♡°♡Losing the last 13 pounds♡°♡

Ihaveacupcake

Ihaveacupcake

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Hello! I'm back with another accountability. I left for a while while I was binging. But I'm back now and ready to post my progress.

July 31 I weighed 140. As of last Saturday, I'm 133.8. My gw is 120 and a slim toned look.

So a little about me. 4 years ago I had a mental breakdown that landed me in the mental hospital for a week where I was diagnosed with schizoeffective disorder (schizophrenia and bipolar). I am on 3 meds to keep me level. But these meds caused me to gain 20 pounds and 2 years ago my hw was 150lbs.

I'm a stay at home mom of 2 boys under 10. I can't believe summer is almost over!!

Anyway, I'm getting back into fitness, doing pilates 3x a week and walking. I pace in my kitchen to get steps in while listening to TV shows. My goal is 10k but I normally get 15+k.

My intake goal is 1200 cals.

Let's lose 13 pounds!!
 
Morning

Accidentally slept in till 6 (I usually get up at 5), fuck. So I raced up, had a shower, made iced coffee and started pacing by 6:10.

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Paced for 30 mins and got 2500 steps in.

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Hubs left for work, I got the kids up and fed. Then I did a couple chores. At 8 I had toast with pb+honey for brekky. Then I started pacing at 8:30. It's currently 8:50 and I have 5500 steps.

My MIL is coming over to watch the boys so I can go grocery shopping. My family and I normally go on Sundays, but hubs had to work this past Sunday.

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Back from grocery shopping, it was fun to be out alone. I got everything I needed, including a break from the kids.

It's 10:30 and I have 10k steps! Reached my goal already.

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I paced till 11:10 and have 13.7k steps.

So my parents are coming for a visit tomorrow, they are treating me to lunch and then treating the family to burgers for supper. So tomorrow will be a higher calorie day unfortunately. But a good thing about my fitness journey is just that, it's a journey. Once in a while will be higher calorie and that's ok, 1 meal won't break the scale. Oh ya, I only weigh once a week on Saturdays. I aim for 1.6 pounds loss a week.

I worked out before lunch for the first time in a couple months. I stopped when school ended. Not sure why. But man, I'm outta shape lol. I used to be in decent shape but now I suck lol. Working out was fun tho. I should've worked out yesterday cuz my days to workout is M,W,F but I didn't feel like it. So I did it today. But from now on, I will do pilates 3x a week, no matter how I feel about it bc I always feel so good after.
 
Afternoon

For lunch I had half a deli meat and cheese sandwich, mmm soo good. Then I lazed around for an hr. MIL and I are taking the kids to the outdoor pool today. It's 33° but feels like 40°, it's hot!

At 1:45, I had my afternoon snack of half a poptart, which I normally have at 3. I was just craving it. I need to make sure I don't eat anything else till supper.

Packed up my pool bag then lazed around for 30 mins till it was time to go.

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Back from the pool. Man it was hot! But the boys had a lot of fun.

I emptied out my beach bag then like an idiot, I had a hoot and got stoned. I'm trying to cut back to just when the kids go to bed. I use to smoke all day but now have cut back to around 4-5pm. So I'm doing well. Also, I used to be a nicotine vaper but recently quit. I actually quit when I was sick with the flu. My vape juice tasted horrible when I was sick so I decided to quit. I felt like shit anyway from being sick so I didn't notice anything physical withdrawal symptoms. And cravings were squashed by remember how horrible it tasted. I was sick for 2 weeks. By the time I felt better, all my withdrawl effects disappeared and I didn't and still don't crave it.

Anyway, getting high... I am getting better with it, but I'm not where I want to be, so I will keep working. I do feel guilty for getting high tho.

So I have tomorrow's eats all planned out. I will not eat brekky, just 2 loaded coffees (loaded being with cream and sugar, 265 calories that I wont give up). I will have a 6 inch turkey sub for lunch, 280 cals. No afternoon snack, just a black iced coffee. Then supper, I will have a kids cheeseburger happy meal, 500 cals. Then 2 gummies and a rice cake with pb+honey, 140 cals. Total calories 1250.

