MoonGoddess's Path

You make me giggle, you sound so much like me....I too, am single and lovin' it...I was with my ex for 12 years and now it's time for myself (well I have two children...so it's time for us!) all my friends keep bugging me about meeting someone and dating...(I haven't dated in 3 years...and honestly I'm not interested) I think I am on this path to finding who I am...kinda odd, I know, however I've always been who other people wanted me to be....and so now is my time to do some soul searching....

I am like you about the exercise machine...I broke down not too long ago and bought an elliptical...I had a membership at the YMCA and for a year paid the membership fee and not went...(well maybe gone like a month out of the 12 I've paid for...pretty sad ey?) I never liked working out with people around me...and why is there skinny people everywhere at the gym?! working so hard at maintaing my body...it made me sick to be there and be so over weight...

Well I'm there with ya sista! Let's lose some weight together!!
 
Ug... today has been sooo long. Work is intense but I guess that's why I get paid to be there thinking & figuring out those kinks, then a quick rush home to let out the dog, gaze longingly at my treadmill, then rush out the door to a board meeting (where my dinner consisted of a 4 cheese quesadilla & chocolate croissant- within my calorie range, but only cuz I planned the whole day to leave plenty of calorie open for dinner). Finally made it home mentally drained & ready to crawl into my nice warm bed. Its freezing.

I made myself hop on to the treadmill for a little while. Added some DVR'd stand up comic to keep myself going & laughed my way into a three mile walk. Lewis Black is hilarious.

Now my pooped butt is going to bed. I will exercise in my dreams or something to make up the extra time I wish I had spent on the treadmill.

Hopefully tomorrow I will consistently eat healthy stuff throughout the day & spread the calories more evenly throughout the day.
 
Trust me that is partially your fault! :p One of the things that made me motivated was thinking about that Walk to Sweetheart City Challenge. It was just one more thing pushing my butt up off the couch into the walking shoes!

Thanks.

I was feeling down this morning about the scale not really moving the past few days (FEW DAYS, jeez. I'm getting greedy with the weight loss here!). But I measured my waist after watching an episode of You: On a Diet that I had DVR'd & never got around to watching til now. They concentrated on WAIST management over weight. So I decided to measure the waist again. I did six days ago when I started tracking it all on the sparkpeople site.

I went from 43 inches to 41!!!!

Today I'm going for at least an hour walk!
 
Great Job on the inches lost!! 2 inches is great...you're doing great...keep up the good work!! I totally feel you on the scale not moving...but like you said...we can't turn back now...so keep doing what you have been doing...seems like you're doing fantastic!!!
 
Thanks for the comments!!!

So I am having a great day today.

I finally did ove 10,000 steps in one day. I never thought I would be able to do that! I always hear how its the recommended goal to shot for over 10,000 steps a day, but never found myself able to clock that many on my pedometer in one day. The treadmill definitely helps!

Ok I'm off to snooze some before the next day begins.
 
Wow! Good for you for taking those measurements! What a great way to have a visual confirmation that the work you're putting into this HAS results!

Even when those scales aren't moving as much as we'd like them to!
 
I'm struggling again today.

I walked 2.5 miles & stayed within my calorie range, but I REALLY wanted to eat bad stuff today and had no interest in working out at all.

I'm losing my motivation. Hopefully its just a slump & tomorrow I will be back in my game & ready to really walk my arse right off. But for today I'm mentally & physically tired.
Work is taking A LOT out of me lately & I know that its a unique time & there is a lot to think out & plan & that in the end it could pay off big, but I want me time. Time to invest in me & have it pay off in weight off & a healthier body.
I know inbetween mettings today all I wanted to do was munch. chocolate, cheese puffs, cheese sticks, candy bar, soda, potato chips..... I did good though when I was tested. My office mate got some crackers & brie & offer me some, but I passed.

Guess its like they say some days are better than others.
 
Another day of struggle.

I just want to eat more. I'm not sure how to spread my calories out better & feel like I am eating good stuff. Not doing any fast food like I used to so overall its a step in the right direction, but I'm hungry!

The calorie range that was recommended went down by 140 calories & I was having trouble sticking to it before! I just feel tired and energy less. Not sure if this is just part of breaking the food addiction or if I should just eat more.

Its 4:30 & I already know that I will be going over my calorie range today. Not by too much, but I will go over.

Just curious if this is a phase or if I am doing something wrong. Maybe I am just too whiny & spoiled to eating whatever I want.

Trust me I am not eating what I want right now. I am being good, but it is a battle now.

I need to exercise tonight, but I have no energy.
 
eating more i don't necessarily thing is a bad thing - as long as what you are eating has some nutritive value - a bag of potato chips would be bad, but some added protein... or a whole grain something wouldn't kill you.. i think the trick is to find what does satisfy youand that amount..
 
Ok a few things my dear...The Exercise Challenege is great for motivation tha tis why I wanted to do it, I need that motivation to exercise daily at least 30 mins a day...Im going to start a new one as well afterwards, but a looong one...Maybe we can walk to me from somewhere, LOL...

Struggling I hear ya but everyday brings a new challenge and I will at elast speak for myself here...When I see progress and I start loosing and keeping it off it makes me scared, feasr sets ina nd thenI binge and rihgt back where I started from, *UGH* LOL...I think I am afraid to be thin...

