LynnZs Diary

So sorry to hear your husband is going be away for that long!
Please take care of yourself, my thoughts go out to you.
 
I'm sorry to hear your hubby's tour has been extended. =( My hubby is no longer military, but when he extended from 12 mos to 24 mos in Okinawa (when we were dating and he was a marine) it was killer for me!

We are here for ya!
 
i live in killeen, tx and if anyone knows army stuff, they know that's where fort hood is. we send out troops by the hundred thousands. pretty much the largest majority of troops are sent out from here.

my point is that i understand. i see it everyday. my kids are 90% military kids, so i can't tell you how many moms and dads are in iraq, and how many teacher's husband's are in iraq. my really, really good friend's hubby is there now, and she just got the same news as you. they recently had their first baby. he missed the baby's first christmas, will miss his 1st birthday, and because of this extension, he will miss his 2nd christmas as well.

i am so sorry you are having to deal with this. being an army wife is one of the hardest jobs of all!
 
I would quote each one of you...but I decided to just say Thank you to you all in one post.

Your support and prayers REALLY mean alot to me.

This is a really tough time we're going through right now. So many things have just been changed and my life is really rocky right now. I now have no clue when I'll move back to Hawaii and I have no clue when I'll see my husband again. That being said...I'm numb...which is actually better than being pissed at the world...so maybe thats a sign of me doing a bit better today.

I REFUSE to let this ruin my health and diet!! I could not eat yesterday...I even tempted myself with pizza and thought I would be sick. I ended up eating a bowl of cereal for lunch a handful of raisins and a bit of tuna for dinner. I took an ambien and crashed last night...it was nice to finally get a bit of sleep. I'm still not hungry this morning...I took my vitamins and packed a bag of cereal to munch on for breakfast...but I havent been able to bring myself to eat it this morning. I know this cant be good...my metabolism is going to crash I'm sure...but if you cant eat...you just cant...forcing myself to eat only makes me feel sick....funny the way emotions, stress, nerves and something major changing in your life effects your appetite. **sigh**
Well, hopefully I'll be around a bit more today. I'm going to a dinner tonight to hear Obama speak...eh' dont know how much I like the guy, but I'm sure it will be interesting to hear anyone that thinks he is good enough to run this country speak.

Once again: THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU for your prayers and support.
 
Hey there,
Sounds like you're doing a little better, try to take it one step at a time. I cant even imagine what this must feel like!
Hope you find Obama interesting.
Remember we are all here for you!
 
LynnZ said:
I would quote each one of you...but I decided to just say Thank you to you all in one post.

Your support and prayers REALLY mean alot to me.

This is a really tough time we're going through right now. So many things have just been changed and my life is really rocky right now. I now have no clue when I'll move back to Hawaii and I have no clue when I'll see my husband again. That being said...I'm numb...which is actually better than being pissed at the world...so maybe thats a sign of me doing a bit better today.

I REFUSE to let this ruin my health and diet!! I could not eat yesterday...I even tempted myself with pizza and thought I would be sick. I ended up eating a bowl of cereal for lunch a handful of raisins and a bit of tuna for dinner. I took an ambien and crashed last night...it was nice to finally get a bit of sleep. I'm still not hungry this morning...I took my vitamins and packed a bag of cereal to munch on for breakfast...but I havent been able to bring myself to eat it this morning. I know this cant be good...my metabolism is going to crash I'm sure...but if you cant eat...you just cant...forcing myself to eat only makes me feel sick....funny the way emotions, stress, nerves and something major changing in your life effects your appetite. **sigh**
Well, hopefully I'll be around a bit more today. I'm going to a dinner tonight to hear Obama speak...eh' dont know how much I like the guy, but I'm sure it will be interesting to hear anyone that thinks he is good enough to run this country speak.

Once again: THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU for your prayers and support.
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Hi Lindsey,

Gosh I am so, so sorry to hear about your husband.. I can't begin to imagine what you are going through right now or how incredibly difficult this ordeal must be for you. I won't go on to offer any cliche advice or counsel because in situations such as these, it just doesnt help. So I will just say I'm really sorry and to please try to take care of yourself. It is okay to fall apart and break down sometimes, my friend- as long as you have people around you to support you and be there to catch you when you fall. We're all here, in one way or another. Take care of yourself and my prayers are with you both. Bec
 
Hi love-

Just wanted to see how you were holding up... Hope you are staying as strong as possible and have at least managed to eat again.. I'm here for support if you need me:)
 
Hey girl,
Just remember, take it one day at a time - that's all you can do.
Many hugs,
 
Hang in there Lynn.

Shit happens. I just made a rather lengthy post about this in my journal. I suggest you read it, maybe it will help a little. I lost one of my best friends in a car accident last week. That smells like "shit" to me, right? Haha.

But the idea is, you really have to direct your focus. And doing so, take a lot of effort. However, thinking of things like:

I love my husband and he loves me, no matter what.

I still have my health, and am working on improving my physique. I am lucky enough to be able to do so.

The sun is shining today.

I don't care how in depth or how simplistic the item you direct your focus on is. If it helps you feel a little better, it is great.

People crash and burn when they can't get a grip on their focus. Shit happens and they put major emphasis and all of their concentration on the bad. This leads to stagnation, or even worse, back-tracking. Be strong, Lynn. You CAN overcome this obstacle, as hard as it seems.

