AToday I'm still sick. Surprise!
I did get up early and go into the city for my German lesson, because the awesome teacher had an early extension class where we could ask any special questions we had to do with grammar issues. So i just went to that (it was just her, me, and one other student there, so it was hugely beneficial), but came home when the normal class started.
I went to the doctor, a new doctor, who is
SO MUCH BETTER than the last one I was seeing. She felt so sorry for me being sick again, coughing like a man-woman and having this major pelvic/back pain, and she spent such a long time with me. She tested for everything, which makes me feel a lot better, just knowing that it has all been checked out, and not just 'well you're pregnant, it happens'. I've been worried because (this is stupid) I have been waking up at night drenched in sweat... when during the days I tend to be cold. And that was the only symptom that my sister had before she was diagnosed with Stage 4 Hodgkin's disease (cancer of the lymphatic system). So... yeah. It was nice just to get everything checked. I'm all good, and it's just that 'I'm pregnant and it happens'. ha.
She did give me some new things to try though. She also made an appointment for me at the chiropractor and the accupuncturist, and when she heard that I needed a new gynaecologist, she spent ages with me talking about what I want, waht I need, what my insurance covers, and booked me in to see
THE HEAD GYNAECOLOGIST IN THE HOSPITAL THAT I'M GOING TO GIVE BIRTH IN! Which is totally awesome.
love it when people help me!
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FOOD TODAY My morning was bad. I can't hide it. Not every day is a good day.
-3 slices multigrain bread with 2 eggs and a slice of cheese
-2 small blueberry muffins (yes, two)
-1/2 frozen pizza
(here is where I tried to get healthy)
- 2 fresh pineapple rings (yum!)
- moroccan chicken tagine (so good! I haven't made this in ages! with lots of lemon, cinnamon, ginger, cumin, saffrom.. mmm) with salad and a little brown rice.
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Tete - hahaha
You make me laugh. Especially because right now I'm trying out some of the relaxation methods from hypnobirthing (have you heard of it?) and so much of it is about 'surrounding yourself with positive birth stories', using words like 'pressure' instead of 'pain', etc. and then
haha I get on here and read your post. As long as you don't start giving me horror stories full of gore and with sad endings, then I am all ears. It was just hilarious timing, that's all.
I can't WAIT to hold my little bean... I wish he/she was ready already!
Kate - you TOTALLY make sense! And it absolutely is logical that a more confident physical you is melding into you being more self-confident in all aspects of your life! How awesome is that.
And it is really cool that, along with that, there is less worry about what everyone else thinks all the time. This is the state that I one day hope to be in! Like those women who are 75 years old and go to the beach with their hair in hilarious pink bobbly swimming caps... I can't wait until that's me.
You are right for tut-tutting me about not talking to dunc about all my worries, but seriously, he has not been home! And when he is home, he will be here for half an hour before he falls asleep. So I don't want to be that wife that you come home to who then starts to nit-pick with you about all the things you are doing wrong and that you should be doing. I want him to WANT to come home, you know? So when he was finallyhere with me for longer than an hour, I was able to talk to him properly. Haha - mum's are great for things like that, eh? I remember that my mum used to say exactly the same thing - 'you look like death warmed up!' and then she'd give me a panadol and send me to school.
Jess - I KNOW! Breakfast in bed, how lovely! It's a rare treat for me
And the fact that he actually managed to COOK something, and that it wasn't just a bowl of cereal, was a really big deal! hahaha.
Thanks for saying I look pretty in my photo. You're a sweetie. Also, with my curries, they are usually my quick-fix dinners! I loooove them and have them all the time! If it's a thai curry, it's always with lite coconut milk and just some curry paste from the jar (it takes a while to find the one you like), with lots of chopped up veg and stuff, then cook it down for at least 1/2 an hour. YUM! And I also have so many different jars of Patak's Curry Paste, most of which I use a spoonful of paste with my meat and onion at the beginning until the meat it brown, then I add a tin of chopped tomatoes. Usually near the end I put in loads of chopped spinach too. They are the easiest dinners. My friend and I are curry maniacs, and I spent many years learning how to make fantastic curries from scratch, which I still sometimes do, but it's so quick and easy with a paste!
Cate - Yes, you are right about the fact that men, or at least mine, don't seem to pick up on my stress until I am a complete basket case. I just HATE being a whinger! And like I said above to Kate, I really want him to feel like he loves coming home at night, and that it is a retreat for him, not that he comes home and is made to feel bad when I know he works so hard... and my life is really so great because of all the things he does. I don't want to be that person. It's a tough balance. I think it was just because he went snowboarding allllll weekend too, and he was working late so many nights... which isn't the norm. I can't believe that, for all this time,you didn't know I had Fibromyalgia! That blows my mind! I figured you knew pretty much everything about me now! haha. And that is one of the big ones! if you are interested, I wrote this blog entry during our big bike trip about doing a cycle tour with fibro, and why I had to quit. http://www.crazyguyonabike.com/doc/page/?o=1&page_id=166601&v=1I Thanks for the angel status. hehe.
I think because, everywhere else except here, I never whinge or whine, so he doesn't really know that I'm struggling. I talked to him the other night about all this (when he came home after 9pm again and didn't tell me until 8 that he wasn't going to be home for dinner when I'd been cooking his fave dinner for hours... and had expected him home at 6...) and I think it kind of hit him hard. He still thinks I can do everything I did before (I can't) and he forgets that I'm in so much pain when I'm walking, or that I'm sick, or that I'm not sleeping, or that having a barney with one of my great friends gets me so upset. And that I need more support than him just coming home for 1/2 and hour in the night before he gets tired and falls asleep on the couch. And then he disappears all weekend (from 5.30am til 8pm both days) to go snowboarding while I'm at home and haven't been able to talk to him about how overwhelmed I've been feeling... 
with kate. Don't wait until you are about to explode before you tell him next time please. Hopefully there won't be a next time. Your emotions are all over the show when you are pregnant & also can be for quite some time after the birth. I mean it's such a huge hormone rush!! Having a baby is almost the most important thing in your life so why wouldn't you need more emotional support? 
you are probably having a tall baby, retaining fluid with your injuries etc................
