Mizzie's Journey to Being Healthy

Mondays suck! (yeah, stating the obvious here) I'm having another one of those mornings where nothing goes right. I forgot to freeze my water last night, so I don't have it with me this morning. I forgot my cell phone. I remembered that rent is due today right as I was leaving for work. (I have the money, I just didn't have time to run the check down to the box) GAH! I'm also very, very tired because I'm used to 8 hours of sleep a night and I got about 9 hours combined Friday and Saturday nights. I got a full night last night, but it hasn't caught me up yet. And we ran so much all weekend that I just didn't get any down time, so that made it much, much harder to go to work this morning!

Then, to top that off, I need to find someone to do our taxes... Yeah, nothing like the last minute. Actually, my mom's friend usually does ours, has for years, for free. She's good too, gets us a good refund every year. But we just found out yesterday that she's not comfortable doing it this year (various reasons, mostly some weird things with the hubby's income) so now we need to go find someone this week. I'm worried about the time and I'm worried that it'll cost a lot and things are really tight right now. We have a few big things coming up and it's been a huge struggle to save for those as it is, without adding extra expenses. *sigh*

Ok, none of that has to do with weight loss, but that's the mind frame I'm in this morning.

I actually did really well yesterday with food. We were so rushed in the morning with my daughter's egg hunt, getting her breakfast, all of us showering and getting ready for church (which took longer then usual because daughter wanted her hair in ribbons, plus getting her Easter dress and tights on, etc), going to church, running back home to get the food we made then out the door for my grandma's place for lunch. So all I really had time to eat was one of the boiled eggs. Ok, breakfast is 75 calories. :rolleyes: Then we ate lunch late and it was large, so I never really got hungry for dinner. Lunch was bad, about 1300 calories, but since it was really my only meal for the day that's ok.

I didn't even snack on any candy at my grandma's! And there was a big bowl of it too. Go me! But, she didn't have any of the Cadbury Mini Eggs, or I wouldn't have been able to resist. Actually, last night my daughter was eating on of the candies she got in her basket. It's an egg shaped Snickers. She had taken a bite, then kind of waved it under my nose to show it to me. She wasn't trying to be mean (she's 6) she just wanted to show me that it looked like a regular snickers inside, but I got a whiff of it and it actually smelled really gross to me. And I like Snickers, too. It smelled overly sweet and there was no part of me that wanted it in the least. Nice! Hopefully that'll help me stay out of her candy.

I did have a piece of banana cake at my grandma's though. Basically banana bread baked in a cake pan and frosted. Mmmm... And I had a half a glass of wine. But I still stayed under my calorie limit (best I can figure, I tried to aim high), so it's all good!

Although my grandma and my mom both insisted on sending a crap-ton of food home with us! And all the bad stuff too! (we got some cake, some potato salad, etc) And I was slightly disappointed that they still haven't noticed that I've lost weight. Or, at least didn't say anything if they did. Ok, I know full well that no one but me really concerns themselves with questioning if I look like I've lost weight. I'm just wondering how much I'll have to lose before they notice. It's also a little humbling to realize that I'm fat enough to lose 19 pounds and it doesn't show. :piggy:

I just wish I could wake up! I could literally lay my head down on my desk and go to sleep right here. I keep blinking and forgetting to open my eyes again! :drooling: I hate that feeling! I even ate my morning snack (baby carrots) half an hour early this morning because I was falling asleep at my desk and I knew that the act of eating would help keep me awake.

Exercise this morning was really hard. Mostly because of being tired, but also the "no time to myself all weekend and now it's Monday" thing. Wasn't in the mood. I tried to really get into it anyway, but it didn't work that well. I'd say it was about 50/50 pushing myself and half-assing it.

Oh, but I've done really well on not weighing myself! I'm glad too, that's a habit I need to break. I did yesterday (obviously, from the previous post) because of my mini goal, but that's the only time since Friday. Looking forward to tomorrow's weigh in for the BL Challenge. See? When I don't weigh myself constantly and watch it bounce so much, I actually look forward to my weigh-ins. When I do, I dread them.