Thinking of you.
 
Steve said:
Hang in there Lynn.

Shit happens. I just made a rather lengthy post about this in my journal. I suggest you read it, maybe it will help a little. I lost one of my best friends in a car accident last week. That smells like "shit" to me, right? Haha.

But the idea is, you really have to direct your focus. And doing so, take a lot of effort. However, thinking of things like:

I love my husband and he loves me, no matter what.

I still have my health, and am working on improving my physique. I am lucky enough to be able to do so.

The sun is shining today.

I don't care how in depth or how simplistic the item you direct your focus on is. If it helps you feel a little better, it is great.

People crash and burn when they can't get a grip on their focus. Shit happens and they put major emphasis and all of their concentration on the bad. This leads to stagnation, or even worse, back-tracking. Be strong, Lynn. You CAN overcome this obstacle, as hard as it seems.

Thinking of you.
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I'm going to read your post in your diary now...I just wanted to leave a response here really quickly, first thank you for your support and prayers, again. I really appreciate everyone that has been leaving me messages of support. Second, thats exactly what I've learned, to take it one day at a time and try and focus on the positive. The first night I found out about the extension I was upset and full of negative emotions. I'm still a bit depressed and if I think about it long enough I know it will get me down...but I try to think about the good as soon as I feel depression creeping in. I made a list of the pros....of course they obviously dont compare to having my husband home...but I'm trying. I have it taped to my computer.

This weekend was actually productive...I tried to start as many home projects as I could...to keep busy. I bought a new lawnmower ( a sweet little troy-built) :) and I finally purchased the 18volt Drill and Drill bit set I've been wanting. I decided I'm going to build cabinets for my kitchen so I also purchased two new saws :) I purchased another set of blinds for one of my bedrooms and hung those yesterday :) (I just HAD to Have the nice wooden blinds, so I've only been able to purchase a set of blinds every few pay days). I was able to fix my fence, get my bird feeder hung and plant a few flowers. I spent over $500 dollars at Lowes on home things...but one of the pros I have on my list is the extra money we'll have...ugh...still doesnt compare and I would trade it all in for my husband...but whatever.
 
I'm eating again :) On top of my house work...I baked a chicken, so I'll be eating chicken salads for a few nights this week. I took a long nap yesterday and woke up feeling like I just might make it through this deployment. Tonight is my night to run and lift weights...I'm ready to get some frustration out in the weight room.

Oh...I went and listened to Obama speak Friday night. My sisternlaw got tickets to dinner here in Columbia SC and so we went together...it was interesting...I wont say whether or not I'll vote for him, still a little skeptical...but it was nice to hear what somebody has to say that thinks he is good enough to run this country. The dinner took the time slot that I usually set aside to run on fridays...so I didnt get my run in...I'm hopeing all of the housework burnt off the calories that my run usually does ;)

So I'll start my eating diary up once again...


Breakfast: Cup of kashi cereal, cup of skim milk.

Snack: carrots, raisins, and a few sunflower seeds.

Lunch: Chicken Salad, (spring mix, baked chicken, fat free cheddar cheese, lowfat honey mustard)

Snack: Raisins, 2 flax seed cookies, and carrots.

Dinner: Cup of Kashi Cereal, cup of skim milk, a few raisins and sunflower seeds and a bite of creamed spinach.


I dont know why...but I'm on some sort of raisin kick...a month or so ago it was peanut butter...I couldnt get enough of it...now its raisins...funny thing is I used to hate peanut butter AND raisins....I know raisins arent as bad as a candy bar....but they are full of sugar!! Yikes...any healthy suggestions to keep me from munching on them???
 
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glad to hear you have your appetite back!!!

i would love to hear obama speak. my boyfriend is becoming a big fan of his, so it would be really neat to learn more about him.
 
I thought I would share a few pics...I havent done that yet....


This was actually the first time I smiled after learning about the extension...

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This was after the Charelston Bridge run:

http://i11.photobucket.com/albums/a176/LynnzClaire/100_1512.jpg


I'll eventually get around to posting before and afters.
 
Lynn, those pictures are both adorable!

But I have to ask - what IS that plant life coming through the car???
:D
 
M2M said:
Lynn, those pictures are both adorable!

But I have to ask - what IS that plant life coming through the car???
:D
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LoL...my sister in law just HAD to HAVE these blasted palm leaves we saw on the side of the road!! Somebody had trimmed their tree and thrown the leaves to the side...she thought they would be cool...whatever, lol...they were over 8ft tall...she drives a honda accord...so the only way to get them...yep you guessed, through the sun roof, lol.
We got a bunch of strange looks...but it made me laugh...so it wasnt sooo bad.
 
great pictures! im just imagining you driving down the road with all those leaves sticking out of the car rofl :D
So pleased your sounding better, hang in there :)
 
Glad you're feeling a bit better! Very nice pictures--you're beautiful!

My boyfriend spent the weekend camping with his foster brother--the one who's been in Iraq for the army for a few years, and decided to renew his stint for another 5 years. Well they had a lot of fun in Yosemite! They were very pleased to spend time together--and I'm happy for them!
 
Great pics Lindsey! I'm so impressed with how well you are handling things, all things considered. Take care and keep smiling:)
 
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