Anyway I am a firm beleivier in giving into your tempotations...(I guess we know why I am so emotionaly and screwed up hey, LOL) But if oyu want chocolate eat a little bit of chocolate...all in moderation...

If youa re constantly hungry eat more, as long as you are making healthier choices that is what matters in the long run...You are using that treadmill daily right and before you werent that will make you hingrier and want to eat more...at least when I exercise alot it makes me huingry...and when I told sparks ppl I was gonna exercise 30 mins a da everyday it uped my cals by like a cpl houndred calories...If you are hungry you need to eat because I beleive denierign yourself food is what will lead to binges and such and bad binges...just my 2 cents...

I am very proud to see your progress and to see you work out even when tired, tha tis the attitude my friend...that is the determination that with lead you down this path to succeed!!!

Have a good day!!!
 
Thanks you gals! I needed that support.

I am determined to make today a GREAT day for me. Last night I kinda said screw it all & just ate what I felt like I wanted, without binging thankfully, but I went over the recommended calories by close to 300 calories. I think also I am fighting off some cold or something that could be one reason why I feel so tired. But today is my day off work & I am determined to do something for me. So the plan is to spread the calories out a little more evenly, which is easier at home than at work. Plus I won't have the stress that is at work which I know is a trigger to making me want to eat.

The goal is to workout, read something educational & inspirational, & meditate. Then I am going to steal away for some me time & go to a movie (I'm sneaking in some Veggie Booty, since its kinda like popcorn, but healthier & was on sale at work yesterday).

Also I had a nice surprise this morning. I lost one more pound. Which I find strange since I exercised less & ate more yesterday. Almost feels like my body saying its ok, now lets get going again.

That was pound number 10, so I'm off to Barnes & Noble or somewhere to check out all the magazines (Malificent you suggested some great ones!) & reward myself for the FIRST 10 pounds lost. That was on my list of motivators I made a while back for the first 10 pounds I am rewarding myself with a magazine subscription, which I normally don't treat myself to.

Hope everyone has a great Groundhog Day & remembers to wear something red in honor of the red cross heart awareness thing. Also its Imbolc or the half way point between Winter & Summer Solstice... so Spring is certainly on its way... which means SWIMSUIT SEASON!! Ahhhhhh!!!
 
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Congrats on the 10 pounds lost! I'm happy for ya! I hope that you have a great day off and enjoy the time to yourself :)
 
Thanks for all the celebration in here! Make me feel like I came to a party.

Today was a better day. No movie, no magazine picked out... I never even left the house!! Oops. But I did manage to file my taxes, make sushi for dinner, do 30 minutes of weight training & 90 minutes on the treadmill, followed by a nice relaxing epsom salt bath.

I went over the calorie range again today, but I worked out enough to cover it & more, & I didn't feel all tired & cranky.

Not quite sure how I ever am going to work my way up to the half marathon (have to do 13.1 miles in 3.5 hours, so a 16 minute mile). I am jogging a little bit but I can't do much. I'm amazed at these people who can run marathons! But for now I'm going to do what I can do & just concentrate on endurance rather than speed. Hopefully it will come easier when I lose more weight. I can actually feel all the fat move when jogging. ew. But I'm off & going & hopefully this is just the begining.

But for tonight.... I'm done.
 
:( OK so I just had something crazy happen.

I was looking at webpages that talk about the half marathon at WDW that my sister signed us up for. I was getting excited & learning all about what really goes on & what to expect & then for some reason tears welled up in my eyes. At first I thought it was from being excited then I realized it was pure fear. I am scared. For some reason watching a video of the race that one guy ran just plain scared the crap out of me. I know that by losing weight & starting to train now rather than waiting til the last minute, I will be fine & able to finish, but part of me just doubts myself. I don't know how to gain the inner confidence that just lets me know that I can & will do it & ENJOY IT. I'm so scared of not being able to finish or failing at something I work so hard for & I know its going to be hard work. I just am having trouble dealing with not being able to do something. I mean I have never been a jogger or runner. Even in school I was the kid that had every excuse in the book not to do the mile. Even told them running was against my beliefs since no one should ever have to run from something, but should be able to stand tall & face their fears. Yea that smartmouth started early on. I feel so stupid not being physically able or even really know how to do something that 6 year olds do naturally. I just feel like I have gone so far down the unhealthy path that I wonder if I will ever be an "athlete". & If I cant how do I deal with the defeat?

OK so I feel better just getting it all out & actually stating that this is a big fear. SO now I need to face it. Its not like I run like Phoebe from Friends or anything (man that episode cracks me up). But I do want to take care of myself & be good at what I do. I have a book on training for a half marathon for women ordered so maybe that will add some insight into what I should be doing. & maybe I will sign up for something smaller so that I can get used to the whole atmosphere before the big day. I just wish I could look like those sleek trim people that seem to glide effortlessly from start to the finishline like its all in a day's work. Maybe one day. but for now I just want to know that I can finish & not be the 29 year old that couldn't walk it.

alright on to the day ahead. enough freak out. I have plenty of time & lotsa motivation. Somehow I will deal with the emotional training as well as the physical. Just another step towards the finish line I guess.
 
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