Ihaveacupcake
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Oh no! That sucks. Definitely makes life harder, but we can over come it with practice.
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Ihaveacupcake
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Morning
Up at 5, showered, 2 iced coffees and pacing. I weighed myself...134.6. Fml. But I will continue to weigh everyday.
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Paced till 6:30, I stopped once hubs got up. I have 25 mins to chill before getting the kids up for school
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Got kiddos up and fed. Then I had my normal toast at 8. So good. I paced from 8-8:30 then took the kids to school. Yay freedom!
Went to the store to pick up some stuff. 1 being discounted over ripe bananas. I got like 15 of them for $2. I'm gonna use 2 to make banana bread then freeze the rest, and 2 being baking Pam.
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Phew! Busy morning. Got back from the store, took
for a walk, got rained on a little, then did chores and made banana bread. I havent been wanting to make it cuz it's been sticking to my pan, but the kids really miss it.
My banana bread turned out great! Best I've ever made. The baking pam I picked up worked great, nothing stuck to the pan.
I did 10 mins of interval jogging and it was good. I don't really enjoy jogging but my goal is to get fit, and jogging fits that category.
Then I paced starting at 11:15.
Up at 5, showered, 2 iced coffees and pacing. I weighed myself...134.6. Fml. But I will continue to weigh everyday.
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Paced till 6:30, I stopped once hubs got up. I have 25 mins to chill before getting the kids up for school
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Got kiddos up and fed. Then I had my normal toast at 8. So good. I paced from 8-8:30 then took the kids to school. Yay freedom!
Went to the store to pick up some stuff. 1 being discounted over ripe bananas. I got like 15 of them for $2. I'm gonna use 2 to make banana bread then freeze the rest, and 2 being baking Pam.
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Phew! Busy morning. Got back from the store, took
for a walk, got rained on a little, then did chores and made banana bread. I havent been wanting to make it cuz it's been sticking to my pan, but the kids really miss it.My banana bread turned out great! Best I've ever made. The baking pam I picked up worked great, nothing stuck to the pan.
I did 10 mins of interval jogging and it was good. I don't really enjoy jogging but my goal is to get fit, and jogging fits that category.
Then I paced starting at 11:15.
Ihaveacupcake
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Afternoon
At noon I had 2 eggs and half a deli meat sandwich. I've decided to keep 1500 cals a day since I'm really active. I'm starving on 1200, I need more food.
Then I listened to true crime for a while, I forgot how much I love them!
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Then I paced for a while.
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Picked up the kids, came home and did some reading. Then it was snack time. I had a big chocolate chip cookie, it fits in my calories....and I had a hoot
hope hubs isn't late today.
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Holy! It's 5:10 and I have 34.5k steps!
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I started supper at 5:45 and hubs got home at 6. Supper was sausages, perogies (none for me) and broccoli. It was good.
Then I did dishes, made lunches and prepped coffee. Then I made a rash decision and said to my hubs that I am reducing my olanzopene again. From 10mg to 5mg. Then I started questioning myself... but I'll give it a go. Oh I also had a hoot and am happily stoned.
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Got kiddos in bed, had another hoot, had a rice cake, then window shopped some clothes.
Ended with 35.7k steps. Uhg, it doesn't even feel like that much to me, so what am I going to do?
At noon I had 2 eggs and half a deli meat sandwich. I've decided to keep 1500 cals a day since I'm really active. I'm starving on 1200, I need more food.
Then I listened to true crime for a while, I forgot how much I love them!
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Then I paced for a while.
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Picked up the kids, came home and did some reading. Then it was snack time. I had a big chocolate chip cookie, it fits in my calories....and I had a hoot
hope hubs isn't late today.----------
Holy! It's 5:10 and I have 34.5k steps!
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I started supper at 5:45 and hubs got home at 6. Supper was sausages, perogies (none for me) and broccoli. It was good.
Then I did dishes, made lunches and prepped coffee. Then I made a rash decision and said to my hubs that I am reducing my olanzopene again. From 10mg to 5mg. Then I started questioning myself... but I'll give it a go. Oh I also had a hoot and am happily stoned.
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Got kiddos in bed, had another hoot, had a rice cake, then window shopped some clothes.
Ended with 35.7k steps. Uhg, it doesn't even feel like that much to me, so what am I going to do?