I'm looking forward to having a 1 at the beginning of my weight. It's kind of neat that I'll reach "20 pounds lost" AND "under 200" at the same time. Come on 199.8! LOL I'm so close to under 200 I can taste it. And it tastes darn good! ;)
 
Hey you!!! Congrat on reaching you easter goal!!!! :cheers2:
You will the 199 soon! As for the reste it all has to do with weight loss, your life affects your mood and your mood affect your ability to make good choices when it comes to food and also your energy level when it comes to work out...so it's good that you can let it all out that way it's not brining you down!!! Keep up the good work and an half ass workout is still better then no workout!:hurray:
 
Heya Mizzie. :hurray:

I hope your Monday improved a bit as it went along. I bet you wish you were living somewhere like here, where we have Easter Monday as a Public Holiday. ;)

Good on you for doing so well with your food over Easter! Better than me.... :blush5: It's gonna be no time at all until you slip under 200. :party:
 
mizzie said:
I'm looking forward to having a 1 at the beginning of my weight. It's kind of neat that I'll reach "20 pounds lost" AND "under 200" at the same time. Come on 199.8! LOL I'm so close to under 200 I can taste it. And it tastes darn good! ;)
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OMG I can totally relate to you on that! That is my major point of motivation ATM.
 
mizzie said:
Looking forward to tomorrow's weigh in for the BL Challenge. See? When I don't weigh myself constantly and watch it bounce so much, I actually look forward to my weigh-ins. When I do, I dread them.

I'm looking forward to having a 1 at the beginning of my weight. It's kind of neat that I'll reach "20 pounds lost" AND "under 200" at the same time. Come on 199.8! LOL I'm so close to under 200 I can taste it. And it tastes darn good! ;)
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I bet you're one of very few people looking forward to the BL weigh-in this week, I know I'm not! Congrats on staying so strong in the face of all the Easter temptation.

I love those milestone numbers, they make weightloss so quantifiable and tangible, which I find is a huge boost. Are you going to reward yourself in some way when you hit the under 200's?

Oh and I agree with Mrs Shadow...no Easter Monday public holiday? Oh the horror!
 
Hey Mizzie! :waving: Great progress over the weekend with turning down all the sweets!! You have come so far! I love it that you tried the higher step too! Just keep challenging yourself and you won't get bored with your workouts and the weight will keep melting off. Hope your feeling more refreshed today and ready to tackle another day!! Keep it up!! Oh and I really enjoy reading your posts too!!!
 
Oh and I wanted to add one more thing about the taxes - I know it's probably really different for us in Canada but we can pick up tax books from the post office and there is one with forms and one with instructions (for free) and if you go through the instructions it's pretty easy to do it yourself - it does take about 4 hours but once you've done 1 the next one only takes about an hour. I did mine this way and then my hunnie's and we had pretty confusing taxes with buying a new house this year and hunnie was on unemployment and worked in two different provinces but the instructions tell you word for word what info you need - it ended up working out to $3000 back between the two of us (if I did it right - we should find out in the next couple weeks what the real return is). Maybe the US has these books too for free - I didn't know until last year and always paid someone $100 to do mine. Never again! Good luck and I hope it works out for you!
 
Thanks to everyone for the encouragement and congratulations!

Verobc - Well, I actually didn't quite make my mini goal, but I was less than a pound away. I actually feel pretty proud that I made it that close, rather than disappointed that I didn't make it.

Mrs Shadow - Thanks! I talked to a friend yesterday afternoon and that did improve my mood, if not my sleepiness. I didn't get to bed early last night like I had planned, but I did get there on time anyway. I feel much, much better today. And Easter Monday??? No fair!!! That's one thing I hate about my job, I get like 3 paid holidays a year. Hubby gets at least one a month, I swear. It's no fair. *pout*

Xenon - Oh, I know! But we'll both get there and never go back! ^_^

Boslo - Yeah, the milestones are what keep us all going, I'm sure. 50+ pounds to go is way too huge and will take way too long to keep me going day by day. But the next 10 pounds? Well, that's not too bad. I don't have a reward specifically for getting under 200, but I'll be at 20 pounds lost and I get a free day for every 10 pounds. So I'll get that. And I do have a reward in place for 25 pounds lost (text book for my scuba class), so that'll follow soon after.