So I can still enjoy eating out but I have to plan carefully.

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At 5 I got the table set and I'm now pacing.

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I paced till 5:40, then my hubs came home!

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So I started my weight loss journey July 31. I was 140 pounds. I've lost 6 pounds in 3 weeks! Crazy. I can't wait to see how my body changes for the good soon!

At 6 I had another hoot.

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Supper was chicken breast, noodles (none for me), and carrots. Mmm so good 😋. Then I did dishes and prepped for my iced coffee tomorrow. I just brew 2 cups, add sugar to it then put in the fridge overnight. Then I add my cream and pour over ice. For my afternoon black iced coffee, I just brew a cup in the morning and put in the fridge for 3 hours, then pour over ice.

So I decided to allow up to 1500 tomorrow so I can have brekky. My parents wont be here till 1ish. So a late lunch and I don't want to go that long without eating.

Also calories today will be 1311. I wasn't going to have my evening rice cake with pb+honey, but I'm addicted to it. Honestly, I could just do the pb+honey by itself, but I gotta have it on something😅!

I started pacing again at 7:30, I'll be ending with a high step count.

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I paced till 8 and have 21k steps. I think that's enough 😅. Also had my rice cake at 7:45.

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So I'm thinking of changing up my lunches. Right now I have half a deli meat and cheess sandwich. I might make a yogurt bowl instead. 2 yogurts, chocolate cereal and sliced banana. Mmm, that sounds so good.

Got the kiddos in bed at 8:45 then I went to bed.
 
Morning

Fuck, accidently slept in till 5:40 today. So I jumped outta bed, got my iced coffee and started pacing.

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Still got an hr of pacing in and got 4.3k steps.

Then hubs left for work and I got the kiddos up and fed. Then I did a couple chores while listening to 'vampire diaries'.

So my parents are coming down today and staying the night (in a hotel). My mom will take me out for lunch while my dad watches the kids. I'm choosing subway, so I'll have a turkey sub for 280 cals. Then they are treating us to burgers for supper. So I will have a kids cheeseburger happy meal from McDonald's for roughly 500 cals. Paired with my loaded iced coffee in the morning, I have no extra calories for brekky or afternoon snack. So just 2MAD today. I decided to stick with 1200 cals.

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Took 🐻 out for a walk and got home at 9 and I have 7500 steps...and I'm hungry. But I can wait. I did a couple more chores, then paced for 30 mins then did 20 mins pilates. It was a good workout! It's now 10:20 and I'm gonna pace till 11.

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I started to not feel well so at 10:45 I had a banana. My total for the day will be below 1400. I'm ok with this, some days will be a bit higher and that's ok.

Then I started to get a migraine, so I popped 2 aleve and it's gone.

Then I made the kids lunch at 11:20 and at 11:30 I had a black iced coffee. Its not very good but a necessity for keep me awake and give me energy.

So far at 11:30 I have 12k steps.
 
Afternoon

I had a quick 30 min nap. My parents should be here soon. It's almost 1pm. I'm feeling pretty hungry.

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Had lunch at 1:30 and my sub was very good! Then mom and I went to Walmart. I picked up some yogurt and chocolate cherrios to add to my yogurt. I used to have granola but can't since I got crowns. But I need something crunchy for my yogurt bowl, so cereal it is, mixed with sliced banana, mmm good lunch to have!

Parents went to check in to the hotel and see if the boys can go swimming, so I'm pacing until I hear from them.

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Went swimming and the boys had so much fun going on the water slide. Then my dad offered me a cookie, it felt rude to say no, so I had one. Calories are 1550.

Back home now, just waiting for my parents to come over and hubs to come home...

I did have a hoot when we got home(5pm), I really wish I didn't. But better than at 4. But now I'm stoned in front of my parents, like, even tho they don't know, it's embarrassing. Ya...I've never been able to put into a word how I feel when stoned other than uncomfortable, but it's embarrassing that I can't control my addiction. I'm addicted to the high, it just makes me feel elated.