Ihaveacupcake
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Forgot to post yesterday. Basically I got chores done, worked out, 20 mins pilates and my upper body with 10 lbs, painted my nails, took a long 1.5 hr nap and listened to true crime. I forgot how much I love true crime.
MIL came over for supper so she picked up the kids.
Supper was meatloaf, mashed potatoes (just a spoonful) and veggies.
Got cleaned up, made lunches and prepped coffee. Then we played card game as a family.
MIL left, got the kids in bed then bed myself.
MIL came over for supper so she picked up the kids.
Supper was meatloaf, mashed potatoes (just a spoonful) and veggies.
Got cleaned up, made lunches and prepped coffee. Then we played card game as a family.
MIL left, got the kids in bed then bed myself.
bluehat
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Ihaveacupcake
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Morning
I have a cold and I woke up a couple of times at 2 and 2:15am. I took some cough syrup and slept on the couch till 5. Then I had my everything shower, 2 iced coffees and began pacing at 5:30. I'm so tired and my throat hurts. I should go back to bed but steps are more important.
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Paced for 2.5 hrs! Then my legs became tired so I had brekky a little early. I had oatmeal this morning with extra cinnamon.
Then kids got up and I made chocolate chip pancakes for them. While they ate, I'm started laundry and cleaned kitty litter.
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Hubs got up at 9 and I sat with him in silence. He's not a morning person lol.
Then I did dishes, switched laundry around and hung out with my hubs.
Then I took a nap.
I have a cold and I woke up a couple of times at 2 and 2:15am. I took some cough syrup and slept on the couch till 5. Then I had my everything shower, 2 iced coffees and began pacing at 5:30. I'm so tired and my throat hurts. I should go back to bed but steps are more important.
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Paced for 2.5 hrs! Then my legs became tired so I had brekky a little early. I had oatmeal this morning with extra cinnamon.
Then kids got up and I made chocolate chip pancakes for them. While they ate, I'm started laundry and cleaned kitty litter.
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Hubs got up at 9 and I sat with him in silence. He's not a morning person lol.
Then I did dishes, switched laundry around and hung out with my hubs.
Then I took a nap.
Ihaveacupcake
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Ive been sick all weekend. It's 8:15pm and I still feel like 
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So I'm bored of pilates so I'm going to bust out my 5lb weights and do this video, twice for a total of 20 mins
Also, I have a goal of jogging for 20 mins. So as long as I'm feeling OK tomorrow, I'm going to jog for 5 mins for 2 weeks, then increase it to 7, then 9 etc.
Ive been playing around with how many calories I should have, 1200-1300 or 1500-1600. I do get 20k+ steps a day and burn around 2000-2200. So I think 1500-1600, with 60g protein.
Yay for a new plan!
. So I'm bored of pilates so I'm going to bust out my 5lb weights and do this video, twice for a total of 20 mins
Also, I have a goal of jogging for 20 mins. So as long as I'm feeling OK tomorrow, I'm going to jog for 5 mins for 2 weeks, then increase it to 7, then 9 etc.
Ive been playing around with how many calories I should have, 1200-1300 or 1500-1600. I do get 20k+ steps a day and burn around 2000-2200. So I think 1500-1600, with 60g protein.
Yay for a new plan!
Ihaveacupcake
Active member
Morning
Up at 5, showered, cbd hoot, iced coffees and pacing.
I still don't want to workout, but, I will. I will continue on with pilates. We bought me a yoga mat and ankle weights and I don't want them to go to waste. I hate wasting money. So I will jog first then do pilates.
Hubs got up at 5:30, guess he has to go to work early. I didn't ask if I could pace, I just continued on.
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Hubs left at 6:30. Then I got the kids up at 7, poor youngest kid, he's sick still. He was sick all weekend, so he's staying home.
Finished my before school routine by 8, had oatmeal for brekky and continued pacing till 8:30, then took the kids to school.
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Got home and started some chores. Then I did my 5 min jog on the treadmill, well 3 mins, 45 sec break the jog. I'm outta shape lol.
A couple more chores then I baked banana bread and did dishes. Then I had a pb+j sandwich for lunch.
Up at 5, showered, cbd hoot, iced coffees and pacing.
