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MoonGoddess

MoonGoddess

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Well I think its time to kick myself into high gear into the healthy zone. Full tilt boogie onto the next phase of my life.

I just spent the weekend with my parents for my mom's birthday & what an ordeal. Some background... my mother, father, sister & I are out of shape & somewhat over weight. My mother has cancer & my sister is getting married in October to a wonderful guy... I on the otherhand confuse my family by staying single by choice rather than settling for the next best thing. I struggled with anorexia in high school & spend most of my high school & college years being defined by who I was dating at the time. I ended that unhealthy life style to find myself. Well searching & endulging has lead me to a better place if not in my parents eyes or on my thighs. So now... time to get fit & let the outside match the healthy inside.

The drama of the weekend however was when my sister announced that she had plans for the family next January... she intends for the whole family to participate in the Disney Marathon. Well being someone who has HATED running my whole life, as well as mornings... which both are included in this plan.... laughed thinking she was joking. She's not. She said it will also ensure that we all get into shape for her wedding. Yup she has come down with a slight case of the bridezillas! After my first reaction of you are itching for a beat down.... (no we dont ever really duke it out, just want to sometimes!).. my mother laid the guilt trip about wanting to get me healthy. Coming from someone who may do the race being pushed in a wheelchair depending on her health at the time, how could I say no. I said I would try. Long story short (is there any hope at this point?) it was agreed upon that I would get a treadmill & we are all going to being doing the marathon next January together... walking at least.

Anyway... thats my START.
 
I'm going to get the treadmill today & feel physically ill. Partly because its a big investment & I hate taking on debt. & I realized in part that I will have no more excuses. I have always told myself that I could lose weight, I just didnt have the right tools. I hate going to the local gyms & refuse to pay when its never a good experience (my last gym had roaches running through the yoga class! & was a total meat market). They aren't conveinent. & I have said for the past while that I would be better off putting the money I spent towards a gym fee to getting my own treadmill at home. I could work out anytime & in private. Anyway now if I dont lose weight & shape up... there is no one else to blame.

Why cant I just do it, feel good & start the path that I hope will lead me to a better future. What makes it so hard to take the steps needed & to trust in myself that I can & WILL do this?
 
Hi Moon Goddess!! You have a great attitude I think, and have a fantastic goal to work towards, which will realyy help keep you focused. Of course that first step is scary, I'm not gonna say all the stuff like it'll be worth it, think of it as an investment etc etc coz it sounds like you alredy know it all! You just gotta bite the bullet :)

Like you said, you can, and WILL do this!!!!
 
Thank you for your encouragement.

Im not sure why doing something good for yourself, is so scary. Change can be sure a black hole I guess. I'm so glad I found this site & can see so many people who are on similar paths. I definitely need the support!

& I found out that we are doing a half marathon rather than a full marathon. So it may be more managable for me who is leading & kinda loving the sedentary lifestyle.... unfortunately I'm not loving my body living like this.

Guess there will always be the good days & the bad days no matter what you look like.

It could always be worse.
 
Hi there , yes there is always good days and bad days,lol...When I read your first entry it remind me a bit of myself...IE the single part and enjoying it and not settling...Ive been single for at least 2 yrs now, my last relationship wasnt so great my heart got broken and with having two kids being single is just eay...but no one really seems to understand...everyone insists that I start dating and find a man, well, simply I am just not interested, LOL...

Anyway I really dont think you feel any different than ,most of us...Making a decision to change your life isnt easy and getting there is a lil hard...nothing important and deserving is easy to optain at least it shouldnt be...

The few best thigns I did was, join this site...start a diary and record my food/count my cals and stop making excuses...I do have time to ecxercise I just dont prioritize it...now I do...no more excuses, push, push, push...

Im sure you will do this, I can feel you will, I will be in your diary pushing you along :D:D:DWelcome by the way!!!Oh and I love your name!!!