Maybe knowing I'm embarrassed at my lack of self control, is the key to succeeding. We'll see how the rest of the night goes and tomorrow.

I paced some more.

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I have 18k steps.

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Hubs was late today, 6pm. Then we got supper at 7. I had a cheeseburger happy meal but I also had about 15 a&w fries. So calories are 1620. Not bad for eating out twice today!

Parents just left so I am pacing until we put the kids to bed.

So starting next Monday, I'm going to start having eggs for brekky. I need to finish the loaf of bread I have out. Then from now on just use frozen bread when I need it.

But I need some more protein in my diet, and eggs are good for that.

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Got kiddos in bed then had a rice cake with pb and honey. I wasn't really hungry, just craving something sweet.

I got 21k steps in! Hopefully tomorrow I'll wake up at 5. I like a long time to myself.

Watched a show with my hubs then went to bed.
 
Morning

Waked and baked (cbd with a tiny bit of thc, gives me a little buzz for an hr) at 5, showered, pacing and 2 iced coffees.

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Paced till 6:35, when my hubs got up, got 6600 steps.

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My parents came over at 9 for a visit before they went back home. My mom and I ran a couple errands. Before we left, my dad gave me a timmies gift card for treats. I didn't want anything cuz I'm dieting, but my dad insisted. So I was weak and got a brookie (chocolate chunk cookie with a brownie inside). But I split it with my mom. Half was 205 cals!! Holy. So I'm skipping lunch, I'll have a yogurt for a snack later. But I would've been at 1500 cals if I had my yogurt bowl for lunch as well. I had a higher cal day yesterday, I don't need another one.

Then we visited for a while and they left at 12:00. I don't really like my parents, but I do love them and they enjoy seeing their grand kids.
 
Afternoon

Once my parents left, I made the kids lunch and had a black iced coffee. I'll have a yogurt later for an afternoon snack.

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Well, I made a yogurt bowl lol. I became really hungry and bingy, so I'd rather be in control and have lunch than not have lunch and binge later. Mmm, my yogurt was so good. 2 yogurts, 15g chocolate cereal and half a banana, mmm 🤤

Then I took the boys outside for an hr. I'm sitting out here and I'm tired. I never got a nap this morning, maybe I'll have one when we go in.

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Inside now and I ended up having a snack of half a poptart. Calories will be 1500 today. Which is fine, I walk so much anyway. According to my watch I burn 1800-2000 cals a day and I consume around 1200-1300 most days.

Now I'm pacing. I sat for an hr outside so I want to get some movement. I'm listening to 'vampire diaries'.

I really really want a hoot 😮‍💨 I'll wait till 5 tho but I really want one.

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Ended up having a 30 min power nap and woke up to a strange but funny message 😅😂

Then I paced. Then I decided my body is feeling really depleted today, so I'm allowing a refeed day of 1800 cals. Still a 200cal deficit. But my step goal is 22k today.

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It's 5pm and I had a hoot. My hunger went away and I feel fine now, thinking maybe I shouldn't allow a refeed day. But no, I know how I felt when sober, I was tired today. So, still a refeed day.

I daydream a lot when stoned and I'm daydreaming right now about my cute sweats fitting! And getting new tight muscle shirts from sports check! Motivation to keep pacing.

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I started supper at 5:45 and hubs got home at 5:50. Then we chatted for a bit and then he went to lie down in the living room, so I paced some more. I'm almost at my goal. I take the night off from pacing.

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I hit 22k at 6:15!

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Supper was beef stir fry. I usually have 1/2 cup meat and 1/2 cup rice, but I measured 3/4 instead. It was so good. I'm already feeling more energetic!

Then I did dishes and prepped for iced coffee tomorrow. Then I paced for while. Im obsessed with having a bigger deficit today. I'll see my total calories burned tomorrow morning.

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Paced for 30 mins, got 24k steps then sat down while my watch charges. Now I'm going to enjoy cherry coke 0 and rice cake.

