MissPoodle's Diary

Dear Fortyfour, (WHAT IS YOUR REAL NAME?!)

When I last dieted, I weighed myself 3-4 times a day. Weighing myself an average of 3x a week is SUCH an improvement this time...I feel like it's healthier AND it makes it more exciting.

I did really really well in my kickboxing class today, but I still didn't weigh myself. I didn't feel confident enough to allow the number NOT hurt my feelings. I think I'll weigh myself on Sunday, because Freddie said he's teaching that kickboxing class.
 
Day 16- 5/13/2011
BM-2
Water-6


Diet
730am- 5 chicken ravioli, 1 handful spinach, 1 slice double fiber toast, 1/4 mango
1130am- 1 medium banana
2pm- 2 cups thai papaya salad
545pm- whole wheat spaghetti w/ 3oz ground turkey, 1 spinach raspberry dressing w/ orange bell pepper, feta cheese, dried cranberries, two artichoke hearts
1400 calories

Exercise
20min 3.5mph 2.0incline power walking
16min elliptical climber interval training
11min cycling
8min elliptical trainer interval training

Thoughts
I had a BM after eating the thai papaya salad. My BM was a bit green, so I presume it's because of the spinach I've been eating for the past few days. The BM wasn't large. It was small, yet not alarming.

I went to bed kinda hungry and then woke up feeling alright. I wanted to eat something "heavy" for breakfast, rather than eating cottage cheese, I had those chicken raviolis.

I subbed for my friend and cleaned her classroom so she bought me lunch. I knew I could've had some curry or even pad thai, but I always enjoyed a papaya salad. Too bad the papaya salad didn't come with shrimp, but it was pretty good.
 
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Miss Poodle, my name is Andrea :)

Well i still think you should weigh yourself. One of the things i am coming to realise this diet, is the importance of psychology in dieting success, particularly over the long haul.

You have to be able to deal with disappointment - wherever it comes from - to be able to keep an even emotional keel for your diet.

If you let disappointment upset your resolve to eat well and within your calorie budget, you've lost the battle. There are healthier ways to avoid some disappointments but others can not be foreseen and cannot be forestalled. And others that could have been mitigated just have to be taken on the chin. Being too afraid to know something because of the possibility of disappointment is a form of denial and it won't help you either - as i tried to describe before.

I mean what happens if the scale is up the next time?

On the other hand, what if the scale today were not up? You've missed an opportunity to be happy. Why should you be disappointed anyway by a number when you know the meaning of the number is not negative. YOu said you thought it was water. Why should your feelings be hurt by that.

You see you are playing mind games with yourself.

But I know that not everyone is ready to see things the way i do. So if you want to continue doing things the way you do, that's ok.

I understand about weighing yourself several times a day. I think i've done that in the past too. I know now its utterly pointless. But once you understand more about how weight loss happens, you tend to be less obsessive. Its good you've been able to cut that down to a few times a week.

There was a time i thought it was only sensible to read a scale once a week. But i have a scale in my bathroom and i am totally accepting of and can handle whatever i read there and while i could possibly not weigh myself daily, i just like doing it daily. It's news.
 
I agree with you, poodle. I am weighing myself everyday, and I think I'm going to change that. Now that I know my diet is working, I'm going to weigh myself every week. I think the thrill of seeing chunks of weight come off, rather than half a pound at a time, will be much better.
It's basically about learning to eat right, be healthy, and not obsess about numbers. I will never be 130, nor do I want to be. I have a ton of muscle...and breasts, lol...that keep me from ever weighing as little as that. That's why I'm aiming for looking and feeling good.

"Plaudite, amici, comedia finita est."
 
Hey Andrea and ninja, thanks so much for the input on the scale! I am a little sore this morning, so good thing I didn't weigh myself yesterday. What am I thinking of? DOMS! I woke up and the strained hamstring is officially in some pain. Yesterday morning, I felt fine and cardio kickboxing was not a problem at all. Now, every time I bend my leg at the knee, I feel a little pull behind my knee. I am so happy I am taking a rest day today.