I still don't want to workout, but, I will. I will continue on with pilates. We bought me a yoga mat and ankle weights and I don't want them to go to waste. I hate wasting money. So I will jog first then do pilates.
Hubs got up at 5:30, guess he has to go to work early. I didn't ask if I could pace, I just continued on.
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Hubs left at 6:30. Then I got the kids up at 7, poor youngest kid, he's sick still. He was sick all weekend, so he's staying home.
Finished my before school routine by 8, had oatmeal for brekky and continued pacing till 8:30, then took the kids to school.
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Got home and started some chores. Then I did my 5 min jog on the treadmill, well 3 mins, 45 sec break the jog. I'm outta shape lol.
A couple more chores then I baked banana bread and did dishes. Then I had a pb+j sandwich for lunch.
Ihaveacupcake
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Afternoon
After lunch I hung out with my sick kid for a bit then worked out. I started on that dumbell video but quickly decided against it. I put on my ankle weights and did pilates instead. And I'm glad I did! I loooooved it today. It gives me a slight burn which I love. This is the video
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Then I did a couple more chores. Then I layed on the couch for a while and was in and out of sleep for a couple hours.
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MIL picked up the my non sick kid from school and brought homework home for my sick kid. I struggle to understand the homework of my grade 3 kid
Luckily MIL loves doing homework with my kids so she is doing it while I supervise.
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Phew! That was a lot of homework. All days worth in 1.5hrs. But he was so good and finished everything!
It's 6:00 and hubs isn't home yet hopefully he'll be home within 20 mins, but I doubt it.
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Yay! He got home at 6:15! Then supper was ready and we ate.
Supper was Philly cheesesteak sandwiches with sautéed onions and mozzarella cheese, fries and veggies. Mmm so good!!
So I have decided to stop counting calories and try intuitive eating. I'm going to try having 3 meals and 1 snack a day. I want a healthy relationship with food and treat is at fuel and a treat. For example, MIL brought over freshly baked chocolate chip oatmeal cookies, so of course I had to have one! And it was delicious
. And I'm going to have another one after the kids go to bed.
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Got dishes done with MIL, then we played a family game. It was fun.
MIL left, and I had a hoot, and now I'm anxious over stuff.
My kid joined cross country and I have to drive to 3 different meets at 3 different parks (different days). But I hate driving and it's going to be busy and I'm scared shitless.
I'm freaking out internally and I just don't know if I can do it. May God be with me.
But anyway, pot, I'm going to quit, as much as I love being high, it's a euphoric feeling and cures my depression, but it gives me bad anxiety... and I'm uncomfortable with being high at all now. That's how I stopped doing it during the day, I remembered how uncomfortable I felt. I'll do then same again. If I can quit vaping nicotine, I can quit pot.
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Got kiddos in bed then had a delicious cookie and went to bed.
After lunch I hung out with my sick kid for a bit then worked out. I started on that dumbell video but quickly decided against it. I put on my ankle weights and did pilates instead. And I'm glad I did! I loooooved it today. It gives me a slight burn which I love. This is the video
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Then I did a couple more chores. Then I layed on the couch for a while and was in and out of sleep for a couple hours.
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MIL picked up the my non sick kid from school and brought homework home for my sick kid. I struggle to understand the homework of my grade 3 kid
Luckily MIL loves doing homework with my kids so she is doing it while I supervise.----------
Phew! That was a lot of homework. All days worth in 1.5hrs. But he was so good and finished everything!It's 6:00 and hubs isn't home yet
hopefully he'll be home within 20 mins, but I doubt it....
Yay! He got home at 6:15! Then supper was ready and we ate.
Supper was Philly cheesesteak sandwiches with sautéed onions and mozzarella cheese, fries and veggies. Mmm so good!!
So I have decided to stop counting calories and try intuitive eating. I'm going to try having 3 meals and 1 snack a day. I want a healthy relationship with food and treat is at fuel and a treat. For example, MIL brought over freshly baked chocolate chip oatmeal cookies, so of course I had to have one! And it was delicious
. And I'm going to have another one after the kids go to bed.----------
Got dishes done with MIL, then we played a family game. It was fun.
MIL left, and I had a hoot, and now I'm anxious over stuff.
My kid joined cross country and I have to drive to 3 different meets at 3 different parks (different days). But I hate driving and it's going to be busy and I'm scared shitless.
