Mizzie's Journey to Being Healthy

Oh, forgot to add that even with the week being bad, I still had a decent weigh in for the BL Challenge this morning. I'm surprised by that, but really happy. I needed that, I think. No need to have a bad weigh in, get mad at myself for being such a slacker all week and get into a funk again, you know? I would have deserved it, but this helps me be excited to rock this week!

I'm excited for Friday, I want to change that ticker!!!
 
mizzie said:
Chubbygirl - Exactly! You are exactly right. I was mad at myself for not exercising, which made me not want to exercise, etc, etc. I wish I had listened to your advise about getting right back to it. I meant to, I really did. I read that last week and told myself I was going to. But I didn't. It's ok, I'm back to it this week!
I was in a much better mood all day then I normally am on Mondays and I know it's because I'm back to doing something good for me.
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I do the same thing - I get mad at myself for eating something I know I shouldn't and then feel bad about it so eat more to feel better and therefore downward spiral! Just glad it was only one week and you are back! I am having one of those weeks this week but today is a new day and I want to feel good again tomorrow so today I am sticking with it and holding strong! I think taking little breaks reminds us of the importance of making these changes and keeping them for life! I noticed you had a good BL weigh-in too so congrats on still being under 200!! No looking back! Have a good one!
 
So far so good this week. Hubby said he could pick up our daughter yesterday, so I ran home and got my exercise clothes on. It was nice out and the building with the exercise room is only two buildings over, so I decided to walk there. Get there, get everything ready (moved the fan, get the TV remote, etc), turn on the TV and just got static. >_< Tried a few things and nothing worked. Darn it! I didn't bring my iPod because I usually watch the TV. I started the treadmill anyway, but only got a couple of minutes into it before I was so bored out of my mind I had to stop. Grrr...

But I didn't let that stop me. I decided I would just take my walk outside instead. I made sure to keep up a good pace and walked for about 40 minutes on a trail near our place. Maybe not exactly the same, but couldn't be too different. And it was a beautiful day out.

I did go over on calories yesterday though. Hubby made tacos and, man, do I love tacos! I don't like peppers, onions or tomatoes though, so I can't even begin to claim they are good for me. LOL But it wasn't so bad, I only went over by 100 calories, so that's still a 900 calorie deficit for the day. And I was 270 calories under on Monday, so it's kind of a wash. Don't ask about the sodium though...

Had a banana for my morning snack today. You know, I never crave bananas, I buy them all the time and my daughter eats most of them. I almost never have one. But when I do, I always think "wow, this is really good! Why don't i eat more bananas?" lol, I'm weird.

I really hit the workout hard this morning and I'm proud of myself for that! I decided to shake things up and did DVD 3, which kicks my butt. Man, it was tough, but I got through it and gave it my all. My arms and legs were burning for the whole hour! I was so happy I did it though. The ab portion at the end is tough too. It's the only one of my DVDs that uses the "plank" move. Oh man that one burns!!! I need to do that more often though; it's great for your core muscles.

I had the most surreal last hour of work yesterday. My boss isn't exactly the type of person I usually choose to be around. Totally tech junkie (to the exclusion of all else!) and addicted to work. Anyway, he was apparently in a talkative mood yesterday as he came out of his office and started chatting. I can't remember exactly what started it, but he started telling me all about he's decided to do something about his weight (he's not huge, but he could stand to lose some, probably technically obese), how he's been reducing his portions, not eating until he's stuffed, eating more produce, resisting junk food and pizza, etc. o_O Well, this is something I can talk about! LOL

I hadn't really intended to say anything to him about what I'm doing (really, why would I?) but since he brought it up I told him what I've been doing and how I've lost 20+ pounds, etc. I think I even convinced him to start tracking his calories! (livestrong.com has an iPad app, which he's really excited about) And, I've never seen him drink anything but coffee or soda since I started working here, but I saw that today there's a huge water bottle on his desk. LOL It was very odd, but it burned the last hour of work nicely.

You know, I've been thinking a lot lately. It seems as if a lot of the women here have husbands who don't think they should lose weight or aren't supportive of them. I've been feeling very lucky that my hubby is being very supportive. He usually asks me if something is ok for me to eat before buying or making it (tacos aside...), he hasn't complained in the least about the lack of soda or snack foods in the house or the switch to low fat sour cream, FF salad dressings and canola oil butter. He cheers me on every time I'm excited about my weight loss and he encourages me to get my exercises. He was the one who came up the idea that I can have scuba lessons when I reach my goal weight. He's even told me how proud he is that I'm taking control of my body and that I (usually) get up and exercise even when I don't want to. I tease him that he just wants a thin, hot wife, but I know that he wants me to be healthy and happy. And he knows that I'm not happy like this.

