Mrs Bear's Diary

Hey missus!

No matter about the lack of cycle, I didn't get any swimming in today, as originally planned. And like you said, you still have the weekend to cycle.

Even though it feels like mrs weight management lady was being harsh, the real questions are: have you gone up, and are you pleased with your progress? Don't let her get you down, you've done fantastic, you should be very pleased with yourself :)

Urgh, it's horrible when people dig at grades. I'd done pretty shoddy at AS; 4 Cs and a D. I spent ages feeling really bad about, then with boyfriend and parent's conviction, I started to feel better. Then when I was out, I saw my GCSE English teacher. I told her what I got, and she said to me "You could have done so much better. At least you have next year to resit everything." She wasn't even teaching me anymore, and she made me feel as bad as ever! No matter, did better for the full A-Levels.

Well done for today's intake! You've done good Mrs! Keep it up, and soon you'll be able to raspberry the evil weight management lady :p

*hugs*

Bronsk
 
Thanks Bronsk ... you are absolutely right, of course. I know in my heart that I am doing well, it just niggles me that she doesn't really get me. I don't want to paint her as bad, she is really friendly and well intentioned, but she just doesn't understand me and my life.

And what exactly does 'You could have done so much better' mean exactly ..... you did as good as you could at that time. I thought teachers were meant to give 'constructive' criticism.:rolleyes:

Ah, well, I brushed my teeth and even though I was reeeeaaaaaaaaalllly tempted to splurge, I have had nothing extra tonight. I can't let a couple of set backs spoil my positive buzz, or FSD!!!

Laters, Duckie!! (I do hope you get the swimming reference there :D )
 
Duckie! *titter gaffaw* :D I should change my ticker-doofer to a duck! In fact, I would if I could; one of my favourite animals, and one of the tastiest :p

No doubt that Mrs Weight Check Lady is friendly. Problem is, no matter how friendly people are, they haven't lived your life and don't know what you've done and what you've been through in the past weeks. Don't let her get to you, hun. *hugs*

Well done on the binge-free night! I'm looking forward to coming back from camping and seeing your ticker move up and your binge free and sugar free days go up as well :)

*hugs* Have a great weekend! Stay cool :)

Bronsk
 
I thought Duckie was a better name than Fishie (poo whiffey!!:D ). Thanks for the ongoing encouragement, it really means a lot to me, and It has inspred me to try my hardest to have an impressive signature when you get back!! ;)

Laters, Duckie :D
 
Hi Hi! Looks like you're doing great, 3 days no binge woohoo :D

Alright enough of that. I really just wanted to come on and tell you to do lots of cycling while I'm gone so I can come back, feel lazy and get to it myself :p.

Thanks alot for everything. I'll be gone for 4 days, leaving later on today I think, wish me luck I'll really need it. :p
 
I'm happy you did not go for the binge that day.. *Claps* Stay Super POSITIVE and don't let noones words dicourge you. Have a GREAT Day and drink your WATER:D
 
Hey Lazyone ... you off aswell are you, my buddies are leaving one by one :( . I shall make sure I have shifted my ticker a good way by the time you get back, for sure. Good luck and a goodbye ((hug)) from Buddy Bear :D

Hey JB, thanks for the encouragement, and as per the drinking game, as soon as I saw your post I took a swig from my water bottle, so thankyou for that aswell :D .

I am very, very, (and one more for luck) very pleased. I felt very nibbly today ... I think it is the disappointment about my postponed party, plus just being tired. I got back from work and just wanted to eat! But I made myself go out on my bike. Without thinking I just got into my gear and walked out the door. Of course 3 minutes later I was back at the house because I had forgotten my water but it was all extra cycling :D . And I could not do my cycle without water, not in this heat. So .... I did 14 miles!!! I was going to do my 8 mile ride, but when I got out I started to feel more energetic, so I started my 10 mile ride, then on the way back I am 2 miles away from my house when I can decide to add the extra 4 miles on, and I really wanted to get my total to a nice round 70 miles, so I went for it!! (Apologies for world's longest sentence :D )

Food for today ....