Although it is a rest day, it does not mean I can get off the wagon and/or consume crazy amounts of calories. I should consume less today since I'm not working out today.

I am going to do body pump, which is an intense strength training class, and cardio kickboxing tomorrow morning. I hope to weigh myself after tomorrow morning workout.

I hope it won't be a long day today! I gotta get my classwork done! BITE THE BULLET!

I am good at these mind games, I need to STOP PLAYING THEM. I think way too much into it. I gotta stop.
 
Food-wise, after eating the thai papaya salad, my cravings are obsolete. THANK GOD. Even the watermelon doesn't even sound so good anymore, so I might not even eat it. I didn't even drink all my water for today, only drank 4 cups today and it's already 4PM.

Physically, the center of my back hurts and so does my left hamstring because of the strain. I'm confident that I will be able to strength train tomorrow morning though. I am excited for my rest day today though. I wish I had another BM, or the one I had was much larger.

Mentally, I feel really good about not checking on my ex-boyfriend's where abouts. I feel really good! I'm going to get some school work done tonight AND tomorrow afternoon as well. So, all my stressors should slowly be gone!!!

Tomorrow morning, I'll eat cottage cheese, i'll do the kickboxing class and strength training, weigh-myself, then do some school work. Hopefully I will go out 2mrw night because I DO NOT want to stay home! Gotta work hard, play hard, STUDY hard!

I need to cook whole wheat pasta w/ spaghetti sauce, ground turkey, and fresh tomatoes. I need to boil some eggs too! I should buy some salad dressing too.

I think I'll take the dogs out for a short walk later this evening. I'm almost tempted to take a nap before though...mmmm
 
I hope your leg gets better fast. You must have overdone the training. Are you sure you are doing this exercise thing safely. Injuries really put the kybosh on weight loss. Take it easy.

Better to ease up a bit on the exercise than risk more injury. The kickboxing sounds like you are asking for trouble.

It takes time for muscles to heel. Once i pulled a muscle in my thigh many years ago. It took about six weeks for all the pain to go.
 
I hope your leg gets better fast. You must have overdone the training. Are you sure you are doing this exercise thing safely. Injuries really put the kybosh on weight loss. Take it easy.

Better to ease up a bit on the exercise than risk more injury. The kickboxing sounds like you are asking for trouble.

It takes time for muscles to heel. Once i pulled a muscle in my thigh many years ago. It took about six weeks for all the pain to go.

Kickboxing is a cardio kickboxing class, I don't think it's the kickboxing but the darn strength training class. The kickboxing class is a bunch of punches and kicks, but it's relatively low impact. The strength training class does a lot of isolated muscle exercises, such as squats and lunges. Also, there are chest presses and shoulder work. I don't even use heavy weights during the class, but just weight training is hard on my body!!

The last time I went this crazy with exercise, or worse than this, i pulled my butt muscle I think....and it did take weeks for me to feel all better.

This hamstring strain does not hurt so much, it's a very small pain i feel, hopefully i'll be back on my feet ASAP.
 
I don't feel i'm getting through to you Miss Poodle. At the very least, ask for your kickboxing trainers advice before you start the class.
 
Will do. I felt so guilty eating pasta, so I went to the gym and had a decent sweat session, something easy going, but still sweat. 55minutes of interval movement was great. I still do feel fat though. Bloated.

I did BM again, probably because of the whole wheat pasta. I feel like grains make me go.
 
I don't feel guilty eating pasta; why do you feel guilty? Rice, pasta, potatoes, bread - these are important sources of energy. They are good for you m'dear.

They are only bad when you eat loaaaaaaaaaaaaads and when you smother them in high fat things like butter, cream, sourcream, cheese and oil. And even then, if you were not on a diet you could easily eat a bit of any of those things and the'd be fine.

