Little Scribblings of My Journey

Disciple said:
does any one else think that this chick is the coolest? God knew what he was doing :D he knew what he was doing
Click to expand...


Totally freaking agree! By the way, Cruce, I looked that word up in Spanish and I found "crossroads or crossing", what does the "salus" mean? Also, I honestly thought your location was somewhere in South America or something.... yeah, nice one. "United States of America".. ah, you are so code like...
 
A_CRUCE_SALUS said:
I got on the scale it read 193! Did I just say that... as I look carefully over my shoulder.. I whisper.. yes 193. Horrifying!


Deezy
Click to expand...

Hi Deezy!
Just wanted to say, and I know it's always hard to think this,
but there is always someone who is larger than you that would love to weight what you do. Like right now I would love, love love to be that number.
I work at the YMCA here in my town. Up in the Fitness Center. Go figure that one out! haha
Fat girl trying to tell everyone else how to get slim. Ain't that something! *slappin' knee*
I watch these woman (and sometimes men) all day long get on that scale and look defeated when they see whatever number that pops up.
After watching them do that for months it hit me that no matter where they are number wise they will never be happy.
Cuz' they are always striving for a smaller number than the one they see.
That is when it hit me. How there is always someone who is larger than myself who would love to weigh/look the way I do.
With that revelation came the love/acceptance of myself.
Funny thing is most of all those people who I am trying to help only ever tell me that I don't look overweight just fit and healthy.
Maybe it is all in my attitude.
Doesn't mean I don't want to lose weight, just that I am going to love me at every stage I am at.
~Sorry I write like I talk! Lots and lots!! hahaha~ :biggrinjester:
 
Bellaryna said:
Hi Deezy!
Just wanted to say, and I know it's always hard to think this,
but there is always someone who is larger than you that would love to weight what you do. Like right now I would love, love love to be that number.
I work at the YMCA here in my town. Up in the Fitness Center. Go figure that one out! haha
Fat girl trying to tell everyone else how to get slim. Ain't that something! *slappin' knee*
I watch these woman (and sometimes men) all day long get on that scale and look defeated when they see whatever number that pops up.
After watching them do that for months it hit me that no matter where they are number wise they will never be happy.
Cuz' they are always striving for a smaller number than the one they see.
That is when it hit me. How there is always someone who is larger than myself who would love to weigh/look the way I do.
With that revelation came the love/acceptance of myself.
Funny thing is most of all those people who I am trying to help only ever tell me that I don't look overweight just fit and healthy.
Maybe it is all in my attitude.
Doesn't mean I don't want to lose weight, just that I am going to love me at every stage I am at.
~Sorry I write like I talk! Lots and lots!! hahaha~ :biggrinjester:
Click to expand...

Thanks Bella for stopping by. I can totally identify with what you are saying.. I see some post ohh my gosh a big fat 165! Im like ..wow I wish to be that.. but guess what..one day I will.. over the weekend I broke to 188.6! Very exciting.. I can't wait for this fat to melt off. I feel pretty motivated I just hope I dont loose my pazzazz!!! LOL.

Its very hard for me just to accept me how I am.. I struggle with that big time.. I see some people that are overweight and they just look like they are comfortable. Not me, I hide.. I guess maybe because I have been so much smaller in the past. Good for your girl loving yourself every step of the way.. great attitude. I should adopt that!
 
Thought I would drop another post on ya!
Love how you use scripture in your scribbling. Not enough of that on the forum that is for sure!
After I finally read all your journal I see that you are doing the C to 5k. So am I!!! I just started today. Though I could only get 20 minutes in as I had to pick up my chilli-dogs from school.
Felt good though. I am hoping to get back up to the YMCA tonight, maybe I will even start all over from the beginning and then hit the weights.
We'll see. That place gets craaaaazy busy in the evening. Like 50-60 people crawling all over the place. Makes it hard to get around.
Hope you had a great day.
Ciao for now.
 
Bellaryna said:
Thought I would drop another post on ya!
Love how you use scripture in your scribbling. Not enough of that on the forum that is for sure!
After I finally read all your journal I see that you are doing the C to 5k. So am I!!! I just started today. Though I could only get 20 minutes in as I had to pick up my chilli-dogs from school.
Felt good though. I am hoping to get back up to the YMCA tonight, maybe I will even start all over from the beginning and then hit the weights.
We'll see. That place gets craaaaazy busy in the evening. Like 50-60 people crawling all over the place. Makes it hard to get around.
Hope you had a great day.
Ciao for now.
Click to expand...

Ya, all in all God is my ROCK! I like to sprinkle His greatness here and there.. like little seeds :)

That is fabulous you are doing the C25K too!!!!!! Ill be encouraging you. I did the week 2 day 2 yesterday. Man!! That 90 second running was killin me at first. I pushed myself though. Ive been running at the gym and Saturday I dropped my car off and did the first day of the 90 second intervals and about died!! Running on concrete is wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy different on your body and I was going at a snails pace. Im about to go find your diary again.. I saw you have a gazillion pages!!! LOL see ya in a few :)

Taste and see that the Lord is good :)
Pslam 34:8
 
I know what you mean about those 90 second intervals!! Whhoooweee!!!
I really was hammering away at them the first few times. Then of course they started to get harder and harder.
We have a track in our fitness center that is curved on a slight hill on the corners. So you get the feeling of really being outside. Every 15 minutes you switch directions that way your not gonna be lop-sided! LOL
Also the track is slighty spongy. So there is no real hard impact to the joints.
The 1st time around I ran 1 1/2 loops (takes 13 to do a mile). So after that no matter how hard it was I aimed to run 1 1/2 even though I was getting way whipped.
Looking forward to giving it a go again.
Thanks for offering up encouragement. I will need it for sure. Cuz' I have always said, the only way I would ever be caught running was if an axe murderer was chasing me or a skunk. And let me tell you I can move pretty fast when pressured. Just ask the skunk!!!! LOL
 
Ive been neglecting my scribblings here the past 2 days.. I had a really down day on Tuesday. Feeling blah blah buscuit!!!! Happy to report that I got over the hump. DAMN AUNT FLOW!!!!!! My neck is almost completely healed! I almost thought that I pinched a nerve instead of just muscle strain. I took Tuesday off from the gym so I wouldnt push it too far and end up in a worse place.