Breakfast: Porridge (450 cals)
Snacks: 2 apples, 1 banana, 1 peach, few brazil nuts (300 cals)
More snacks: 30g cheese, 3 slices wafer thin ham (150 cals)
Dinner: large smoothie (900 cals)

Total for today is around 1800 cals, but I am making a chocolate nut trifle to take to my sister's tomorrow for a BBQ, so I may resist temptation, but I may have to lick the odd bowl out .... we shall see. Of course I would have to change my signature for sugar (I only change the binge one if I eat mindlessly, out of control, or an excessive amount) so that may disuade me.

Cheers for dropping by guys!
 
Oh ... dear .... I had sugar. But I'm not too worried. I had resolved myself to the fact that I would have some treats at my party this weekend, and then when it was postponed I felt like I was missing out a bit. So I am going to my sister's tomorrow for a barbecue and I am taking a chocolate nut trifle .... which I made today :rolleyes: . I licked out a couple of bowls of very rich, creamy stuff (not with my tongue I hasten to add :p ), and I had a slice of the chocolate swiss roll. But .... I did not binge. I am not stuffed now, I did not lose control, and I did not use the spatula to get every last morsel out of the bowls. The way I see it is I worked hard on my bike ride, had a very good day with food, then had a dessert ..... not the end of the world. I guess I'm just not ready to give up sugar yet. Maybe one day soon ....

Tomorrow evening, I will not have too much to eat, because I don't like eating a lot at social functions. I find with my IBS that if I do my stomach starts acting up and I can't enjoy myself, so I will have a few crisps, maybe a burger and salad, and some trifle. I will just have to be very good the rest of the day. Also she offered me her spare room so I could have some cocktails, but I'd rather drive home and sleep in my own bed, so that will save me overdoing it on the alcohol front.
 
You biked for 14 miles? Wow, just wow. You must have burned a trillion calories. And heard that mixing bowl licking only counts as about 28 calories. Okay I made that part up, but it sounded good at the time!!!

Hope you have a great time at your sister's party. And I know what you mean about not wanting to be at a party and have any kind of tummy trouble. But that can be a good control device as well for not overdoing it. But whatever you do, have fun and enjoy yourself!!!
 
Look at you go! 70 miles already done on your cycling ticker! :D You are doing great! Don't worry about having a little bit of sugar. You are managing to cut back alot. :D
 
Hi Mrs. B!
WTG on cycling 14 miles!! You are on a roll (no pun intended, really!) ;) Congrats on the binge free days too!

You're doing great :D
 
Thanks for the support and encouragement guys, it means a lot to me :) . I have a tendency to be an all or nothing person, and think that if I am not sticking to my diet all the time and exercising constantly, that I might aswell not bother, but I have got to realise that no one is perfect and that any positive changes I make are good.

I will be giving up sugar eventually, though. I didn't sleep well last night, and this morning I felt groggier than usual and a bit dehydrated. Its funny how a little bit of sugar affects you so much after a few days without it.
 
Hey Mrs Bear see when you say "give the tarantula a stroke for me" do you wish me to ake out the 24 I have and give each one a cuddle. It's just I have a couple that are actually the most venemous in the world and I'd rather not take them out and have them run away from me (again).:eek:

You're still doing great with the food and stuff so keep at it, you'll see some great results soon!:)
 
Spluuuurge!!!!

24!! Wow, thats a lot. Do you breed them, or are they all different types?

Okay, so today has been ...... not great. I will list what I had, but I am not sure what the cals are for some of the stuff.

Breakfast: Porridge (450 cals)
Lunch: 30g cheese, 2 wafer thin slices ham, porridge (600 cals)
Snacks: 30g cheese, Smoothie made with 150g yog, pineapple juice, 2 peaches and summer fruits (no nuts or seeds) (500 cals)
Dinner: 1 small burger, 2 sausages, chips and dips (not huge amounts), 2 small servings of Choc Nut Trifle
Supper: 2 handfuls of grapes, a small bowl of chilli beef

So as you can see, I have had some quite bad stuff today. I originally wrote down ... not great, not terrible .... but to be honest after writing it down I think it was more than a little splurge! I still cannot get past this being bad at the weekend thing. I am fairly sure that I can still lose weight aslong as I am very good in the week, but it is a matter of changing habits.

