losing it again!

Hey girl - those pictures only tell us where we are or where we've been, they don't tell us WHO we are!

You are a strong woman who is taking control of your life, your health and your fitness.

You CAN do this.

Look forward hun, not back!
 
:) Thank you...you are right. I am just feeling shock at the moment. Sad miserable shock...Last summer I was 140 I had never been fit in my life. Out of my 25 years I had 5 monthes maybe of feeling ok...I am just so dissapointed in myself right now. But I am gonna do this....I wanna look as good as you!:)
 
Well that's a great goal!! :D

I reckon the feeling good is an even better part of this process we're involved in - and it happens more quickly. Great days like yesterday's will do that for you. :)

It is a downer when you feel like you are changing already then see that it isn't showing on the outside straight away - but perseverance will fix that. :)
 
Persevere...thats right felici...but sometimes I wonder how to do that.
None the less...I will.
Today has been better...yesterday was such a downer but yet it was motivation. I need all of that I can get. I,m reading my journals from when I lost the 150lbs. And trying to do the same again, maybe even better. But I realize that I was absolutly exersizing my buns off...some days I was doing 3 hours of cardio...plus sit ups push ups ect.And riding bikes with my hubby at night. Now I am having trouble with my energy and my feet! they hurt!
I havent drank much coffee today...yeah! I realize Ive been drinking like 5-10 cups and that is just sooo crazy. But I am getting a headach right now so I think I will have a cup and then hop on the cycle of doom.
I am not going to eat anything today...not that I plan on starving I just thought It might help my crave issues. It seems like as soon as I eat I get hungry...so today I am taking control of myself and tomorrow I will eat sensibly.
I said that I hadnt gained any weight...well that was an assumption. I stood on the scale last night and realized I was almost 20 pounds heavier than I had imaged myself. How does one not realize they are gaining so fast!
I have gained 85 pounds in 10 monthes...I made myself sit down and do the math...I cannot beleive it!:mad: I am so mad at myself.I told myself it was from getting sick and taking meds...blood pressure and prednizone ect. but that was not true...I am getting fatter and fatter and I have got to stop!
anyway as sad as it sounds I am ok...because I beleive I am really going to do this now...and this time when its gone it will stay gone! I am doing this!!!!
 
Day Four....
I am doing well. But I am sore! I have been turning most of my attention towords my garden. I just read that burnes quite a few calories per hour, so how cool is that. I broke down and ate a hot pocket last nite, I dunno why.
Today Im gonna focus on some raw veggies...I do actually like broccoli and colliflour. Maybe some skinless baked chikin.
I've spent hours now reading in everyone journals, I think I have been enlightened...and my eyes are sore! But I know alot more about calorie counting ect. than ever. So now I am armed with tried and proven knowledge.
Today I am gonna try to do some exersize before I drink my coffee:eek:
 
Yes! That is a great idea! Exercise first.

Even when the exercise you do is relatively gentle - like going for a walk - it really sets you up for success. It lifts your mood, lifts your confidence, helps you relax. If you exercise before a meal it helps you feel less hungry! There's a good chance it will help with making you less interested in coffee too.

Perseverance. Well just trying to eat right for a small manageable amount of time helps. Just focus on getting lunch right, or the evening right or whatever, and then think about the next bit.

Eating properly helps too. If you skip meals, don't eat enough in a day, or leave out major food groups you are less likely to have what your body needs and it will yell out and maybe you'll find you have eaten something you'd rather avoid, but feel that you "don't know why". The hormones that affect our appetite are powerful. :)

I hope you're having a good day. :)
 
Yes felici "the force is strong" with my cravings! Especially when it comes to coffee...but I drank less than half of what I usually drink yesterday. I rode my cycle b4 I even got a cup in today! I am gaining controll! and its feeling great...I am thru with the guilt trips! On to the weight loss:)
Thanx for coming by my diary your a doll!!!:)
 
OK...I am feeling good 2day! I went one and a half hours on the cycle...a grand total of 15 miles(pretty low resistance though), and did 30 min. tae bo. That tae bo is such a butt kicker! Didnt really eat anything all day...shame shame, but I just went and got a sub. Didnt even get mayo on it, but I asked for viniger and the girl put oil too.CALORIES! For that many calories I coulda had low fat mayo!!!:eek: None the less it was a 400 calorie grand total...Im gonna have some raw brocoli and maybe just one more cup of coffee:) That will take me to around 1000 cals. Day 3 with no soda...I'll live...I guess...
 