When i am on my bike tour, i will eat 250g of pasta a day probably. If I only have it for dinner, i will only eat 125g. Here at home, i eat 100g in a meal, though before i started my diet i would eat 125 grams per serve and with 1 lidful of more of olive oil (probably about 3tsp) and at least 1tbsp of parmesan cheese. I could eat that every night and yes it would make me constipated.

If you are eating wholewheat pasta that's probably helping with the loo issues.

If i were a meat eater, i would probably not eat more than 1 cup of cook pasta in a meal when there is meat in it. But if you are having a vegetarian meal, then I think 100g is perfectly acceptable. I think 100g is about 1.5 cups of cooked pasta.

Do you understand about the balance between complex carbohydrates, proteins and fats in a diet. Do you know what the function of each of these foods is for the body. Carbs has a bad rap but the message has been sold so badly and people have misunderstood it. icecream and cakes and deepfried battered foods are bad carbs. They are bad because while they give you energy, it doesn't last long and with it, there are many many calories and there are few other nutrients in the food.

But when you eat pasta or rice or bread they are frequently served with vegetables and when they are done properly, they are not serve with lots of fats, so all up the whole meal is very healthy, giving you energy, fibre, vitamins and minerals, protein and perhaps a little bit of fat too. If you look at any nutrition pie, you will see that the biggest portion of the pie is complex carbohydrates like bread, pasta, rice and potatoes. That's because of the energy demands of the body and because carbohydrates are the single most important source of energy for the body, especially the brain. Along with carbohydrates when the body burns this up for energy, fat is burned along with it. Its like the way in a 2 stroke engine you mix oil in with the petrol. We put oil in the car too but it doesn't go straight in the fuel. They do different jobs but we need them both to make the car go well.

Now i hope you won't feel guilty for eating pasta anymore. :D
 
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Andrea, I will miss you so much when you leave for your bike tour for TWO MONTHS. I must say, I will make myself proud and you and keep making healthy choices. I truly enjoy reading your advice and enjoy the fact that someone cares...I feel so special! Thanks, Andrea!

I've done my fair share of dieting and what not. When I eat too many carbs, I usually have a BM 2-3x a day, which are fairly large. Now, I felt guilty because after eating that meal, I felt pretty full. I thought I should move, and since my brother wanted to go to the gym too, why not take advantage of the trip!

I enjoy eating healthy fats, like avocado, small amounts of cheese, and olive oil with my meats. I enjoy eating protein as well, making sure I overshoot my daily protein goal. The goals that have been set for me on myfitnesspal.com. I don't want to do low-carb because I would get a headache. I know that is no good for me!!

I do want to test something out, losing weight with just caloric deficit. What if I ate under 1,500 calories each day for one week? Without the gym. Would I lose weight? And how much? I'm curious to try that...
 
Aww now you make me feel special that you will miss me. I have to admit that often when i write long spiels of advice I wonder if i go too far and is the reader groaning, wanting to tell me to shut up but are too polite to say so. And do they hope i will just go away if they ignore me. So thanks for the reassurance Miss Poodle.

Lucky you to be able to go to the loo so often although perhaps its a drag for you. You are not taking laxatives i presume. Your bowels sure move fast though. Have you ever discussed it with a doctor? What did they say? Perhaps you shouldn't eat wholewheat pasta just white pasta so long as its made with durum wheat. Its the best anyway.

To determine your calories without exercise, start from scratch with the BMR calculator. When you get to the bit about activity, only factor it as "sedentary". That will lower your total number. Then reduce that by 500 and what do you get? That should be your daily intake. Can you record it all here so i can see what you get?

I think its a good idea to take a break now given your leg. And lowering your calories is a smart way to do it.
 
The numbers, as you've requested Andrea! I LOVE calculating numbers in my head, and even more when I neatly record them.