I'm quite happy with the fact that I haven't binged in 3 weeks. And today when I felt like I might binge, made it a refeed day instead. I'm getting the hang on dieting!

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Got kiddos in bed, then I had 3 Pringles, mmm, so good. But calories are at 1918. Basically a maintenance day. I was thinking of adding a maintenance day every week but honestly I have liked sticking to 1200. I'll go back to that tomorrow and in a few weeks I'll have a refeed day.

I had a hoot. And now I'm having anxiety over school starting. The change, the starting of a new routine, being alone all day. Oh no, how will I cope... *breathe cupcake*

I should quit, or maybe commit to try 1 night sober, see if I get anxiety.

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In bed now after 20 min massage.
 
Morning

Accidently slept in till 5:45, so I skipped my shower and paced while having 2 iced coffees.

So my tdee yesterday was 2200 cals. I still had a 300 cal deficient with my refeed day, so yay!

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Got an hr of pacing in and got 5300 steps! My goal in the morning is 6500, but that's with an extra 30 mins in the morning, so 5300 is good for an hr!

Then hubs got up and I spent about 45 mins just chillin with him. Then he left for work and I woke up the kids and fed them brekky. Then I had half a deli and cheese sandwich and spilled mustard on myself lol. So I had to change. Then we took 🐻 out for a walk. It's 9am and I have 8k steps. So now I'm going to workout.

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20 mins of pilates done! I met my goal of working out 3x this week. Now I'm sitting on the couch browsing Instagram.
 
Afternoon

Had an hr nap from 10-11. Felt nice. But I feel so hungry today, I feel like I'm going to throw up I'm so hungry. This feeling will go away tho.

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At noon I had my yogurt bowl and it was so good! I'm still hungry tho but I'll wait till snack time. Then I prepped potatoes for supper tonight.

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Paced for a bit bc I'm bored, then I sat down and watched 'the originals'.

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At 3 I had 1/2 a poptart for a snack. I'm so fucking bored. It's too rainy and windy to go outside. So I paced again for a while.

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I had a peice of multrigrain bread with 6g margarine. I was craving bread. I think this will be my snack instead of a poptart. I'll be allowing under 1400 cals from now on. Today tho bc I had a poptart, I'm under 1500 today. But at least I didn't binge!

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Only lasted till 4:15 today before I had a hoot. I'm addicted to the high and its gives me a pick me up. But I still don't want to get high for recreation anymore. I want to put the kids to bed, have a hoot and enjoy the high guilt free. So I will try not to have another one until kids go to bed. But I paced, cuz I love pacing when stoned!

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Been pacing for an hr and going strong. I'm about to start cooking supper. I'll stop pacing when hubs gets home.

I just realized that tomorrow is weigh in day! My goal 1lb.

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Hubs got home at 5:50. He's not on call this weekend so yay!!

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Supper was fish, potatoes(just a small handful for me, I couldn't resist) and veggies. I overate again today, I'm below 1800. I'll have a tdee is 2200-2400 again. Maybe that's why I'm so hungry? Cuz when I first started losing weight, I only got 10k-12k steps and ate 1200-1300. Maybe I should cool it with all the steps. I feel myself getting burnt out a little. Ok, back to 12k steps.

Also, while I was doing dishes, my hubs puts his arms around me and says "you look so sexy, you have a nice body shape". I don't really have any feelings on it, not until I'm under 130 will I start to feel good about myself.

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I'm scared to weigh in tomorrow now, I overate again today, 1733 calories, including a rice cake with pb and honey.

Got kiddos in bed, had a hoot and enjoyed my high for a little while before I went to bed. Ended with 26.5k steps 😮‍💨, no wonder I'm tired and hungry.
 
Ihaveacupcake said:
Morning

Waked and baked (cbd with a tiny bit of thc, gives me a little buzz for an hr) at 5, showered, pacing and 2 iced coffees.

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Paced till 6:35, when my hubs got up, got 6600 steps.