 
Hi Moon Goddess -

YES a half marathon is very manageable!

I hate going to the gym myself, but love walking - race walking. I started out doing 1 to 2 miles, and now do 5 miles daily and there for awile, I was doing a half marathon distance every Sunday (I'm just getting back to that after a break).

It is an amazing way to get fit :)

Good for your family for coming together like this!
 
Bridezilla, that cracks me up. I have suffered through three sister bridezillas. It can be brutal! I'm the last one unmarried. And, the cutest..where is the justice? :D

Good luck as you start your weightloss journey!
 
Made the mistake of weighing myself again today... ek! Seems that in the past few days I have put ON pounds. I have been really watching what I eat & exercising & drinking LOTSA water. So I hope its water weight.

I feel like I have heard that when you start drinking alot of water that there is a period of time that your body takes to adjust & then you start to drop the water weight after your body gets used to being given water more often. Anyone else heard this? Or am I chosing myths to help me feel better.
 
MG - don't worry about it - just keep doing what you're doing, and that weight will come off.

You might have had too much sodium, and there's a retention going on, it's so hard to second guess the daily fluctuations - just have faith that you're doing what your body needs it to do.

:)
 
I think that is true dont quote me on it...and appearantly you can drinkt oo much water also but ppl out there say to drink half your body weight in oz...damn hey that is alot of water...
 
Ever just have one of those days where food makes you sick. I ate breakfast, but work has been so intense & a few conversations about my weight & how my family things I should be losing have just been stuck in my head. I know they mean well, but eh gat! Now eating just seems like the last thing I want to do. Nothing sounds good. I ate some fruit salad & a few bites of curried chicken on some almond crackers, but now I just feel like a big blob & wish I hadn't.
 
Ok new focus, more positive....

I realized that I never posted the standard questions used to start the diary, so here are my answers:


-- How much weight do you want to lose?

60 lbs

-- What is the timeframe for reaching your target weight?

well it took quite a few years getting here, so I don’t expect anything to happen overnight. Hopefully I can lose around 8 pounds per month since I have heard that 2 lbs a week is a safe goal to set. I know it will be an up & down thing, just hope that there are more down weeks than up!

My sister’s wedding is in October & I hope to be down at least 30 lbs by then, or more importantly in a more firm shapely body to make that bridesmaid’s dress look good (& so that she can get off my back!).

-- How do you want to accomplish your goal (what methods do you want to use)?

More realistic eating habits. Cant pretend that eating half a pizza is a good thing or that by drinking sodas everyday I will miraculously lose weight. I plan on reading as much information as possible about healthy habits & incorporating them into my lifestyle. I’m sending myself back to school… school of life version!

Also I will be working out on a regular basis. Just bit the bullet & purchased a treadmill for myself instead of kidding myself by getting a gym membership. I have done that in the past & used every excuse in the book, too busy, too crowded, one was way too dirty! I also have a few exercise DVDs & between Netflix & the DVR feature on my cable box, there should always be something new to try. I live alone so I have the space & privacy to work out there without feeling judged.

I have been convinced to walk (may run some) my first half marathon, my first real organized event ever really. So I plan on finding a plan to train for that after I get into the habit or working out regularly.

I want whatever I do to be flexible enough to work, but not so much that I don’t stick with it.

-- Who or what can support you in reaching your goal?

Well my parents & sister have past supportive to the point of being annoying & hurtful about my need to lose weight. Luckily they are a 3 hour buffer away. I work at a health food cooperative, so I have support there as well. I hope this website will be a source for support as well, so far it has been anyway. Glad to see people that are on a similar path. I look forward to any tips, trick, or just even laughs that we can share along the way.

-- How realistic is your goal?

I think gaining new healthier habits is realistic. Hopefully the weight loss will follow. I will be happy with any weight lost, but if I can lose 60 lbs in a year I will celebrate with something wonderful, like a trip somewhere. It will feel rewarding to complete the Disney Half Marathon in January 2008 & really see how far I have come.

