So this is a shameful feeling. I've obviously been away a long time. I need to rectify that. What's been happening, you ask? Well, I stopped giving a damn, which is not the best way to lose weight. In fact, it's a good way to gain it - a lot of it. I have several excuses - more hand surgery, a month-long battle with a cold, some craziness at work. Those are sorta OK reasons for not being able to exercise, but the real issue, as always, has been food.
Had a one-two punch this week, though. The first is that I'm reading a book whose main character is, among other things, a recovering alcoholic. I'm not an alcoholic, but I did recognize similarities to my own relationship with food. This is nothing new, and it's easy to forget because, unlike drinking, everyone needs to eat. And I need to rope my habits in, but I'm not sure how. I'm looking at Overeaters Anonymous, but their adherence to faith doesn't really jibe with my own perception of a higher power. But I do need to do something about it.
The second punch was getting on a scale for the first time in far too long when I went to a health clinic for my cold. What a painful number. I'm reluctant to even type the number, but I will say that same number is used by Airbus to denote the largest passenger aircraft on the market. I suppose the good news there is that I'm not referencing a Boeing.
So... what's my strategy now? Seems like every new strategy gets trounced, so maybe big game plans aren't the answer. I think I need to adopt a simple "One Day at a Time" philosophy. I can't plan to make up for bad days - not yet, anyway - each day has to be a good one. Yesterday was my first one, and I did a pretty good job, and I know I can survive being hungry. I need to remind myself of that constantly.
I also need to envision what I don't like about my current state:
- Out of breath from climbing stairs
- No energy
- Can't really sit in an airplane (I have a business trip in May that I'm looking forward to, but a flight that I'm not)
- My belly is actually hanging below my shirt hem these days.
- Clothes are tight across my chest
- That number on the scale...
- Flimsy arms
- Can't bend over to pick up things?!!
- Reluctant to get onto the floor to play with my kids
- Avoiding visits to the Dr. to get scolded for being too overweight
- Other more personal matters that I won't share here
I'm also needing to get myself moving again. As some of you now, I achieved a good milestone a few years back by rowing in an indoor rowing contest, and actually doing pretty good. That's not a time I'll be able to achieve anytime soon; some day I will, but for now, I just want to start exercising again.
Side note - I do like the new forum's layout.
Looking forward to reading about the well-rested you rocking the exercise in a couple of weeks!
