Mission: Losing Half of ME

hehe getting kicking out of the gym.. i do that too.. and even though its coz they are closing I always feel like a naughty child!
 
Hey, it's no embarrassment to be so into your workout that they close the gym on you. That's more of a sign of your focus and dedication.
 
They didn't kick me out today!

Dear Diary,

The guy who was closing the gym last night was there when we got there today. He was really nice, so I guess the embarrassment has passed! :willy_nilly:

I was able to use the incline trainer until the cows came home today, and I really like it! It burns calories way faster than any of the other cardio I've done, and it's in the back of the gym so I can look out over everyone else. You know, kind of like a queen surveying her empire? :biggrinjester:

I cannot wait for April 18th... That will be the one month mark from when I got back on the healthy bandwagon! On March 18th I weighed 320 pounds, and I know everyone says the "healthy" amount of weight to lose is only 2 pounds a week, but I am DETERMINED to average 3 pounds a week until next St. Patrick's Day so I can get that free cruise! Plus it's just exciting to think that by next St. Patrick's Day I could weigh 180 pounds! That would be AMAZING!

Oh well, time to eat some dinner! G'night!
 
Hey Plumphope
Great to see you are back. It happened to me too. I was at the gym too and they were closing half way thru the workout. I didnt realise that they close at 5.30 on weekends.

Keep up the good work....
 
I have good and bad weeks of 1lb then 3lb and sometimes 4lb!

but yay you! I'm off for my fitness training in half an hour and I'm so excited!
 
I know the feeling....

Hi Plumphope...
I only have a couple of things that I've found to be helpful during my journey this time...
1st : I got some councilling.....helps me understand why I set myself up for failure.
2nd : I realize now that EVERY SINGLE CHOICE COUNTS. Take it day by day, meal by meal!!
3rd: Success is measured by when you fall down...keep getting up. YOu only fail if you don't get back up....keep getting up. You are human and you'll have slips and even choose to make bad choices, but keep your goal in mind and choose to only lose a day, not a month, or a year! It's working for me...and I've been obese for 12 years now. I've done it all before, but somehow I have a different outlook, I'm not dieting, I'm finally living healthy.

I hope this helps somewhat. I also made a list of why I want to lose weight, and when I feel the need, I have a look and remember how bad I want it ...Nothing Tastes as good as being THIN feels!!

Keep on going!
 
Struggle

Thanks for the great feedback and ideas! Every suggestion and kind word helps!

Dear Diary,

I didn't go to the gym yesterday, and I might not go today because my left hip is trying to detach itself from my body. I've been carrying this extra weight around for a long time, and I guess my body adjusted to walking weird, because when I concentrate on it I notice that I swing my left leg out to the side with each step, and not just forward. I guess enough of that is enough, because it hurts mucho!

If I really concentrate on walking and actively think about just moving the leg forward, it doesn't hurt as much, but I'm not sure I should go back to the gym and push it yet... We'll see...

Blah. I've hit my wall again and am really having to fight myself from turning to quick fixes like fast food. I am such an evil manipulator, I make my husband feel like a bastard when he tries to talk me out fast food. Thank God I've caught myself each time so far, but I guess I just always forget how hard it is to stick to this plan long term!!
 
I understand your struggle.

Today both my wife and I had particularly stressful days, and we are both stress eaters, so it was off to the restaurant for badness. I managed to restrain myself from complete indulgence, but a stumble is a stumble. The only thing to do, though, is pick ourselves up, dust ourselves off, and keep going on.
Every day is a new day, and a new chance to get it right.

We must resist the comfort eating. It is so hard, but it can be done.

As for the hips, maybe you can do some upper-body work while you are sore, perhaps isometrics? That you can do sitting at home. Not only is it useful in itself, but might also help you feel like you are still making progress.
Just a thought.
 
good idea!

As for the hips, maybe you can do some upper-body work while you are sore, perhaps isometrics? That you can do sitting at home. Not only is it useful in itself, but might also help you feel like you are still making progress.
Just a thought.