I'm freaking out internally and I just don't know if I can do it. May God be with me.But anyway, pot, I'm going to quit, as much as I love being high, it's a euphoric feeling and cures my depression, but it gives me bad anxiety... and I'm uncomfortable with being high at all now. That's how I stopped doing it during the day, I remembered how uncomfortable I felt. I'll do then same again. If I can quit vaping nicotine, I can quit pot.
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Got kiddos in bed then had a delicious cookie and went to bed.
Ihaveacupcake
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Morning
Up at 5, 2 iced coffees and pacing. But I only paced till 6. I was so tired, so I took an hr nap at the kitchen table.
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Got kiddos up, and my youngest is still pretty sick, he has a bad cough now, so he'll be staying home again.
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At 8, I had brekky, a pack of oatmeal and half a banana.
I'm having kinda bad anxiety today so far. I hate being alone so I'm struggling during the day. I felt better yesterday once everyone was home. I know my kid is home sick but it's not the same. Gah, I hate anxiety
So to help, I think I'll do my light weight workout for my upper body. This video
My pilates focuses mostly on legs and abs, so I want a good workout for my upper body. I'll do the video twice for a total of 20 mins and I'll use 5lb dumbells. Also I will jog for 5 mins again.
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Dropped my kid off at school, came home and did some chores. Then I went on my treadmill, but only lasted 2 mins jogging lol. So I decided I will go back to interval jogging. This time 1 min jogging and 30 second of walking for 10 mins.
Then I started my workout video but hated it lol, so I just did my own upper body routine, it consisted of
Bicep curls × 10
Shoulder press × 10
Tricep press × 10
Chest flies × 10
Reverse flies × 10
Repeat once more.
I like this better. Then I did dishes and had a nap
Up at 5, 2 iced coffees and pacing. But I only paced till 6. I was so tired, so I took an hr nap at the kitchen table.
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Got kiddos up, and my youngest is still pretty sick, he has a bad cough now, so he'll be staying home again.
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At 8, I had brekky, a pack of oatmeal and half a banana.
I'm having kinda bad anxiety today so far. I hate being alone so I'm struggling during the day. I felt better yesterday once everyone was home. I know my kid is home sick but it's not the same. Gah, I hate anxiety
So to help, I think I'll do my light weight workout for my upper body. This video
My pilates focuses mostly on legs and abs, so I want a good workout for my upper body. I'll do the video twice for a total of 20 mins and I'll use 5lb dumbells. Also I will jog for 5 mins again.
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Dropped my kid off at school, came home and did some chores. Then I went on my treadmill, but only lasted 2 mins jogging lol. So I decided I will go back to interval jogging. This time 1 min jogging and 30 second of walking for 10 mins.
Then I started my workout video but hated it lol, so I just did my own upper body routine, it consisted of
Bicep curls × 10
Shoulder press × 10
Tricep press × 10
Chest flies × 10
Reverse flies × 10
Repeat once more.
I like this better. Then I did dishes and had a nap
Ihaveacupcake
Active member
Morning
Up at 5, showered, cbd hoot, 2 iced coffees and pacing. I paced from 5:15-6:45 and got 8k steps.
Got kiddos up at fed and ready for school. At 8 I had oatmeal and half a banana for brekky. Then I paced for 30 mins.
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Dropped kids off at school, ran an errand, took out for a walk and did some chores. Then I did pilates but skipped the treadmill. Then I did a couple more chores, all while listening to vampire diaries. Then I took a nap.
Up at 5, showered, cbd hoot, 2 iced coffees and pacing. I paced from 5:15-6:45 and got 8k steps.
Got kiddos up at fed and ready for school. At 8 I had oatmeal and half a banana for brekky. Then I paced for 30 mins.
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Dropped kids off at school, ran an errand, took
out for a walk and did some chores. Then I did pilates but skipped the treadmill. Then I did a couple more chores, all while listening to vampire diaries. Then I took a nap.
Ihaveacupcake
Active member
Rant
I feel very mad today. A couple days ago, I heard Charlie Kirk was shot and killed. Yesterday I felt down about it, but today I feel very mad. Why are the leftists so cruel? They didn't like what he had to say, so they just took him out. Stupid evil left people!! Stop trying to make everyone agree with u! I believe the LGBTQ community is 100% wrong, evil and goes against God.
