brazenlysasse
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Just like many, i have started and stopped my process of becoming healthy so many times. I have gone through the disappointment with myself when I eat things that i consider 'wrong' or if I have not been active. Then.... the stand by true response has been..." oh well, I've already screwed up...may as well eat a buffalo dipped in whole fat dressing" sighssss... so stupid. Not me, just the habits I allow for myself. So, I'm back... to journal, because that has been one thing that keeps me honest with myself. I have gotten down to 303 lbs (from 327lbs) and... as per usual, i start to panic at the *300 pound* point. I am trying so hard to get through it, and get my weight under this milestone..so, like with the past worry of the Millennium, I can discover that i will not implode, my bank account will not vanish and my computer wont crash permanently. I know that I have no concept of what it feels like to be in the 200's and it is time to change that. I am ready to step into a smaller version of myself.