-- When will you start?

I started January 1, 2007, but as of today I am really kicking it into gear. I am really glad to have found this website & excited about all the information, challenges & support.


Well there you go.

Now on to the next step, cuz you know what they say every step brings you closer to your goal.... & those steps can add up to calories burned!

Good luck everyone & thanks for taking the time to read this. I am very open to all comments & suggestions. Thanks, Ali AKA MoonGoddess
 
Had an interesting challenge today. A professional group that I am involved with had their monthly meeting/workshop & its a LUNCH meeting! I have NO clue how many calories it all was! So much for trying to keep up with it all.

I did try to keep the portions down.... although the plates were GIGANTIC! I had a piece of lasagna with who knows what all in it, but I'm betting it wasn't fat free!... well I kept the lasagna down to a piece the size of about my fist & added the salad (iceberg...ek... ok the most worthless of all lettuces!) shredded carrots, cuke slices & NO DRessing! There was a white bread roll that I couldn't pass but it was small at least & the chocolate chip cookies were warm & calling to me so I had ONE. So I feel ok, but wish that I could have picked something like a grilled chicken salad or something. Buffets with limited choices are hard.

But luckily I am down a couple of pounds this morning!!! 191-189 & I know its really nothing, but why not celebrate every ounce!
 
You can still have treats just within moderation...dont beat yourself up, it is harder at firwst, stilla lil hard after you get it down but it gets easier...

Just checkin in on ya...You did good by the way woth the luncheon!!!
 
I'm actually feeling pretty ok with myself today. I came home from work & on a night that normally I would have just gone through a drive thru, I decided to eat the Lean Cuisine Chicken Fettucini Alfrado frozen dinner at home instead. Only after looking at it, it didn't look as appetizing as it could have so I added some frozen broccoli to it. Additional 30 calories, but much more nutrients than just the cheese, chicken & pasta. Add a small glass of pomegrante/blueberry juice & a banana for dessert, since it just sounded good at the moment.

So I feel like I am really working on making GOOD choices & feel that if lunch is not the greatest, well dinner can make up for it. Its all about balance right? :)
 
Moon, I allow myself one day (usually on the weekend) to eat a good decent meal out with friends. I try to behave as best I can, but we're all human. We can't live on broccoli, chicken and sugar-free jello for every meal. We'll go nuts! It's ok to treat yourself now and again, as long as it's not too frequently. Keep it in moderation. (Oh, how I do hate that word...like it's SOOO easy to do.) Don't be so hard on yourself! You can do it!
 
Challenging day. Ups & downs.. was rushing to make it to a hair appointment today & lost track of time & ended up almost missing breakfast. I ended up eating a banana. By the time I finish I was STARVING! I had spent the last 45 minutes listening to about 5 of the hair gurus debating on where to order lunch from! I love those guys, but they were killing me talking about all the yumminess! None of it low cal or fat. So as my stomach grumbled I ended up doing the drive thru thing. I drove around for a while trying to decide what to eat & ended up going to Arbys. I just got the Regular roast beef & fries with a Dr Pepper, where normally I would have gotten the Medium Roast Beef, fries, cup of cheddar & the Large Dr Pepper, & maybe even the Mozzarella sticks as hungry as I was! So I kinda feel ok, but wish I had taken the time to eat a breakfast that would have lasted long enough to make a healthier lunch.

Dinner I made some Coconut encrusted Tilapia that I picked up at the grocery store & some brussel sprounts (LF butter sauce & yes I actually don't mind them! even as a kid!), & some cheesy broccoli rice stuff. I started a Fitday log, but have no clue how to add in the Tilapia since it was from the fish counter & didn't have a nutritional label on it. I baked it so its not like I added any extra fat.

I'm starting to lose momentum now & then, but I keep thinking about all the inspiration on here & I WANT TO BE A LOSER!!! ;)
 
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