Telling my sister
Warning - this post has pretty much nothing to do with food or exercise or fitness or anything. Just a bit of life stuff. I think it's my first post like this, so please forgive me!
So my sister and I have such an incredibly close relationship, and it is so difficult for us to be apart from each other. We have always been really close, and only really ever fought about the washing up (we both wanted to wash). Our relationship kind of reached a different level when she suffered for five years with Hodgkin's Lymphoma - I was eighteen and she nineteen. (funnily enough, this was also the period where I put on about 35 kilos and developed fibromyalgia... stressed much?)She has always said that I was the only one that really GOT it. That really udnerstood her during this process. And that I will now forever be the only person that really knows the ins and outs of her, through everything. (I'm crying like an idiot, by the way). Saying that, she is always my big sister, and always looks after me still. She sees through me if I say things are fine and they aren't - she just gets me.
So telling her that we're planning on having babies so far away from her is really hard.
I wouldn't tell her at all - wouldn't tell anyone - but she is a naturopath. I've spent ages on the net doing research on how to prepare my body, what I should and shouldn't do, vitamins to take etc. And it is completely ridiculous, because this has been what she does for a job for, like, ten years. This is her area.
After talking with my man abotu it, we decided we should just bite the bullet and ask her about it. Just make sure she doesn't tell my parents anything yet
So I just called her and talked to her, and I was such an idiot. I just pretty much broke down crying straight away which made her panic and think that something is wrong, when really it is the complete opposite. I just worry so much that my decisions will cause her any amount of pain or sadness.
But she was great, of course. Really excited, and told me to stop being a total idiot and worrying about everyone else so much. I should just worry about myself and my man being happy and nothing else matters as much as that. That she will always be there and me being happy is the thing that will make her the happiest in the world. So now she wants me to have ten babies.
Realllllly bloody hard conversation though. Surprised me how upset it's made me.