Something he said last night really hit me hard. He sat down with me right at the end of BL when it was showing O'Neal at home. At the part where O'Neal was talking about how he used to be so big his wife would have to tie his shoes for him,

Me: If I got so fat that I couldn't tie my own shoes, would you do it for me?
Hubby: No.
Me (mock angry): What?! Don't you love me as much as his wife loves him?
Hubby: No, I love you more. That's why.

It just really hit me. I got it, you know? I don't know, guess it's on my mind this morning. I'm sure there is a small part of him that wants me to lose the weight for purely physical reasons, but the biggest part is because he wants me to be healthy and here with him for as long as I can be. He can be a real sweetie sometimes. :beating:


(just want to say that I'm not trying to rub it in anyone's face that my hubby is being supportive, just putting my thoughts in my diary is all)
 
Awesome work Miz! Those workouts sound like you really challenged yourself, so great job with that! I'm also really happy you have such a rock solid source of support in your spouse. Surrounding yourself with positive people truly affects our own PoV! Keep it up, you're doing SO well!
 
It was nice to read that your husband is being suportive , reading on here I was astarting to think all men where jerks when it came to supporting their wifes in a lifestyle change, I am happy to read about someone on here who has a supportive husband. Now if I could only introduce my husband to yours and mabe he can learn a few things lol!!
 
Thanks guys. It really does help that he's so good about it. Although i do think that he thinks I take it too far sometimes. Like when I insist on reading the labels when we go grocery shopping or weighing all my food. But he doesn't really understand how much of a difference that can make. He's never said anything, but I can tell. For the most part though, he's been great.

Although....

I'm pretty proud of myself today. I was very close on calories yesterday, mostly because we made stuffing instead of rice with dinner last night. Boy that stuff has a lot of calories! After dinner I was 15 calories under my limit. Well, it was close, but it wasn't over, you know? Anyway, I had completely forgotten that my mom had given us a tub of that frozen cookie dough stuff a while ago. Hubby dug it out last night and asked if I would mind if he made a pan. Well, what am I going to say? No, you can't have cookies (his absolute favorite food, he's a cookie monster) because I'm trying to lose weight? Of course I told him it was fine.

They are chocolate cookies with reese's pieces in them. O.M.G. I love chocolate and peanut butter, especially together. I was fine until he took them out of the oven. That smell... that warm chocolate cookie smell. It was torture!!! But I knew I was right at my calorie limit and I couldn't eat any more that day. I called a friend, went into the bedroom and shut the door so I couldn't see or smell them.

And I still haven't had one! I managed to resist them last night. I did look at the package to check the calories though, and told hubby to leave one for me today. (130 calories for one 30g cookie) I'm going to make sure I leave room for it today, because I do want one. But I'm more than proud of myself that I resisted last night. Before I started this, I would have had 3 or 4 and not even thought about it.

I won't get in my treadmill time tonight because there is a "Poetry and Punch" thing that our daughter's class is doing. I'll just barely have time to pick her up, run home and grab a sandwich for both of us and run out the door to get there on time. It should be fun though. The kids are all going to recite poems that they have memorized. She's in kindergarten, so it'll be cute.

I can't even tell you all how glad I am that tomorrow is Friday! For one, I'll get to change my ticker. That's been mocking me all week, let me tell you. Last week was only the second time it had gone up and even though it stayed under 200, that wasn't by much. I can't wait to change it. And, I'll get to report the change in the year long challenge too, which will be fun to see how much I lost in April. Plus, it's just Friday, you know? Although I'm going to be so busy cleaning and organizing this weekend, so I'm not sure why I'm looking forward to it. But it needs to get done, it's less than two weeks until my friend is coming for a visit and we never have time during the week.

Next Tuesday will be three weeks since I last took my measurements, and that time was three weeks since I first took them. I think that's a good schedule, so I'm going to try to take them next Tuesday. That will be exciting too. Keeping my fingers crossed for a good loss of inches.

Oh, I do have news of a sort. I discovered on Tuesday that I can pull my jeans off without unbuttoning or unzipping them. LOL Talk about your milestones. And it's not like I have to work at it, they slip right off if I pull a little. (don't worry, they aren't going to fall off on their own... yet.) I was excited about that. I have a pair of jeans that, at my heaviest, I could get on and zipped/buttoned, but they were too tight to wear comfortably. Plus they looked horrible on. I think I'm going to try those on again when I hit 25 pounds lost. Just to see, you know?

Oh, random, I just measured my heart rate, just to see. I'm not fully resting, since I'm sitting and typing, but it was 66. That's pretty good, right?
 