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My parents came over at 9 for a visit before they went back home. My mom and I ran a couple errands. Before we left, my dad gave me a timmies gift card for treats. I didn't want anything cuz I'm dieting, but my dad insisted. So I was weak and got a brookie (chocolate chunk cookie with a brownie inside). But I split it with my mom. Half was 205 cals!! Holy. So I'm skipping lunch, I'll have a yogurt for a snack later. But I would've been at 1500 cals if I had my yogurt bowl for lunch as well. I had a higher cal day yesterday, I don't need another one.

Then we visited for a while and they left at 12:00. I don't really like my parents, but I do love them and they enjoy seeing their grand kids.
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Morning

Up at 5, had my everything shower, 2 iced coffees and pacing.

I fucking maintained my weight, boo. But it wasn't a very good food week. Normally I weigh everyday but this past week I haven't, but weighing everyday I think helps keep me on track, we'll most days, tmi but I don't weigh if I didn't 💩 the previous day.

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Paced till 7 and have 8200 steps! That's it for pacing for the day, I'll get the rest from my normal day. Then I fell asleep for 40 mins at the kitchen table. Then I had half a deli meat sandwich for brekky.

Then I got the kids up and I made them chocolate chip pancakes for brekky. Hubs is still sleeping, he worked 34 days in a row so this is the first time he's been able to sleep in, in over a month.

But I can't do anything so I'm pacing 😅 I might actually continue to pace a lot because I like to. This past week I overate so I didn't lose anything. This time I'll stay on track with my calories.

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Hubs got up, so I did a couple chores...and now I'm pacing again lol.

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Hubs had to go look over an order at work at 10, so I stopped pacing. I have 12k steps.

Then I decided to try and have a nap.
 
Afternoon

Slept for an hr, felt nice. Then hubs came home and I had a yogurt bowl for lunch. Soo good.

Then I did dishes....and had a hoot at 12:30😔. I was weak.

So hubs and I talked about my fitness for a while. I suggested maybe I should try jogging on my treadmill. 1 min walking, 30 sec jog. I told him my goal would be to jog 20 mins straight. But I asked his advice on it. I said last time I tried jogging, I hated it. He said do it anyway... so I will. Starting when the kids go back to school.

Then I took the kids outside.

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Back inside, thank God, it's chilly out there! Its 2pm now and I'm pacing. I have a haircut at 3. My hair is boob length and I'm going to shoulder length.

Also, I'm going back to toast and sandwich for brekky and lunch. I found sticking to my diet easier with more carbs during the day. I love carbs. So no more yogurt bowl. I will have 1 yogurt as an afternoon snack. Once the yogurt is gone, I'll have my chocolate cherrios to snack on.

So my plan will look like this for now

Brekky- Toast with pb and honey
Lunch- Half a deli meat sandwich
Snack- Yogurt or 20g cereal
Supper- Small portion

Total- 1200-1300.

There, that's should put me back on track. I just find having a high carb diet keeps me from binging. I have been missing carbs since I switched to having a yogurt bowl instead of a sandwich.

Next weigh in day will be Tuesday, I'm hoping be down a pound. So 132.8.

At 2:15 I had 20g of chocolate cherrios and 5 goldfish crackers. Mmm the cereal was good.

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I love my haircut! It's shoulder length, straight and looks very beautiful (according to my hubs).

While out, I picked up some more pot and had a hoot at 3:45.

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Fuck, at 4:45 I was craving carbs, so I had 3 small handfuls of cereal. Calories are 1450, fuck. I windowed shopped online.

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It's 5:45 and I'm cooking supper and I'm feeling so bingy. But I wont binge or even overeat! But I did have another hoot🙃. Nothing like being high and eating my favorite meal!

While I waited for supper to cook, I paced...as always.

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Supper was pizza! My bbq chicken flatbread I have is soo yummy! But fuck me, I overate. This stops now! From now on, calories stay below 1300.

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Got kiddos in bed, and I binged on cookies! FUCK. ME! I will not have another binging thread. Ugh. Then I went to bed. Ended with 23k steps.
 