BMR @ 190lb = 1680 calories
If sedentary = 1680 x 1.2 = 2,016 calories
If very active = 1680 x 1.725 = 2,900 calories

So, if I sit on my ass all day, I can eat 1,500 calories each day. If I go to the gym 6 days a week, I can eat 2,400 calories each day. That amount sounds crazy!! I wouldn't be able to trust myself to eat that much!

Have you read Tigpuppy's journal diary? I noted that when she was around 185-165, she ate 1,200 calories per day or less and dealt with hair loss. I am scared of that, so I know that I need to eat more than 1,200 calories. I know, each person is different, but seeing that her example resulted in an actual body change, scares me!
 
Day 17- 5/14/2011
BM- 2
Water-10 (1 cup tea, 16oz coke zero)


Diet
8- 1/2 lfcc, 3 strawberries (100)
12- variety of hong kong style dimsum, shrimp shu mai, chicken feet, porridge (500)
7- 1 small salad, ravioli di magro in pomodoro sauce (425), chocolate cake w/ ice cream (150)
9- 1 cup of theatre popcorn w/o additional salt or butter
calories: 1300

Exercise
10min elliptical climber interval training
25min cycling interval
5min rowing
1hr body pump class (pure lifting; no cardio)

Thoughts

My BM after the dim sum was awesome. Woohoo! Nearly perfect! Felt kinda empty afterwards. lol. I wasn't planning on eating dim sum, but my sister invited me and I thought, hey why not? It was delicious! I am going out with my girlfriends tonight for dinner, but I don't plan on splurging.

The cycling class got so full that I didn't get in, again. Instead, I did 40 minutes of cardio on my own, once again, not to pull or strain a muscle, I kept it at a moderate intensity. I did get sweaty and dripped while on the cycling bike. The body pump class was pure lifting, so no hardcore sweaty, but my body was warm. I think I will be sore tomorrow!!

I don't feel as skinny as I'd like to be? My clothes fit a LOT better, my posture is so much better too...but I'm still timid to get on the scale.

I LOVE Pasta Pomodoro's house salad...I asked them to put the dressing on the side, and so happy I did! It tastes good with just a fork full of the dressing. I ordered the ravioli because it has the lowest calories and carbs on the menu for a small price too. My girlfriends and I got dessert and we split it, we didn't even finish it! My brother got some popcorn and coke zero and I had a handful of popcorn. Man, my tummy isn't too happy with the popcorn i think! Once the movie was over, my tummy was NOT a happy camper at all. Yikes...Pasta, Sweets, and then Popcorn? I guess my tummy is having an overload!
 
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The numbers, as you've requested Andrea! I LOVE calculating numbers in my head, and even more when I neatly record them.

BMR @ 190lb = 1680 calories
If sedentary = 1680 x 1.2 = 2,016 calories
If very active = 1680 x 1.725 = 2,900 calories

So, if I sit on my ass all day, I can eat 1,500 calories each day. If I go to the gym 6 days a week, I can eat 2,400 calories each day. That amount sounds crazy!! I wouldn't be able to trust myself to eat that much!

Have you read Tigpuppy's journal diary? I noted that when she was around 185-165, she ate 1,200 calories per day or less and dealt with hair loss. I am scared of that, so I know that I need to eat more than 1,200 calories. I know, each person is different, but seeing that her example resulted in an actual body change, scares me!

No i haven't read tig's journal. Or at least not that part. That's pretty scary about losing hair. Anorexics start growing more hair on their face and chest. I can't imagine what her's is about but it sounds like something very particular to her. Could be stress. I've heard of that before. I wonder if she went to the doc about it?

anyhow....