I had started slacking on my journal entrys that I keep myself. When I first started on 3/30 I was very detailed and wrote everything down. As time was progressing it seemed that although I had carefully planned out my meals and knew I was within my alotted calories I wasnt journaling enought and when doing so, it helps me mentally A LOT! So im back on track.. carefully planning out every meal is hard work when you are used to stopping off for fast food when you dont feel like cooking. The weekends are hard.. you get used to eating or grabbing whatever and calling it a day.. I guess it will be something that I will have to gradually have to get used to and before long, it will be effortless. YAY!

Im still working on my Couch to 5k and making progress.. I had a bangin workout last night!! I did my week 3 and had to run for 3 min straight! hhaaha I will probably look back at this and laugh at myself but gooood lawwwd it was challenging. I felt amazing after and so pumped that I finish strong with leg press , standing squats , hamstring curls and seated extensions!! WOOOOT!!!!

Ohhhhh so since AUNT FLOW is here and will be for a minute the scale is irritating me up down up down blah blah blah.. so I busted out the tape measure.. allllllllso since Disciple entered his measurements on my name accidently and I couldnt find my origional paper that I had written them down on. So anyhoot, I got my tape out and was happy to see some progress.. already losing on my waist my hips and chest!!!!! Yipeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! I found the paper that I had written down my origional #'s and it was like a 1.25 in my waist 1 on my chest and 7/8 on my thighs!! Tell me how estatic I was.. my last measurements were on 3/30. So, needless to say.. im stoked!

Im about to get off work now.. head home and do another day of my week 3. More later good people!

Tootles!:waving:
 
Sounds like things are looking up for ya.
Glad to hear that the neck is correcting itself and that you had a great workout!
I really felt like running last night even though it was my day in between. But I figured slow and steady will win this race.
I am a calorie counter myself. Though the weekends are generally my easy days since I work 10 hour shifts at my "real job". LOL
So unless I pack it in I don't eat it. Unless of course I forget and actually take money in with me. Then I have to restrain myself from the dang machines.
Great job on the inches lost!!!!
I have always wanted to measure by inches but I can never seem to get the tape in the right/same spot. So I just go by the scale and how my clothes are fitting.
Well I am outta here.
Have a great weekend!
 
Praise God

Today is Good Friday .. Thank you Lord for sending your son to die on the cross for our sins.


Mark 15:37-39
With a loud cry, Jesus breathed his last.

The curtain of the temple was torn in two from top to bottom. And when the centurion, who stood there in front of Jesus, heard his cry and saw how he died, he said, "Surely this man was the Son of God!"
 
It's so great to see those measurements go down!!

I've lost about 10 pounds, but haven't really seen it on the tape measure yet. (I'm horrible and have never written anything down, and just measure my waist, I'm sure I'm doing it all wrong)

Congratulations on a job well done! Keep it up!
 
Im maintaining pretty good today! I feel completely energized and focused. I hope this lasts thru the weekend.

Breakfast : Organic steel cut oatmeal
Snack : Apple
Lunch: 3/4 cup Brown rice pasta with Marinara & 3 oz of chicken
Snack : Plain yougurt with 1 packet of splenda

I have another apple for on my way home.. trying to stay prepared and its been going pretty well. Im halfway impressed lol!!!

Im stopping today after work to get my daughter some easter sandals to go with her dress and then Ill be headed home. Will try and hit another 3.5 miles on the treadmill today.

Dinner will be salmon with some veggies!
 
Its so funny because I was reading some of my old posts and im like surely things havent been all gravy! I remember earlier this week I was feeling awful and depressed when the pictures were posted!!!! So this is one reason I like journaling.. I can look and reflect back on what was going on with me emotionaly. Here is a lil sometime from my journal.

4/7 Today I feel depressed. Feeling so fat and unorganized.. sad. I feel humiliated and disgusted with myself. Why would I let myself go like this? What happened ?? Self hatred. On another note I will not be defeated and I will not let these emotions grab ahold of me and make me stumble. I will offer my body as a holy sacrifice to God and take care of myself spiritually and physically TODAY.. I can only do today.


WOW.. Im just sitting here reflecting.
 
Disciple said:
big change...i see the slow fade in my posts too....im not where you are though.....not yet
Click to expand...


Funny how emotions roller coaster.. its just making conscious decisions every day.. all day. Obviously we didnt get to where we are today because we said ohh I wanna be overwieght and unhappy.. Its more than just making tangible choice.. if that makes sense. Its about dealing with our emotions and digging deeper to see why we do what we do.
 
hey oprah whats with all the big words lmao.....tangible? isnt that like an orange but not really
 
Last edited:
Disciple said:
hey oprah whats with all the big words lmao.....tangible? isnt that like an orange but not really
Click to expand...

LOL whaaaaaaaaaaaaat.. ohhh tangible. You my friend are a fooooooooooooooolio! hehe. Ya like an orange.. dork.

Hey seriously did anyone see Oprah yesterday.. AWFUL!!!!!!
 
You must log in or register to reply here.
Back
Top