Lucy's Diary

I must have a really bad case of Monday-itis today... Went outside to walk to work and it was raining, so ran to grab my umbrella- which hasn't been used for many many months- and opened it and it fell to bits. All this metal fell out of it... So it's safe to say I was fairly damp by the time I got here. Been a pretty busy day which would normally be a good thing but I developed the worst headache after about an hour of being here, and the owner has been driving us all insane. I'm normally the most patient person in the world, but feel really short tempered today and trying sooo hard not to snap and walk out! I need a new job. Would absolutely LOVE to go home but of course we just don't have the staff to cover me. Heaven forbid any of us had something contagious and weren't allowed to come in! Me= angry!!!
Food has been exactly to plan, had a plum instead of a kiwifruit as the supermarket didn't have any.

I just want to go home and curl up in a ball!!
 
I just want to go home and curl up in a ball!!

^^I'm at home and I feel like this! I'm sorry to hear about how your day went....but I think the umbrella fell to pieces so that you wouldn't bash the owner over the head with it many times :smash:

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Thanks Xenon... might have to agree with you there!! Had the worst sugar cravings all day too so been battling with myself- I KNOW it's just because I'm tired and in a crap mood and I'm not actually hungry.

Home now, the walk made me feel a bit better and I was happy to come home to the rest of the homemade pizza... was soooooooooooooooooooooooo good :D I'm starting to feel human again.
 
Morning all!! Going to make this short n sweet, running a bit late this morning!! Got to the gym just before 6 and jumped on a treadmill for my warmup, waiting for the trainer to get in... he rocked up at 6:15, said his alarm hadn't gone off. So had a very painful session AFTER 20mins of jogging lol. Made me run a bit behind, but it's all good!!

Todays plan:
Pre-gym snack: Cottage cheese on 4 vita weats, protein shake with skim milk
Breakfast: Scrambled eggs with 2 eggs, skim milk, 1 tablespoon butter (estimate, probably less) and 2 pieces of toast
Snack: Banana, fruity oat bar
Lunch: Sandwich with wholemeal grain, cheese, tomato, 1 cup spinach
Snack: 1/4 rockmelon, prune and zucchini muffin
Dinner: Teriyaki stir fry with heart smart veal and thin egg noodles

Exercise is 20min jog, 30min sessioin with the trainer, 30 min walk to work, then 2.5hrs of dancing tonight (yes we are going- Wade is coming home from work with me and we are going from my place so NO EXCUSES lol. Also means I'm not walking home which I'm ok with cuz doing SOOO much exercise today)

Feeling a lot better today too, I think I was just really tired... went to bed just after 8pm last night and got up at 5:30 this morning for the gym. Was tired when I went in but I'm always a lot more awake leaving lol. ANYHOO, off to work I go... :D

Ps- I'm so proud of myself for not having junk food yesterday when my body was SCREAMING for it!! I know I would've woken up feeling disgusting. Maybe that's why I felt rank yesterday, all the crap I ate on Sunday...
 
Ps- I'm so proud of myself for not having junk food yesterday when my body was SCREAMING for it!!

I am so proud of you also Luz! This is something I am dealing with on a constant basis lately. I think you are right about the cravings in regards to being tired...when I am well rested I do not even think of junk!

I love reading about your workouts! You are doing an awesome job with your fitness :hurray: and I am thrilled to hear that you are feeling better!

I hope you and wade have fun tonight :D
 
yay me too! Hehe we're both mega pumped for it! Going to be long day for me though, got up at 5.30 for the gym and dancing doesn't finish til 10... Plus its a few suburbs over so won't be home till 10:30ish! I can safely say I won't be doing any extra exercise tomorrow :)
 
Home from work with Wade :D Ate 2 vita weats and a bit of cottage cheese while I was cooking my stir fry, had some extra cals to make up. Still got a heap of water to get through too- might do that now before I go out dancing so I'm not peeing every two secs lol.
AHHHH Wade did a very embaressing drive by of my gym while I was in the car!! I don't know if he meant to go slow passed it- but he did- and he was checking someone out and I looked up... he was perving on my fricken trainer! And he looked out cuz Wade was driving so slowly!!! I sooooo hope he didn't see me, how embaressing!!!!!! :blush5:

Dancing in 2 hours- YAY!!!!!!!!!!!! :hurray::hurray:
 
WOW and OMG :sifone: Dancing last night was the most fun ever. Like ever EVER!! Wade and I both had so much fun!!! We were told it was one of the quiestest nights they've ever had though- there was a storm last night with heaps of rain and gail force winds so not many people ventured out... but we refused to once again not go. Was SO worth it!! :D If you're actually wondering what kind of dancing it is, this is the website: It has a quick description on the homepage.

Finished really well with my calories yesterday too, was really hard to calculate the amount burned but was somewhere around 3273 according to fitday, and I ate 2236 so 1037 deficit. I actually thought I'd wake up feeling bloated from eating so much but must've been right- woke up starving with my stomach flat against my spine :smilielol5: It was all healthy yesterday though!!!