So Its probly nothin to get all excited about but I stood on the scale 2day...
It says I lost 5 pounds...Granted I am sore all over and I feel like I shoulda lost 10...Could I really have lost 5 this week??? I am excited! Gonna ride that cycle twice as long today...But you know I probably lost my calories out diggin in my garden...Ive been bustin my arse out there:)
 
Hey :) I lost 125 pounds and gained 250 back myself. I know exactly where you are coming from. The main thing is to remember its all a process. I know that I'm going so much slower and taking off weight much more slowly than I did last time, but I'm also establishing real life style changes. Congrats on the 5 pounds. That's a huge accomplishment!
 
well Thank You for the encouragement...I have been working my butt off!
I definatly didnt make any life changes before...I guess subcontiously I thought I had become fat immune...
This time I want to know as much as I can...I have spent hours reading calorie info anything I can come across. If knowledge is power Im goin for all I can get! But it is sad to realize how bad the food I have loved is for me.
From what I just read the mexican food I eat once a week is my biggest killer!
I wont be going el ranchito any time soon...:confused:
Anyway...I am counting them all and being as honest with myself as I can!
Congratulations on your life changes...I know this is not an easy thing!
 
Congratulations on the 5 pounds! It's true that this is about life changes.

I think it's good to know that despite loving food that is unhealthy, after a while of eating well, it often happens that we just lose interest in the other stuff. There are a lot of fatty foods I used to salivate over that I have no interest in, or even feel repelled by now. I notice and enjoy traces of sweetness in healthy foods but find some kinds of things that have sugar added just seem sickly. That is a very big change for me!! I don't grieve for my lost enjoyments because they are totally outweighed by all the new ones!
 
thanx felici...I have really been reading up on the foods Ive been eating and I am feeling very repulsed!!!Knowledge is a great thing! I am considering going vegitarian, but as a true southerner it would be hard to give up fish/seafood!:) Other than that I am disusted with what I have eaten!


I went to the grocery store and spent too much on organic foods and produce...then I came home and had a little too much of it! lol at least it was a salad but there was lobster and shrimp and dressing on it:eek: Anyway my hubby is all for it...what a guy and it will be hard to mess up with only healthy foods and a cycle around!
I burned enough calories for an army of fat me's...My hubby and I made yet another golfish pond this weekend...we used bricks and cement ect. so it was hard work but it sure was worth it! I mixed most of the morter and cement so my arms and back are burning!!!


Tomorrow I plan to weigh again, trying to cut back to once a week or so! I seem to obsessed with the darn thing...:rolleyes:
 
Way to go!!!


That really all sounds terrific!:D


(Even weighing less often gets easier the more you do it. I weigh once a week but actually forgot one week recently!

However when you're making massive changes like you are, it's only natural to want to see the pay off! Most of us find it causes more trouble than it's worth to weigh frequently though. :))
 
Life style change is the key word here - it is a life style change - one step at a time - giving up things little by little - it can be done and it is such a sence of accomplishment when you sit back and take notice of all the changes you have slowly made adn how much better you feel and look...

Using the scale can be obsessive - that is for sure - I weight in in the ams and record it here - and after work the first thing I do is weight myself to see where my weight is sitting and then I weigh myself before bed - I know where my weight can flecuate and such and how much I can go up and so on - lol - obession ???

ANyway congrats on your 5 lbs tha tis awesome - I need to start gettin back into Tae Bo - I was thinkin it is a shame i dont have a work out on dvd so I can do it in my room but i remebered I have the lower body boot camp - that i can do in my rooma nd it is alot of floor work so it would be nicr on carpet...anyway Im rambling now :):):)

I will add oyut o my subsription list and drop in regularly....I will need to read into your diary more and see what your exercis routine is - I am guessing it is alot of Tae Bo - maybe you can motivate me to start doing it agian ...
 
Thanx ciderelly...I dont even know what rep power means yet...newb!
I really appreciate you stopping by!I have done tae bo and the cycle for the last 3 days...my hubby said this morning that my legs are looking alot more toned:) but I am so sore!!!
 
So it is day one of week two...6 days without soda!!! I have been exersizing at least 3 hours a day, and working in my garden even longer than that. I waited until this morning to stand on the scale again and I couldnt beleive my eyes! 10 pounds in 7 days! can this be right? I lost 10 pounds!!!! I am so happy! But I quit eating meat with the exception of seafood...I have been taking in between 1000 and 1200 calories, mosty raw produce and I also have been keeping track of every single calorie in and out...So its been alot of work but It sure is paying off! I keep going back to the scale to see it was a dream...:D
 
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