Maverick's Diary: Honor, Courage, Commitment

maverick2

maverick2

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So I started a new diary thread because I was finding it really difficult to find my other one; everyone else had such cool titles for theirs, and "Going for it" just kinda gets lost in the shuffle. :D So I figured I'd retitle mine to remind me everyday of why I'm working so hard.

Plus, along with a new diary, I am renewing my commitment to complete this journey within the time limits I have set for myself, come hell or high water.

Breakfast:
- Yoplait Light yogurt (ugh, you can taste the Splenda...)
- medium-sized banana

I'm about to head to the gym for some cardio and weight training, since all I did yesterday was yoga and tai chi because of the storms. Wish me luck!
 
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I like your new title - it suits you very well...

I just noticed your ticker -you're like a sneeze away from being overweight... way to go on that upcoming milestone :D
 
Love the title and the motivation in here! Congrats
on your weightloss so far ,your doing gr8,Tammy
 
Exercise:
- Treadclimber [30 min. appx. 400 calories]
- weights
.....Shoulder press [30 lbs, 5 lifts a rep]: 3 reps
.....Biceps curl [40 lbs, 10 lifts a rep] 3 reps

As ya'll can see, I cut my weights pretty short (meant to do MUCH more than two machines), because I started to feel really sick all of a sudden. I sort of think it's because I didn't eat enough before going to the gym, so I quit when my body said quit. I can always go back later.

So I came home and had lunch. I'll probably go back to the gym tonight after some rest, and I'll likely do some calisthenics (pushups, situps, lunges, etc...) between now and then as well.

It's pretty nice outside, so I might start an outdoor running program today. There's a beautiful asphalted creekway (jogger/biker friendly) down the street from my house, and it's definitely a couple of miles long.

Lunch:
- Smart Ones WeightWatchers pepperoni pizza (delicious!...I've been SO impressed with Weightwatchers meals)
- 1/3 cup homemade cold pasta salad
- 1/3 cup walnuts

Gotta go run some errands in a little bit. :)
 
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Hello, i just wanted to stop by! Seems like your doing really good, yeah the smart ones are really good!! Well hope u have a good weekend!
 
Okay, so, something kind of weird that I forgot to mention before...

Earlier, while I was in the gym and had just started my weights (and already was feeling kinda blah) my yoga/tai chi instructor came in for her weights session with another older lady.

And for some odd reason, I spooked. Didn't make eye contact, didn't greet her, tried to pretend she wasn't in the room. Ultimately I couldn't handle it, and I've decided it was about 50% the reason that I boogied out so quick in the middle of my training.

The thing is, I have no idea why she evoked that strong of a reaction in me. I'm not especially shy, though people probably think I am because I don't talk too much. I'm the one cracking wise in the front row in class, and usually a teacher's pet. I don't make a lot of small talk in school or at work (more the strong silent type I guess?) and I've always had the reputation of being generally friendly but a little aloof, sort of a cold fish. I don't particularly like to meet new people, or spend too much time with the ones I already know. Timid though? No way. Not this kid.

The instructor in question is a 70-ish little old lady with a black belt whom I had no problems approaching yesterday to tell her that her yoga class is my favorite out of all the instructors at the gym. She even gave me a hug, and I was flattered! (I am not a big "hug" person with acquaintances - only my family members get regular hugs from me. Even me and my best friend hug rarely, because we're both so alike and have big "personal space" bubbles.)

It was just really, really weird. It's not the first time it's happened, either. Sometimes I just have this undeniable animal urge to get away from certain individuals or situations. I wasn't freaked out or anxious or anything, I just completely shut down.

I know it insults some people, but I can't help it.
 
I'm with you on the hugging thing - it weirds me out when people who haven't known me forever try to hug me...

Sometimes you just gotta go with your instincts - they're rarely wrong...
 
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Okay, so, something kind of weird that I forgot to mention before...

Earlier, while I was in the gym and had just started my weights (and already was feeling kinda blah) my yoga/tai chi instructor came in for her weights session with another older lady.

And for some odd reason, I spooked. Didn't make eye contact, didn't greet her, tried to pretend she wasn't in the room. Ultimately I couldn't handle it, and I've decided it was about 50% the reason that I boogied out so quick in the middle of my training.

The thing is, I have no idea why she evoked that strong of a reaction in me. I'm not especially shy, though people probably think I am because I don't talk too much. I'm the one cracking wise in the front row in class, and usually a teacher's pet. I don't make a lot of small talk in school or at work (more the strong silent type I guess?) and I've always had the reputation of being generally friendly but a little aloof, sort of a cold fish. I don't particularly like to meet new people, or spend too much time with the ones I already know. Timid though? No way. Not this kid.

The instructor in question is a 70-ish little old lady with a black belt whom I had no problems approaching yesterday to tell her that her yoga class is my favorite out of all the instructors at the gym. She even gave me a hug, and I was flattered! (I am not a big "hug" person with acquaintances - only my family members get regular hugs from me. Even me and my best friend hug rarely, because we're both so alike and have big "personal space" bubbles.)

It was just really, really weird. It's not the first time it's happened, either. Sometimes I just have this undeniable animal urge to get away from certain individuals or situations. I wasn't freaked out or anxious or anything, I just completely shut down.

I know it insults some people, but I can't help it.
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Hmmmmm...I've had this happen to me in the past too.
I eventually understood that I felt comfortable when I controlled the confrontation, (i.e. went up to my instructor to talk), but when it was a surprise situation, it was uncomfortable for me, especialy if the instructor could see me training alone. I felt that he may have seen me using the weights incorrectly, or not working out to my full potential.
 
