Little John's trying again. And again. Aaaand again.

Good job on the exercise last night!

Also, I definitely think you should try to make an etsy shop for your tables if that's something you have time to do.
 
Glad you are feeling better LJ! I think talking about it early is key. I tend to feel that I am "being silly" when I first start to feel bad so I hide it and it gets worse. I have tried to be honest when my wife asks me if I am okay. I think that has been a big help for me. Running has done a lot to curb the frequency and intensity of depressed moods and dealing with them early has helped with the duration of those feeling. Sometimes I withdraw to be deep in thought and it isn't a bad thing for me, but on the surface it doesn't look much different than depression so expressing myself to her is important for her peace of mind too.
 
Little John said:
To be honest, the first time I saw "TOM", it was a woman on the forum here talking about TOM visiting. I assumed it was just some a-hole brother-in-law or a stalker the way she was talking about it. I mentioned in a post something along the lines of "can't you just avoid him?" and got a PM from a fellow (male) member clearing it up for me.
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Pretty sure that was me :D

Great tablery by the way!!! I have a broken flat screen which is pretty much good for a boat anchor at this point, but I saw a suggestion that you could make a really cool living room table out of it, and even with sound with a few minor adjustments. You'll have to point me in a direction where I can learn the finer arts of such things.

As for the depression, I really feel ya man. Hell, that's how I got to 375 pounds in the first place. By just being so overwhelmed by it and giving up. But you do reach moments of clarity where it's clear this is not what you want out of your life. It does help me to remember those when inevitably the dark clouds start to form. You may feel helpless sometimes, but you can make a table and great kids so you're not as helpless as you might think. I've done neither of those things (although I may have got drunk one night, blacked out and forgot that I met up with some random woman and we made a coffee table together).

Stick with it, but I also suggest tinkering with various aspects of the plan to try and find something that's going to work better for you. Maybe a scheduled snack right around the time the Wendy's cravings flare up is a way to stop it from happening.
 
Hi LJ,

Your kids are adorable, that table is just perfect for them!

I understand the way that you have been feeling. I have had a very hard time getting back on track too. My stress is mostly work, things there trigger me. I bet some kind of stress or maybe multiple kinds of stress are your triggers and then it just seems like "Screw it...these cookies are good and nothing else is right now!"

Glad the tide has turned! Good luck getting your workout how you want it!
 
Vee, yup, I think it was you. I also think I remember who had the visitor.

Jade and SF, the kids are mostly awesome. Cora has some family-inherited attitude (my side), and Henry is in super love bug mode right now. But they get along great and are generally just happy kids.

I haven't been around much, I need to fix that. I've been OK on the food front, really good on the exercise front. I really, really like the workout regime I have now, I can get through the lifting quickly and effectively and still feel like I've done something.

Food-wise, not much has changed, for better or worse. I did restart making my frozen meals so I'm going to try that for a couple weeks and see how they do for appetite control later in the day. Some chicken or black beans, multi-grain rice, veggies and various sauces, I think it's around 400-500 calories, depending on the sauce choice.

I promise I'll get to the other diaries today!
 
When I'm away it generally means I'm doing crappy. I'm glad to hear that's not the case with you. Glad to see you back. The frozen meals sound like a great idea. We've done that in the past. I need to do it again to make the weeks less hectic and the diet more consistent.
 
I wish I could be like you and some others on this board that post about working out,and loving it, and how it's so great. Nope. not me. Laziest person eva!!
Having frozen meals portioned out is great! Very helpful to have for sure!
 
Q, I'm usually doing crappy when I'm away, too. I wasn't the best food-wise, as usual, but just actually busy again at work, so my distraction times are less frequent.

Mystic, I'm lazy, too, but once I hit that two-week mark, it becomes difficult for me to skip too many workouts. Maybe not laziness, maybe I like a routine!

I was doing the cans of soup thing for awhile, but there's only so many times someone can have minestrone before the cafeteria's offerings become overwhelmingly tempting (and they do actually make pretty good food). Couple days into frozen foods, and no complaints. I did a pseudo rice-n-beans (vegetarian) that came out much better than I expected. Tuesday was chicken and rice with veggies, topped with soy sauce and ginger. I think today's delight is BBQ sauce.

Good row last night, too - 2x 22.5min at a decent pace that was pretty even through the entire thing, and my ankle is straightening out so my foot wasn't quite so ouchy.

Future news. Going to Puerto Rico on business in a few weeks. Which generally means too much food, especially since breakfast and dinner are usually buffet-style. And dinner usually includes more than one beverage of the tropical kind. Added bonus: PR food is usually not the healthiest, which is why it's so tasty. I'll need to focus on daily goals and really force myself to them, such as getting to the fitness center and/or going for a long walk every day. Limiting myself to one adult beverage every night but one. Limiting the breakfast meats, no matter how tasty the sausage looks. Recognizing that a churasco a day doesn't keep the healthy away.