chubbygirl - Thanks! I do get kind of bored with the DVDs. I'm thinking of adding in #3 soon. :eek: Scary! But every time things start getting easy I try to up the weight or something. What great about these DVDs is that they are set up that way, so you can adjust what you do to your fitness level.
We do have free forms for doing taxes here, but our taxes are pretty weird this year for various reasons (don't want to put too much here). If the family friend wasn't comfortable about doing them, I'm not sure I should either, you know? We have an appointment on Monday. Although, I might get a form and do them over the weekend, just to compare what I did to her. Hopefully next year our regular person can do them again. She does them for us for free. ^_~

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Like I said, today is better. I'm not nearly as tired. The BL weigh in wasn't quite what I was hoping for, I was up 6 oz from my mini goal weigh in on Sunday. Well, that could be anything. Most likely water weight from last night. My hubby is a really good cook and he makes this awesome homemade pizza. But it has so much sodium! Between the fresh mozzarella and the sausage... ouch. Lots of water today! Plus, I'm coming up to TOM, so who knows where my weigh in will be this Friday.
 
I know what you mean about the salt and tom....I have been strugling with that the last couple weeks I am craving pop corn and my hot air poper died on me so I am stuck with the microwave one and those are hight on the sodium! We still got to live our lives, the world doesn't stop cause we are trying to get healthy right??? Bring on the water and the workouts and you will do good!
 
Hey Mizzie,

Great job turning down easter treats! I know exactly what you mean about no one noticing your weight-loss, No one noticed- or atleast said anything about mine until I lost maybe 30 lbs or maybe even a little more! I think its not that they noticed, but maybe they want to be sure that you are actually losing before they say something? Don't worry about it too much, the huge deal is that you are losing and are doing an amazing job and your changing your life! Soon the compliments will be endless! I'm glad your feeling better today and I'm proud of you for working out yesterday morning dispite being so sleepy! Keep on the great work this week!
 
Verobc - Exactly! I did give in a little and had a 100 calorie bag of mircowave Kettle Korn at lunch time. Calories will still be fine, but I suppose I overdid the sodium again. That's my weakness though, and I only let myself have it once and a while. And as far as the water and workouts, I actually seem to struggle more with the water! lol The workouts are just routine to me now. But I have a hard time forcing myself to drink water when I'm not thirsty. I'm trying though!

Janvier - That's actually good to hear! The only people who have told me they could see I lost weight were hubby and my mother in law. But hubby knows (obviously) that I'm working on it, so he could just be being nice, or trying to be encouraging. And the MIL tells me I look like I've lost weight about once every 2 months... Seriously! This is the first time I could say yes, I had. But she wasn't over encouraging. She doesn't like change, even good change. Heh, and I guess the longer the others wait to notice, the more I'll be able to say I lost. Oh, and thanks. I don't know why it's so uplifting to have strangers on the internet say they are proud of me, but it is! :p


Treadmill time tonight! Wish me luck trying to run a little bit!
 
I'm in a much better mood this morning than I have been lately. I think I'm finally catching up on sleep. I rocked my workout this morning. I was so ready to burn some calories and get my heart pumping! I think I need some heavier weights though. I just have 3 pound weights and some of the arm exercises are just too easy with those. It should be a little hard to get through a set, you know? I'm going to look at some 5 pound weights, maybe tonight.

I did fairly well in the exercise room last night too. I wound up not running at all though. Shortly after I started another woman came in and I just don't feel comfortable running in front of anyone yet. But it was ok, I just set the treadmill at a faster pace AND a higher incline than usual, so still upped the workout. She wound up getting interested in what I was watching on the TV, so we watched together and talked a little. The 30 minutes seemed to fly by. Then I went and did my rounds on the weight machine, so that was extra too. I think I'll just do that every time. LOL, I just keep adding to my exercising. It started off just Monday, Wednesday and Friday with the DVDs. Then I added the treadmill. Now I'm adding the weight machine and hopefully a little running.

Oh shoot! Just remembered I forgot my multi-vitamin this morning. That's the third day in a row I've forgotten. I need to remember that at lunch.

