AI've been avoiding this site...

but the time has come to take control again.
I really want to be so healthy right now, but I'm really struggling, because IF I manage to find tome to eat, it will be something crappy and instant. And comfort food. I should be being so healthy right now, but that requires a lot more organisation than opening a bag of corn chips. I'm still eating my veggies, but they are all pretty much at dinner time when my hubby is around. when it's just me and Ruben, it's not good. And this isn't good for me with my continued attempts at breastfeeding either!
I've been avoiding you guys because, sadly, I don't know if I WANT to give up the muffins.

But I have to. I have just had a baby seven weeks ago, and theoretically I should be continuing to lose the baby weight ('fluid', right? Ha), but now I've started to gain again. NOT GOOD. This morning I was 98.0kg -- 17kg more than what I was pre baby. I don't FEEL particularly big, though the scales are telling me otherwise, but I do feel unhealthy.
So it's time to gain control again. And this requires organisation. Which will be hard... but I will try. I'm not planning anything drastic, just HEALTHY EATING. I'm getting back into my exercise again slowly, but it would be so much easier if I was a little lighter.
Food diary begins tomorrow. Scary!
Love to you all! And... I HAVE to include a pic of my little boy.
http://weight-loss.fitness.com/image/id/364279/width/350/height/326