I'll ponder on it....
 
I keep reading that people can't rely on motivation to get themselves to exercise, they need to rely on habits. So good for you for making exercise a habit!

Tropical adult beverages.... Yum. But so awful for us. Sounds like you've been to Puerto Rico a time or two before?
 
Good luck on managing things in PR! Hopefully you have good exercise opportunities to mitigate a little overindulgence. I had a bad habit of treating out of town for work as if I was on vacation as far as diet and exercise were concerned. I finally kicked that habit and now I try to use it more like fat camp than vacation. I say maintain, enjoy, and keep up the exercise for a trip to somewhere nice. I'd be running on the beach. Maybe rent a rowboat and put those rowing workouts to direct use?
 
Oaks, I've been to PR a few times for business, and it's nice that our preferred hotel is a resort.

Q, I'm on the same boat - too many new foods and local favorites to want to have salad. Beach isn't really ideal for running - very sloped with loose sand. Good for walking, though, and the fitness center has enough to keep me busy for a few days.

Yesterday started off pretty good, but then plummeted. I had my biometric screening for an insurance carrot-dangle, and all my numbers were good except weight. I don't mean better-than-expected, I mean GOOD. Cholesterol was 191, HR was 60 bpm, BP was... I don't recall but the nurse was impressed. OK, my HDL was a little low, but I'm adding more whole grains to my diet.

But then the bad... Lice in the Little household meant that my exercise was 4 hours of running laundry and bagging non-washables, followed by shampoo and nit-picking. Son had nothing, daughter had some, wife (thick curly hair) had lots. Hard to be patient and methodical after a day of that and all you want to do is sleep in your non-furnished bed. So rather than managing stress by exercise (not that that was an option), I ate too much Chinese food - Beef in garlic sauce. Should have ordered veggie mu shu, but then again, better than getting General Tso's, I suppose.

Hopefully some chaos has been resolved and I can make up for the lack of exercise and good judgment this weekend.
 
Yay for the good health, boo for the lice! I've only dealt with them on dogs in my job, sure wouldn't want it in my house! Hope you got it under control! It sounds like a PITA!
 
Oh man, what a way to spend the day :( Hopefully that's a one time thing and you won't ever have to deal with that again!
 
....and again. No changes in weight for the last month. Not happy about this. I keep finding excuses to avoid doing the right thing. The fact that it's February isn't helping much, either, can't really get outside without freezing or stepping in slush, but I do plan on replacing a row day with a hike day - just stop on the way home from work and hoof out an hour's worth. Maybe I need to replace certain workouts in the winter with snow removal and sledding (sure going downhill is easy enough, but it's a tough climb).

Anyway, lice are gone. My scalp itches just thinking about it.

I do like the workout plan I have going now, I tweaked the schedule a little bit to switch pushups from Thursday to Tuesday, and vice versa for dumbbell bench presses. The reason: I keep hitting the barbell on my rack with the dumbbells, and the barbell's there for militaries.

And again... Bloody bedtime snacking. I'm good about fighting afternoon cravings, and usually manage a reasonable snack when I get home. Dinner is around 5:30 or 6 and is generally healthy - maybe more carb-loaded than I'd like, but when it's pasta, I ask for less pasta, more sauce. It's that damnable post-TV need to nosh. It seems so trivial and easy to work around when I read what I've typed out, but I just get pulled like a bad dog into the kitchen when I should be going to bed.
 
You have an adjustable rack? Hitting the barbell with the dumbbells really throws out your concentration. Ever consider doing military press dumbbells as well?
 
Yup, I started with DB militaries, but they got heavy enough that I needed the barbell to be on a rack. Not a big deal to switch push-ups with bench press.


February resolutions are a thing, right?
 
Maybe try to leave yourself calories for a nice lower calorie snack. And give yourself a cut off time to eat it by. I tell myself I must finish eating by 9pm. For some reason, having that cut off time is helpful to making my brain think that I'm done.
 
Mystic, you're right, I need to force myself to a cutoff time, or at least a cutoff milestone (e.g. if I exercise after the kids are in bed, no snacking after the workout).

So far, my Feb resolutions seem to be holding steady. I've been averaging below goal this week, and really happy with the workouts - putting a goal speed on the rowing helps big time to making it a satisfying workout, and tracking whether or not my lifts are easy or hard to more objectively track whether I can bump up the weights or not.

One week ain't much, but it's a start. Next week is Puerto Rico: lots of seafood, light on the beverages most nights, breakfast buffet to make smart choices, dinner buffet to load with vegetables. And get to the fitness center!
 
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