Mission: Losing Half of ME

weekend can be EVIL!

LynnZ said:
So, How are you feeling today?? It's friday!! hang in there on the healthy eating path :) weekends are hardest for me...but YOU CAN DO IT!!
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Weekends tend to be toughest for me too! As are apparently Friday's! I ate more calories today than I should have... 1840!! I guess if I'm looking for a silver lining it must be that I at least continued to track the calories when I jumped off the wagon! I am back on now... and I am going to the gym tomorrow! Since my leg muscles went on strike Friday I have just been doing Wii Fit exercises at home, but tomorrow I'm back in the gym! I'm back on the treadmill, and I might even give those evil exercises that killed me another shot!

Weird note... I've been having this dream the past 2-3 nights that I am on the starting line of a track getting ready to run a race, and in my dream I feel uber confident because my challengers are odd things like a stalk of celery, a sombrero, and things like that! Once the race starts I am moving in slow motion, like slower than slow! And all those inanimate objects (many of which are food related) are flying past me, and seem to be almost mocking me even though they are inanimate objects (that can somehow run)!! I get so upset in the dream and it feels like it goes on FOREVER! Who dreams about being bested by a stalk of celery and a Mexican hat? WHO!?!!??

I do. :waving:
 
=T awww. i saw what you wrote about you and your personal trainer. all i can say is when you reach your goal... how amazing is it going to be to think back and see how it was back then versus how you will be =D
 
Stop falling off the damn wagon...

GRRRRRRRRRR!!! :banghead:

I make myself so angry! I get so motivated and work hard to see results... and suddenly one day I don't want to get out of bed to go to the gym. Then one day turns to one week, and I figure I'm so far off course I might as well indulge in every tasty and fattening food known to man!

Why do I do this to myself!!?? :nopity:

I've moved on to my next crazy bit of motivation... I just printed out and filled in the majority of the application for the next cast of The Biggest Loser. I don't know if I'll follow through, but I wish I would! There's just so many people I have been "hiding from" since I got fat, and I don't want them to see how I let myself go! I know no one cares about this as much as I do, but I can't stop myself from thinking that every ex-boyfriend will watch me on TV (on the off chance I ever made it on, which is VERY unrealistic) and laugh at how far downhill I went after them!

Have I made my point yet? I am totally certifiable. In my head, everything revolves around me... So obviously the rest of humanity follows suit, right?

In summation: I am back. I plan to STAY back. I don't want to go anywhere. I want to lose weight! I just need to have more willpower than a flea...

::sigh::
 
yay^^ im happy your back... at least you werent off the wagon for months or even years! 0__o

btw.... how much willpower does a flea have?!
 
Let me tell you...

I am a trained professional wagon faller. In fact I can leap off the wagon with the grace of a swan and dive deeply into caloric bliss for trmendous lengths of time...

In 2001 -1002 I went from 365lbs to 278... Somehow I ballooned up to 389lbs a few years later...

You came back, it didn't take long... no stay this time dammit!!! LOL, J/K I'll welcome you back even if you fall again...

Willpower is an intangible thing. I wish I had a grasp on it, but i don't. Right now... I have it. Its a fleeting thing. It could leave me on a bad day and who knows if I'll get it back... It scares me so much that this train will go out of control and ruin what I've been working so hard for, that maybe, just maybe, the fear of falling, has finally become stronger than the desire to do something I know i shouldn't do...
 
Hi Plumphope
Hows it all going. I have being following you on the april fools challenge and my god you are a winner. Hope you keep up the good work.
 
The 927349865th times a charm...

I'm back. :waving:

Back towards the end of January my personal trainer quit (I broke him?), and even though that wasn't really why I quit going to the gym - I certainly used it as an excuse! I ran out of steam and didn't push myself because being lazy is one of the only things I really excel at!

Last week.... 8 weeks had passed since I had been to the gym, watched what I ate, or stepped on a scale. My dad apparently watched too much reality television, because he posed a challenge to me and my husband:
"You each lose 36 pounds (3 pounds a month) by St. Patrick's Day next year, your mother and I will take you both on a cruise."

Sounds awesome right? Well.... What I have neglected to explain is that I have been lying to my father about my weight for quite some time because of a previous challenge he issued, where if I lost a certain amount of weight by a certain date he would give me $500. I didn't meet that goal, but I'm a horrible person who rigged the scale so I could make it look like I did. Now my whole world is a lie, I need to lose a lot of weight (12 pounds a month), and knowing that it's actually going to be my DAD looking at the scale next St. Patrick's Day (and not my too kind, easily fooled mother) has pumped me up for weight loss once again.