Also, I have arranged with my family that they will come to me for a get together next weekend ( eep!!) and that I will go over to theirs the following weekend as my other sister is down from the midlands (eep! eep!!) and on both occasions I am making the desserts. I love seeing my family, I love making desserts and I love eating nice food. However, I am being more restrained than I would have been, and am eating smaller amounts (mostly).

Does anyone else have these weekly splurges, and do any of you think that it is a big problem? Do I need to give up indulgences like this entirely?

I feel like a bit of a failure as so many of you seem to be able to stick to a plan full time. I wish I could do that and not keep slipping like this. It isn't even on the spur of the moment. I have these things planned and I have every intention of eating the food. What am I going to do??? :(
 
I have decided that I am going to have to class today as a binge. This is mainly because when I got home I didn't need to eat anything else, but I did. I ate the grapes really quickly then ate the chilli just for the sake of it. Not a terrible binge, but still binge behaviour. One good thing is that I have not stuffed myself, and all though I feel very thirsty (too much salt) my tummy is comfortable and I should sleep well tonight (except for the heat ... phew!!)

PS - my aim for this week is to have atleast 5 days binge and sugar free, and if I could manage 6 days, that would mean no tasting while making stuff for next weekend, and I could relax a bit more about having some party food on Saturday.
 
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treats

I plan for treats, kind of. I try to average 1500 calories a day on a weekly basis. Some days are 1300, some are closer to 1700. I haven't had a day over 1800 in about three weeks. :) But, I do try to eat lighter during the day, and maybe even a couple of days ahead of time if I know I am going out to eat or I want a particular treat (like my TOM 3 Musketeer bar).

Now, I don't mean I starve for days so I can binge on the weekend. I just mean I might shave a couple hundred calories off my diet for a couple of days so I have plenty of room for the enchilada dinner I want on Friday. AND - I quit pigging out on the chips and bread and whatever else they bring you at so many restaurants before your meal actually arrives. I count out the number of chips I want to eat and stick to just those.
 
Awww, I'm sorry. I seem to be splurging on Fridays--after my weigh in. Hmmm...I wonder if there is anything related? I will have to check that out. I lost two lbs this week even though I did have my Friday splurge, so I think if you keep on track the rest of the week you should be fine. I don't have a problem with myself splurging if it is to eat normal sized portions of really bad food at meal time. Compulsive and Emotional eating is not acceptable. That is a habit I am trying desperately to break. Don't sweat a small set back. Look how good you are doing on your biking etc... Take care.
 
Oh Mrs. B,
I think it would be good to not catagorize being good or being bad. There are times we make healthier choices then at others.

I really just don't see being or striving for "perfect" is attainable, and we're setting ourselves up for feeling like a failure.

You are doing GREAT! Yes, your calories might be a little higher then you might want, but what were your calories like this time last year? Were you cycling like you are now?

It's small steps towards a long term goal!

You're taking those steps, you are, and you will get there.
 
Mrs. Bear, don't beat yourself up so much. We all have days like that.

M2M just said it best up there ^^^^^
 
Thanks for all you great comments and encouragement guys. And now I know why I have been feeling like splurging the last couple of days ... I got my TOTM today. And I felt really lousy, crampy and upset. I cried at the end of Will and Grace :rolleyes: damn these hormones :D . And I turned to emotional eating ... oooops!! Ah well, I will feel better tomorrow and will go back to healthier options. And M2M, you are completely right, I have to focus on the positive changes that I have made, its going to take time to change my eating habits and I have to accept that.

No bike ride today, I was too crampy and bloated, but I did deliver some betterware catalogues so I feel like I have got off my butt for a bit of time today.

I shall be back tomorrow, feeling positive, upbeat and determined to try again until I get it right.

Thanks again guys, you really help me stay rooted and not beat myself up too much :)
 
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