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usedtobefatmatt

usedtobefatmatt

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"Now we're back where we belong, without a clue and still without a master plan"- Jimmy Buffett


Ok, so i have tried this whole journal thing before. I'm not a huge fan of writing and putting my thoughts on paper but I feel that I do need a place to vent every so often. I also will just go off on tangets every so often so my journal really doesnt flow too well.

I started this journey a little over two years ago and still plugging away. I went through about a two month slump. I didnt stop exercising or eating well, I just kind of questioned if I could improve on what I arleady have done. That time has passed and I still have a LOONNNGGG way to go and I am enjoying the journey. Still do the 5 days a week at the gym.

My favorite exercise is still and always will be chasing my kids around the yard. Does playing tag count as HIIT?

The hiking season is coming up for me. I have a 10 mile hike planned for the end of May. I volunteered to be a chaperone for a boy scout troop in this hike. Anyway, I can't wait for that.

***random thought: i always said that i would never say no to a treat that my daughter makes. I enjoy her chocolate chip cookies the best. For her 4th birthday we bought her an easy bake oven. That might be the worst stuff i have ever eaten. My wife thought it would be cute to see her bake. :puke:

Anyway, I have started this and not sure how often i will add to it but atleast I have a place to vent.

Thanks for stopping by.

Matt
 
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I think we all need to place to vent. Might as well be here!

I always wanted an ez bake oven when I was a little girl, but I'm actually now glad to learn the product tastes like shit. lol. Makes me feel like I didn't miss out so much ;)

My child is rapidly approaching the 14 yr old mark and I STILL chase him! Only difference now is it's down a basketball court.

Your hiking trip sounds fantastic. 10 miles can be a good workout, especially if the terrain is challenging.
 
chasing the kids counts for some sorta exercise...both physically and mentally!!!

I am happy you opened up shop here...wheres the most comfy chair so i can plop my shrinking butt down and put my feet up and sit for awhile.....

can we turn on the lifetime channel?
 
I am happy you opened up shop here...wheres the most comfy chair so i can plop my shrinking butt down and put my feet up and sit for awhile.....
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I so miss my ass grove. When I was heavier, I had the best ass grove ever. I bonded so well with my couch. That's probably why I weighed 350.


can we turn on the lifetime channel
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I'm more of a discovery health kinda guy. Although, i do love a mushy made for tv chick flick. I can always count on some great acting. :)

Thanks for stopping by
 
I know it's kind of weird keeping a journal. I don't like putting my thoughts down anywhere, but it definitely helps :)

Hope you keep up the journal!
 
Karebare said:
I am happy you opened up shop here...wheres the most comfy chair so i can plop my shrinking butt down and put my feet up and sit for awhile.....

can we turn on the spice channel?
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As always I will take liberties.

Matt, good to see you start some random venting and call it a journal, works for me!
 
So I'm heading to Fenway Park tonight to see the Red Sox. It's always a great time. I know it's such a cliche but walking up the tunnel and seeing the grass for the first time is so cool. Sure i have seen it many times but it just brings me back. Not to sure about the weather but oh well. We can always hang at a bar and watch the Celtics and Bruins. WOW, is it a great run for Boston sports.

So my daughter painted a magnet for my wife last night for Mother's day. The stuff kids thinks about and how they see the world is the best. Kids just have a positive, happy, go lucky attittude and I love it. I'd so love to go back and be a kid again. Seriously, the smallest things make kids happy. I guess we, as adults, can carry that same attitude but we sometimes can get caught up in the moment of fast paced life. I guess as I'm typing this I read the top and I guess I still do have some kid in me if I can get excited about seeing a baseball game.

I stepped on the scale today for the first time this week and I'm weighing in at 210. I'm very happy with that weight but I'd still like to slowly work my way down to the 200 area again. The key will be to maintain muscle this time.

Everybody enjoy their Friday, weekend and Mother's day. Guys, dont forget to take care of the wifes, mothers and grandmothers.

:seeya:
 
Always loved this poem, just thought I'd share. It really has some good meaning:

If you think you are beaten, you are.
If you think you dare not, you won't.
If you like to win, but think you cant,
It's almost a cinch that you won't.

If you think you'll lose, you've lost,
For out in the world you'll find
Success begins with a person's will;
It's all in the state of mind.

Life's battles don't always go
To the strongest or fastest man
But sooner or later the person who wins
Is the person who thinks he can."
 