You have so much will power!!! I would have shared the pan as soon as I smelt them!! I had to leave the room last night when my hunnie was making hot dogs because I love the smell of those too!! Sometimes all it takes is a smell - you don't even have to see it to want it! I'm so proud of you for resisting and even prouder that you are going to work ONE into your schedule today! That is dedication!!
I'm excited for Friday too! I love Friday's because I get to wear jeans to work but I find it really hard to concentrate at work because I'm just so exicted to have a couple days off! Even if it involves cleaning - it's better than sitting in a stuffy office all day! Have fun tonight - sounds like it will be a good one!
 
Hey Mizzie,

You are doing really great! Its really nice that you have such a good support system like your hubby, support makes all the difference in the world. Peoples actions and words can really lift you up or bring you down so its nice that he keeps you lifted. Good job on resisting those cookies, I don't think I would of been as strong. Have fun with your daughter tonight and keep up the good work!
 
Lisa - Thanks. It was really, really hard. I wanted one in the worst way, especially since they were fresh out of the oven. Everyone knows that's when they are the best. I don't know if I really have that much willpower, I just really want to lose this weight and I have the possibility of a great weigh in this week, so I'm doing what I have to.

I had my one at lunch today. I usually have a sandwich (230-300 calories depending) and something else (cottage cheese, string cheese, fruit, veggie, etc) that comes to around 100 calories, so today instead of using those 100 calories on something more healthy, I ate a cookie. Ok, not the best choice, but it was a conscious decision. I even used my scale and found one that weighed exactly 30g, so I won't go over. Ate it extremely slowly to make it last. You know, it was good, but not it's-worth-it-to-be-fat-just-to-eat-this good.

Janvier - Exactly! I really admire the people here who don't get the support from their friends or family and yet are still able to stick with it. That would be very hard. I don't think I could do it if he was always telling me that it won't work or that I shouldn't do it. He keeps me accountable, I don't want to disappoint him when he's so proud of me.


Thank you both, and everyone else who reads this, for your support too. This forum has helped me in so many ways and I owe at least part of my success so far to everyone on here.
 
Mizzie I'm glad your husband is so supportive, having that support from your significant other really does go a long way. And I totally am the same about updating the ticker! The whole week I anxiously await weigh in day.

Thats pretty funny about your boss, I wonder if you caught him cheating and said something, how would he react? hah
 
You are a strong woman and good for your husband for being so supportive. It takes a lot of power to resist something you really love when it is right there for the taking. You made a good choice and allowed youself a small treat when it would not ruin your weight loss plan. That is no small feat and you should be proud.

So how about that weigh in and have you tried those pants on yet? You have passed the 25 pound mark!
 
WOOT!!! 194.2, baby! That's a 4.8 pound loss this week (heh, told you that some of it was water last week!) AND that puts me at 25.6 pounds lost total!!! *squirmy-happy-puppy-dance* This also means I've reached my first reward and can go get the book for my scuba lessons. I guess I'd better check with them and see if I can get the book without signing up for a lesson time.

Oh, and just to throw out some numbers. I've lost 11.6% of my starting weight. I'm also 36.6% of the way to my goal of 150, officially over 1/3 of the way there. Holy cow! That's kind of insane to me. Before I know it, I'll be half way. I'm also only about 15 pounds away from being overweight, as in, not obese anymore!

Plus, the only other time I really tried to lose weight, I got down to 194-195 before things happened and I quit. I'm there again and another week or two and I'll be lower than I've been since I was in college.

And those jeans I mentioned I was going to try on at 25 pounds lost? The ones that I could get on before, but barely and they were tight and uncomfortable. Tried them on this morning and they fit perfectly! HA!

I mean, I know that it's working. I see the numbers. But I don't see the difference in my body yet, you know? I see myself every day and the change happens slowly. But things like that show me that there is a change. I did take some before pics, but I wish I had taken better ones.

I don't think I've mentioned this before. I've been thinking lately about my goal weight. I picked that because it was officially a "healthy" weight, but just barely. When I started, that was my goal. To be a healthy weight. But now I don't think that's good enough. I mean, I picked that number because it was the highest weight I could be and be healthy.

I've been thinking about that lately. Officially that's still my goal, then my plan is to keep going until I feel my body is right. But unofficially I have a feeling that number is going to be somewhere around 130-135. That's about where I was when I graduated and started college. Now I know that even at the same weight I won't have the same body. It's 11 years and one kid later. But I still think that's around the right weight.

The crazy thing is when I was 130 before I thought I was fat. I didn't have that flat, stick figure that the other girls had. They wore a size 2 jeans and a small shirt. I've always been curvy, with hips and breasts, and I wore an 8 jeans and a large shirt. I once overheard some of my classmates talking about how one was 115 now, so she needs to go on a diet to lose that 5 pounds she gained. I felt horrible because I was 20 pounds over her "fat" weight. (looking back, she probably didn't gain fat. She probably just was growing, but was so obsessed with her weight that she couldn't see that. She was also shorter than I was too, but I didn't think of that.)