Sometimes you just gotta go with your instincts - they're rarely wrong...
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Yeah, I've definitely learned to trust them. I have really strong intuition, so I use it all the time.

I don't think there's anything wrong with this lady, I'm just kind of picky about social interaction. I react the same way when I see someone I know from school or childhood in a grocery store or at Walmart. I duck into an aisle so they won't see me and I won't have to go through that awkward "hey-how-ya-doin" meet-and-greet.

Thinking back on it, this happened to me earlier in the week too. The clerk at the bank asked me, "Did you go to So-and-So school?" and I knew then that I recognized her from middle school, but I didn't pursue the conversation because I DID remember her and she was one of the meanest girls in my age group when we were younger.

I couldn't even just pretend to be nice to her, and to say, "Yeah, I remember you. You were kind of a b*tch, weren't you?" would have been sort of rude...

Hmmmmm...I've had this happen to me in the past too.
I eventually understood that I felt comfortable when I controlled the confrontation, (i.e. went up to my instructor to talk), but when it was a surprise situation, it was uncomfortable for me, especialy if the instructor could see me training alone. I felt that he may have seen me using the weights incorrectly, or not working out to my full potential.
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I totally bet that's part of it. I hate it when I'm not in control of social situations.

Snack:
- 6-8 mini rice cakes
- 1 Michelob Light beer
- Turkey salami sandwich (two slices) with yellow mustard on whole wheat
 
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Dinner:
- 1 cup Four Seasons stir fry (with veggies, roast pork, chicken, beef, and shrimp)
- about 10 pieces of sweet and sour chicken, shrimp, and beef (dipped in sauce, w/ breading removed)

Exercise:
push-ups - 50 (10 sets of 5)
sit-ups - 100 (5 sets of 20)

My parents made me watch An Officer and a Gentleman tonight while we were watching dinner, because I've never seen it before and they wanted me to see what I might have in store for me at OCS. It was entertaining, to say the least, but I sure as heck don't want to be that girl who couldn't even make it over the wall in the obstacle course because her upper body strength was so bad. So I'm going to be working hard on my arms, shoulders, and chest from now on to avoid that mistake for the future.
 
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[moved from old thread :eek:]

Yeah...so I cheated all over the place today, and didn't do too much exercise because I just felt like my body needed a rest (my shoulders were SO sore from doing pushups all day yesterday!).

Oh well. Tomorrow is another day!

Breakfast:
- 1/2 bowl of Special K
- bowl of fruit (pineapple, grapes, strawberry, watermelon)
- 1/2 cup of coffee with sugar and whole milk

Lunch:
- 2 biscuits w/ spicy sausage patty
- 2 pieces of bacon

Snack:
- 1 1/2 cans of Coke (*gasp-I NEVER drink Coke...haven't drank it in months until today...my cousin is a bad influence in more ways than one...*)
- tortilla chips w/ white queso and hot salsa

Dinner:
- snow crab (about five legs)
- 4 oz. New York Strip
- 1/2 small baked potato (with no-calorie soy butter spray)
- 1/2 cob of boiled corn (with no-calorie soy butter spray)
- about 2 shots worth of Jaegermeister

Exercise: Not much in the way of exercise today, since I thought I needed a "body recuperation" day. Went and jogged about half an hour this morning (wore my butt out, though!) and I've done about 15 pushups.
 
Exercise (last night):
- 15 min. flutter kicks

I have *got* to get back to the gym today. I was lazy yesterday, and cheated all over the place.

No control over that now though, so I gotta concentrate on today. :D
 
Breakfast/Lunch (got up late today):
- 2 biscuits
- 2 pieces of bacon
- 3 oz. leftover steak
- small mound of scrambled eggs

Exercise:
- 30 min. Treadclimber (appx. 415 calories)
- weights (arms, shoulders, torso - heavy weights, low reps)
- flutter kicks
- push-ups

I've had a major, major headache the last few hours. Got worse after getting back from the gym (which was SO crowded...)

I think I'm gonna take it easy the rest of the day.
 
You know...this will sound weird, but reading your diary made me feel so MUCH better in one way.....you're drinking coffee like I do lol I gave up all my other drinks but that (and I cant use any kind of artificial sweetner)

Good luck on not being "that girl" with no upper body strength
 
Shani: Yeah, I HATE Splenda and other artificial sweeteners...so I just try to decrease the amount of sugar I use as much as possible. Really hard in coffee, though, because I drink coffee about half and half with milk, and about 4 spoonfuls of sugar. :eek:

I don't mark it in my diary usually (only mark down beverages with caloric input) but I would guess about 85% of the stuff I drink is water. This last week wasn't so great (as I had Coke, Red Bull, Jaegermeister, and Monster) but I try to drink at least 80 oz. of water a day. Since I was a sweet tea addict before I started watching what I eat and drink, I think I'm doing pretty good. :D

Shani, Goddess, Cindy, Mal, Amber, and Slim: Thanks for stopping by! *hugz*

I'm so proud of myself for my dinner tonight. We were eating Southern food at its best (fried pork chops, greens, the works) but I think I did a really good job watching my portions and replacing stuff I wanted (like cheesy rice) with stuff I need (like banana and apple).

And one more triumph: I did not salt a damned thing. :D

Dinner:
- 4-5 oz. of fried pork chop, lightly breaded (excess oil removed by paper towel)
- 1/2 cup steamed broccoli
- 1/2 cup collard greens
- 1/2 cup stewed yellow squash
- 1 large banana
- 1/2 red apple

Normally (and I'm a little embarrassed to actually write it down) this meal for me would have been two or three pork chops and a huge mound of rice and that's it (with cornbread if it had been served). It's really amazing to me that I actually ate so many more fruits and vegetables than meat. :party:
 
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