I have a granny smith apple for snack today. I'm hoping it's not too tart. I usually don't like them for just eating. I got these to have with peanut butter, but I haven't had the extra calories (not to mention sodium) left over for that snack lately and they need to get eaten before they go bad. My favorite eating apple is Fuji. Yum!

Just a few hours until the work week is half over. Come on weekend! I don't know why I'm looking forward to it so much. We are caretakers for our apartment building and it's our weekend to have the phone, which means we can't leave all weekend (at least one of us has to be home anyway). Will probably spend the whole weekend cleaning and doing laundry. But at least I'll be home and not at work. And we can take the kid outside to play and such.

Oh! And next weekend will be a lot of fun! The 18th is our 1 year anniversary, so we are sending our daughter to my dad's for the weekend and we are going to a resort on the shore of Lake Superior. (off season + "courtyard" view = really cheap room!) It's a pretty nice resort, with quite a bit to do. I'm actually worried we won't have time to do everything I want. I hope check out on Sunday isn't too early, because I'd like to spend more time there. We'll have all day Saturday, anyway, since we are going on Friday after work. But there's fly fishing, hiking through woods, hiking to waterfalls, horseshoes, swimming (pool, the lake is still way cold!) and more I can't remember. I'll be active all weekend! We never get to do anything like this, so I'm very excited!
 
Hey Mizzie happy Thursday! Great workout yesterday - I love it that you keep adding to your routine! My window in my office looks out onto Lake Superior - I'm looking at it right now!! The trip you have planned with your husband sounds lovely - we might do something like that for our honeymoon and then go on a cruise in the winter (if we can afford it).
Keep up that positive attitude! I can tell you are really happy from your post and that's so great to hear! Hope it lasts till the weekend!:waving:
 
Hey Mizzie,

You did great yesterday! I like adding on to my routine as well, because it surprises you how much you can actually push youself to do so good job! The upcoming trip with your hubby sounds really fun and sounds like you will get a chance to do some fun physical activities as well. Keep up the hard work!
 
Thanks to both of you! I'm pretty proud of myself for making sure I do my exercise routine and adding to it. This from the girl who never exercises! lol And I'm super excited for next weekend! It'll be nice to get some time away, nice to spend some alone time with hubby and there's a bunch of fun things to do. The fact that they are all pretty active things is just a bonus. It's probably good though, because who knows what kinds of food they'll have there. Probably not as healthy as I'd like, but I should have hit 20 pounds gone by then so I'll have earned another free day. ^_^


I have a confession to make. I ate two peices of Easter candy. One last night and one today at lunch. But they both were Mini Snickers, 45 calories each. I have to keep my hands out of there though, because it will add up if I keep doing that!

You all should be glad you don't live at my house right now. Besides Easter candy (and a crap-load of it, most of it chocolate because our daughter doesn't like fruit flavored candy), we also have frosted cut out cookies from my dad, frosted banana cake from my grandma and half a sour cream coffee cake left over from Easter. :svengo:

It's not so much that I have temptation staring me in the face. It's more like temptation has made my house it's lair, gathered up all it's friends and is holding me hostage! So far though, I've only had one tiny sliver of coffee cake and those two mini Snickers. It's a constant battle though.

Tonight we are going to a new member pot luck dinner at hubby's church. There again, no idea what there will be for food, but I have 800 calories left today so I should be able to stay under if I don't go too overboard on bad stuff.

But that also means I won't be able to get to the exercise room tonight. That's a bummer because I don't want to miss too many workouts and it'll be after dark when we get home, so taking a walk or bike ride is out too. But, the plan for this weekend it to do some cleaning and organizing of closets, so I should burn some calories there!