Problem? I've been pumped up before. I have a history of sputtering out quickly. I really want to go on a cruise... I really want to fit into my old clothes... I really want to just be HEALTHY! How does one sputter out when all those positives are within reach?

I've lost 9 pounds in the last week. I know it comes off super fast in the beginning - but I'm also really working hard. Let's just hope I can still say that in 51 more weeks!
 
trying to lose weight by eating more frequently?

Well, I figure I have tried everything else... I've never been able to stick with a weight loss routine longer than 3 weeks or so... So maybe doing what all the fitness people say is worth a shot.

I've never eaten breakfast or lunch regularly. Never in my life. I don't feel hungry - So I don't eat. I just eat dinner when I get home. Sure if I am bored and there is tasty food around, I'll eat breakfast, lunch, etc... That's how I got to be over 300 pounds, but I've never been on a regular schedule with several balanced meals.

My dad is a doctor, and he always busts out all the scientific jargon on me about how it is physiologically impossible to not lose weight if you're eating super low calories. He says all the stuff trainers say about eating frequently is BS to help them keep clients. When I was on a super low calorie diet I lost a lot of weight, but I was miserable! Maybe eating at least 3 meals a day (not huge greasy meals either) will be good for me... We'll see!
 
out-and-out begging

So I was bored today, and typically when I am bored - I eat. To avoid eating, I tried to stay busy on some different websites today (Yes, I am still going to go to the gym later).

Look what my desperation lead to:


Yup. Goodbye dignity, hello creative way to beg my family and friends for money! :toetap05:

At least I haven't over-eaten!! :biggrinjester:
 
whoooh i had no idea you were back! =]
AWESOME !!!
haha btw i cant believe you could deceive your
parents sooo well. >=] i never thought of that. xD
happy to see you posting again ^^
 
well =D hehe...

i started back in january ... on the 12th...
and right now im am nearly down 30 pounds!
depending on the day of course ^_~

i could have done better... but i wasnt able
to use the website for a while =T and that
seriously sucked the motivation right out of me D:
but today im getting it together and i have
decided to join the military sooo thats another
motivation =D

how have you been?! =]
 
neato!

AngelicaHope said:
well =D hehe...

i started back in january ... on the 12th...
and right now im am nearly down 30 pounds!
depending on the day of course ^_~

i could have done better... but i wasnt able
to use the website for a while =T and that
seriously sucked the motivation right out of me D:
but today im getting it together and i have
decided to join the military sooo thats another
motivation =D

how have you been?! =]
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The military! Wow, I definitely never had the ambition to even consider that! That's great! :cheers2:

No major decisions or developments in my life, still in the workout routine at the moment, and eating well! I hope I can break my 3 week wall - If I'm still on track next Wednesday, it will officially be 22 days, and a new record!
I CAN DO IT!
 
I hate the effing scale!!

Dear Diary,

I'm the kind of person that needs to see some results quickly in order to sell myself on the idea that something hard/difficult is actually worth it.

I am being SO good. For the last 2.5 weeks I have been perfectly on point. My calories are low, my exercise is high... The only problem is that my weight loss is slow to non-existent.

Isn't the beginning of the process where all the weight pours off quickly to set you up for unrealistic goals? What gives! :ack2:

The rumor is that if you do something regularly for 6 weeks, it becomes a habit. If I can hold tight for 3.5 more weeks, I will have passed through so many mental blocks that it will be unbelievable! If I am still here on April 29th I am going to do a back flip (in the pool, where I can actually do one...).

On a good note, I started off a small bit of time ago at just over 50% body fat. (What's that? You didn't know that was possible? I didn't either, maybe I should see if I can get in the book of World Records!) Now I am just slightly over 49% body fat! I know it's just one percent, but means I'm officially more ME than fat now, and that's neat!

I'll see you all in the organic foods aisle! :coolgleamA:
 
It sounds like you are doing great so far.
I myself would LOVE to lose half of me as well, wish I could just chop it off lol.
But hey good luck with everything :)
 
I'm easily embarrassed...

So_tired_of_fat said:
I myself would LOVE to lose half of me as well, wish I could just chop it off lol.
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Ditto!!!!! :piggy:


In other news... Dear Diary,

I was kicked out of the gym today! Not permanently or anything, but I am just SO embarrassed! I noticed I was the only person on the treadmills, and then I noticed they were turning off TVs, but I honestly just thought it was a slow night and they were conserving energy!! Imagine my surprise when they flicked the lights to get my attention, and then my husband said, "I guess we should leave."

Who knew they closed at 7:00PM!!!!! AUGH! :banghead:

So now I am embarrassed, and a bit bummed because I was really in the zone! I was using the incline trainer and really just sweating up a storm. Pity.

Until tomorrow...
 
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