But I still love those who are gay as my neighbor but I am against their actions. But all this gay movement in society is sickening. Stop telling me I HAVE to accept u and your lifestyle, stop telling me to use certain pronouns, I don't tell u to use she/her when referring to me. Just stop the hate!! Charlie Kirk was very opinionated and had strong Christian and political beliefs, but he never called anyone down.
Stupid left people, get a fucking life.
Charlie Kirk was 31 years old. So young! May God be with his family 
I feel very mad today. A couple days ago, I heard Charlie Kirk was shot and killed. Yesterday I felt down about it, but today I feel very mad. Why are the leftists so cruel? They didn't like what he had to say, so they just took him out. Stupid evil left people!! Stop trying to make everyone agree with u! I believe the LGBTQ community is 100% wrong, evil and goes against God.
But I still love those who are gay as my neighbor but I am against their actions. But all this gay movement in society is sickening. Stop telling me I HAVE to accept u and your lifestyle, stop telling me to use certain pronouns, I don't tell u to use she/her when referring to me. Just stop the hate!! Charlie Kirk was very opinionated and had strong Christian and political beliefs, but he never called anyone down.
Stupid left people, get a fucking life.Charlie Kirk was 31 years old. So young!
May God be with his family
Ihaveacupcake
Active member
Morning
Up at 5, showered, 2 iced coffees and pacing.
My weight was 131.8, up 1.2lbs since last week. Fuck. No more overeating. My goal is back to 130 by Tuesday and 129 by next Friday.
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Paced till 6:45. Got kiddos up at 7 and fed. Hubs left for work and I did my morning routine. Started laundry, cleaned kitty litter, packed lunches and brushed teeth. Then I had brekky, oatmeal and half a banana.
Then I paced for 20 mins and then took the kids to school.
Came home, took Bear for a walk, did some chores, then did interval walking on the treadmill for 20 mins. I skipped pilates today. I'm still so mad with Charlie Kirk's death I didn't want to workout. So I laid on the couch, listened to true crime and took a 20 min nap.
Once I woke up, I had an early lunch, a pb+j sandwich, cheese stick and slice of mini banana bread. I'll have my iced coffee later.
My kid joined cross country so at 11:35 I left to walk to school and watch his first practice.
Up at 5, showered, 2 iced coffees and pacing.
My weight was 131.8, up 1.2lbs since last week. Fuck. No more overeating. My goal is back to 130 by Tuesday and 129 by next Friday.
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Paced till 6:45. Got kiddos up at 7 and fed. Hubs left for work and I did my morning routine. Started laundry, cleaned kitty litter, packed lunches and brushed teeth. Then I had brekky, oatmeal and half a banana.
Then I paced for 20 mins and then took the kids to school.
Came home, took Bear for a walk, did some chores, then did interval walking on the treadmill for 20 mins. I skipped pilates today. I'm still so mad with Charlie Kirk's death I didn't want to workout. So I laid on the couch, listened to true crime and took a 20 min nap.
Once I woke up, I had an early lunch, a pb+j sandwich, cheese stick and slice of mini banana bread. I'll have my iced coffee later.
My kid joined cross country so at 11:35 I left to walk to school and watch his first practice.
bluehat
Well-known member
Wow I 100 percent agree with this whole post.Rant
I feel very mad today. A couple days ago, I heard Charlie Kirk was shot and killed. Yesterday I felt down about it, but today I feel very mad. Why are the leftists so cruel? They didn't like what he had to say, so they just took him out. Stupid evil left people!! Stop trying to make everyone agree with u! I believe the LGBTQ community is 100% wrong, evil and goes against God.
But I still love those who are gay as my neighbor but I am against their actions. But all this gay movement in society is sickening. Stop telling me I HAVE to accept u and your lifestyle, stop telling me to use certain pronouns, I don't tell u to use she/her when referring to me. Just stop the hate!! Charlie Kirk was very opinionated and had strong Christian and political beliefs, but he never called anyone down.
Charlie Kirk was 31 years old. So young!
Ihaveacupcake
Active member
Sorry I've been MIA. I needed to take a break from posting and grieve for Charlie. I also have been binging and gained 5 lbs. I'm 135 now.