I'm going to work in a good mood today- we trialed a new staff member yesterday that we really liked and she starts today!!! Hooray, less pressure on us!! AND we share a lot of the same interests... she's just completed a degree in nutrition and was thinking about doing fitness. Should become really good friends with her- she'll keep me healthy :smilielol5: Kidding, she's actually really nice. I'm still looking for another job though... I think it'll be easier on me to work in the city if I'm studying in the city, just because I can then actually do some shifts after classes as well. I know that's a few months off but that's probably how long it'll take to get a job!!
Also Wade is taking about 3 weeks off in June for his surgery... but just over a week of that is before. We were thinking of going to Melbourne for a few days!! I got really excited but doubt we can get time off together at the same time. I REALLY want to go!! And I should be around my 62.5kg mark by then, for which the reward is a weekend away... More incentive perhaps?? :D

Todays plan:
Breakfast: Tuna quesadilla
Snack: Banana, fruity oat slice
Lunch: Wholemeal grain sandwich with cheese, tomato, spinach (I think this has become a staple lol)
Snack: 1/4 rockmelon, homemade blueberry muffin
Dinner: Leftover veal teriyaki stir fry with egg noodles

Exercise is just the usual 1hr walk after yesterday was so full on!! Depending on how I feel after work I might try that kundalini yoga dvd.

SO excited about weigh in tomorrow, I know it's unlikely I would've reached 67.5 after overeating the other day... but I'll come close with a 6000 cal deficit this week!!! I know I've lost too, I can really feel it! My waist suddenly got more defined this week too :) My skincare won't arrive this week anyway, apparently one of the products I ordered is temporarily out of stock so have to wait for it to get in. Boo!! Anything below 68kg will put me in the 140s though :D Happy hump day everyone!!!! (Sorry for the novel)
 
Good luck on your weigh in - although you work so hard you don't need luck! I'm glad your mood has changed this week - it's always easier to work out and eat healthy when you are feeling great! And then the cycle goes on! Have a great day!
 
YAY so I have good news this morning :) Stepped on the scales to... *DRUMROLL*... 67.8kg, yay!! I actually worked out that with that one day I overate, that's what I'd weigh... so my calorie counting is fairly accurate! :smilielol5: That puts me at 149.4lbs... So I'm in the 140s!!!! :hurray: Also my BMI is now well into the 23s.... :party:

So I'm in a good mood today already :D I'm going to push myself again this week, going to be WELL passed the 1/4 way mark by next week! Hopefully my reward for getting there will be here by then too lol.

Todays plan:
Breakfast: 2 pieces of wholemeal grain toast with 2 scrambled eggs made with skim milk and cooked in butter
Snack: Banana, fruity oat bar
Lunch: Wholemeal grain sandwich with cheese and 1 cup spinach (my tomatoes ran out! grr)
Snack: 1 kiwifruit, homemade choc almond honey bran muffin
Dinner: Nandos Classic Burger (hot)

Exercise: 1hr walk and 1hr gym session tonight (which is REALLY going to hurt- I have the sorest abs and triceps from what he made me do on Tuesday!!)

Happy Thursday to all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 
My good day ended as soon as Wade showed up for work today. He obviously hadn't slept and he was upset... He had a doctors appointment yesterday, and his cancer has gotten much worse. They found more lumps in his liver and it may have spread to his bones- we find out Monday. I started to cry but really have to be strong for him... Have the worst headache now though and all this tension in my neck and shoulders. He's going to stay with me a few days over the weekend.
It hit me really hard- Jamie found out he had bone cancer shortly before he took his own life. I know Wade is a completely different person and his situation is much different but I definitely felt the panic hit me.

I guess before I would use this as an excuse to go on a food rampage, but I'm determined to not let my current position in life reflect on how I eat. How can I be strong for him if I can't even be strong for me?
 
:grouphug: I'm very sorry to hear this news Luz :grouphug: The aunt I love the most had cancer so I know how tough it is. You cannot imagine how much I really love her. OMG I'm crying...ok I'll go now, but I just wanted to tell you to make sure you have a way to express your hurt...sometimes when we are weakest is when we are strongest. :grouphug:
 
:grouphug: Thanks Xe, and thanks for sharing... you're a sweetheart :grouphug:

Last night didn't finish greatly unfortunately... my husband was home 2hrs later than what he said he'd be, so I was STARVING... ended up eating the rest of my WW chocolate icecream bars (5!!!!) and like 7 pieces of toast!!! It was a frustrated/angry bored. Still ate under maintenance, had like a 270 deficit... but woke up feeling blah. GOT to stick to my deficit for the rest of the week, determined to get down to at LEAST 67kg by next Thurs! I should be able to do it if yesterday is the only day I overeat on.
Was soooo tempted to skip the gym too, forced myself to go and found out that everyone was pretty damaged as well... the two girls that have been there every week, 1 was on hols and 1 was sick... another had a skin condition she was on heavy meds for and wasn't allowed to get hot... the other two were normal... and the trainer hurt himself wrestling that day, he bust his cheek open and smashed his elbow and had a cold. So we were a very miserable group. I had a horrible headache going in and my neck started to get really sore too, the trainer actually gave me a really weird massage afterwards to release the toxins from the lymph nodes under my jaw. Felt a lot better after that.
Had a really disturbed sleep though, just had trouble turning off everything in my head. I guess it's going to be like that until Monday when we get results... Wade is coming to stay Sat and Sun night so I can distract him :) Going to a housewarming and out clubbing on Sat, might hit the casino Sunday and watch movies. I'm doing a massive heap of baking on Saturday too to distract myself... I'm baking brownies, florentines, blueberry muffins, oaty fruit bars, and I'm thinking of making banana bread as well :D Of course I'll package it all separately and freeze it in bulk. Just need some more variety in my snacks, also a wider range of calorie counts to make it easier to plan out my food days. Plus I just love baking :D