I think that part is important to me... Because by just not doing ANYTHING I feel like a total waste! Thanks, I'll try that!!
 
defo keep at it...there is loads of stuff you can do at home for the upper body

you can do dips / crunches / girlie push ups or even weights with filled bottles of water

you could set yourself a challenge for each to see how many you can do in a minute and then try and beat that number every day!

don't feel down or let one little thing set you back... I think half the battle is continuity!
 
Hey there!!!! Figured id stop by and say hello!


Can i just first of all tell you i find it so funny and totally awesome you start your posts with " dear diary" hehe... thats great!!!!! :)


You are going to get this girl! And it WILL become a habit. I never thought it would for me... but now i feel almost empty and bummed if i dont go to the gym like i should be... i am itching to get back there!!!!!


fast food is a killer. Last time i got mcdonalds... i got a quarter pounder.... fries, and a sweet tea. Came back to my desk and since i kept a food journal ( still do) i needed to go on their website and log the calories..... OMG. It was my totaly days allowance.... right there on my desk.


so I threw it out and heated up a healthy choice meal i had in the freezer at work.

ALL THAT TO SAY: if you arent already, i recommend a food journal that way its on paper and you actually are forced to see what you are eating. That may help with those cravings for those yummy quickie fast food meals!!! :)

GOOD LUCK!!!
 
after an 8 month judgement lapse...

Dear Diary,

Wow, it's amazing how quickly time passes when you're doing absolutely nothing constructive. If I had stuck to my goals I would weight 100 pounds less than I currently do, but because back then this ammount of time seemed SOOOO LOONG I didn't stick with anything. Well, I did stick to over-eating at McDonalds and an activity level that will result in bedsores...

Bah.... :nopity:

I am 27 years old, working part-time as an addictions counselor, and attending school part-time for nursing. The only thing I do full-time is eat... Hell, I earn overtime with my eating capabilities!

We're mega-poor... We actually had our electricity shut off earlier this month, and it was almost two weeks before we could afford to turn it back on. I have no gym membership, not that I went to the gym even once in the last four months I had my last membership. I feel totally defeated and depressed, and guess what I always find myself turning to? Yup, you guessed it... Food.

I'm almost embarassed to start back up at this website, because I just feel like it'll be another test drive towards failure... I need some support. I Don't want to just be like this anymore. I've been fat for too long for it to still just be a phase. This is me, it's obviously not going anywhere on it's own... So I need to actually stick to any sort of plan.

PLAN FOR TODAY: Say no to eggnog.

Hey, I hafta start somewhere... :coolgleamA:
 
yo ho ho, and a bottle of rum...

dear diary,

oh hey there. i know i know, i shock myself everyday with odd and perplexing new twists and turns... todays shock: i'm writing in my little handy, dandy journal for the second time in the SAME day.

hang on diary... my tea kettle is screaming... (and by tea kettle, i mean bladder.)

okay. i'm back. i don't really have any reason for this entry... i'm bored. being bored makes me want to order 10 double cheeseburgers and 2 large french fries from mcdonalds. blah.

i'm mad at myself for dropping off of this web site last time. i had met some really cool and supportive people, and i just ditched on everything. now i have to start all over again, and starting over gets harder every time.

every time. yes, there have been many dives off of that wagon. i don't want to fall again. i need to shape up, literally.

:piggy:
 
I just want to say, eggnog is evil. I actually poured myself a single serving the other day (1/4 cup of the one I had bought). It was more like a shot. And in that tiny glass there was 210 calories. It was good though, I'm glad I didn't drink the whole bottle (like I would have last year around this time).

The holidays are hard, in years past I usually gained 10lbs. during every holiday season (which is why once I saw that I weighed a staggering 334lbs. I knew I had to do something and it certainly couldn't wait until 2010 to get started. I've lost 11lbs. in about 5 weeks, and only about 3 of those have included regular exercise.

Anyway, welcome. I hope to hear more from you, we have a lot in common weight-loss-wise.