The reason I've been binging I think is cuz I'm aiming to low of calories. I'm very active with pacing and don't think I'm eating enough. So I increased my intake to 1800 cals starting today.
Also, I havent been pacing much, the greif rendered me physically tired. But I'm back at it today with a goal of 25-30k steps a day.
I stopped doing pilates too after Charlie's death and don't want to start up again. The only exercise I like it walking.
I reduced my olanzopene to 1 pill now for the last couple days, but starting today, I won't be taking any. I believe God has healed me of my mental illness, which I 100% believe were demons. I'm free.
I've been reading my bible again and waking up. I realized I was a lukewarm Christian (Revelation 3:16) and needed to build my relationship with the Lord again. So I've been doing that and have been feeling better, especially after a Charlie's death. #wearecharliekirk.
Oh, starting yesterday, I have given up coffee. I just dont like how it tastes anymore. Bleh. I've replaced it with hot chocolate tho which I absolutely love!
So to recap
Lose 15 lbs
1800 cals
25-30k steps a day
No more olanzopene
Read bible and pray everyday 
No more coffee
The reason I've been binging I think is cuz I'm aiming to low of calories. I'm very active with pacing and don't think I'm eating enough. So I increased my intake to 1800 cals starting today.
Also, I havent been pacing much, the greif rendered me physically tired. But I'm back at it today with a goal of 25-30k steps a day.
I stopped doing pilates too after Charlie's death and don't want to start up again. The only exercise I like it walking.
I reduced my olanzopene to 1 pill now for the last couple days, but starting today, I won't be taking any. I believe God has healed me of my mental illness, which I 100% believe were demons. I'm free.
I've been reading my bible again and waking up. I realized I was a lukewarm Christian (Revelation 3:16) and needed to build my relationship with the Lord again. So I've been doing that and have been feeling better, especially after a Charlie's death. #wearecharliekirk.
Oh, starting yesterday, I have given up coffee. I just dont like how it tastes anymore. Bleh. I've replaced it with hot chocolate tho which I absolutely love!
So to recap
Lose 15 lbs
1800 cals
25-30k steps a day
No more olanzopene
Read bible and pray everyday
No more coffee
Ihaveacupcake
Active member
Morning
Sorry I've been mia, I just needed time to grieve for Charlie and the horrendous attack on Christians all around the world. But I'm back now.
Up at 5, showered, 2 hot chocolates and pacing. I gave up coffee 4 days ago to have hot chocolate BUT I'm going back to it. I hate the tiredness and I've been... *tmi* constipated. But I don't like the taste of coffee so I decided to make mocha's instead starting tomorrow!
I did have a black coffee this morning and feel so much more awake. Ill have another black coffee at noon.
I paced till 6, then I was so tired, I napped till 7. Then I got the kids up and fed them. I did my before school routine then had oatmeal for brekky.
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Took out for a walk and did some chores. I'm skipping the treadmill today bc I still feel tired from lack of caffeine and my body just doesn't wanna work hard. At 9:30, I already had 11k steps anyway. So I sat down and watched the Christian bible show 'the chosen', all 5 seasons are available on Prime.
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After watching an episode, I did some more chores. Then at 11:30 I had a black iced coffee. I feel wide awake today, thank u coffee!
Sorry I've been mia, I just needed time to grieve for Charlie and the horrendous attack on Christians all around the world. But I'm back now.
Up at 5, showered, 2 hot chocolates and pacing. I gave up coffee 4 days ago to have hot chocolate BUT I'm going back to it. I hate the tiredness and I've been... *tmi* constipated. But I don't like the taste of coffee so I decided to make mocha's instead starting tomorrow!
I did have a black coffee this morning and feel so much more awake. Ill have another black coffee at noon.
I paced till 6, then I was so tired, I napped till 7. Then I got the kids up and fed them. I did my before school routine then had oatmeal for brekky.
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Took
out for a walk and did some chores. I'm skipping the treadmill today bc I still feel tired from lack of caffeine and my body just doesn't wanna work hard. At 9:30, I already had 11k steps anyway. So I sat down and watched the Christian bible show 'the chosen', all 5 seasons are available on Prime.----------
After watching an episode, I did some more chores. Then at 11:30 I had a black iced coffee. I feel wide awake today, thank u coffee!
Ihaveacupcake
Active member
Afternoon
At noon I had a deli meat sandwich, mmm so good! Then I watched my show for a little longer.