Morning

Up at 5, skipped my shower , cbd hoot and 2 iced coffees while pacing.

I forgot to post last night but basically I binged...that is the last time I binge.

I got 23k steps yesterday. Also decided to go back to a high carb diet. I have been overeating since I started my yogurt bowl instead of half a sandwich.

So my intake will look like this:

Brekky- Multrigrain toast with pb, honey and sliced banana
Lunch- Half a deli meat sandwich, black iced coffee
Snack- 1 Yogurt or 20g dry cereal
Supper- Small portion

Total- 1200-1300.

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Paced for 2 hours and got 9600 steps! Then I got the kiddos up and fed.

Then at 8, I had brekky, soooo good! I started putting honey on my toast 2 weeks ago and it was a game changer! I forgot how much I love honey!

I also decided, on my workout days, M,W,F, I'm going to incorporate 10 pounds for my arms and upper back. I want to build muscle in my arms and back and pilates won't do that.

So with 10 lbs I'll do bicep curls, tricep press, shoulder press and reverse dumbell fly(for upper back)

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Soooo.... it's 8:30...and I'm stoned. I decided to get high before church. I don't like church anymore. I'm still a Christian and believe in God and Jesus, but I just find the message boring and I can never stay awake. So ya, I thought getting stoned will help...and now I'm just anxious 😔. No more till kids go to bed. I gotta get better, not worse. So... stupid move on my part.

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Had a good nap at church😅. Then we went grocery shopping, small haul this week. Then I made the kids lunch and sipped on my black iced coffee. And at noon I have half a deli meat sandwich for lunch...and I had a top up hoot. Fuck me. And I've already decided I'm having one this afternoon cuz we as a family, are going to the 'smurfs movie'. I want to be on a cloud nine high for that. Bad day pot wise, but it's done so I might as well enjoy it.
 
Morning

Up at 5 and showered. Then as I'm getting my coffee ready, hubs got up. He's going to work early today. Then I got my iced coffee and I paced.

So we won't go into deal about how badly I binged last night, but I'm not gonna weigh till Saturday. I'm hoping for 131.4. A 2lb loss.

I'm so excited to workout today! To use my new ankle weights but more so, for my 10lb weights! I can't wait to see how my muscles grow and how sexy my arms will look! Jogging will start next Wednesday when the kids are back in school. I don't use my treadmill during the summer. It's plugged into the same power bar as my kids computer and using both just blows the breaker. And I just walked on it before and didn't care to kick my kid off his computer for that. Next summer I will cuz I'll be jogging for 20 mins straight on it.

Speaking of next week...the kids start school and I have mixed emotions. I am looking forward to alone time with just be bear and me. But... the kids provide company and I know I'm gonna get lonely. Also, my oldest kid will most definitely have more homework this year and I'm scared I won't understand it and will struggle to help, especially with math and science...

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It's 9:15 and I'm done everything for the day, including getting my kids school stuff packed.

I have 11k steps and am pacing so more.

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Whoops, almost forgot to work out. So I just finished that. It was a good workout. I almost quit my 10lb weights but I pushed through and I'm glad I did, good workout all around.

Now I'm on the couch browsing Instagram, hoping I'll get tired for a nap.
 
Afternoon

Slept for an hr 🙂 Felt nice. Then I made lunch for my kids and had my black iced coffee (still gross but a necessity) at 11:30. And at noon I had half a sandwich.

Then I paced for a quick 30 mins before reading with the kids.

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I took the kids outside for an hr at 1:30. I am so hungry today. I can't wait to have a snack. I'm always hungry the day after a binge, it sucks.

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Back inside and I decided to pace till snack time in 20 mins. I also really want a hoot. I really want to let go and get stoned. But alas, I will wait till hubs gets home
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Well, I had a small hoot at 3:30 🙃. My cbd buzz was wearing off quickly and I wanted to keep the party going lol. Just a small 6 second hoot compared to 10 seconds.

Holy! It's 3:30 and I have 20k steps and still going strong. I'm ok with a huge deficit, it'll make weight loss faster.