That's the magic of children, they make us feel like we're free to be kids again, especially when it's playtime. I don't want to ever lose that feeling. I want to be 80 and still riding go-karts like it's my first time. And that's what is so great about losing weight. It makes all these things possible again.
 
i see your posts all over the place so just thought i should stop by, i've read all your entries so will post a few points in random order:

-first, CONGRATULATIONS on the weight loss so far!
- the story about your daughters cookies from the ez bake oven was hilarious...lol! but you made a promise to eat anything she baked and a promise is a promise...hehehe
-i totally know what you mean about wanting to be a kid again....if i knew that being an adult would be this hard then i'd never have grown up....children are always so happy and carefree....wish i could be like that again....but i think for me working on my weight now is bringing some of my self confidence and happiness back which is doing me wonders.
-wow, the 10mile hike sounds great! i keep wondering if when i get to my goal weight if i'd like to be a runner or a hiker....i've never been into running that much but would like to try a marathon at least once in my life...otherwise i'm pretty certain i'll go the hiking route, there's so much more appreciation of nature that way.
-finally i really loved your poem "but sooner or later the person who wins, is the person who thinks he can". all my diets in the past (which were fad diets i might add), i knew i'd be setting up myself for failure and that's exactly what would happen, i'd give up within one or two days and that would be the end of that. But this time round it's a lifestyle change and I KNOW I CAN DO THIS and this time will win this battle....WE ALL CAN DO THIS!

k, all the best xoxo
 
I just wanted to stop by to thank you for stopping by my page! I really dig the poem you posted....so much in fact that I've just printed it out. I'm going to hang it up on the wall I get to stare at while on my treadmill.

Good luck in maintaining your progress and continuing your journey; keep up the positive attitude and the great work.:seeya:
 
usedtobefatmatt said:
I stepped on the scale today for the first time this week and I'm weighing in at 210. I'm very happy with that weight but I'd still like to slowly work my way down to the 200 area again. The key will be to maintain muscle this time.
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Hey Matt,

Do you think 200lbs is where you want to be for the physical reasons or the number itself?

Might sound a strange question, but I myself use the 200lb mark as a 'good place to be' and Im not sure yet if its because of the number or because its where I feel most comfortable!

Hope this doesnt seem TOO much of a daft question :D
 
SyNyStEr14 said:
Hey Matt,

Do you think 200lbs is where you want to be for the physical reasons or the number itself?

Might sound a strange question, but I myself use the 200lb mark as a 'good place to be' and Im not sure yet if its because of the number or because its where I feel most comfortable!

Hope this doesnt seem TOO much of a daft question :D
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Great question.

It's more that i feel comfortable. I say 210 more because i know it's fat coming off this time instead of all the muscle. When i reach 199 my face and arms were so skinny yet i had a big belly still. I'm still carrying a lot of fat in the midsection which will still have to come off.

It's all about body composition.

Matt
 
usedtobefatmatt said:
It's all about body composition
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Good point..

Im still struggling with the scale mentality, mainly due to the surgery coming up, dont wanna put any weight on (even muscle) in fear they'll turn me down for not keeping my weight low enough...sounds daft, but I dont want to risk it for the sake of a month or two..Im hoping once my surgerys done I can shake this and focus on just getting fitter, healthier and stronger :D

Good luck with the next 10lbs :)
 
usedtobefatmatt said:
Great question.

It's more that i feel comfortable. I say 210 more because i know it's fat coming off this time instead of all the muscle. When i reach 199 my face and arms were so skinny yet i had a big belly still. I'm still carrying a lot of fat in the midsection which will still have to come off.

It's all about body composition.

Matt
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It truly is the last place to come off. dont be discouraged, by lean arms!! Blast through get it done. When all the fats gone, then you can add muscle and..... DUN DUN DUN!!! EAT AT A CALORIC SURPLUS!! YES!!! I cannot wait! Planned overeating that leads to progress... think about that. let it soak in. its closer than you think. *IF* You stick to the plan.
 
My h is a very large man and a few years ago he lost like 100 pounds and got to about 210...I liked him at 215 - 200, I thought when he got down to the lower 210 - 205 range he looked too thin. He really really wanted to be in the 100's, I actually asked to stop. Unfortunately he has gained it back but is on the right track and is 30 pounds down.

I guess my point is in the end the number doesnt matter as much as looking at yourself and feeling healthy both physically and mentally. I am addicted to this season biggest loser and it seems like every season they get to a certain point and they look maybe a little too thin...I just want to love what I see in the mirror and have my husband of 23 years to still think i am his little hawttie...Its all about me myself and i (and him)...

ps...cabbie turned on the spice channel i see... hey...if you have any charges on your phone bill for 900 numbers, i would go to him first.
 
Hey Matt....where are ya? Back to back posts for me...(that sounds naughty)...anyway, I am outtie for a few days...

hugz
me
 
Yeah, yeah, yeah...I'm still here. I just wanted you to do back to back posts.. ;)

It was just a busy weekend and didnt have much time to post. I'm very interested in your husband's story on his gaining it back. i can probably say that gaining the weigh back is my worst fear. How long did he keep the weight off and how long did it take to put back on? Did he completely just stop working out and eating healthy?


On a side note, the weekend went well. we had a great mothers day cookout and the whole family came over. I actually ate ribs for the first time in two years. Not the best cut of meat but i enjoyed them. I actually ate really well yesterday and by well i mean bad. Ribs, good beer, and birthday cake for desert. In the past i would have freaked out but loking at the big picture it's just one day in the rest of my life.

How do I move on? I get back to my regular routine. The gym, healthy eating and move around during the day. This will put me back on my game and yesterday will not effect me at all.

Stayed up late last night and watched some crazy sports here in beantown. Celtics won at the buzzer, Sox won in the 9th inning and the Bruins kicked some arse. Hopefully thay can all keep it going.

Everyone enjoy the day!!!

Matt
 
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