Then after watching tv, I paced for a while, really getting into it. I stopped at 19k.
My goal is 15-20k a day, paired with a 1500 cal intake, I should lose weight. I'll weigh in tomorrow, but then Saturdays will be my weigh in day. Last time I weighed myself a few days ago, I had been binging and constipated and was 135. I just wanna make sure I'm not higher than that.
Then I watched more of 'the chosen' again.
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I am not driving today, my MIL and I are picking up the kids for my son's cross country meet, so what do I do....get stoned! I'm enjoying the high, but immediately felt convicted by the Holy Spirit that I shouldn't of done that. So I prayed and asked for forgiveness and feel bad that I won't get to take in this experience sober...and that bums me out. I'm just addicted to the high. I want to quit, and maybe one day I will, but for now, I will wait till my hubs gets home. Lately I've been having it once I get home from picking up the kids, but like I said, from now on, I'll wait till hubs gets home.
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Kid did great during cross country! But we are back now and ofc I had another hoot. Once I have 1, I cant stop. Hubs isnt home yet either. Double no no.
But I asked for forgiveness, mercy and to help repent. 2x now, I've started being honest with God and myself.
1) I kept praying to get control of my eating, lose weight and learn to fast. But I wasn't honest with my main reasons. To lose weight for vanity reasons. I want to look good and feel good about my beautiful skinny body. I know it's vain, I know I shouldn't feel that way, but I do. And now that I'm honest about it, I actually want to learn to fast until supper on Sundays one day. So bc I was honest, God killed my any eating urges today, He took control and I've stayed with my diet and it was easy.
2) Pot. I kept praying to quit, but honestly I don't want to. It helps (when I dont have anxiety but I'm learning to deal with it) to make me happy. Being high makes me happy. But I've felt convicted by the Holy Spirit to be responsible with it. Which means no pot before hubs gets home. Which I can do. I would prefer to wait till the kids go to bed tho. But now I'm being honest to God and myself, I have no doubt that I'll pass this tomorrow.
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Supper was beef stir fry. And for desert, homemade chocolate chip cookies MIL made. I had one, and it was so good. I'm estimating 100 cals for it.
Then we as a family played a fun game called 'hurry up chicken butt'. It was a fun time. Then MIL left.
Then I had my night time snack of a rice cake with pb and honey. Mmm so good.
I ended with 23k steps.
At noon I had a deli meat sandwich, mmm so good! Then I watched my show for a little longer.
Then after watching tv, I paced for a while, really getting into it. I stopped at 19k.
My goal is 15-20k a day, paired with a 1500 cal intake, I should lose weight. I'll weigh in tomorrow, but then Saturdays will be my weigh in day. Last time I weighed myself a few days ago, I had been binging and constipated and was 135. I just wanna make sure I'm not higher than that.
Then I watched more of 'the chosen' again.
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I am not driving today, my MIL and I are picking up the kids for my son's cross country meet, so what do I do....get stoned! I'm enjoying the high, but immediately felt convicted by the Holy Spirit that I shouldn't of done that. So I prayed and asked for forgiveness and feel bad that I won't get to take in this experience sober...and that bums me out. I'm just addicted to the high
. I want to quit, and maybe one day I will, but for now, I will wait till my hubs gets home. Lately I've been having it once I get home from picking up the kids, but like I said, from now on, I'll wait till hubs gets home.----------
Kid did great during cross country! But we are back now and ofc I had another hoot
. Once I have 1, I cant stop. Hubs isnt home yet either. Double no no.But I asked for forgiveness, mercy and to help repent. 2x now, I've started being honest with God and myself.
1) I kept praying to get control of my eating, lose weight and learn to fast. But I wasn't honest with my main reasons. To lose weight for vanity reasons. I want to look good and feel good about my beautiful skinny body. I know it's vain, I know I shouldn't feel that way, but I do. And now that I'm honest about it, I actually want to learn to fast until supper on Sundays one day. So bc I was honest, God killed my any eating urges today, He took control and I've stayed with my diet and it was easy.