1500 when sedentary sounds ok for you when sedentary. I'm not sure i'd call six days a week of exercise very active. Its a matter of interpretation. That's just my interpretation. I say this because if you are doing say 6 hours of exercise a week, that's a lot different than working all day long in an active role. Someone working as say a gardener or a cleaner could go the extra calories, i don't think someone doing an hour at the gym can and who is sedentary the rest of the day. But if you think you are active all day six days, then go for it. So i would tend to choose the moderate option to be on the safe side if not. Remember you want to lose weight so err on the side of caution. When you are exercising 6 days, peg your calories to the moderate exercise factor and then if you are losing too much, increase it. If you start with the high calorie allowance, then you will be frustrated and disappointed if the scales aren't going down.

Speaking of scales. Courage my dear. Just get on those scales and get the facts. The news is usually less disappointing than anticipated and not knowing is much more painful than knowing even if the news is bad. I am not going to talk to you again on your diary until you get on that scale. I've had to report to a bullying tactic but you need it now. Lets face it, you are expecting bad news so knowing its bad won't make you feel worse than you already do. But not knowing is what really cripples you. And its not just about weightloss. Its true of all things in life. Now stop being a whoos and get on those scales. And don't skip your scheduled weigh in again out of fear of the result! Trust me!:toetap05:
 
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Andrea, I think she did go to the doctor. My job is not even near of being a gardener. I am a student and a substitute teacher, so on certain jobs, I stand up for a little bit. My goal is to do about 9 hours of exercise per week, of course, most of those hours being in a fitness class provided from my gym.

I do feel like on the days I am doing back to back exercising class, 2-hours of non-stop sweating, then yes, my body needs 2,900 calories for maintenance. Especially if I worked that day as well.

Mentally, I can't wrap my head around eating over 1,500 calories in any normal situation. So, whether I use that equation or not to calculate what my body needs, it won't matter because I won't listen to it. I can't trust it. As long as I stay above 1,200 and below 1,500, I think I should be okay, whether I am 190 pounds or 160 pounds.

Once my weight loss begins to start stalling, then I will begin to panic. (Stall due to malnutrition? lack of nutrients, i.e. calories?)

One thing I realized today in my body pump class is the notion of challenging my muscles to see muscle growth and fat loss. I must continually challenge my body, kick my knees higher, squeeze my shoulder blades closer, add that extra 2.5lb on each side of my barbell...Yeah, this journey isn't going to be easy.
 
Day 18- 5/15/2011
BM-0
Water-7 (8oz unsweetened tea)
Weigh-In: 191.2 @ 1045am

Diet
1145- spinach salad w/ 2 artichokes, 1 cup of red and orange bell peppers, feta cheese, raspberry dressing, 1 serving whole wheat spaghetti w/ ground turkey (550)
445- Pizza My Heart-1 pesto slice and 1/2 seasonal salad w/ tbsp dressing (550)
calories: 1100

Exercise
930am: 1 hour Cardio Kickboxing class
7pm: 50 minute 3.0 mph walk around neighborhood with dogs
Thoughts
My upper body is in pain, YES BRING ON THE DOMS! I want strength and growth! I have to say, cardio kickboxing and turbo kickboxing are two VERY different classes. Cardio Kickboxing got me sweating like the cycling class. The turbo kickboxing gets me sweaty, like strength training classes.

I got on the scale with a little anxiety, but was happy to see that the number was jumping from 190 to 191.4 and settled at 191.2.

I'm not disappointed at that number because it's a steady decrease in weight. By Wednesday night, I hope to see the 180s. I'm going to keep the calories under 1,500 each day and keep up the exercise!
 
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Mon- student teach, emeryville to drop off materials, body pump(6), cycling (715)
Tue- sub, CWS, turbo kick (630), strength training (730)
Wed (weigh-in)- student teach, CWS, cardio kickboxing (6), 24cycle (715), CWS
Thur- sub, CWS, cardio kickboxing (630), strength training (730), CWS
Fri (rest day)- sub, baseball game
Sat (weigh-in)- cycling (815), body pump (930), CWS, go out
Sun (rest day)- church
 
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