Check out this thread: http://weight-loss.fitness.com/nutrition/36140-eating-about-80-month.html

KaraCooks came up with a way to stretch your money and still eat healthy even on a very strict budget. I remember living in a tiny apartment and having a hard time making ends meet, some days I only ate 1/2 a bag of popcorn for a whole day. There are some great tips in there that I wish I would have realized back in those days.

Sorry if this post doesn't make a lot of sense, I'm exhausted and on my way to bed, lol .... Anyway I hope to hear more from you, enjoy your holiday :)
 
Merry Christmas, and all that jazz...

Dear Diary,

Oh hey there. Yesterday was a day where I basically mainlined sugar all day. My family did a Christmas Cookie Extravaganza, and I was way excited because my husband and I couldn't afford to do any gifts this year, and I made cookie making/baking/eating the center of my holiday spirit.

Note to self: Than was a flippin' horrible idea.

I never want to see another cookie again, and I feel crappy... Like sorta sick to my stomach and just all around gross. Ugh. I need to remember this feeling next time I think it might be a good idea to eat a bag of sugar. Or a bag of fast food. Or a bag of anything, really. One should not measure out their portions in bags and barrels... :piggy:

Aside from feeling icky, things are alright. This is the first Christmas where I have not had any gifts to open, and it's not as awful as I imagined it would be. The materialistic side of me must not be as huge as I assumed, which is a good thing! I'm having a nice lazy day with my pets and my hubby, and that is nice.

I really hope everyone out there is having a wonderful holiday season, whatever holiday it is that you're celebrating! Tomorrow morning I am going to face the scale, and then I am going to stick with it. Merry Christmas to me, next year on this day I want to be able to see my toes without an elaborate system of mirrors.

That will be the best gift I've ever given to myself. :santa:
 
Food isn't your enemy, if you're hungry, feel free to eat. Just increase your physical activity. Buy weights for your home (if you have the money) when you can't get to the gym, working out at home is the next best substitute. When you have weights sitting around, you actually feel the urge to pound away at them.

When I was first losing weight, I went on this lame ass strict diet where I consumed nothing but healthy foods. I slowly started getting back into old habits of going out 3 days a week with friends and consuming nothing but beer and pizza. You know what I learned though? As long as I stayed active, I never gained the fat back. While it is not the most healthy life-style, if it is a lifestyle that ANYONE can follow. You just have to burn more calories than you're consuming.

You have the rest of your life ahead, you really need to set goals that are realistic. If you know you're going to eat cookies, just do it in moderation. Don't set your goals too high and you can never fail. :)
 
Hey Plumphope...hello and welcome back... i've just had a little vacation from here too.

I think its a good idea to pick one goal and try to stick to that for a week. i.e. cut out soda for a week, and don't worry about the rest it, when you control one thing its easier to then get other things under control. try not to beat yourself up over bad choices over xmas either!

Sorry to hear about the difficult finances. There's lots of exercise you can do without a gym membership though!

Good luck

Ana
 
A Fresh Ticker...

Hey, thanks for the simplified goals based on the week idea, I'll be using that one!!

Dear Diary,

Well, in the interest of starting new and starting fresh, I have created a new weight loss ticker to appear in my signature. It's starting with my weight as of TODAY, so any progress I make will be that much more meaningful to me, as it's not progress from a point I was at sometime I don't remember... But progress from TODAY.

As of now, I am 322.4 pounds. YIKES! :ack2:

My food diary isn't starting off too hot either, as so far all I have eaten today is a Cowboy Cookie... which was most likely 987659876 calories...

Starting small. I can do this. Woot!
 
Starting small. I can do this. Woot!

Yes you can! I took things slow and really just focused on one thing at a time for the first 3 weeks and now I'm in a really decent routine. There are moments when it could be better, but giving myself a break from being "strict" at least once every week or two keeps me sane, and if that's what I need to stay on track and keep the weight off forever, that's what I'm gonna do!

322.4lbs is very close to where I am at now. It will be fun to progress together, and I know that we can keep each other motivated! :D
 
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