enjoy, dude! And remember that we're all rootin' for ya!

*hugs*

Bronsk
 
Happy Birthday Mrs B :D

Three days of bike riding is GREAT! And the extra rain MUST have accounted for something ;)

Have a really good day :)
 
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