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I sat down for half hr to browse Instagram for some fitspiration! It's 4:40 now and I've been pacing for 20 mins... I am hungry! Like, tummy cramping and grumbling hungry. But no cravings! Which is why I'm having a high carb diet so I don't get cravings. But I did have a coke 0.

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Coke 0 completely took away my hunger! Yay! Hubs got home at 5:20, but he went to lie down right away, he's sick, poor guy. At 5:30 I had a hoot and paced some more. I'm at 24k.

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Honestly, I kinda wish I didn't get stoned. Why do I always do this?! Oooh let's get high and feel elated! And yes I do feel that way, but then I get anxiety! I had no anxiety sober... ok, I really gotta try to manage this... just, how? I used to vape it all day, every 2 hrs I'd have a 6 sec hoot from morning to night. I became uncomfortable, out of no where I might add, so I quit vaping it during the day last year. Now my goal right now is to just have it after the kids go to bed. I prefer sitting there daydreaming about a hot and strong body(vanity issues 😅) So that's my goal.

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Supper was sausages, perogies (none for me) and carrots. Mmm, so good! We get Walmart brand honey garlic sausages! Then what do I do bc I'm weak...yup, have a hoot! 🤦‍♀️. So I paced some more bc I can and want to, while I set up a splash park adventure with MIL for tomorrow.

Ooooh anxiety! Hubs is sick, what if the kids get sick in their first day of school... gah!

I find it have less anxiety now sober, so today, I'll enjoy the high, everything is done so why not? But tomorrow, I wont have any till kids are in bed.

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Gave the kids a fruit bowl to snack on and I ate 2 strawberries. So far I'm on track for a perfect intake day!!

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It's 8:20 and I have 29.5k steps!! I was dragging my feet at the end so I listened to my old emo music that I love and it picked me up. Then I enjoyed 3 planned twizzler gummies, mmm.

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Oh darn. I had an unplanned rice cake.🤦‍♀️

Then we got the kiddos in bed, then bed myself.
 
😮‍💨 I fell into an anorexic mind frame for a little bit. My lw weight the other day was 131.6.

Morning

Accidently slept in till 5:45. Then I had my everything shower, got iced coffee and started pacing at 6:10.

My weight.... was up 1.2 pounds 😭 I ate 1600 cals Thursday and lost a pound Friday. Then yesterday I again ate 1600 and gained weight... maybe I just needed a refeed Thursday.

Ill keep trying 1200 cals

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Kids and hubs were up by 8, I made pancakes for the kids and coffee for the hubs.

I'm in a bad mood today. Even before I weighed myself, I was in a bad mood.

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Hubs went to work for a bit and I did dishes, laundry and kitty litter.

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I'm feeling down, so I had a hoot and I don't give a flying fuck. Then I played with 🐻 for a bit.

Hubs got home and we chatted for a bit then I made lunch for the kids. Then paced some more.
 
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Afternoon

Made lunch for myself, half a sandwich and oat bar.

Hubs went for a nap at 1:00, so I listened to music while I closed my eyes on the couch.

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Took the kids out from 1:30-3:00. I played with 🐻 and read. Hubs came out at 2:30. Came back in and I did dishes. Then, yup, paced some more after having a hoot...I'm such a failure 😮‍💨😭.

Then it was snack time. I had 25g of chocolate cherrios. They are so good! They satisfy my chocolate, carb and sugar cravings!

We are going to my SIL and BIL for a BBQ soon. No idea what's for supper, but they asked us to get hotdogs so maybe burgers? I hope so, our BBQ is broken so I haven't had a BBQ burger in a while!

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Well, there was brisket, meatballs and different high calorie salads. I ate a lot...but it was good, back at it tomorrow 🙃 But calories today are a maintenance 2000. Back at 1200 tomorrow. I have jeans that I need to fit ASAP.

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Back from the BBQ and we got the kids in bed. Then I decided to try on my dark purple leggings, dark blue sweats and white sweats. They all fit perfectly!!!

I listened to some music then went to bed.
 
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