Todays plan:
Breakfast: Tuna quesadilla
Snack: Banana, Veri Deli sesame & roasted onion crackers- 12
Lunch: Wholemeal grain sandwich with cheese, tomato, spinach
Snack: 1 Kiwifruit, prune and zucchini loaf
Dinner: Nandos classic chicken burger (hot)

Yes dinner will happen tonight, Ash has the day off so will get him to pick it up when I'm on my way home from work.

Exercise will just be my 1 hr walk.

:party: Hooray for Fridays!! I actually have this weekend off!!! :party:
 
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Helllllo Hellllo Gorgeous!!! Wow!!! Talk about Inspirationnnnnn!!! That's YOU!! Congrat's on the NEW LOSS!!! Woohoooo!!! 140's OoouUuuUu!!! I'm coming for you too woman!! I'm excited for your routine.

I just got off the treadmill and walked my FIRM (super soon to be) lol...AAAASSSSS!!! ...Keep me in line there missy!!!...You shake it a little...and I'll shake it right after ya!!! WoooohhoooO!!!! ( I really mean BOUNCE it all around until you can't get DOWN!) ...for some reason, I love it when I can barely sit. LOL!!!

.....Today will be day 5 of consistency for me!!! (as long as I workout when I wake up or at lunch!) hahah....BUT I willllll....so "What have YOU done today to make YOU feel PROUD!?!?!" huh!?!?!?!?????????/

Love your attitude too!!!
 
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I love the casino! Your weekend sounds like it will be fun! Freeze those brownies right away! Just the smell of them would be too much for me and I would want to eat the whole pan! Your very determined to be able to do all that baking and still be losing weight every week! I'm taking a page from your life and kicking butt this week! I love your motivation and it's really inspiring - keep it up!! Have a great weekend!
 
Alta- thanks for dropping by and adding colour to my page!! :sifone:

Chubbygirl- I LOVE baking... have baked my whole life. I love making up recipes or changing traditional ones into healthier versions. My mum used to do the same thing! I love doing it with cooking too. There's a way to have everything you want to eat without all the calories :D It does of course mean that anything I bake more than once tastes completely different each time lol. Haven't had a proper disaster yet though!! I think I'd rather get my chocolate fix from a homemade brownie that's properly portioned than run the risk of bringing home a block of chocolate. What can I say- my freezer is always chockers!!

Did the shopping this week too on that Thursday when I felt like crap... walked around and dumped a lot of random stuff in my trolley lol. Glad I did though, I got flavoured crackers and stuff that actually taste good!! Bought some ziplock bags and portioned everything so I know exactly how many calories in each bag. It only took like 5 mins :D Very proud of myself.

I finished yesterday really well, ate healthy all day and actually had a slightly less disturbed sleep. I have this weekend off, SOOO glad for the break!

Todays plan:
Breakfast- Wholemeal grain toast with smoked salmon and 2 eggs
Snack: Banana bread (ooo this will be fresh from the oven- baking it straight after brekki!!!)
Lunch: Soft rye wrap with 97%ff ham, tomato, 1 cup spinach
Snack: Homemade brownie (come on, gotta try my baking to make sure it came out all good!)
Dinner: Roast chicken with mixed veg.

Exercise today will be my 30min gym sesh with the trainer, and I might go for a walk later... if I do I'll be adding something else to my afternoon snack.

Have an awesome weekend everyone, will check in a bit later!!
 
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I know Sunday is usually my 'free' food day (sticking to my calories but eating whatever lol) but today has kind of ended up like that... but that's ok, just means tomorrow will be a healthy one!!

Stuck to my breakfast, morn tea was wholemeal banana bread (was so good!), then had a brownie just before heading to my training sesh... then when I got back had a piece of angel food cake and 2 ww double choc sundaes lol. Have just enough cals for roast chicken tonight then that's it!! I'm ok with that though. When I'm a little less full I'm going to have a shot at that yoga dvd finally- Ash bought me a yoga mat, yay!

I had a 'me' moment this morning (like a blonde moment but usually only something stupid enough that I'd do it) I was baking baking baking, was halfway through making cake and was like 'Oh shit, out of vanilla essence!' So grabbed my bag, raced out the door and over the road to the deli, got some, all good, got home... then looked in the mirror to see I'd gone out covered in flour :biggrinjester:
 
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