But, since it has been so long since then, I'm not really sure what weight will be best for my body. This is all just a guess. I can't wait to find out though!

On a different topic this morning, I am so sleepy today. I didn't get to bed until 11. I usually try to get to bed at 9 on nights when I have to exercise the next morning. I almost decided to skip exercising this morning because of it, but I didn't! I got up and did it. But I do have to confess, I did skip a couple parts, one set of the high step thing (or two, if you count each leg) and these sideways pushups that I hate with a passion. But I was so tired and really had no energy to do them. Got through most of it though with no issues. My eyes are burning now though, it's going to be a long day. Plus, I can't even go home and relax tonight. My mom called yesterday and said she might come to our town tomorrow to return something she bought. Which means we have to clean our disaster area of an apartment. It was in the plans this weekend anyway, but it would have been nice to have tonight off. Oh well...
 
Mizzie, you're such an inspiration! I have a pair of jeans that i'm hoping will fit like a charm after I lose 15 more pounds too

You kicked major ass this week! Almost 5 pounds, that's just insane!

I'm the same way about my weight goal. I want to get to 156 because it just seems like a comfortable number to me, but I'm hoping once I get there I'll still lose about 10-15 more pounds slowly.

Keep on kicking ass!! you're doing amazing!
 
mizzie said:
WOOT!!! 194.2, baby! That's a 4.8 pound loss this week (heh, told you that some of it was water last week!) AND that puts me at 25.6 pounds lost total!!!
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WOOOOOOOOOOO look at you :) Once you got past that evil 206, the pounds are just flying off! Way to go Mizzie!
 
heatherisadork - Aww, thanks! I really don't think I'm much of an inspiration, but thank you so much. I'm really touched.

Verobc and Xenon - Thank you both! ^_^


Well, the weekend was tough, like always. I tried to not be too bad on my food, but I'm honestly not too sure where it fell. Saturday we ate out at a local restaurant and I had a (huge!) burrito. Bad, I know. But it filled me up so much that I really didn't have dinner. Hubby and daughter snacked through the evening, but I didn't have anything. So it couldn't have been too, too bad if it covered two meals for me, right? Yesterday hubby made a homemade pizza with turkey pepperoni. That's bad too, and I had three pieces. Breakfast and lunch were ok though. Both of these meals I'm not really sure on calorie count though. Best guess is that I was somewhere between my current limit and maintenance, which is ok.

Yesterday was a very busy day though. We are trying to get our place ready for my out-of-state friend's visit next week, which is an excuse to get to all those boxes and piles of stuff still sitting around from when we moved in last July! But we are finally getting things in order, which makes me very happy. ^_^ We did the office yesterday and it took all day too. Hauled all the stuff out of there, threw away a lot of junk, and organized the desks and closets. Whew! Hubby got some plywood and put shelves in the closet, which I'm super excited about. We finally got to unpack all our games and puzzles and we can get to them now! Plus, I had a place to put my sewing machine and supplies. ^_^ No idea how many calories that burned, but since it literally was go, go, go all day, I'm sure it was more than my average days. And I drank a heck of a lot more water than I usually do on the weekends too.

I was up late though, got to bed an hour and a half later than I should have. Which made me rather grumpy and not into exercising this morning. I did do part of it, about 30 minutes of the DVD, but then I had to stop. I think, honestly, that it was the woman more than the exercising that was annoying me. Does she have to be so chipper? But, all is not lost. I did shut off the DVD, but then found something on TV that was less annoying and did some reps with my weights and some stair climbing, probably another 10 minutes or so. So, all in all, not my best workout, but not the worst either.

We still have some work to do in daughter's room and we haven't even started in our bedroom or closet, so this week and weekend will be busy too. I can't wait until it's done though!!! And I'm super excited about E's visit next week! We have a lot planned that involves a lot of walking, so that's good. I know food will be all over the place, but that can't be helped too much. It'll be a lot of eating out. I'm going to try to make good choices at the restaurants though.
 
Congradulations on your almost 5 pound weightloss! I love to hear good news about people who are working so hard. It is motivational. I'm sure working on your daughter's room helps you burn some major calories.

The weekends are always tough, trust me I know, but the good thing is, you are conscious and still in the swing of things. Check you out! I'm still awwed by that 5 pounds!
 
you have done good this weekend, I am starting to think that eating a bit more on the weekend is good cause it surprise our bodies plus at home in my case anyways I move more then when I am at the office. Well done!
 
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