MoonGoddess's Path

Amazingly the visit went well & no one mentioned anything about my weight one way or the other, which is what I want. I'm sick of the judgments & if they are going to do it, I would rather they just keep it to themselves. Although its nice to hear that I have lost & they notice, at the same time in this point I don't even want to acknowledge that they notice anything. Its my body & my journey to health. I'm not doing it for them & am sick of the check ins. So it was nice not to have that this weekend.

:hurray:& THE PANTHERS FINALLY WON A HOME GAME!!!!:hurray:
I can't wait to get home & watch the game. I am at work getting payroll together & getting stuff together for the holiday staff party that I don't think anyone wants to attend... & have had to watch the scoring online without seeing the plays. Driving me nuts, but good to see we finally got one home win in before the season ended. Nice to see Miami win one this year too. :D

I have been so bad this weekend in tracking what I am eating. Have to get back on track tomorrow. With the party tonight I am just giving up for the day. I woke up late so I did a brunch thing instead of breakfast & lunch, so it could be worse. Plus I am going to try to be good at the party. What I really want is a cheeseburger.. thats not happening around here. But I am craving it. Have to stay strong & remember that I am wanting to lose weight & that all this being lazy with tracking calories & the well just this once since its the holidays over eating is not going to work with that goal.
 
Sometimes just giving into the craving ends up saving you more calories down the road while you replace that craving calorie with something else :)

If you know what it is that you want... enjoy it and keep going forward.

Glad the visit went well :)
 
I'm stuck at work til 9:30ish & no burgers in site.... I went for a banana & some crackers. So far for the party I have seen some cookies & brownies, chips & salsa, cheese ball snowman... creative! & some chocolate nut mix. We have cocoa & hot cider to drink so I won't be tempted with the alcohol binge eating action.

I'm going to make a deal with myself that if I can get out of here early & limit myself to just tasting things rather than indulging... then I might have to pick up a kids meal cheeseburger plain on the way home!
 
I did even better than I thought... I ended up passing on the drinks & most of the sweets, just nibbled a little... then in the relief of getting out of there & thinking HOLEY MOLEY it got cold all the sudden, I drove straight home & got in my comfy PJs....forgot to pick up the fast food! Ooops. So it looks like I will be eating leftover turkey! Even better.
 
YAY for you and your healthy choices (or cold weather making you forget about the bad ones! :D)!!!

I just read above that you are addicted to Chex Mix... I LOVE it, too! I love the Turtle, Peanut Butter, and Honey Nut ones! Ugh! Sooo good!!! My other SERIOUS addiction is chocolate covered pretzels. I have to avoid them at all costs, because once I start, good grief...
 
oh whoa.. I didn't even realize they made turtle chex mix. I just mix up the normal stuff at home.

Have to add turtle chex mix to the list of foods to never try. Looks like something I would get addicted to too!
 
I can't believe how cold it has gotten overnight! I'm loving it... course its dry & we don't have any snow or ice to fall & bust my ass on! :) & its only been a day & a half that we have been under 70 degrees... so I might be complaining next week! But at least its starting to feel like December finally!

I was hoping to start fresh in tracking calories, but danged if someone didn't leave out a can of those straw shaped cookies that are like sugar cookies but with chocolate. & before I even realized what I was doing I had popped one into my mouth & started eating it. No clue how many calories or even what those buggers are called. Argh. I am really out of the tracking habit. but at least I realize it & am determined to get back on track!
 
UG... so we have the secret santa gift exchange thing at work & of course I participated & ended up getting a good friend of mine so I had a ball of sewing her a bag & filling it with lil trinkets that made me think of her. (She so needed that lump of coal after this weekend!)

My secret santa ended up giving me a HUGE tray of home baked chocolate chip cookies.

Crap. Didn't she catch the "I'm trying to lose weight part"? I stuck them in the office work room so hopefully other people will enjoy them & she won't catch on since she works downstairs.

Got me thinking... a HUGE tray of cookies really isn't a good gift idea for anyone. Especially the single girl with no kids to help her eat them & is trying to lose weight.

ah... well it was the thought that counts. At least it wasn't a canned ham or fruitcake. :santa:
 
I really don't understand why people think that giving a female a baskey of cookies is a good gift :) at least a cookie scentedcandle does't have any calories :)
 
Yes, yes! Regift them! :)

Today I got a container of chocolate covered pretzels from my secret santa! I wrote on my favorite foods that I wanted "healthy stuff, because I'm trying to lose weight". UGH!

Remember what I said about chocolate covered pretzels?! I figured exactly how many I can have for 100 calories (7), so I bagged them in 7's.

People just don't get it!
 
Yesterday sucked movement wise. After working all day then rushing home to let out the dog & rushing to a board meeting, I feel like I might as well be in a wheelchair. Ug. I need movement. Plus the hot bar at work looked like crap so some well intentioned soul made a philly cheese steak run & I caved. It was soooo good too! dang it.

I was shocked to see the scale dropped a pound this morning. Could be just the normal fluctuation, but it made me smile.

I had such high hopes at the start of this year. It was going to be the year I reclaimed my body. I have carried around this extra for too long. I know its emotional baggage & helps to give me an excuse when I don’t achieve what I want to. I’m kinda sad that the year is almost over & I am not where I had hoped I would be. Granted I got off track & I have LOST this year. I am pounds lighter than I was at the start. Which I need to celebrate…..but I just want more! :) Course it took many years to pack on these pounds & I can’t expect them to drop off over night.

I also have to be happy that I left the gift of cookies I received at work, since last night I swear I would have ended up eating like 3 & not caring. Certainly pays to watch what comes through the door, because its going to end up going in the body!
 
MoonGoddess---

I'm glad that you can see your accomplishments that you've made through the year, even if it wasn't as much as you wanted. Think about how much work you put in and how many millions of people just sat around and didn't care. Instead you did something, and you have lost weight. Great job!
 
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