2) Pot. I kept praying to quit, but honestly I don't want to. It helps (when I dont have anxiety but I'm learning to deal with it) to make me happy. Being high makes me happy. But I've felt convicted by the Holy Spirit to be responsible with it. Which means no pot before hubs gets home. Which I can do. I would prefer to wait till the kids go to bed tho. But now I'm being honest to God and myself, I have no doubt that I'll pass this tomorrow.
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Supper was beef stir fry. And for desert, homemade chocolate chip cookies MIL made. I had one, and it was so good. I'm estimating 100 cals for it.
Then we as a family played a fun game called 'hurry up chicken butt'. It was a fun time. Then MIL left.
Then I had my night time snack of a rice cake with pb and honey. Mmm so good.
I ended with 23k steps.
Ihaveacupcake
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Halloween nails! My nails last about 3 days, so ill be painting them lots. I bought a pack of 9 different Halloween sheet stickers. Im starting to take pics of my nails to see how I progress 
. I havent done a French nail in yeeeeeears, so I was nervous but it turned out all right.
. I havent done a French nail in yeeeeeears, so I was nervous but it turned out all right.Attachments
Ihaveacupcake
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Morning
I woke up at 4:50, but I won't be pacing right away, hubs will be up at 5 cuz he has to go to work really early. He'll be leaving about 6, so I'll pace from 6ish-7.
My weight this morning was 134.4. So down .6 pounds.
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Paced for an hr once hubs left, then I woke up the kids are 7. Got them fed and ready for school. I paced more till it was time to leave. I got 10k steps by 8:30!
Once I got back, I took out for a walk. Then had my morning treat of a cookie, mmm yummy. Then I switched laundry and chilled browsing Instagram till it was time to leave for my workout class.
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Workout was good, 20 mins of weights. I was sweating at the end!
Came home, did laundry and had a black iced coffee and paced for a little bit before I went to my kids school to watch cross country practice.
I woke up at 4:50, but I won't be pacing right away, hubs will be up at 5 cuz he has to go to work really early. He'll be leaving about 6, so I'll pace from 6ish-7.
My weight this morning was 134.4. So down .6 pounds.
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Paced for an hr once hubs left, then I woke up the kids are 7. Got them fed and ready for school. I paced more till it was time to leave. I got 10k steps by 8:30!
Once I got back, I took
out for a walk. Then had my morning treat of a cookie, mmm yummy. Then I switched laundry and chilled browsing Instagram till it was time to leave for my workout class.----------
Workout was good, 20 mins of weights. I was sweating at the end!
Came home, did laundry and had a black iced coffee and paced for a little bit before I went to my kids school to watch cross country practice.
Ihaveacupcake
Active member
Morning
Up at 5, had my everything shower, 2 mochas and pacing. My weight was 133.8, down 1.4lbs from last week. Not great but it's a loss. As much as I hate slow weight loss, it's needed to keep from gaining weight. But only 4 more pounds till I'm excited about it. I haven't been under 130 in years. So once I hit 129.8, I'll be excited!
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At 6:30 I had oatmeal for brekky. I ate while I paced lol. I ended up pacing for 2 hrs before everyone got up and I got 10k steps.
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Did laundry, cleaned kitty litter and hung out with my hubs.
I feel off today again. I felt off and down yesterday and it's continuing on today. It sucks, I just want to be happy, everyday.
Then at 9 I have my morning treat, a chocolate cookie and it tasted so good.
Then hubs made bacon and eggs for the kids and himself. Hubs and I played yatzee while he ate.
Then I did dishes then sat on the couch for a while browsing Instagram.
Up at 5, had my everything shower, 2 mochas and pacing. My weight was 133.8, down 1.4lbs from last week. Not great but it's a loss. As much as I hate slow weight loss, it's needed to keep from gaining weight. But only 4 more pounds till I'm excited about it. I haven't been under 130 in years. So once I hit 129.8, I'll be excited!
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At 6:30 I had oatmeal for brekky. I ate while I paced lol. I ended up pacing for 2 hrs before everyone got up and I got 10k steps.
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Did laundry, cleaned kitty litter and hung out with my hubs.
I feel off today again. I felt off and down yesterday and it's continuing on today. It sucks, I just want to be happy, everyday.
Then at 9 I have my morning treat, a chocolate cookie and it tasted so good.
Then hubs made bacon and eggs for the kids and himself. Hubs and I played yatzee while he ate.
Then I did dishes then sat on the couch for a while browsing Instagram.