Weigh day tomorrow. I'm anxious to see what I weigh in at. I've been really good about not weighing myself all week. I did for the BL Challenge, of course, so I have an idea of what's going to happen, but I could be wrong. I'm just so close to being under 200! It might happen tomorrow, or I might have to wait until next week. :willy_nilly:
 
I have been reading through your diary since I saw your name on other threads I was reading through. You are doing great girl! I totally understand the part about having a bunch of treats around the house. There are Doritos, oreos, Easter candy, Little Debbie's, ice cream and cakes all over the place here for the boy's desserts. Luckily, up to this point I have not even been tempted, but if I ever have a weak moment watch out. Keep up the great work, especially on your workouts!
 
mizzie said:
It's not so much that I have temptation staring me in the face. It's more like temptation has made my house it's lair, gathered up all it's friends and is holding me hostage!
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You are doing absolutely fantastic Mizzie :) I am excited and anxious for tomorrow! I hope you'll be in Onederland :D
 
*sigh* 201 Well, that is 1.8 pounds down from last Friday, so that's good. But when I weighed on Sunday for my mini goal weigh in, I was less than that. It just seems to me like I lose all the weight on Saturday and Sunday, then I spend the rest of the week maintaining it. It's weird.

You know, I think my scale just has something against showing me a 100 number. It's dipped down to 200 (exactly) in it's fluctuations, but never below. Stupid scale, I will own you!

I was a little disappointed to see that I wasn't under 200 this time and that made it harder to exercise. I decided it was time to work #3 into the rotation, so I put that one in. Man that one kicks butt! Of course, I don't know all the moves to that one yet, so who knows how many more calories I'll burn when I do.

It was pretty cold out this morning, only 25 F, so at least I had nice cold air blowing on me. At one point, I was feeling really hot, so I paused the DVD and stepped outside. It was so cool out there and I was so hot and sweaty from exercising that I had steam coming off from my skin! XD Made me giggle.

Ok, so in an effort not to be all grumpy today because the weigh in wasn't exactly what I wanted, especially since it was still not a bad weigh in, I'm not going to dwell on that number. Instead of whining on about it, I've decided that I'm going to make a list of all the reasons I want to lose weight, no matter how big or small. I know all this in my head, but I haven't really listed them out before. I'm hoping that this will keep my head in the right place and will be something for me to look at when I don't feel like making good choices.

1) Heart disease runs in my family. So does diabetes. Both of these things are made much worse by being overweight. My grandpa (who wasn't overweight) had both and died at 65. I don't want to die young, so I need to take care of myself now. My risks of both will go down a lot if I get to a healthy weight.

2) My husband and daughter (and any potential future children) deserve a healthy wife and mother. I need to take care of my body and my health so I'm around for them.

3) I need to set a good example for my daughter. She needs to see that it's important to be healthy and take care of yourself. I don't want her to have an unhealthy focus on weight, but I do want her to make healthy choices for herself. I don't want her to struggle with her weight.

4) I want to feel better. I want to have enough strength and energy to climb a flight of stairs without getting winded. I want to run outside and play with my daughter. Take long hikes on the difficult trails without holding back my family. I want to feel the strength and power of my body and not it's limitations.

5) I want to look better. I'm no great beauty, but I don't want people to see my fat first, and they do. I don't want to be invisible because of my weight. I want my husband to find my body sexy and I want to like what I see in the mirror.

6) Thin clothes are prettier. I want to be able to buy clothes at JC Penney and Kohl's without having to go to the tiny "fat women" section. I want to be too thin for Lane Bryant. I want to wear the styles that I feel fit my personality better, but that I can't now because they look awful on me.

7) I want to do the things I can't now because of my weight. I'm sick of being too big to do some things. I'm sick of my stomach getting in the way. I'm sick of not having the energy to do even the things that I'm not to physically big for. I'm sick of having to stop and rest more than everyone else. I don't want to worry when in line for rides that I won't fit in the seat. It's never happened, but it's been close. I want to stop having to check for weight limitations! And I really want to stop having to miss out on things because I'm above the limitations.

8) I don't want to dread summer anymore. I don't want to die in the heat because I have so much fat insulation. I want to be able to tolerate heat above 70 degrees. I want to wear shorts and tank tops. I don't now because my arms and thighs are so gross. I want to feel comfortable in my swimming suit when I'm out of the water too.


That's all I can think of for now, but that's a lot. I have so many reasons to work hard. And the only reason to give up is just plain laziness. I'm done being lazy. Thanks for reading and letting me get all that out.
 
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